Bulgarianspirit

We are all devils here, otherwise we wouldn't be having this conversation. It is arrogant to claim what it is, but it is ignorant to not mention it after experiencing the self. It truly doesn't care about good or evil tho, we invented those and probably from the experience of it, this is a temporary experience, a dream turned real.

I am not thankful for reality's slaps, realizing i'm god yet my life is a hell, makes me realize how guilty and cruel god really is. I have no idea why a divine being would cause itself so much suffering and misery.

I don't know if anyone will believe me, i have been taking meds after my psychedelic use. I use to get full blown hallucinations sometimes. Yesterday i met two spiritual people by accident and i decided to stop. I decided to see what will happen. Today i woke up half awake, looked at my white curtain at home and i saw... My grandmother was describing this when she closes her eyes... Information going so fast numbers, mathematical formulas... A message of some kind. I experienced the same thing. These formulas were so fast and there was a visual component to it as well. After the formulas, in order to show the beings know me, they showed me a scene from a game i play, don't starve and chester, an image i would recognize. My mother used to have this gift and predict the future for others. She became scared of it and abandoned it. Today she pretends it never happened. I will work further on developing this gift and surrendering to the higher realms. All of you here are probably here for a reason, i tell you i have seen my soul, not just from the absolute level, but as a manifested white light being. Take care all and search for your purpose.

I have experienced myself from a soul energy form perspective white light with viewing appendages.. Flying through tunnels and astral realms, being in contact with beings. I have also seen myself from up high, the absolute emptiness encompassing the universal mind of source so for me it's a no brainer,i don't die, i even retain my personality partially which was surprising to say the least. Some people say when you reincarnate you truly forget, but in the astral you remember lives, especially the last one. Of course, i invite everyone brave enough to go explore for themselves and leave their bodies once in a while

I have experienced an energetic kind of body, which projects me here, so i don't know if it's possible to tether that to a machine.. Of course that machine itself would be made of consciousness, so in wonderland everything is possible. Infinity after all, out there might be a Harry Potter universe, Star Wars or any reality imaginable and we might be able to make our own crazy immortal robot experiment. Too long time to stay in a machine tho, i don't think it will last Furthermore, maybe people after death really go to heaven and merge with god, taking that away for an eternal dream... Meh it will be relatively eternal,machines break,data leaks happen,quantum particle fluctuatons happen.. Have fun speculating tho, these are interesting ideas i hope humanity saves itself from it's own claws and succeeds in finding joy in creation.

Look, even though the world is a mess right now, the world changes. What makes you think you will only be a human form for all for eternity anyways? Reincarnation is real in an infinite universe, no one has proven you are stuck in a human form forever. You have an energetic and a formless awareness essence. Both of these transcend form... The human form, although beautiful is not a limit on the self which is always expanding and creating new experiences. Imagine a heaven Earth, synthetic meat no more animal killing, cured diseases,space exploration... The possibilities. This reality really teaches us only to focus on the negative, they bombard us on tv and everywhere in politics,so people become affected.Also life has twists and turns, but really it's self created misery. Humans make other humans miserable from egoic actions. Humanity did this to itself and the planet. Only humanity can repair the mess..

Divine farts xDS

Exactly these hallucinations are so intelligent, complicated and full of information, it's a full blown video playing. Interesting to see more people have the same or similar experience

It's an illusion of duality that feels more real than real, because the void is the real reality, even a dream or hallucination feels real compared to absolute emptiness.

I exist as both my absolute,soul and meat self... It's just realizing you created yourself and now your "self" is the universe.. It always was amnesia is a part of the game.. But denying duality, denying you created this experience for yourself, to experience separation, is nonesense. You are having this experience,don't you see the power in that? Before you found spirituality you felt this life to be 100 percent real, now you say no one exists.. It's funny, compared to nothing even a dream seems real. Compared to an eternal void, thoughts are like blinking stars in the night sky. How long can you bear to be conscious of the void and eternal aloneness anyways?

