arvindbd1997

I have had a very traumatic childhood with sexual, physical and emotional abuse. It has affected my mental state a lot and I find it difficult to practice meditation because of constant anxiety. I want to be able to meditate, but severe negative emotions and anxiety get in the way. Any advice on how I can meditate effectively while also having ptsd and severe childhood trauma. I’m not sure if it’s even possible and it really upsets me.

I accidentally posted from this account but it didn’t let me delete the post, so I just had to write something. @cetus56 you can delete this one.i don’t see an option in settings to delete it, so I’m assuming a moderator can.

This movie includes people on various stages of the spiral, including turquoise and does a good job in analysing the limits and toxicity of the stages, but doesnt demonise or make a mockery of them. It is fair and neutral. Lester: moves from stage orange to green when he quits his corporate job. He yells at his wife telling her that “it’s just stuff.” And that she should essentially live life instead of accumulating wealth. In the final scene he is about to have sex with Angela but decides not to when he realises she’s a virgin. This demonstrates he has matured emotionally. He even asks how his daughter is in the end even though it seems he didn’t care about her in the start. Lesters wife: very much stage orange. She cares about her sofa when lester spills coffee on it. She is obsessed with being the best real estate agent and is enamoured with another real estate agent who is better than her and has sex with him. She calls out Lester when he quits his job when she says she can’t pay for the bills herself. That shows limits of green. She slaps her daughter telling her that she should be grateful for all the material comforts she enjoys even though her daughter is upset about her family fighting. In the final scene she hugs all of Lesters clothes after finding out he died, showing her attachment to the material world. Ricky Fitts: A clear example of Stage turqouise. He takes pictures of dead animals and smiles because he admires Gods creation and realises that everything is infinitely beautiful. There is a famous quote by him where he says “It's hard to stay mad when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst. And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life.“ Ricky Fitts Dad: Classic example of stage blue. He beats up his son when he finds out his son went through his gun cabinet to discipline him. His son says that he is a good person and is only doing what he thinks is best. His mother is perpetually terrified of his dad because he is very patriarchal and mistreats her. He says he can’t stand faggots but he kisses lester because he has repressed homosexual feelings. The movie itself is stage yellow because it is able to step back and look at all of these stages. It never demonises any of them and all the characters have redeeming qualities. The problem these characters have is that they are too stuck in their stages, and this movie explores that suffering. The ultimate message of the movie is that only in stage turquoise can you escape petty human squabbles and be truly happy.