Rod

Hi guys, I am no longer able to meditate and operate well at work. Even after one 20 min session my mind becomes very spaced out and logical thinking is very difficult. I find it hard to focus on simple conversations. I also had a few close calls in the car - just doing stupid things which is completely out of character. Had a few clumbsy accidents as well. It feels like I have too much energy in the head. I have stopped meditation for around six months now and the situation in daily life is much improved(perhaps not completely though). To give some background, I did around a year of breath meditation focusing on the nostrils. I then did a further 4 years of daily mantra meditation using the advanced yoga practices method. I also did some pranayama. I spent the last 6 months just reading lots and i’m pretty keen to get into Culadasa’s The Mind Illuminated method if I can sort out my problem. I have a family to think about and i’m not really at a stage where I would just say fuck it all and do whatever it takes to try and awaken. I’m not even sure awakening is what i’m looking for anymore after reading things on this forum and various books but I still feel a strong pull towards meditation and spirituality. Just wondering if anyone else has hit a bit of a dead end due to energetic symptoms? I’d particularly like to hear from anyone who has come out the other side and what they did in order to overcome energy problems(assuming this is what is wrong!). Thanks.

Thank you for the replies. @Salvijus I may have not made it clear in the post but I wouldn’t say i’ve really been mixing practices. I did a year of meditation with the breath and had a long break from doing anything. I then began practicing yogani’s methods with mantra meditation, pranayama and some other practices that all fall under the same teacher and methods. I suspect I took on too many practices too quickly but like a lot of newbies I was probably sceptical that any of this stuff actually worked let alone could lead to problems if you over do it. The original mantra meditation that I used regularly now leads to energetic problems after only 5 mins so I am not really in a position to follow the same teacher anymore as this is the core practice. That’s why I have been looking for something else but I’m also very wary about overdoing(lesson learned!). However, what you say sounds reasonable and good to know for the future. @WelcometoReality I would say I already do all the things you mention except for the mindufullness. Feel free to expand on that if you have the time. Cheers. Anyone else in the forum that can comment on energetic problems after practicing for a while?