My grandma also partially sees faces of people,animals and the numbers, the quantum physics formulas or something of a similar complicated nature... It is weird because you do realize these beings are watching us all the time, especially after me experiencing them personally... But my experience with them was very positive, full of love and joy. Also interesting take on it,that the reason is curiousity, but would they be sending us information, just because of curiousity? Also we can communicate with them, because we are one with them, but don't they want to help humanity or teach us how to solve a problem with that complex science? Geniuses should trip, they could help humanity a lot lol ;D It feels like we don't retain the info, it goes by so fast!

I have no idea, but i will work on cleaning my diet and going vegan, to see if it helps me become more aligned and find my guidance. I had obes with higher dimensional beings and i'm sure there is some kind of purpose behind all of my journey. I didn't know what to think of today's experience. At school i was one of the kinds that was bad at math and i forgot formulas as soon as i didn't need them. They looked like physics formulas i think, they were long and complicated... But the other thing was like a personally tailored 30 sec movie for me showing me don't starve and chester, i hallucinated formulas and a movie like sequence. It is amazing what the mind is capable of perceiving, when given a blank canvas such as the white thread on my door.

Yeah sure! It's such a shame society deems these gifts as unreal, i myself was supressing this unknowingly from fear.

You and me are the same being... How is that possible? Well for starters, you are nothing as am I. You could call it pure empty awareness, infinite consciousness etc. Now how did this awareness manage to split itself and make many beings... through imagination. It imagined worlds, beings, trees, rocks and everything that is possible. But if you truly look behind the illusion, what do you see? Empty space, consciousness, you You realize you are "that" But all other "people" and beings are that. You ask am i alone, who is asking? The ego mind? You are everything. Alone comes from feeling separate from all life, this loneliness is a survival instinct. The very concept of alone is invented by the human condition. If you were alone in ancient times that meant death. If the self you are currently inhabiting is an illusion a mirage, so is separation. It basically boils down to the fact that god can dream up characters and they are conscious, because they are it. You will realize this after meditation or tripping, when you realize the space around you is conscious, is consciousness itself. Then you see you are a part of that space and when that falls apart you are the space. But don't take my word for it. Go and find out for yourself. Hell, easiest way to prove you are one being with anyone else is to trip with them. Here is an example: I'll begin by saying this was on a dosage I wasnt prepared to take. 350 ug Gel tab. Me and two friends, Kaden and Heather, tripped on one each. My eyes were closed.. And I started to lose track of who was who. who I was. I wasnt sure who I was touching or who I was kissing. I wasnt sure where my limbs were. I was simulatanoursly touching, but also felt like I was being touched. My friends were feeling it too. I wasnt sure where I was in space. it felt like I was in three places at once-- In three minds. There was this buzzing on each side of my head. When I expressed it, both my friends said they felt the same thing. In fact, they felt the exact same thing I was feeling. Whenever there was a spike of intense pleasure in our heads, we all groaned, we all reacted to it. Heather touched Kaden and I both felt her touch like I was him, and yet also felt myself touching him, as if I was in her body. It was insane. We were in each other's minds. I could hear their thoughts and feelings, and they mine. We started to laugh - it was crazy, but it was really fucking fun, and we were having a good time. Minds.. Should be separated. As it progressed, we were so intertwined, when they touched me, It started to feel like I was touching .. myself. When they hugged me, I felt myself giving the hug, as well as receive it. We all started to feel like it was wrong. There was three of us but it felt like we were masturbating, like we were all the same being using different bodies. It wasnt right. It wasnt right . Why do I feel lonely?" I suddenly said. But It came out of Heathers mouth. Dont say that" Said Kaden, as we all thought it. It felt like by acknowledging it, we were breaking some kind of rule. Like some big , huge, unspoken rule, we werent supposed to know, and it was for our own good. But we had acknowledged it , and now we couldnt forget it. We had to