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@allislove I -in my wildest dreams- didn't even wish or possibly could imagine it to be THAT fucking heavenly heaven. I thought that physical pain could just be transcended by full time monks to a small degree, but shit even pain is an incredibly petty thing to be afraid of. I would have never considered myself enlightened before, but this is the beginning (first stage) of enlightenment, I can feel it. I don't even desire to be in that state, and there is no earthly state that is comparable to that. I need to digest what I went through. Thank you!

@Moksha Yes, but I don`t realise it all the time throughout the day. @Mason Riggle I wonder if effortlessness can be all the time throughout hard activities. Maybe this effortlessness should be used to create more good habits...

Steven Bancarz claims to be have been a New-Ager/Mystic etc. He didn't practice what he preached: Buying material stuff, drugs, alcohol, suppressing feelings and thoughts, no real awakenings, except love maybe, no shadow work. Only when he totally surrendered he maybe saw a part of the source, and gave credit to jesus. Nobody who sees the nothingness can put it into relation with any of the "content". The sectarian circular reasoning he uses is basically what's wrong with religion and what has allowed it to survive that long.

@Leo Gura I would love to see you with other people interested (for or against) in Spirituality. Joe rogan follows you on twitter, have you already contacted him, or did he contact you? I'm sure he wants to talk to you about DMT and consciousness. This might even help you open your throat chakra...

@Mason Riggle I had a similar thought, often meditation happens by itself for me, but also regular day to day activities can happen without "me-doing-them". I believe (I don't know for sure) it is the effort that is involved that gives us the impression that we are either actively doing something or it happening passively or on it's own. By effort, I don't mean concentration, but more like the struggle of the ego? I honestly don't know how to put it into words. For example I'm not actively typing this: My mind seems to be thinking thoughts an my fingers do weird movements on their own. The fluidity of those things are incredible. I could type all day lol. Sometimes for a few seconds running happens on it's own, But running is effort I guess? ehmm... Actually I don't know, I should probably investigate the parts of "me" that are doing stuff.

Why do you believe that we cannot be just a cold observer in a nihilist materialist universe. I have had awakenings, science just calls it neurosis or psychosis. However it can be described as changes in perception. What makes you believe there is any more truth to it thanto anything else? Isn't truth just a word that doesn't always mean the same thing for everyone... Just a concept?

@Leo Gura I have had the nothingness awakening with eternity. I get that 100%. I'm not in it right now, but how would you paraphrase the word truth so I can understand what you guys mean? The metaphysical nature of reality? Raw input? I believe that it might be just a word-thing. I would never call that truth. What's the difference between saying metaphysical nature of reality and truth? What am I missing?

@Nahm @Nahm That's what I meant, wouldn't it be easier and more concrete to call it "perception/reality without filters" or "raw input". Or is what you guys call truth something else?

@Nahm my Point is Truth is only a word. There can be reality with filters and without filters. Truth is just a big word. It doesn't have the same meaning.

@trueself its definitely something but not kundalini. Kundalini is defined by a snake of energy crawling up the spine. Very intense.

@arlin That's because you are using it as an nihilistic escape from reality. I tend to do that too. What Kundalini showed me, is that I need to live my life to the fullest, and not escape from it by meditating. There is no way out, and apparently I was told that in every past life I wanted it to be the last, but then decided to reincarnate eventually. I still don't wish to reincarnate now, but I'll probably change my mind. We tend to feel like life is more suffering than pleasure.

Last month within a week I dreamt about 2 separate instances that became real the next day. Very specific things like that my broken coffee machine would suddenly start working again. Or that a specific person would threaten me to throw me off the balcony. Those things are not very common for me to say the least. Does anyone have those hyperintuitions regularly? I would love to hear your stories! And how can you cultivate that? I'm waiting to dream about winning the lottery to buy a ticket lol!

@Malekakisioannis Yes the problem is not all dreams are going to happen but some are. And this can lead to a real disaster, for example yesterday I dreamt about crashing my car. I can see how I could be terrified of driving today...

@lbranjord What specific symptoms do you have from DP/DR? DP/DR, is the dark night of the soul, the ego being afraid of the nothingness and being ripped into pieces during every episode.

