Bulgarianspirit

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Yes seeing it in person,it's absolutely beautiful. Interesting. Some people say meditation can also be used to release DMT naturally.

Hah yeah i havent taken anything in a year. Just wanted to share this insight. Maybe it will fill some of the gaps...

I know but i'm currently less aware. In those heightened states it's as if these structures become visible. I can see them,while doing so i also see atoms and molecules sometimes too. Lsd is a hell of a drug.

Quitting my career to chase the wind. Bro the only thing you will find is the truth. Then you might be sorry.... Be time efficient take psychs or meditate... But know this once you find yourself you will again be one with this ego.. And it's problems and poorer. If you are really wanting to get enlightened go to a monastery.But you need to let go of your desires. Control,women,money,whatever it is. Otherwise failure would surely follow. Also know that true enlightment is irreversible and you might regret it later. Thats why i suggest a few awakenings first, see that reality is imagination,illusion if you like that then go on.

Most spiritual teachers say we have no free will, god acts through us, the egos are imagined and predetermined, i mean you get shaped by parents,circumstances genetics, at the end your ego becomes preoccupied with these things and they define it.

It really needs to be realized... For me at least. I blame myself for the horror i have been through,because of falling in love, going through diseases and poverty. Knowing god did this to me at least will give me some peace. At some point i don't believe in free will... As thoughts feelings sensations come and go. I wish i could take back time with what i know now... I would have never put myself through this hell(enlightment included)

It's a bad idea... Better get enlightened than depersonalized. It truly is a in-between state lacking mental focus, you can't keep it for long the brain fixes itself,otherwise your survival would be less likely,as you would find it hard to perform tasks.

For the trend starter: You can only know these things by experiencing them yourself. All our experiences for you maybe mere fantasies,but if you leave the body at least once,you will know the truth. So if you REALLY want to know meditate or do psychs. In any case you will be fine.

I have been out of body on different occasions,so i can say the illusion continues..At least for me. Machine elves,realms other incarnations... F yeah! I have seen the dmt heads of Alex Grey and the machine elf tenticle tunnel thingy... Words don't do it justice. That happened through a stressful period,had entities in my sleep levitate me,one of them was chanting "love" and i was feeling weightless. They told me you will die now and i surrender. I was out of body flying to the tunnel, but a thought came up... Wait am i not a human? That brought me back,dammit! I have an eternity and this light never goes out... Even in the dark where it was born!

Tbh you have been through hell, i have been too to tell you the truth drugs don't fix your problem, i initially chased spirituality to run away from problems as well, find out why my life sucks and if there is a god. I messed up my serotonin system and had hppd for a good six months. Sometimes i still see patterns on clear surfaces,during stressful situations. First stop the drugs and second find something productive to do. I started this whole thing because of a girlfriend who left me in debt, wasted 5 years of my life and made me feel like utter garbage when cheating with a richer dude. I felt like all the money,provision being for her etc was for nothing. WOMEN cant make you happy. Many men get divorce raped, destroyed and left behind, so dont be mad about not having a woman focus on you. And one day you might meet a woman,but it can never be like this. You need the cash,charisma and success and happiness on your own,otherwise you risk my nightmare. Take care and stop the drugs!

Real,unreal that is duality... Everything just is, don't sweat about it. Be happy you are eternal and have the life you want lad.

I wish i could totally rid myself of this desire,maybe meditation idk Women have been nothing but a bad influence in my life.

You just have to be, without desire. Even the desire to reach mahasamadhi is a desire yes. It happens to you this state,after just being in a state of beingness and desirelessness. However it's a long road,it is why few humans walk it. Very few people want to leave reality forever to go to Nirvana. Very few even believe the stuff we are talking about. Maya is very convincing.

Mahasamadhi means the end of self,soul identification forever. No more reincarnation no more others,it is a conscious choice and only desireless people can achieve it. So basically yeah,people should contemplate if they never want to have any kind of external world,experiences and others for the sake of just being in beingness forever. Some of them come back though presumably. Eternity is a long time

Exactly... It is imagined separation a total mind fuck

The "eternally complete consciousness," a. k. a. God/Goddess/Self is the Infinite One proclaimed by mystics from every tradition. Direct knowing of the One Consciousness dissolves the self who would be the "knower." There is no one standing apart from the One to bear it witness when awakening occurs. Rather, the individual self is understood to be an illusion of a separate identity. All duality ceases to have meaning; there is no opposition or division anywhere. In the deepest sense, no one can awaken to this truth. Becoming Self-Realized is the experience of knowing there never was and never will be anyone to become enlightened, and that nothing but Consciousness IT-Self is eternally real. Mystics throughout the ages have struggled to convey this apparently logic-defying Reality which seems to be saying that nobody is there when satori/samadhi occurs. But that is just it -- there is no body, there is only the One Eternal Self, the true Self who we all are. In this highest sense, we do not each have a distinct and separate Atman/Self. Rather, we are individuations, creative expressions of a Single Being. Throughout my life this knowledge has followed me as a reminder that nothing in this world is entirely as it seems, particularly not my own ego-self. there was no one in existence but the One, and that even God-asleep-to-God in so many "dream" forms of multiplicity was by divine design. There was no one else for me to attempt to awaken. http://web.archive.org/web/20130606091318/http://www.elcollie.com/st/god.html

