Bulgarianspirit

Yeah man if you are god and can't have what you want whats the point? xDDD

We take a risk of having a great life later, such is our fate

Surrending is a bad strategy, but i don't think we have a say,we either have a fighting spirit or we don't. I don't judge people who surrender, but like you i don't surrender, i fight to the end.

Thanks for the advice.I'm currently graduating a bachelors in Media management and going forward in my field. I will be fine

Dude knowing myself.. I probably got bored of eternal peace... Think of it this way it is eternal and I'm god. And i love my creation why wouldn't i come back xDDDD It is beautiful.. Pure art even my suffering and trips are art to me.

I have suffered being cheated on, having no dad my mom being an alcoholic, poverty, chronic illness, surgery abandonment, loneliness etc. And the only thing i am thinking is I WANT A BETTER Life.I accept my suffering tho. I would take it rather than a lonely void any time. A stubborn spirit indeed. This suffering led me to questions such as: Is there a god? Why is the universe so cruel to me etc ;D

Bro did you see the crazy solipsism thread, people claiming only one soul is conscious at a time... God's soul and it lives through all lives eternally.. Tbh all this is confusing it has confused me to the point of quitting. Maybe one day i will awaken to fix the confusion its too much xD. Right now i feel like a helpless boy in the hands of life.

I don't really care about the truth anymore i just wanna be happy. Being a mind in a vacuum and conscious of it will never be an answer for me. I prefer infinite dreams.. Also i dream at night,after deep sleep and i know dreaming is something i do naturally and subconsciously. Maybe i will temporary disappear,but dreaming is inevitable. How did you think i came here in the first place

Yeah it was more like going into a deep sleep consciously. I disappeared any thought of me existing,perceiving was gone. Then i came back somehow.. Words don't do these experiences justice. But it was my last spiritual experience made me quit everything and plagued with solipsism I called off the search,really there is nothing to find,no Nirvana for me.Earthly life and the illusion became a sort of Nirvana on it's own compared to that hell.

Yeah the whole trip started with me seeing a light being connected to me projecting me. 1st reaction lol what is that,second reaction thats my soul or god. It has tendryls of it's own and stuff. I surrender to this beautiful being and close my eyes. I start to feel weightless,float and then love,in huge amounts. This love kills me,dissolves me into an awareness in the void. Unexpected. I thought i would go into an imaginary heaven or something. Instead i went behind reality into the void. Tricky

Btw i don't recommend this realization. Its all fun and games with dmt realms salvia etc until you fall into nothingness. Scary.

Very scary trips one of them dissolving me into an awareness observing an endless void.Then i dissolved i was gone. I think i became nothing. Then i came back.The nothingness is me i am empty awareness.It was a scary realization. Honestly i would rather be just a soul than what i saw, this void god as i said in another thread xDD

What do you think death is? Also you have yet to see the emptiness of god.True reality is a void. Thats why this dream reality exists.

I think i get it I am and have been everyone. So when i met my friend and we tripped together he said:you have met yourself. I get what that means now. Life is a scifi movie. Tbh i don't know how to feel about the whole thing. Feeling like a separate being,isolated and lonely wasn't better. My whole life was full of loneliness,abuse and neglect. Which is worse for you guys being a lonely human or a lonely god?

I feel bad at multitasking now as god. Can't split myself into everything for eternity.

Infinite timelines

@justfortoday Upgraded solipsism lol. But it's all good bro i can have the life i want. I also know i choose this life through this knowledge and eternal life is dope ;D This thread didn't disprove solipsism tho hahah

Ahh if i meet you on the street you aren't conscious i see. I was you at a different time.Though you can say the same thing about me xDD

You will live all the lives you imagined in “this” life. This is complicated.However still quite different from the my ego viewpoint is the only one that exists. From those viewpoints of consciousness, do you feel like a lonely god? I think thats the main point of asking the question of solipsism. People feel lonely after deep trips and self-inquiry.

Wait are you talking about infinite reccurence? We live this life over and over again. I found something related. "When I was on mushrooms I had this feeling that my soul was alive before in another person who was exactly like me and I'm just living out that life in another time, the person was like.from the 70s and felt connected to them and they were tripping also" https://www.reddit.com/r/DMT/comments/ibiyzo/past_lives/

When this life ends, i will also be in the bank and not happening. And then i will be real when i choose this life again? Maybe this should be called spiritual solipsism. Your spirit is alone and chooses lives.

The lonely solipsism god hypothesis. So god can't experience multiple lives at the same time? To be quite honest i think its all delusion. Its unproveable. Imagine god goes through a life that disproves solipsism somehow. Then he will believe he isn't alone and that other people are him in another body. Its all subjective experience lol.I have regrets going on this path as i personally experienced this solipsism and it was quite painful. I would much rather be an individual soul or a unicorn. https://www.reddit.com/r/DMT/comments/avd3jl/dmt_trip_is_god_lonely/?utm_source=amp&utm_medium=&utm_content=post_body This is also a good thread relating to the topic. Honestly you can experience anything as real,but does that make your perspective more true than other people's experiences? An example from the reddit topic above: It's a pretty crazy thought and realization, isn't it? Almost too much to bare sometimes. I've struggled with this concept and idea for most of my life. The reality is, there's no way to really escape it. It just is what it is, sort of like existence itself. There will never be a rational explanation for existence. It just is. And JUST IS is never a good answer for the rational mind. So here you are existing, and you wonder, how can i ever not feel alone? Well the irony of having an ego, is that, it basically means you will most likely always feel alone to some extent. Now that sounds a bit harsh, so why will you always feel alone to some extent? Well because the ego, is what gives you the illusion of separation. Without the "ego" you merge into oneness, and you think, oh wow, we're all one, isn't this amazing. Of course then you start to wonder, omg, WAIT, wtf? Everything is ONE consciousness, experiencing itself from infinite points of view??? I mean, it's a running joke really, the whole idea about "GOD" or "SOURCE" the running joke is, it's SO lonely being "Source" that it has to split itself into infinite separate pieces and pretend they're all different people, just to have SOME sort of sanity, like, hey LOOK it's JIM over there, hello JIM, boy it sure is good to talk to another being. The thing is though, when you're "source" or god, or the collective consciousness of all there is, it's probably not as lonely as being an individual person. Why is that? Well because if you wana experience being this unique individual person, you have to separate from the whole. So your ego is what gives you this illusion of being separate from the whole. Ironically this ego will also make you feel unbelievably lonely at times, because i think somewhere deep down inside, you ALWAYS feel slightly alone, when you've separated from the whole, and are having this unique experience of being just YOU, and not part of the whole.

That's an interesting take on it. Ahh i don't know honestly i had so many experiences, yet i admit i truly don't know.How can one realize he is god if even his thoughts aren't his.Through death i know all answers come, but why did i walk through all this if it just ends without a good ending. I walked this path because of pain,disappointment and chronic illness(not life threatening but painful everyday). These things pushed me to see i'm not real lol.

Well yeah i mean we are all reality,but there is the illusion and experience of separation and separate entities with illusory free will having an experience.It's actually one awareness creating and having all these experiences. Talking to itself as BulgarianSpirit and Member. I think the separation happens as the little parts loose awareness of the whole. Thats why for example when Leo becomes infinite his awareness encompasses the whole. Maybe if all the small awarenessess remember they are god, it has fully remembered itself.Looking at itself from all these viewpoints. However i think that won't happen. The whole point is the illusion of separation,of other.To have any experience one must have other and a world.How can one know what he is without this contrast?