@Arzack Tell us how you got there and what types of awakening you had (see leo's video about the facettes of enlightenment)

@Chris_1982 @Chris_1982 Does it feel like a very fast more subtle heartbeat? I have this in all my chakras It might be prana. Try pranayama before meditation and see if it increases. If you're able to make it bigger you could trigger a kundalini awakening. Try to make it your object of meditation if you feel ready for kundalini.

@Arzack You know this state won't probably be permanent right? I have seen people who have spent decades in and out of awoken states of consciousness. When they are out of it they desire to go back in. That's the difference between an awakening and enlightenment.

@cetus @cetus My sense if self is very subtle, but I get your point. @Breakingthewall On multiple occasions, I also wasn't really fully emerged into it either. God is such a big word, nothingness and infinite consciousness might be 2 aspects of God, but not the full picture (I hope). I want to be speechless after the God awakening.

Hello, I want a God-Awakening. Something is building up in my consciousness right now, I believe that I am close to an awakening, and I am looking for self inquiry methods specific for God. I would like to access "Access concentration" everytime before I do self inquiry. So I'd love to use a method that can be used while being in that deep state of concentration. Somehow I never got the awakening I wanted. The nothingness came because of a trauma, when I tried to focus on the nothingness I got the infinite consciousness and spent days without ego, and when I tried to meditate on inf. Consciousness I had a spontaneous kundalini awakening. Now unfortunately I cannot get those awakenings to come up regularly again, and would like to realize I am god. What can I do during meditation to find HIM. I am going to do that for 30 days and see what happens. I can't use psychedelics, because those might shoot me in the dark night of the soul again. I'm going to keep you posted.

@Fran11 I do self inquiry by focusing on an object I cannot identify if one comes up. I probably already had that during Access concentration I often have the focus on autopilot, it feels like there is no effort needed to stay in 100% focus, and the mind works by itself. Feels really good, but there aren't that many insights to get from that state of mind. I was also able to enter the first jhana multiple times but that was years ago.

@Breakingthewall Ego death mostly in the evening while eating. Only nothingness, I was told that this is basically God, but I don't think that was everything there is to it. Apparently during the God realisation you can only utter the word God. It just stopped happening after 6 months. No treatment, nothing.

@Breakingthewall I felt the presence of the infinite consciousness and smoked a blunt to "come down". It resulted in a spike in prana in my whole body, started and i paniked for hours. The next 6 months i had involuntary ego deaths everyday. Ego deaths were existential torture. Those 6 months were my dark night of the soul. Also called DP/DR After every ego death came the classic nothingness (as explained by shinzen young).

@FlowerNote We use the word/concept unreal for dreams for example. For things that happen when you are awake, we say they are real, because it's not a dream. This duality collapses. There is no difference between dream and awake, that's why we say everything is "unreal"

It is very possible, my consciousness sometimes shifts when I drink alcohol. Its often like a more intense form of self-inquiry. However, I don't know if it has any lasting effects. Alcohol numbs a lot. Alcohol and drugs cause a shift in perception, if you question that change in perception in the right moment, this can lead to a small awakening. You can also do this while sober, asking yourself if you feel drunk/high. Try to feel the thing that may be drunk/high.

I do Leo s self inquiry exercises regularly and inquire basically every "object" I perceive. I found 3 new methods things useful for me and 1 useful for a friend of mine (newbie). Don't do this for hours, if you notice something it should come really quick if you focus with all your attention on it. Tell me if you feel something. 1. "Am I high?" (Worked for the newbie right away) For those people who already took drugs, works with weed. Try to find out if you "feel high", use the basic grounding technique and really question if you are high. Using that you can question what a change of perception is, a "weird feeling" can come up, if it does, make it stronger, no matter how weird or bad it feels, continue to make it stronger... Focus on it or continue questioning (wondering) if you are high. 2. Realise the absurdity of life. If you think about everything you know, and how reality seems, how you just live your life with all these "things", and somehow it started and it will end. What was before what will be after. What is the difference between what you just thought and reality. Continue to go back and forth until you get that "weird feeling". Keep that weird feeling up again. 3. Compare Dream-Memory-Present: (Credits to Ryan Cropper for the dream) Remember a dream as vividly as possible, compare that to a few memories from your life. How does it feel different? What does it have in common. What were you in the dream/memory that you aren't in the present. Keep that weird feeling up again.