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I also like playfulness and fun as well. It's not like I want to talk about some deep shit always. But if she can't talk about some serious topics then she's not my cup of tee

You're stressing too much on intercourse. if it's that important for you it's great. For me it's also important, but what I seek is not sex. I seek intimacy and intellectual connection. if I have intellectual connection then of course I want sex. I'm having troubles getting high-quality girls, but I don't give a damn about one-night stands with bubbly chicks in clubs. Again, nothing wrong with them and a lot of men like these type of women. My standards are different.

haha that was my starting point. Now I smoke a lot or do edibles

It's actually healthy to be able to go into deep topics right off the bet. Neurotic people avoid deep conversations because they are afraid to open. Women's intelligence for me is defined not by ability to talk about Nietsche, but rather her preferred topics and the way of seeing things. If all she talks is fashion, movies, trends, clothes, parties, Instagram etc. she's not intelligent for me.

Weed definitely isn't my friend. I've developed addiction because I smoke weed couple times a week for the last year.

Sex is important for me, but if a girl can't hold a serious conversation she loses her attractiveness and value for me. Well, I didn't say that. There are many girls who can be way more deeper in topics then me, but it's rather uncommon.

I also use psychedelics to deal with personal issues and traumas. I've been uncovering a lot of bullshit in my psyche for the last few months and I still need to go a long way. In order to attract a high quality women in my life, I think I need to be also a high quality. For that I need to do a lot of things, but I'm just 25 and I have time.

I live in Toronto and some strangers in downtown offer me LSD sometimes. I work in a hotel and we have a restaurant in the same building. Restaurant's staff do cocaine and smoke weed. Also we have 2 shroom shops opened in downtown. You can easily buy them. DMT has been decriminalized in BC. 5MeO-DMT isn't even on the list of controlled substances. So yeah, Canada.

yo man, it's soooo cute

I'm really happy for you my friend. Where did you meet her? I guess that's the reason why I can't find a high-value girl in a night club. Mot of the girls there just get drunk and dance. I should change gaming area or expend it to more than just clubs.

Bro, I think exactly the same. But I hope that there are plenty of good looking girls who are able to talk about something serious. I just need to approach a thousand women to verify my assumption.

Porn is another problem that I've been trying to tackle. Now it's not a big deal because I watch it a few times a week. When I was in my teenage years I would prefer to jerk off on porn and play videogames instead of going out and socializing. Now I'm paying the price for it. I just didn't feel like. You got me my friend. It's 100% truth.

Yeah, they just live like sheep. Most of the people around me are stage orange, blue and rarely green. I need Yellows

I like to have deep conversations with people in general. Even with strangers. The problem is most of people I meet don't like to talk about serious things. They like to talk about weather, movies, tv-shows, music, news, and other chicken-shit. There's nothing wrong with these topics, but I personally not interested in them. Especially it's hard for me to find a girl with brains and with cute appearance. Most of the time it's one or the other.

I feel like I desperately need a feminine energy, especially for the last few months. I kept my load, because my integrity is a higher priority for me (not always though). Working as a prostitute for a psychological research sounds fun

For me it's an ability to have a conversation about some deep topics and being healthy (also psychologically) and fit.

She was puzzled. She said - "Are you sure?" and I said "Yes, I want to keep talking to you."

There's one thing which makes me very unhappy - my mind. I've been achieving my goals and dreams but my mind doesn't seem to be satisfied. It always wants more and more. Moreover, usually it's very negative and judges me for not being perfect. For example: 1. Eating habits. I'm trying to eat healthy and 90% of the time I eat organic food and no fast food, but sometimes (once a week) I eat some pizza and afterwards I feel guilty and I tell myself that I will never be healthy if I continue doing this. 2. Women. I used to go to clubs but couldn't approach women and my mind was telling me that I would never be able to approach. Since I started approaching my mind is telling me that my approaches are lame and I won't ever be good at game. 3. Career and life. I used to live in a small city in Ukraine and couldn't even speak English, I couldn't even dream about moving to a developed country because my mind was telling me that I was a looser. I've recently moved to Canada and found a decent job, but my mind is telling me that it's still bullshit because I'm not financially independent. Basically, my mind diminishes all my achievements and always criticizes me. I feel good only when I do what I've planed, but when I don't do even a small thing my mind comes back attacking me. How do I deal with it?

