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That’s exactly what was pointing out. You didn’t get what I was trying to explain, read it again ?. In fact there is nothing but the void, it just appears as something else. The void = the self= nothingness=consciousness =magic But still all these words are very limited. I used to think that the void is something to experience as though it’s somehow outside of my experience. It’s not.

Exactly. My experience is the only experience and that is the ultimate truth.

This is false. You've never experienced solipsism and you have no clue what you're talking about. Your mind is filled with ideas and believes. Your assumption that solipsism has something to do with ego is false as well. Solipsism threatens survival and therefore ego's existence. Ego can function and exist only outside of solipsism. This is not solipsism. I see the same on shrooms. Do 5MeO and than you might get what solipsism is. But....you just a fragment of my imagination : )

I have to imagine things, that's my nature

Why not? I need to entertain myself somehow I'm kind'a enjoying arguing with myself, it makes my dream more solid

Well, it depends on how you define existence haha I'm neither dead nor am I alive, I just Am. Pure Magic.

False. First, There is no such a thing as "we". I'm imagining you right now, you are me, my imagination. Nobody actually is talking because I have invented speech and language. Language is dualistic by its nature. Second, There is nothing but the Truth. Even when it appears as falsehood. Truth is constant and can't be changed.

There was I, standing outside waiting for a green light to cross the street. I was nothing even though my appearance was something, I could feel my warm hand as hot tea that I had in my hand. At that time I really really realized what I actually Am. I'm magic nothing that can creates somehow whatever it desires. I'm the shape shifter. I never knew that the truth is such an amazing and joyful thing. It's a pure bliss to be God and it's going to be forever, no matter what. So here I am now in a form of a human imagining other humans Haha

You're not getting it guys. There is no experience outside of my experience. You exist only as words on this forum, nothing more. None of you did 5MeoDMT and none of you had awakenings. I need to doubt myself and listen to "others" in form of teachers, gurus, philosophers, scientist and bla-bla-blah. The only function of others is to fool myself. That's what I've verified in my direct experience. The only source of the Truth is my experience, nothing more. What a juicy dream I'm dreaming

Since I realized that I'm God and I'm not gonna die I decided to spend eternity on awakening deeper and deeper. Is it possible to reach the most ultimate awakening at some point? Can I get to the point where I transform space and time, humanity and planets? Will I be able to create new planets with different physical laws and other things?

All my life I've been living life without any specific purpose, but for the last few years I've been trying to figure it out. Things got more complicated after my breakthrough on 5Meo when I realized that I'm God and everything is my reflection. Knowing this and having a life purpose is quite challenging, because there is no meaning in anything. Nevertheless, I found my life purpose for next 10 -15 years. I want to become a full-time traveler and live on each continent for at least a year. Traveling from country to country, not staying in one city for more than 7 days. I want to make YouTube videos about travelling and exploration. Also I'm working on ultimate book about God. I want to share with people what God really is. The problem is I'm already 25 and I'm stuck in the wage slavery. Do you think it's possible to escape wage slavery in 5 years??

Yes, I would be happy to make even $5000 a month without needing to work 9 to 5. Just to be my own boss. I don't value money that much, I value personal freedom

Psychedelics have been changing my life dramatically. When I started doing them I didn't know what I was about to understand. After my first trips on shrooms I realized my true motivation at work, so I left it the next day. Everybody was shocked and so was I. But that was one of the best decisions I've ever made. They also help me a lot to deal with my psychological issues and relationships with my family. 5MeoDMT finally woke me up from the illusion, nevertheless, God still wants to play the game.

Well, I haven't tried 5MeoMalt, but same happens when I do 5MeoDMT. I remember walking around the city while smoking 5MeoDMT. I stopped for a bit and made a big puff - than I closed my eyes and ended up having a breakthrough experience. When I opened them, I saw a guy, he was trying to give me a brochure about Jesus. He asked if I believed in God and I told him that I'm the actual God. You should've seen his face

She was married and I couldn't accept it

It's kind of the same creation. I wonder whether it's possible for me to create a totally new game where I can be some sort of a being with new abilities and senses in a completely new world with it's magical laws. But every time when I wake up I still go back to this particular game/dream as though it's my favorite

hmmm maybe I should mix it with 5Meo to make it superb

Doesn't it contain caffeine?

I eat: 1. Brown and red rice, red lentil, buckwheat, oatmeal, pasta (sometimes) 2. Organic chicken, salmon, shrimps 3. Fruits: bananas, blueberries, apples, mangos. 4. Vegetables: spinach, tomatoes, avocados, garlic. 5. Nuts. Am I missing out on something really really good?

- "How do you prepare for a date?" - "I eat pineapples."

If it’s because of diet it all makes sense. The girlfriend whose pussy I licked was smoking a lot, drinking alcohol and eating unhealthy food. Maybe it depends on the age as well. Probably the older the women the worse the taste of her pussy

Thanks for such a detailed response!

I don’t know where I came from because I have always been here. Coming from somewhere creates more questions and so on. I’m just playing my game and that’s it. That simple

1. You've unconsciously developed a victim identity and you need to get rid of it. The best method that helped me personally - psychedelics. But find a good psychotherapist as well. 2. You're problem is that since you haven't been in relationships with girls you idealize them. Relax, take it easy and work through your problems and traumas. It's a long-term process but it worth it. Don't listen to fools who tell you that the solution to your problem is women - it's a huge mistake. You need to have fun with girls, but making them a priority in life will create more pain for you.

There is nothing to be ashamed of. Feeling of shame itself is very toxic and unspiritual