Endangered-EGO

The thing that reincarnates is consciousness, what you basically are. It's obvious and there's no mystery to it. To discover what is consciousness (me/I) is the hard part of the equation.

Fact is everyone is going to tell you it's Kundalini, but its not an awakening. Wait for the snake

@fopylo by experiencing it myself. There's also a little bit more to it. I think I was 30 days nofap when my K awakened. Also no sex in case you aren't abstinent, not sure about that though. Meditate with one pointedness of mind, wait for the stinging in your spine to come up, and then place your focus on it. It'll explode. @The0Self I have experienced piti, but it wasn't as intense as kundalini. A few years ago I was able to enter the first jhana for a few minutes every day. Kundalini is definitely forst jhana on steroids. However I didn't have a crown opening. What happens during the crown opening?

@Wilhelm44 This is actually a free-will question, and to answer your question: Yes, you experience everything happening automatically. just like you don't decide at what rate your heart beats, you don't decide if you follow a thought with an act. Once you realise that, you'll think "oh shit I am not in control" automatically too, and it is kind of weird but really fulfilling. Just an example: I think about making an example for your question - I say imagine you contemplate a choice between whether to hurt yourself or not - What makes the decision is the pain that comes up when hurting yourself. Or thoughts about the pain that will/can come up take the decision. That's how a functional mind works, in always finds balance. A dysfunctional ego mind, would have more steps, but in the end it's the same process. WIthout an I, the process is just shorter, and you are aware of it happening on it's own. Just play around with free will, inquiry into it, contemplate it. What decides? Do thoughts decide? What decides which thoughts to do. It's not a lot of work, and doesn't take a lot of time. It's also really curios to observe how everything works. However I am not in that "state" right now, or at least I am not aware of everything happening on it's own, so it comes and goes unfortunately. The ego doesn't want to stay in that state forever, because it loses it's illusion of control. If anyone know other ways to enter that state, feel free to give tips and practices

The issue is thinking that it's all there is to it. It's not. It's Kundalini, but it's not a Kundalini awakening. It's slowly crawling up the spine in a snake like manner, and usually goes up the the naval chakra and then waits a little bit.

@Nate0068 I can only talk about my own experience on eternity. Eternity is an instant. It's not that every instsnt repeats indefinitely, but the fact that the now is infinite, timeless. This sounds very yin yang. But eternity is in every instant. Another way to phrase it is:"time doesn't exist". Those things I mentioned can only be understood through direct experience. Then they make sense. There is no possibility to first understand them conceltually to finally experience them. It's the other way around. Experience it to understand it. "Understanding it to experience it" is a fools errand, this never works and is never the whole picture. You can only communicate it with people who already have experienced it. -This is explained a lot, but not often enough. Awakenings lead to epiphanies, not the other way around.

@Leo Gura just curious. Have you already had a sober Kundalini awakening? Not the new age Kundalini (because if everything is Kundalini, then nothing is), but the snake of pure physical energy crawling up the spine, causing changes in perception and consciousness? I have never heard you talk about it's potential, except in your "the dangers of spiritual *practice*" video briefly. It's actually one of the easier "awakenings", but a lot of buddhists never mention it, and most psychonauts only experience it during trips. There's a debate still going on, if Kundalini symptoms/kryias heal the body or not, I believe it does. The book about Kundalini on your booklist doesn't really reflect what I experienced (at all) and strangely a lot of psychotic people confuse their delusions/hallucinations with Kundalini. Don't ask me why. What's your perspective on it? Note: Not every energy going up the spine is Kundalini, I was also fooled into thinking some energies were Kundalini, which turned out to be wrong, omly after I had an actual K awakening and a teacher explained to me what K is and what K isn't.

I am curious, and would love to try it, but my superstitious beliefs about getting energy oder shaktipat from someone else makes me too afraid to try. Maybe someone could talk that out of me.

@anxious_turtle Damn bro, you were so close to a Kundalini awakening. You already had the prana activated. This is going to be a fun and terrifying ride if you go through. Instead of moving the energy. Get to one pointesness on the mind, while fully surrendering and place it on the piercing sensation in your lower spine that is activated by that prana vibration energy once it shows up. Forget the orgasm you had, Kundalini is like being penetrated by a Goddess, having an orgasm in your whole spine. Word's can't describe the beauty. There's more to it. Inform yourself about Kundalini as much as you can before you do that, because it can be a terrifying ride. By far the most pleasant experience I ever had. Not sure if you already experienced ego death or nothingness, but your mind will freak out once you have kundalini + ego death + kryias combined and don't know what's going to happen next.

Okay, I would love this to be true. However, for now I haven't been able to consciously do this once! I tried, but I have yet to experience it. When I was "trapped" into the nothingness, I had that worldview. I don't know what exactly I tried to manifest, but I haven't had the "wow"-moment it happend. At least I couldn't consciously create it. However I already dreamt about something very specific and absurd, that happened in real life the following day. On the other hand, I also dreamt about stuff, which I feared would happen, that fortunately didn't happen at all (Car crash). Do you have anectodal evidence for your method? I would love to hear it in details. I am actually more afraid of it working than it not working, that would terrify me. I fear it being selling my soul to the devil lol. Do you have other easy methods I could try? I'm going to buy a lottery ticket and meditate on the numbers, but I am afraid of karma backlash.

