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Hello everyone, I decided to go deep down into conspiracies since I felt the world seamed very corrupt and I didn't see any other way of expanding my own way of thinking. I used to see myself as a stage green type of person all about science and atheism. After conspiracies open my mind to many things and I experienced 1 week of synchronicites all my old beliefs changed. Now I've come to the point where I can't relate to any of my old friends in anything, because my world view has changed so dramatically and I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to. My fear of looking like a crazy person is holding me back from telling them what I actually think. The last times I tried hanging out with my friends I just automatically started lying about all my beliefs and nodding along with everything. It made my feel like the biggest liar and fakest person in the world. It got to the point were I couldn't see any way of changing the lies that I had started so I just completely ignored my friends and pushed them out of my life. For now I am working on increasing my confidence and getting rid of my anxiety since this is what pushed me away from telling the truth. I am also trying to get back to focusing on my spiritual practice like meditation, shadow work, mindfulness, helping others and staying positive, because I think it will help me expand my perspective even more now that I can combine it with what I learned from how conspiracies helped me become more open minded. If anyone have any tips on how I can overcome my fear of becoming an outcast and that I am afraid of hurting other peoples identity if I start talking about how I see things I would really appreciate it. I've been living by myself without any friends for 6 months now, but I am not giving up, staying positive and slowly overcoming my fears all though it is going slow. Have a great day guys

@Cepzeu This is amazing! Thank you so much.

It sounds like you want to move to Oslo, so I say do it! If you do move here and you're looking for friends I would love to meet you over a coffee. Wish you the best of luck in your decision!