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@Inliytened1 Do you agree with my last message? It's too simple imo.

Okay I finally get it. You answered that question in your recent video. All those debates are so useless. All your metaphysical videos are useless, here's why: Either you get that everything you believe to know is just finite mind-knowledge, or you don't get it and can't get it with what you use (mind) to try to make sense of reality. I'm sorry Leo but you're videos are meant for minds to deconstruct themselves and it's never gonna work, because only minds try to deconstruct themselves. Either someone gets it or they don't get it. People who had glimpses cannot make sense of it and will try to, then you can explain how it's not explainable. OR People who are still in the mind-game, will need convincing that mind-game can never be fully true, to finally take the leap of faith to do self inquiry or take psychedelics, and then to realise that mind cannot understand itself and stop trying to. I just dont think this is leading anywhere for most people.

I'm noe listening to your new video. Well I wouldn't call that "absolutely truth" but more "knowing not nowing" maybe it's just a word thing

@Terell Kirby Yeah science is A perceptual filter. But giving up science isn't trancending the perceptual filter. It's probably the bet thing a perceptual filter can be. Hypothesis, statistics, deduction and logic.

@Chris365 I note the aversion and the bad thought or feeling, instead of thinking I do something wron and things should be different. If I think that, that's also noted as thought and feeling with the same awareness as the previous things.

@Terell Kirby Science is not the problem. It's the mind's perceptual filter. If you only see mind, you're gonna try to find truth in mind. Once the mind's perceptual filter is gone for a second, you'll see all the insane shit you believed in. You can never know anything for certain once you transcend the mind for one second. Science, deduction, logic is just the best thing the mind has to make sense of reality, but it's still just a story.

I can't believe I didn't listen to people who told me that before. I'm gonna repeat it. "You don't want enlightenment and you can't want enlightenment." That's basically it. I'm not gonna say:"You're already enlightened" because nobody who seeks enlightenment is gonna want to hear that. Me included. Also, it's not about reading this in a right way for you to get it or not. It's more complex than that. And it's more simple than that. Also: "Realisations don't enlighten or liberate you". They just give you insights into reality, that's it, and those insights are gonna tell you to some degree that you're gonna have to do the following things: (after "here's the deal) You don't want to be nothingness/GOD/emptiness all the time. Because what's more empty than no-thingness? Non-existence, and that's death and or the absence of any perception. So here's the deal: Obviously you either want more of life or fewer of those negative things we call suffering. And you heard about spirituality or enlightenment. Bliss, god, liberation, enlightenment. If you took some psychedelics or had orgasmic awakenings you might think you want that all the time. For example, I had a kundalini awakening. I can't describe the pleasure I've had having it awaken. When it rose I felt like I was the sun being loved into existence. The next few weeks I just had to focus for a split second on my lower back and could maintain that cosmic orgasm for as long as I wanted. This sounds a lot like enlightenment, but it isn't. It's like a heroin IV drip. And the heroin is not gonna last, you're gonna lose it. That's your view on enlightenment if you seek more from life. And once you have that, which you don't necessarily need, you're gonna face suffering, which you'd want to escape from too. So here's the second thing. You can want enlightenment because life is too much suffering and you don't care that much about beauty pleasure etc. So you're gonna try everything you can, to escape suffering, because that's what enlightenment is for you. You're gonna cause suffering in order to escape suffering. The insane ego-mind is gonna have those ideas. You're also gonna want to kill yourself to avoid suffering. That's why you can't want enlightenment. You'd rather kill yourself than become enlightened. Because enlightenment is... No more doing, there's nothing you can do, there's just suffering and the mind handling it. That's it. There's no hope. Enlightenment is NOT the last hope, it's the end of hope alltogether. Most important message: "The thing you want to avoid most in your subjective experience is the door to enlightenment" That's it: If you want to escape your shitty life, then your shitty life is the door to enlightenment, and there's nothing you can do about it. That's surrender. Detaching from your shitty life is not enlightenment, it's what keeps you from enlightenment. If you have just one reason for pursuing enlightenment, that's it. That thing is the path / the door. So turn around 180°. There's also nothing you can do except exhaust yourself, until you give up. The grace of God doesn't show up if you're frustrated. It only shows up once you surrender thinking the only way out is suicide. That's how far it goes. And that's not even total enlightenment. That's when the falling into enlightenment CAN (but doesn't have to) start. It's as if you commited suicide, landed in hell for eternity, and had to accept it. That's when the grace of god shows up. YOU CAN'T WANT THAT!!!! So what can you do? Simple: There is "what IS" and there is "Aversion to what IS". Be minful of the "aversion to what is", so that it becomes "what is". AVERSION is illusory. Aversion is already "What IS" The seeking is gonna end with the aversion to the thing that makes you seek enlightenment in the first place. Important notice: 1. Don't play with suicide or suicidal thoughts. 2. Never hurt yourself emotionally or physically on purpose. 3. Never hurt other people/animals physically or emotionally. 4. Don't fuck up your life in any way. Don't change anything in your day-to-day life. Those are not "additional rules", but just indications that if you have those ideas, you don't understand what is being talked about. If you have those thoughts/ideas, feel free to PM me or comment them, I'm gonna tell you what you misunderstand.