@fopylo Hey, I have similar things happening, not only during the do-nothging meditation, but also during the day. So here are a few tips from different teachers. Adyashanti: effortless effort, just center your self effortlessly and when you are lost in thought, center yourself back. Shinzen young: If labeling makes you too racey, do-nothing. If do-nothing makes you too spacey, label. Basically in the do-nothing meditation you discover, that every "object" is an additional layer of the onion. There's no more you controling the thinking as there is you in stopping thoughts, or controling awareness. You can simply observe how thoughts are being "suppressed" automatically, with curiosity on how your mind does that. Doing this will untangle the minds always manipulating itself.

@Leo Gura so basically Nietzsche's eternal recurrence, and of course not in materialusm but idealism. That doesn't sound very comforting haha. I would love to know of the objects of experience end after physical death, but I assume the answe is not communic-able. Am I looking into the right direction?

You're welcome! Man I am so excited for that video. Curt has a talent for asking the right questions! This is going to be great. @herghly Rupert himself said that Curt brought things he wasn't aware of to his attention. I didn't even know I had those questions! If you liked that one, you should watch the Bernardo Kastrup videos. He's not enlightened, but he made the advaida vedanta idealism philosophy accessible.

I found this channel "Theories of Everything with Curt Jaimungal" a few months ago, and DAMN, he asks the right questions, does the research etc. He made a 5 hour podcast with Rupert Spira. This was amazing. Also very open-minded of course. I recommend everyone to watch his video with Rupert Spira, and also those with Bernardo Kastrup. Also, he would be interested in having a conversation with Leo. (If you are still willing to make "guest appearances")

No it isn't, just the ideas we have about death are imaginary. There's a difference between saying death is imaginary or "death is beyond our imagination". Eternity may be beyond time, and death might be beyond life, but one day life will end in some way. That's what orange and upwards refers to as death. Even if the ideas about it don't reflect reality, it still is going to happen. The IDEAS about it are imaginary, but death itself is not imo. What do you define as imaginary. @WaveInTheOcean I will go through mahasamadi once I am old and have no desire to live anymore. I guess that once I am able to reach it, it's probably okay to do it. I've been through "eternity+suffering", I don't think that it leads anywhere. I would have to do my research, but I still have about 50 years to do so.

@Flim I'm lucky I found his channel!

@herghly Well Curt is obviously the most qualified for such an interview atm. 5 hours with Rupert Spira and the 5 hours were really insightful. The biggest problem is that it's impossible to communicate everything in a few hours. Curt is very intensively concentrated for hours and asks questions I didn't even know I had. Rupert said it perfectly. Curt made him aware of things he didn't know he subconsciously believed, because of his ways of asking questions. 5 hours aren't enough, but it's a good start. Watch it,you'll see how revolutionary those conversations are.

@Leo Gura Did you contact Curt? Can we gope to see you on that podcast one day? I'm already excited!

Watch shinzen Young's videos on dpdr on youtube. It's basically the experience of nothingness. God without love. He explains it. He also tells you how to get out of it. Love the tranquility to death or reconstruct a false sense of self.

@Slifon dark night of the soul used to refere to DP/DR. So don't do research into that because you won't find good sources. People refer to dark night as a struggle or depression, which is not the same at all. What you describe is the dissatisfaction every ego faces once in a while. If it gets too bad, get therapy. If you are only looking for answers continue seeking.

@diamondpenguin joe rogan is the perfect stereotype of some drunk average guy at the bar who asks normie questions about a given subject. Not very practical but entertaining.

@Someone here You forget that you have unconscious beliefs you didn't know you have. Even if a part of you knows that you can never know, another part of your mind still conditioned to believe certain things. Contemplation uncovers those underlying beliefs. Just to list some of my subconscious beliefs: -I have to be truthful -The outside world is dangerous -Alcohol hurts me badly -People have the same ways of thinking, reasoning and feeling as me.

Hey, I got the Johnson vaccine 2 days ago and had a little bit of fever and a very bad headache. (Still worth it though, not antivaxx). I was in my bed and couldn't sleep. What happened is I got so much carried away by the pain and suffering, that I just have no choice but to surrender, that type of surrender is impossible under normal circumstances or self-inflicting discomfort, because there's always a way out. I then as usual realised that everything happens on it's own, but my ego, afraid of eternity then pulled me back by adding a layer, forcefully thinking. As a child when I was really sick I already experienced eternity and infinity, it was horrible. Horrible because eternity + suffering = hell. Do you guys have an idea how to surrender "that much" without having to be in 'unbearable' pain? Also, my ego is in control 24/7. I'm not sure if every non-enlightened person does that, but I am rarely in a state of flow and my attention is 24/7 on the false self. Except when driving then it's a little better. I have experienced identifying as the higher self and everything happens on it's own a few times, I need to find a way to feel myself into it during the day. Does anyone has a method to do that? Best thing I found yet is shinzen Young's unified mindfulness practice. No psychedelics please.

I also notice that often when I am in thought or in flow, I stop to put my attention on the lower self instead of continuing to do stuff. Wtf is wrong with me.

Because men are more like autists. Women are more intuitive. The big bang is an relativist, autist, simplistic explanation for everything in existence. What women feel and can't articulate is that energy exploding into existence is too much reductionism for accepting it as an explanation for everything thst exists. Only in the west people who are scientifically minded explain things in terms of another. It's the backlash from religion. In india and the east they haven't had that backlash yet. It's easier to see the problem if we can count the turtles. But if we csn see 100000 turtles all the way down, we are just going to refer to the last turtle carrying the earth (big bang). Leo said it best: "the better the model the bigger the problem".