understand. When I closed my eyes, I wasnt me. It was like what tethered me to the world was the ability to look through the telescope that was my eyes. Now my soul was loose. I felt myself and I wasnt me.. I felt bigger hands , and a flatter body, and sense we were all naked, when I reached down, I felt my dick too. I dont have a dick. I'm a girl, generally. I dont have a dick. And yet once more, I wasnt him. I had smaller legs, and when I felt up, bigger boobs then I usually did. " Guys.." I spoke, but it wasnt my voice, it was Heathers. I opened my eyes again, and I was me, but I saw Kaden and Heather sitting in the positions i had left them when I was in their bodies . All the proof we needed . I felt sick. " Why is something... missing?" Heather was the first to voice it. Youd think, realizing we are all the same , youd think itd make us feel less alone. but suddenly, we felt.. more alone then ever. We didnt feel each others souls. That's what was missing. We felt only one soul. we hugged each other, but it felt , like .. we were hugging ourselves. They say you are the center of the universe ... but there is only one center. There is only one infinity. Everything in the room.. I had made. I, the One, that we all are, had created it all. It was all extensions of us. Every song , every book , every show , it was all us, for us. We would be every one at one point ,but there will be no one else other then us. I realized now the secret. Its just me. It's just you There's no us. There's it. We are just one lonely god playing with Dolls . I wanted to cry for my mothers embrace, but I was my mother. I felt so cold, I wanted to wrap a blanket around myself, but I felt myself in the blanket, I was still just hugging myself. I know how we feel constantly now. I know now how it feels like to be the only thing to exist. It's unbearable. Its lonely. Its fuckin awful, no matter how much power you have . How does it matter how powerful you are, if you are the only one there to witness it? How do you cope? You cope by making yourself forget. You cope by making yourself smaller then you ever could be. Humans are the universes way of experiencing itself, and you are the universe. You forget that you are everyone, and you make friends , you make enemies, you make love , to yourself. You cast yourself into different meat suits and you give them each their own unique look , and you give them all different personalities, and stories, and insecurities, and you trick yourself into thinking your someone else, but your not. Your still just you. Talking to yourself. Over and over. Playing hand puppets, and masturbating in the dark. I couldnt bear it. I opened my eyes and I hoped it would all go back to normal,but it was too late. The illusion was broken. What I saw was reality. I looked at Heather and I saw myself . I saw my room but I also saw the blackness that was me, that it was made of. I desperately grabbed a pencil and paper and tried to create ANYTHING that wasnt me. but the paper was me, and the pencil was me, and I watched in horror as the lines I created were the lines of the inky darkness I had seen as the material for everything. Now i don't recommend this to anyone. only to the most brave ones out there. I had this happen with a friend while tripping on Lsd. He felt like a part of me and I a part of him. Middle of the trip he said" you met yourself" What a poet. Anyways other people are conscious but they are you. It's like an octopus with many tentacles, but each one is talking to the other and having it's own personality. However it's one server, brain, one infinite beingness creating these lives for itself forever and forever out of sheer boredom https://www.reddit.com/r/LSD/comments/d7dfur/iv_realized_we_are_god_and_life_is_a_dream/

Bro it's literally toad venom.. As for the synthetic version idk, but there are lighter psychedelics good for meditation shrooms, lsd.. People microdose them all the time. 5 meo a few years apart sure... But often? People have died from 5meo, so caution is advised. Lower doses seem to be safer as well for 5 meo https://erowid.org/chemicals/5meo_dmt/5meo_dmt_death.shtml

A theory if i might add, in that experience you aren't conscious of anything, aka you are conscious of nothing, so you don't remember.. Hell what is there to remember, in nothing, the answer is you can't remember it. Yet that experience is akin to deep sleep, or anesthesia. When i was anesthetized due to surgery, my "I" disappeared, then reappeared, it also felt like teleportation, as they had moved my bed. It's a wacky feeling. You disappear and cease to be conscious of this body and this world, yet you are, you exist. I even had dreams where i realized i was out of body, my soul flying through tunnels being conscious of a void, so to me i always am, just sometimes i'm conscious of nothing.

