Vlad_

So here's a thing. I licked pussy only once in my life, but it was rather horrible experience because I didn't like the taste (she took as shower and was clean). Ever since I haven't done it and afraid of trying it again. My question is: does every pussy taste the same? Please share your experience

Asking questions on this forum is just a waste of time, because none of you guys are awake. I’m just playing tricks with myself again, thinking that there’s somebody who’s more awake hahahahah I caught myself again

I can't accept the truth from the form's perspective, my ego is scared to death haha Yes, I'm very ambivalent about spirituality, but I remember those moments when I was fully awake. It was pure bliss, peace, love, silence.

Well you’re answering from the absolute perspective. I answered from materialistic perspective because as long as he hasn’t woken up he won’t be able to grasp it

You’re God damn right! But the destruction of your life is the price to become Me

I need it only in this state of consciousness when I’m Ego

My experience is different to yours. In my trips all I see around me is myself, but there’s still the difference between what I see and what I actually am. I’m the source of my reflection. Do you understand me? Everybody and everything is me, but those “me’s” are not the source, I am their source. I can’t accept this responsibility

My experience is different to yours. In my trips all I see around me is myself, but there’s still the difference between what I see and what I actually am. I’m the source of my reflection. Do you understand me? Everybody and everything is me, but those “me’s” are not the source, I am the source of “them”. I don’t do LSD, only shrooms and 5Meo

I don't believe that I'm the only consciousness because I'm everything and everyone. My question is do other "Me's" have self-awareness or not. I love your comparison with the ocean

Hahah I know what you mean (I'm Ukrainian) Move to Canada, 5Meo isn't illegal here

Everyone is God's consciousness from my experience, but no one is self-aware (you know what I mean?). Lately I started tripping outside and talking to people. When I talk to them in that state I'm so fucking conscious that I know I'm imagining people I talk to and what they say! Can you believe that??

I took this idea at the beginning of my journey. First few years I was just meditating and reading books about spirituality and only then I started doing psychedelics. Apparently it's dump to think that just by simply doing psychedelics you can get anywhere : ) Vlad is enjoying the life as well. He goes to work, he goes to gym, he's socializing and talking to girls. But one day of the week God is exploring itself :))) That's my style and I like it so far hahah. I tried other practices and they are not as sufficient as psychedelics. If you wanted to go to Russia would you fly there or would tried walking? I guess the answer is obvious unless you're afraid of flying :_)

Actually I'm very ambivalent about it, but I won't ever be sure for 100%, because my Ego is preventing me from going deeper. It gets in the way. But I'm fine with it. Something within me wants to explore more and more, regardless of my fear or resistance. I've been following this feeling from the beginning and I will continue following it.

That's actually my current assumption. I think there is no end, but what if this assumption is false as well? We'll see Also I found something that Leo for example didn't talk about. I can actually control the depth of my awakenings on psychedelics. It's something that I recently discovered. I used to think that it was impossible. Now I don't think I know what is possible or impossible

Trying to put all attention on life is a trap. You will always have things to deal with and problems. I'm not saying that now I need to give up on life, because it's also stupid and will eventually backfire me. It's all about the balance and priorities. For now my priority is understanding what I am.

I like this video and it has some deep truth in it. I guess when I just started doing spirituality I had a lot of assumptions about what it is. It turned out to be not that at all. I used to think that I knew what is awakening. I was so fucking wrong. Maybe I'm still wrong. The more I awaken the more I understand and paradoxically the more I don't understand I hope at some point I will be able to awaken completely, transforming material world once and forever.

My experiences on psychedelics showed that they are the best method in understanding God. Meditations, retreats and other things are good for calming mind and experiencing "the stillness", but you can't use them to understand God on deeper levels. About grounding I'm doing pretty much fine. I can talk to people from material paradigm and go to work and other human things. But I won't calm down unless I get rid off all my hesitations regarding the validity of my awakenings. Once I really know if I'm God or not only then I'll relax and do some human shit. Or maybe not. If I'm really God then I'll spend the rest of infinity exploring my consciousness and my nature deeper and deeper. For eternity.

If I follow your advice I would postpone getting the answer, which doesn't make any sense for me. I can't sort out "my life" because I don't even know what is "my" and what is "life". If I'm really God it's going to change my life-style completely.

For you in order to identify yourself as something you need to have self-awareness. During my trips I know that nobody has it. Basically all your identities are being imagined by me

I would rather be a stupid monkey that became a human after years of evolution. I want others to be real and to have their own consciousness. I can't stand the idea that while I'm writing this there's nobody who is actually responding

So you claim that you have self-awareness ?

I don't really care about interpretations, I want to know the Truth Are you a human or words or on the forum? How can I possibly get the answer here?

Yeah I know that I'm you. The question is whether you exists as a human being somewhere on earth that is sitting and typing these things to me? Or you exist only as the message on the forum?

Why my need for certainty is holding me back? From what? Taking a break from psychedelics isn't the option right now. Once I verify that I'm God at least 100 times or I have at least one trip that disproves that I'm the only conscious being on earth then I'll take my break. Stakes are now too high for a break.

Because he didn't do 5Meo