Its funny in a way... When you analyze multiple personality disorder patients. They say they have many people in their mind. When one takes over the person he becomes the main one,seeing the others are just facets of him,in other words that they are unreal. But if you are one of those personalities and come out ... You would take the whole and say i am all alone. These things inside me are me etc. This might explain how this madness works. I will try several other examples i gave in other threads from other enlightened people: Infinite personality disorder: On many trips I have found myself in a situation where I seem to just know things about the Universe. In many of these I have run across a dark interpretation of reality that I've never heard any of the New Age crowd talk about. Oh sure, I hear them talk about how All Is One and how great that is, and how we are all facets of the One that is All There Is, and when we die we return to that source, that loving source of all, and how mindblowingly wonderful that must be. I mean, it does sound pretty good. And I do get a strong sense that we are indeed all facets of the One Thing; that we are indeed all One. The people that believe in such things generally say that the One separated into the Many in order to create the Universe and all within it. It was an act of love, so they claim. What else would it be? On my travels into salvia space, I heard something else. (More accurately sensed it as if it had happened to me) The One did indeed separate into the Many, but that was no act of love. It was an act of desperation fueled by abject horror. The One went insane, you see. The One was ALL that there was, the only single solitary thing in existence, and eventually after eons of that, it fractured into the Many in much the same manner that a schizophrenic descends into madness- out of sheer stark-raving terror. It was so *lonely,* so very *lonely,* and it could only hold dialogue with itself. More utterly *alone* than anything we humans can even begin to imagine, utter terror, the darkness of madness, and the prospect of eternal fearful isolation drove it to fracture itself into many minds all desperately trying to cling to and believe that they really are individuals which are completely separate from each other and above all else, that they're really definitely positively not in actuality only one being. (please oh please oh please let's never ever ever let ourselves remember that we're really all just one solitary being, not that, not ever, never please never, anything but that...) The whole reason we're "here" is so that we don't have to be *there.* There with the One, there in that awful state of knowing full well that we are not we, we are instead I, and I am fucking lonely and afraid and absolutely mindlessly terrified of my reality as the only fucking being in all existence. Not just the only being, but the only thing! Hell, there *IS* no existence, only me God has multiple personality disorder, times infinity. The first time this came to me it overwhelmed me. I actually cried for The One in pity, feeling it's awful pain, vividly sensing it's despair and loneliness, and then TERROR STRUCK ME as I realized that it was myself that I was crying for, for I am it, and it is me, and we are/I am a royal fucking mess. Yes, we/I deserve pity if anyone does, but there's no one to pity me but me, no one else to turn to for comfort, and no way to deal with myself and what I really am and remain sane other than to deny to myself that that's what I really am. I must live a lie or face my own insanity. So that's what I've been doing, for pretty much eternity now. Reality is a by-product of my desperate need to distract myself. I am the subject and the object. Not nearly as much fun as being the Alpha and Omega, let me assure you. http://salviaspace.blogspot.com/2013/10/the-darkest-interpretation.html?m=1

Duh also to experience stuff.Trip with a friend man if you are brave and crazy enough. You will realize you are one being in different bodies. Had it happen with a friend. His reaction: "you met yourself" "what a troll!" i said to him.

Its even stranger and twisted. Those Npcs are conscious and they are you. Who told you that an infinite mind limits itself to one ego only? I mean otherwise spirituality would be a negative thing like solipsism. What you are saying is my viewpoint is the only one, but you are merely one of god's infinite personalities, dream characters ,masks. We are one being interacting with itself through many bodies. Aka an Infinite mind. It is why you can't change anything in the dream while on shrooms, you are merely aware of the whole, not creating the thing. God has dissociative disorder in a way.. Bob talks to Tom, what is going on is awareness is feeding two puppets thoughts and speaking through each one. Its like a dream you are imagining Bob and Tom talking you can hear their thoughts,actions etc,but you don't know what they will say. Its just happening by itself. Now imagine this unlimited mind dreaming universes and people arguing about solipsism... Classic. I am YOU. In another shell,masked hidden.

The self can never see itself. Nothing to see there.It can only see reflections and projections. No way for a formless being to experience itself than to imagine being something,somewhere,somehow. Really and truly unlimited, yet a mystery to itself as well. It needs egos and masks to know any kind of world,experience.

Nay,when one accepts he cannot die,only the body dies, he can live fully and enjoy the illusion,while causing himself less suffering and less suffering to others. Joy is accepting things as they are. Suffering is resistance.

Spilling out the truth

Death is an illusion,but don't be too happy,because life is too.

Dude thats just a regular trip,if you had seen Leo's videos or my discussions you are only scratching the surface. That being said be careful how deep you go, you might not be ready yet for what you see. You sound like a normal chill dude, not someone ready to melt his brains off Also nice shroom batch,just dont trip too often i had Hppd because of too many psychs. The whole trip you were in the mind and you worked with yourself,to heal yourself which is nice. Now be warned lad,the further you go in,the crazier it gets.