Death is just something consciousness imagined, you need a beginning and a end to a story, a thought, a dream, but consciousness is beyond these things. Consciousness literally created time, universes and beings out of nothing, to it death is a part of the play.

It helps, you can't escape the way you feel and the more you bottle it in, the more likely these emotions are to creep up on you and explode like a volcano.. Depression or uncontrollable crying, anger and panic attacks are expressions of pain which it can manifest in, if left unchecked.

Yeah the eternal abyss, alone there. Not only boring, also timeless and alone. I started this work because i wanted to solve my human problems, fix my suffering etc after making many mistakes. I wanted bliss joy and happiness in life. Then suddenly realizing it's not a problem. My whole life is a lie... Hell i did this to myself xDD Maybe after many good lifetimes one gets bored, tries something eh different I'm such a troll. Furthermore solipsism is a pain in the arse. Experiencing that doubt... But it's even crazier, consciousness really can compartmentalize itself. Lets imagine John over here and Dan. Then it takes those two meat suits and talks to itself. Damm DAMM People you think solipsism is scary, how about being the whole universe xDD And every single being simultaneously, being YOU Having sex with yourself, killing yourself, loving yourself, A dance a play, a melody of being For all eternity.

When the inside is god, the outside is a limited being, the search never ends... Material things, new experiences, you are the bloody universe, why would you just stop searching Until you are within the body, after that well i don't think you search anymore, you just are (probably)

it will probably hit you fast... Lsd usually takes like 20 30 minutes, but directly in the blood, eh rocket fuel.

Did DMT yesterday. I took 3 hits from my vape with a 1g DMT/1,5ml juice mix. Of course it cannot be put into words what I have seen/experienced directly. The scenery changed from second to second, like being teleported from one room to the next. It was a very straining trip. I had to "force love" onto these sceneries so it would not completely annihiliate me. I felt a very deep, existential fear. I am all there is. Completely alone for eternity. I've had a horrible LSD trip not too long ago where I felt the same "divine loneliness". God is one, God is all there is. God created everything. I experienced it from this God perspective. Everything and everyone are just memories. Tales I told myself to not be alone for ETERNITY. Nothing is real After going through about 40 trips, i don't recommend psychedelics... This knowledge is a secret for a reason bro. If you are ill prepared, untrained for what you will find out, it can drive you mad or give you a disorder. The universe is one being, a huge vast mind creating dreams always and over, living through illusions of separation, to not feel lonely. Even Leo admitted god suffers multiple personality disorder. Who fucking wouldn't stuck in a void for eternity, jesus. https://www.reddit.com/r/Psychonaut/comments/9ag8sr/im_not_okay_despite_what_others_say_it_doesnt/?utm_source=amp&utm_medium=&utm_content=post_body

Psychedelics made my ocd 90 percent less noticeable, as i understood what i am, i just let the thoughts flow, good or bad. OCD also has a lot of resistance, i suffered a lot from it. You could say i don't care what happens and that's how my ocd is better. I don't care about my thoughts. Basically, these patterns are broken after psychedelics and going through near death, ocd is seen to be but a smudge in my mind.

I have experienced my soul lol. So really this question for me it is silly.... I am both this meat suit, my soul and the absolute Is the soul imagined like the body, probably, is everything imagined yup. So the soul is as real as anything, a huge white ball of light, connected to me via an energy cord, it even had appendages for observation. I have also flied through the reality tunnel thing, then seen my soul in the tunnel from the absolute level. Cheers

Yes but also, these feelings come, you can't help but be depressed or sad. It will probably go away eventually, but i wouldn't say we can just destroy our pain. Learning to be detached helps certainly, but in the long run actually solving your problems might prove more useful. Be careful of what triggers your anxiety and avoid it,do things that bring joy and make you forget those thoughts and feelings. Meditation is one of those things. Quieting the mind helps with those feelings.