@Kundalini Cataclysm What happens after you have a bad day and you meditate on the negative emotions, do you feel better or desperate and like things got 10 times worse?

@Chris365 Those points I wrote is just to prevent insane ideas people get after reading my post. Like:"oh, so suffering brings me closer to enlightenment, I'm gonna fuck up my life so bad, so I can checkmate my ego faster" That's obviously not a good idea. And it's not necessary to change anything.

@Kundalini Cataclysm Yes. Meditate on the misery thoughts feelings and reactions with lots of concentration and equanimity. If you're fully into it, you're gonna have the desire for delivrence, and then willing to reobserve the suffering of duality. This done correctly will land you in equanimity. It always goes back and forth between suffering-desire for delivrence-reobservation and equanimity.

@Thought Art Yes, that's the point!

@Raptorsin7 ITs tricky though. Bringing attention to what is. I thought I did that, but I just suppressed thoughts by focusing on sight and body feelingd. So everytime a bad thought or feeling occured, I suppressed it by focussing on something else. Which is a fools errand.

@Leo Gura There are life cycles, monthly cycles, weekly cicles, daily cicles and meditative cycles of the dark night. Also, I think the only difference between pre and post awakening is simply that someone in pre awakening, isn't sufficiently pushed through that "misery"-stage. There's just gonna be avoidance. No pre-awakened person is gonna have the faith/trust/wisdom to go fully through misery, then giving up life-contemplating suicide and then finally going through everything again. Also it's hard to be mindful of those "steps" because every step of the dark night is like a break saying "no, don't do that". First thing is to be able to acknowledge the difference between disenchantment, desire for deliverance and reobservation in personal experience. That process is torturing the ego into submission. I could probably sit down tommorow, and go through all of the dark night insights while believing that it's real suffering up into Equanimity in 1 hour. If he didn't have an awakening yet, the best way is still to meditate through the sufferin of mind. Then there's space for awakening.

@Leo Gura No! What he is going through IS necessary for total surrender. Most people, including Eckhart Tolle and Adyashanti went through that giving-up.

@Leo GuraGura That's exactly how I would've put it. I unfortunately have too much work on the embodiment side to do before i'm ready for higher understandings. I cannot be the only one who's overwhelmed with embodiement, especially because I never took real psychedelics. The fast-enlightenment path needs to accelerate the embodiment of it, and that's probably best done sober. What's your take on that?

@Javfly33 Good, now feel right into that, what you'vre wrote. That "disenchantment". Misery, depression. Nothing will free you, it's fucking hopeless. You see how much time you've wasted? You can no longer do that and you've realised it. Those very very bad feelings and thoughts want to show themselves. Sit down and let them torture you. That's the path! -Nibbida ñana - Knowledge of disenchantment/disgust with conditioned states YOU'RE EXACTLY HERE ABOVE. Now you're gonna give up and get: -Muncitukamayata ñana - Knowledge of Desire for Deliverance, the desire to abandon the worldly state (for nibbana) arises. -Patisankha ñana - Knowledge of re-investigation of the path. This instills a decision to practice further. After that, God's Grace is gonna show up and. -Sankharupekha ñana - Knowledge which regards mental and physical states with equanimity.

@Leo Gura most people are not open minded and most open minded people are not into mysticism. So I'd say 50% of your followers are probably gifted in that sense.

@Carl-Richard Mooji has some good pointers but he casually insulted someone who was desperate for enlightenment and told him he wouldn't tolerate such a behaviour. Wtf, what's wrong with him...

@Someone here The gap in existence is non existence.

@Leo Gura Would he be God realised if he took a 30 day 5MeoDMT retreat? What happens to people who have no sense of self (for a long time) and take 5-MeO-DMT?

@Raptorsin7 I had a 180° turn on what I believe enlightenment is. It's basically integrating "what should be different" to "what is". My meditation and daily awareness consists of being mindful of "resistance" and "self" it has a particular feeling of aversion to it. Shinzen Young calls it "the taste of purification". My goal is no longer realisation, but liberation. That's clear to me now. I don't want Kundalini-cosmic-orgasms anymore.

@Raptorsin7 I think you're some high equanimity state. Detachment is blocking things to show up.

@Raptorsin7 Would you be sad if I told you, you were in Equanimity? How long have you waited since your supposed-enlightenment experience, before you thought about what it was. Do you still have emotional work to do? Do you have any resistance to negative thoughts? Imagine being raped by your dead relatives. Do you fight thinking about it? Are you aware of the gap in awareness? Do you have DP/DR symptoms? If yes, which ones.

@SQAAD That's death bro. You have gaps of continuity in your awareness, that's nirvana. Every few seconds there's like a fraction of a second of non-existence.

Sorry for sounding insane: I'm looking for ways to induce strong pain, like SDS or Hot sauce, that doesn't damage the body. I want to test my equanimity levels. I'm gonna try hot hot sauce soon, but I was looking for other alternative safe methods. It's either too dangerous, or not painful enough or takes too long. Another issue with SDS is I can stop anytime, so I cannot surrender fully to the pain. Hot sauce is not that easy to stop.