Vlad_

Good evening guys. Couple months ago I realized that I had serious problems with sugar. I couldn't live without deserts, chocolate, ice cream etc. even for one day, so I stopped eating it. I hadn't eaten anything that contained sugar for 40 days, but couple weeks ago I had a huge ego-backlash. Now I'm eating more chocolate and ice cream than I used to, I just can't help myself. Do you know how to deal with this problem? Could you give me some practical advice?

Fruits and honey makes my cravings even harder. I tried to eat less sugar products, but it didn't work, I couldn't help eating more and more. I think I just need to go through it, whatever it takes

Yeah bro I tried Dark chocolate, but now I have no option to buy it (I'm in a ship in the middle of the ocean).

Bro, I couldn't sleep only for one day, because I had some kind of voices in my head, so I thought I had lost my mind. One day you enter the God mod, but the day after you start worrying about female's pussy. It's so weird.

There's no difference between hallucination and real life. Only this thing can freak you out, so you should be ready for that. You'd better learn more about Non-Duality and psychedelics before using them:)

Recently I had a death experience. Now I'm going through the ego backlash. I'm barely meditatating even for 15 minutes, my cravings for sugar, sex and masturbating have increased dramatically. How to deal with it? Just try to be aware of it. Unfortunately society, your friends, family etc will make it more difficult to do.

Hello guys! Couple month ago I had a few profound awakenings. I died and entered the God mode. Now I'm sleeping again and hardly remember anything from that awakenings. The problem is I still don't know the difference between me as God and me as an Ego. What is the difference between them? Is God sleeping right now and ego is awake?

"...open myself to new love". I think you misunderstand what love really is. If you want to open yourself to the Truth Love you need to get rid off your love addiction. I used to have that problem to. I tried a lot of psychological techniques, I'd been visiting psychologist. Nothing helped me. Only when I tried psychedelics I realized the route cause of my problem. I become conscious of Love. If you want to heal yourself, you need the Love, but don't try do understand this mentally. Direct experience is necessity here. That guy is a part of your ego. You identified yourself with him.

Yesterday I ate 5 grams of dried mushrooms. I didn't eat so much mushrooms before. It was my 13th trip, but I had new profound insights! After about 45 minutes my body started trembling, i was feeling fever and cold at the same time. Couple minutes later I stopped feeling my body at all. It was so scary and i realized I was dying. At the fist time I tried to struggle with it, than I just let go all of my resistance. Something happened and there was no fear, only love, but not a human love it was something indescribable, powerful , Good, amazing. I was crying, I didn't expect Love to be that way. I'd thought that I knew what is Love, but I was wrong. You can't describe it, you can't explain it, but you can FEEL IT. I got up and left my room. In another room my friend was tripping too I told him about my death and about Love. He was crying too, he understood what i was telling him. Than something happened. I can't tell exactly what, but it was feeling like I woke up from a very deep sleep, but it wasn't really me. It was God. I was in the God mode. I realized that i had been sleeping all my life, but at the same time I wasn't even born. My ego (Vlad) and his personal story was only Imagination. My parents, friends, other people never existed. I was never born, i didn't go to school, I didn't go to college. I imagined that. Imagination="Rea"l life. There is only Me (The Self) who is "exist". There is no past there is no future, only here and now. My country (Ukraine) doesn't exist as well as the other countries. Everything is imagination. It imagining itself through different forms. It (the true self) is formless and nothing. It can't be understood or told. It's only possible to become directly conscious of it. I was feeling Samadhi there was no difference between me and the empty bottle of water laying on the floor. Only Me. The self. We are one. Anything is everything, nothing is something and vice versa. Leo (who doesn't exist) whom I've been watching so long was right. I verified a lot he said. I told myself how to woke up. I AM writing this and I AM reading this. At the same time this post was never written and was never read. I love you, because you=I. I knew when the trip is over I'll be asleep again. Now I'm sleeping.

Hello guys! Couple days ago I did some mushrooms and something new happened in the trip. I really wanted to understand what am I and who am I, but I already knew I'm not this human body, it's just a form. Still I hadn't realized my truth form, so I closed my eyes and asked those questions again. I saw something. It was formless, made of nothing and dark, but alive. For a moment i was afraid of that, but than I realized it was my truth form, I just knew it. Could you tell me was it really my truth form (The Self, God) or I just deluded myself?

Hello guys! I'd like to know which techniques or psychedelics should I use to discover and experience my previous life? Have you ever done that? I'm so curious!

Kherson, Ukraine

Hey guys! Yesterday I've done Mashrooms for the first time in my entire life and that was amazing!. I've taken 4 grams of dried mashrooms with apple juice. I started to feel the effect after 40 minutes. I was walking on a street and everything was so real and alive! It seemed like trees were breathing, I didn't feel my legs! I was so emotional! I felt happiness, excitement, sadness, sorrow, love and some other emotions at the same time! Girls semed so hot, so I couldn't help starring at them. I was smiling without any reason. Suddenly, I realized that I've been lying to myself my whole life! It was so painful to realize that. I wanted to die, because all my life seemed mean and pitty. I realized I don't like my job at all, because it hurts me and other people. I become so aware of how societie works. It's all about lying and deceptions. People are good, but some them seem bad because they don't know how to live a really good life and what happiness really is. Life is not about getting money, success,power, sex. This kind of life leads to sadness. The only one thing that I know is I don't know anything at all. I was bulshitting myself and everyone around me bulshited me. That was a bitter pillow to swallow. Truth is painful. Today I told my boss that I want to leave my job. There are a lot of questions which need to be answered. Sorry for the grammar mistakes, I'm Ukrainian and English not my native language. Love you, guys.

@JosephKnecht I've been thinking about leaving my job for almost a year, so it´s not a rush decision. I just was afraid to do that, because I will have to go to the army for two years when I leave the job. Did you mean the death of my Ego?

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