Bulgarianspirit

Damm dude you broke the machine. But seriously this is the same as solipsism. ... Ehhh what can i say except, sorry. I thought others could be conscious too, yet when i leave my body only i see, i can never prove other minds and perspectives. Spiritual people always seem to go towards solipsism first, i went through your horror as well, feelings of wait i'm already dead, everything is an illusion, i'm god etc. However i also don't know if this is the exact truth. I think consciousness aka my real self can look at itself through many unlimited perspectives, aka it can be this ego BulgaraianSpirit, Leo,Adam8 and whoever else exists simultaneously. Something like multiple personality disorder, but more advanced. Idk what the truth is, i have been through what you have been. I have had these feelings, that i'am creating everything etc. However i have also been through the mess of realizing i'm nothing empty consciousness itself xDDD Whatever it is, just enjoy the ride.

I like Leo more because he says things like he experiences them,believes them and sees them. Sadhuru always tries to be liked and say the politically correct answer... He could be enlightened yet doesn't have the strenght to say fuck it and say the truth no matter what. Cheers to Leo for that

You are infinity aware of a particular aspect of yourself subjectively... But within infinity it has limites finite choices,as it is one of those limited body minds, imagined by god. I can say it like this as well,you are awareness aware of a being that seems to be making choices, however any choice the being makes is predetermined as a reaction,to the being's environment,upbringing, education and other factors, decided for the being before it was born. The causal link being longer than words satisfy, the being seems to be devoid of free will and choice. Furthermore the being doesn't seem to have control over likes and dislikes, thoughts, behaviour patterns and actions, as they are also related to everything surrounding it. Everyone begins at 0, empty a baby yet they are shaped by their surroundings. Its fairly safe to say if you switch a serial killer's upbringing he could be a model citizen.

True, very true. If he faces the pain he will heal and understand where his pain is coming from.

I would say it is creating while simultaneously embodying every aspect of it's creation... Trying to define an infinite, all pervasive formless cosmic intelligence is hard with words...

Man i made the same mistake, being sold the lie that she is the love of my life and being sucked into it. It sucks ass. Snap out of it she is just a girl.This advice of focusing on self is so true. Eventually you wont care about her though.It is you who creates these feelings of love within you. If my current ex goes and fucks a thousand dudes it's not my problem. I used to hurt over thoughts like this. To me she is as good as dead now.

Maybe, i don't really know.. Spiritual experiences are weird in that way. When i am out of body it is liberating,free and no pain. You could be right. But being in that state man... Knowing there are better lives out there for you, happier lives... Or the other state of feeling bliss and the grace of self... Man you come back to this ego.. And be like fuck what am i doing here

"I have found that your soul does not care to see you suffer if that is what it takes for you to grow. I have found that your soul does not care to see you suffer if that is what it takes for you to grow." Ughh... Maybe the highest no self watcher.. But i can tell you the more i suffer and don't want to stay here the more out of body experiences i have. Recently i had a dream where i was mocking god with the devil and asked him if he had a twisted sense of humor. Had an obe became the soul in a tunnel, then became the nothingness, the no self watcher watching the soul go around. Basically that proved yes, the true self has a twisted sense of humor.I have a twisted sense of humor. Eventually fell down and woke up. I had another experience before that angel like transforming being were holding me up on a weightless platform i was levitating in my dream... They said love and i surrendered. One of the beings said now you are going to die in 3 seconds. I surrendered then i went out of body... I saw the tunnel but my soul remembered and told itself :"hey wait aren't I a human" oh what a mistake that thought was... I might have chosen to come here, but due to unforseen circumstances this self can't stand itself. You can have obes from suffering,pain and hate. Hell it makes sense, when the dream becomes a nightmare you wake up ... Even my dreams sometimes just lead me to a tunnel with multiple realities and i'm flying through.... Wanting to escape lol. My soul suffers as i suffer that much i will say. Sometimes i wish i could stay in another dream and not wake up here.

Believe whatever makes you happy bro. Maybe for you it is a good thing. It really depends on the person. Glad to hear you are doing well

They might also be attracted to the dude, i mean he is running a succesful business, also might be bored with their husbands.