Lately I started experiencing with mixing different substances. My first mix wasn't pleasant at all, I had a really bad trip on magic truffles + weed in Amsterdam. I decided not to mix anything fearing to have a bad trip again. Around a month ago I did Shrooms with LSD and didn't like my experience either because I could barely understand what was going on when I was tripping and no memories afterwards. Last week I did LSD 125mg + weed 15mg THC. I liked this combination because: - Experience was way more mystical comparing to doing just LSD - Visual hallucinations were more detailed and more vivid - Thinking was sharper - The entire duration of the trip and its peak were prolonged. My plans to do the following mix: 1. 5MeoDMT + N-N-DMT 2. 5MeoDMT + Shrooms 3. 5MeoDMT + Weed 4. 5MeoDMT + Mescaline Please share your experience with mixing psychedelics

When I was a kid I was a very shy, unconfident child. In my teenage years I wasn't socializing at all, I was playing videogames instead and watching a lot of porn. In my university years I was socializing, but I had a few relationships. I never really was on a date though. Now I'm 25 and I have a 9-5 job and I work from Friday till Tuesday, so it also makes socialization process harder. I can easily talk to guys, but when it comes to women I feel very insecure. I have a strong believe that no beautiful girl would like my authentic self. Deep inside I have a feeling that I'm a weirdo and I won't be able to keep a girl I like. I tried to approach like 20 women, but it wasn't successful and was extremely weird. For the last few weeks I've been feeling very lonely and like a victim. I've been listening to love songs and I've been watching a lot of romantic movies, dreaming about a girlfriend. I crave kisses, hugs, deep conversations and of course sex. Every time when I see a happy couple I feel jealous and bitter, but I'm trying to lie to myself that I don't feel these emotions or I "don't care". I work in a hotel and we have a restaurant in the same building. Few weeks ago a new cute waitress started working there and I find her very attractive, but I'm afraid and insecure to talk to here. I think she's too good for me. My mind uses a lot of thoughts against me such as: "She's too good for you, she probably wouldn't like you", "She already has too much attention from other guys, so yours wouldn't be noticed" "She must be in relationships with somebody for sure" Also my mind questions my masculinity and self-worth by producing these thoughts: "You're not a man, because you can't talk to women" "You'll never be successful with women" "You're a week person" ..... When I have these thoughts I feel like crying. They make me feel depressed, anxious, unhappy and even suicidal.

Man, I like it so fucking much. When I walk around on 5MeoDMT I feel everybody as my own reflection, every peace of reality. Tripping outside is very different to tripping in your room. But it also dangerous as well. I don't recommend tripping outside if you're a newbie. For me - I take all responsibility. For now tripping outside worth the risks and the danger, at least for me.

It's funny how I give all my creation my God's authority, especially to Leo. I won't, from now on. Let' me tell you (myself) what I actually Am. First, I don't like word consciousness anymore, because it doesn't represent what I really am. Word consciousness same as word God have been corrupted and misused. Second, there's no second. I'm pure Magic and my true form is no form. My true form is Magic. I'm made from Magic and everything is Magic, because there's nothing but me. About solipsism. Solipsism is true, nobody has consciousness, only me. This is the fact and nobody can disprove it, because I'm God. 5MeODmt is a magic pill that I created for myself. By the way, Leo in your solipsism video you said that I want to be awake - you were wrong, I don't. All spirituality is corrupted. Meditation is bulshit, yoga is horseshit, reatears are chikenshit. All existing teachings are corrupted, even Leo's. If you try to put Magic into words - it's corruption right away. It doesn't matter how close the words are to the actual truth. The truth can not be taught or explained, only experienced. What is the best feature of Magic? The best feature is to put myself (my God self) to sleep. What God wants? God wants to live as a human form. But it also wants to wake up from time to time, exploring it's infinite potential. Is it possible to be Awake constantly? It's impossible, God loves picks/ high states of consciousness, but only for a while. Its favourite state of consciousness is a default, human state. This post is a corruption, Magic - isn't.

It blows my mind the way I see every detail of everything around me. I was walking in the park when this kind of a dog approached me. I was shocked with the beauty of my creation. As I was petting him I could see every piece of his fur. I was zooming into it forever

That's my favorite feature of consciousness. I can't imagine how would I Be without this ability.

100%. I was on my knees, crying when I realized that I can be the form again and experience life