Vlad_

Last week I did 5 days of Dopamine Detox: - no internet - no electronic devices - no porn, sex or masturbation - no music, movies, games or tv - no fast food, no sugar - no weed, drugs or psychedelics What I experienced? - severe withdraw and cravings during the first few days - increased happiness and joy - reduced anxiety - improved social skills and boost in confidence - improved thinking Also I've noticed how fucked up most of the people are. We've become like rats chasing one pleasure after another. 90% of the people while on public transport are using their phones, listening to music or playing games. Same shit at shopping malls, cafes, restaurants and night clubs. When 5 days were gone I went trough a few days of ego-backlash that included using my phone for 5 hours, watching porn, smoking weed and eating unhealthy food. I guess if we continue chasing pleasure without a proper balance as we are doing right now, we are going to have more problems with psychological health, reward system, depression etc. Most of us have no clue how addicted we are, it has become normal. Especially here, in the West.

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Well, for that you would need someone else who has self-awareness. People on these forum exist only as words. There’s nobody with schizophrenia in my direct experience

I’ve done shrooms more than 50 times by now, ranging 3 to 7 grams per trip. It’s quite interesting that I have never seen any beings, gods or entities. It’s always been me, God. What is Climax of Buddhahood ??

To be constantly awaken in the god mode and to lose my ability to imagine life

I'm God but my ego can't control the game. All the questions that you asked reflect a depth of your spiritual development, go deeper.

I would like to share with you guys my story of misusing psychedelics. I arrived in Canada last September and within first few weeks I ordered some mushrooms. I did them around 20 times in 2018-2021 so after a few years of break I decided to start over. When the shrooms arrived, I did 3 grams and have a good trip but not a profound one. I wanted to get deeper and I made a decision to try this mysterious psychedelic called "DMT". I ordered a DMT. When it arrived, I was so afraid to vape, my hands were shaking. I read a lot of trip reports where people would see some beings on DMT or visiting another galactic and experiencing other dimensions or worlds. Nevertheless, I managed to overcome fear. I smoked some DMT and the trip were weird. I would experience ego-death, but I didn't see any beings. I didn't go anywhere either. It was the same present experience, but I was conscious that I'm God. This God realization wasn't really full and I still have a lot of questions. I started doing DMT every week multiple times. Experiences were very quick and I still couldn't grasp them. Which is why after a few months I ordered 5MeO-DMT. When it arrived, I smoked 40 grams of it the first night. I had the most shocking experience and my first absolute awakening. I realized that I'm the only conscious being, this mysterious thing that dreams up a variety of infinite stories in order to convince itself that it's not god and it's not everything that exists out there. This experience shook me to my core. It was the most radical and the most profound experience in my entire life. The next day I couldn't believe in what happened. On the other hand, ego reacted as well. I went for a cycle of ego backlashes involving smoking a lot of weed, eating fast food and deserts, playing videogames and jerking off on porn. Also, I wanted to convince myself that all the experience was just some hallucinations and it just can't be truth. In order to prove it to myself I started doing 5MeO every Saturday. Unfortunately, the result was the same. Over and over. Basically, every Saturday I would freak out because of 5MeO and every Sunday I would go trough ego backlash. On the weekdays I needed to do my 9/5 job, but even there I was thinking about the truth. Months were passing by as I was going deeper and deeper. Few weeks ago, I suddenly realized that If I continue doing what I'm doing I'll either loose my mind or commit suicide. Also, I didn't work on my life at all. Everything was on autopilot and all my attention was concentrated on the trips. All of it made me made a decision. I decided to stop doing psychedelics at all until I'm 30 (I'm just 26 now). I want to forget about the truth. I need to concentrate on my life because I've been neglecting it. I haven't been doing psychedelics since the end of April. Nevertheless, today I had this crazy experience at night. I was about to fall asleep but suddenly I became infinite for a few moments. I was terrified by this experience. Any ideas about how to forget that I'm God??? I want my dream back. I want to forget the truth.

Every time when I do 5MeoDMT I become so fucking horny and I don't know why. For some reasons I'm seeing girls in my mind, imagining sex with them. Also I'm very concentrated on tits, I'm zooming into nipples forever. I also think that there is one reason why I'm creating women - to love (fuck) them as much as I can. Is it a valid conclusion? Have you ever experienced the same on 5Meo?

You have hijacked your reward system. You need to watch less porn. I don't think you really value your girlfriend, if she's 7 and you want to fuck 10 go approach girls for a few years and then you'll be able to do it easily. But see the problem here is you don't have enough integrity to tell her about the porn star. Moreover, you don't want to lose her because she's the only available option for you at the moment. Would you be happy if she started watching some hot dudes on webcams ? I highly doubt it. Work on your integrity and don't try to be someone who you're not.

I reached levels of God so deep and so profound that there was no ego. I was God for eternity outside of space and time. I was complete, peaceful and fearless. I transcendent all survival and there was nothing else to do. Only to be. I was "being" forever, basking in the infinite love. and then I decided to go back and enjoy the illusion. The truth isn't going anywhere, I just really love games As long as I enjoy this drama and the illusion I will keep playing roles and I will keep making stories and construct realities. Funny thing is that I don't think it will ever change. I'm gonna be playing hide and seek with myself forever. That's what I've been doing so far.

Paradoxically God doesn't want to be God, it wants to be this form. Normal life has no meaning if you smoke 5MeO. You can't concentrate on survival at all, it loses all the purpose. Once I have my survival settled, I’ll be doing psychedelics all the time. Probably when I’m 40 or 50. Even if I lose my mind, it’s still worth it.

Oh yeah, I wish I had known that spirituality is a real thing

Exactly. That's the reason why I want to stop, at least until I'm 40. I got to the point where nobody can convince me that I'm not God.

You're 100% correct. It has to be balanced.

Bro I feel envy, it's been a while since I eat someone All this God stuff such a distraction

I liked vaping 5Meo in public places. Usually everything stays the same. I didn't see any patterns or loops or whatever. It was just me. Everywhere was me and me looking at me. I was also able to zoom in into infinity when I was looking at anything. I didn't feel my body anymore but I could see it. It was as though I felt another body underneath my skin, but that body was nothing that was appearing as my human body. That nothing is what I really Am.

That's the plan

You're lucky that she doesn't taste like fish

I love you man

I used to have experiences like you before, but 5MeO changed them dramatically. Now even when I do fucking shrooms I become infinite. No jokes.

You're a fucking idiot God, I hate all these damn games that you play on yourself. But I still love you

Not being in the absolute mod 24/7. Psychedelics sent me to the states impossible to communicate where I was so peaceful, happy and one with all my creation. There was no fear at all. But when the trip is over you're back to your patty human existence with all you fucking human problems. Funny enough, I remember during one big break-trough I was on my knees begging myself to go back to the form life. I don't really understand what's going on. I'm pretty sure that there's only one way to be in the god state - real death of the body.

Recently my awakenings on psychedelics got deeper and now when I do shrooms I'm having break troughs as on 5MeO-DMT but longer. The problem is one - I don't want to be God. The deeper I go the more I realize that I'm the only thing that exists and there's nobody except me. I want to be god damn sure whether my conclusions are true or I lost my fucking mind. Please, I want to hear your objections.

Hi guys, I'm turning 26 next month. I'm stuck in my job and I want to leave it. I want to become an actor but I don't know how and my mind is telling me that it's too late. Do you guys have any idea how to become an actor ?