Dude look around the relative and you will see soul mates are not real. People are failing miserably at relationships, also too much cheaters for there to be soul mates. Oh no i cheated on my soul mate. Shouldn't that be impossible as your feelings will compel you to be in love? Also aren't soul mates destined to meet? I don't see this happen lol.Also if she is your soul mate she should want to do anything for you to love her too. You see it's a crazy self perpetuating fantasy. People are fickle their feelings change, see even science proved some people have promiscuous genes. https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/210277 It's all about survival here on this little rock and the program doesn't care about how you feel, only if the human race survives. However i don't really care about that myself. I have seen god and what game it is playing and i don't want to fall for it's lies anymore. I can do what i want now. Also look at this and have your own conclusions. I am here to have a constructive argument, as when your fantasy falls apart you would be more sorry. The women i loved most, cheated on me and left me. I can't trust my heart anymore that is all i'm saying. I used to be like you man i thought my ex was the one. But it was a lie and i was ready to do anything for her. It was all a lie i believed in and created in my heart. An illusion. Dude save yourself the pain seriously. I wanted that fantasy so bad fam i know how you feel. The final argument i would like to add is the spiritual argument. If you are a soul(ultimately god in disguise) you are complete on your own without needing a woman or anyone. This is just a type of neediness that comes from the human loneliness factor, but man seriously no one can complete you, the love you feel towards your "twin flame" is created in you . You always feel your love not hers. So basically be that love and you will be happy, that is the spiritual path. Sounds easy on paper, but i am having problems with it myself hahah, And last but not least, fellow spirit i wish things were different myself too. I wish twin flames were real. Reality is disappointing and doesn't seem to comform to our desires. I hope somewhere there within infinity such a reality exists and i get to experience it one day. I wish you the same

Truth. All is one soul, twin flames don't exist. You could say everyone is your 'soulmate'.

Selfishness lol. Getting their needs met at any cost. Human ego creates selfishness, then people wonder why.. Also cheaters think they can have their cake and eat it too. UK man finds out three sons aren't his after raising them for 20 years https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.newshub.co.nz/home/world/2019/01/uk-man-finds-out-three-sons-aren-t-his-after-raising-them-for-20-years.amp.html

Most people are low consciousness and egotistical, better safe than sorry. You can see it in relationships as well. I need you to provide for me, or i want sex on the men side... Quite honestly it becomes hell when money is involved and i think mostly men get the bad end of the stick,divorce child support paying her loans etc. Humans are a mess and love is a transaction,conditional, so everyone should have one thing in mind. As for hypergamy... Well i wish it didn't exist but who am i to piss on god's creation? There is always a richer,smarter, better looking man or woman and cheating is hell. But its your fault you got cheated on... Yeah that fixes everything thank you not You could waste so much time money and sanity trying to maintain a relationship, this is why i love the red pill. I have a choice i can walk away. All the disney fantasy of true love being a lie,you can just let reality be itself and watch with popcorn.

Jesus, i would hate to be those guys.

Whatever the truth is i recommend both genders to avoid getting used. Also being single ain't that bad. Sometimes people rush into relationships only to clean the mess after. There should be a balance, if you lose your relationship you should still be happy. I am also trying to work towards that myself.

Thanks

I honestly don't know i just don't want to repeat the same mistakes. It is difficult sometimes to judge people, the women i was with were pretending. They were total materialists in the end, only looks and status matter to them. This is why i don't trust anyone. However i know the fault is my own, i should have never let anyone use me or get so close to me, without doubting their lies. Probably not all women are like that , heck i'm just living in a perception bubble. but i just want peace and quiet at this point. Maybe in the far future i will have healed, but now my life is a mess. About the mdma therapy thing, i would never hurt myself in any way. I keep having out of body experiences and it's like my soul doesn't want to be here anymore. I hope things get better, but i would never hurt my family in any way, i know my time here is limited anyways.

Empty promises for love,sticking together etc. But i don't care anymore man i see this all around me wherever i go, the red pill is very real. Many of my friends and colleagues had their relationships end, things just end, but i don't want to be on the losing side anymore. For me men invest more,women can just leave and find a better mate. I will focus on myself and money,even if a woman comes along, if she strays i wave her goodbye,without remorse. Also i'm never getting married, what is mine is mine. I fell in love only because a lack of love from family and abuse. Now i know there is no love for me out there.

I support it after my ex almost made me kill myself,go into debt and find god(crazy life) But basically i will never trust a woman the same again, i was even thinking of going monk. However i dont blame her it's all my fault for even loving her. She was a user pretending to be sick and unable to work so i provide for her. Then she just cheated with a richer dude. I also lost faith in love, hypergamy is very real and i want to protect myself otherwise i might end up in the gutter. Let women love all the rich,muscular men out there(was cheated by both my girlfriends) I just don't want to play a losing game anymore.

You just had a bad trip i have had it as well, i thought i was dead, in a coma or worse. I have also had depersonalization and other issues. Stopping psychs fixes it at least makes it bearable to live

Depends on the person. Structure eventually collapses for me. I have restlessness and a yearning for freedom, which hasn't been satisfied yet.

Leo is just pointing the truth for himself. Meaning is self-created but ultimately a lie. If you want kids have them,no Leo no one can stop you. And in the end it's just a dream it doesn't matter if you have kids or not.

I don't want to reproduce. There is a fair chance my kids will get my chronic illness, or the thing i had surgery in order to cure. Basically it also limits your freedom a lot and costs a lot. Maybe adoption makes more sense, but now i'm not in a giving state, but rather a lack one

Only happily ever after is ever after... Eventually in eternity we will forget this ever happened...Xd Oh and i will never stop question God and WHYYYYYYYY put me through this nonesense hahah