Endangered-EGO

It wasn't even an experience for me. Nothingness is different from that realisation!

@Blackhawk I will read what I just wrote every day. Lol Leo's God's guided meditation made me realise exactly that. You're not a fucking human. It's so obvious. If I could write a bible for future me. I'd just write that down over and over again in different words. I just gave myself a great idea about a book that I am writing. This post, but in 100 pages over and over again.

You are not a fucking human being! You are not a person!

@Someone here It's a measurement of some movements. Just as size is relative to other sizes, movement is relative to other movements. When your heart beats slow it beats slow relative to other hearts and to the sun cycle. Time is that relativity of movement.

Movement. Things happen. When certain thi gs happen we get up, when other things happen we eat, when other things happen wr get tired an go to sleep.

Following.

As if you had never asked yourself why you do all of that. I hated the nothingness, until I lost it and wanted it back. Imo it's a good question. It's probably even a necessary step for most people. My ignorant answer would be, it's not good for anything except it's the escape from ego-suffering.

@impulse9 A panic attack on weed actually shot me into nothingness and the dark night of the soul for 6 months straight. However I doubt, that most people who consume it ever reach that level. Take a look at cannabis induced DP/DR. I don't recommend doing what I did, because it comes with suffering, and after my ego came back it got very disfunctional and led to huge amounts of suffering.

I have suffered a lot post nothingness and I suffer most of the time when I am not in nonduality. My mother had a stroke, couldn't swallow any fluids and begged for water 24/7 in the hospital. She didn't get any enlightenment from it, and sais we're in hell here. She suffers, I suffer. I start to doubt that suffering leads anywhere. I'd rather have euthanasia than go through the same experience that she sent through. I torture myself with sauna, cold water and strong determination sitting. Suffering still is suffering. Physical and Emotional pain still leads to suffering. I'm not going to hurt myself anymore, I'm going to take hot showers and be really comfortable. I'm going to take sleeping pills instead of being tired. I thought that suffering leads to awakening, but my biggest awakenings weren't triggered from suffering and suffering never led me anywhere. Asceticism is a fools errand. I want liberation without suffering, and I don't know what path to chose now. I can't anticipate suffering and I can't find a solution to it. I'm exhausted from fighting an uphill battle. Is there a path of surrender that isn't islam? Or something you can point me towards in my situation?

@anderson Watch bernardo kastrups videos on theories of everything with Curt jaimungal on yt. He explains idealism best. Rest is experiential.

@Giulio Bevilacqua I had pretty mild symptoms, the bliss was way better than any of the mild symptoms. Just don't drink too much coffeine or nicotine or anything that excites the nervous system. If you are on no-fap, you can try to release some energy. If you have physical symptoms, then go to a doctor. Kryias are not only a symptom from Kundalini, but also a sign of nervous system disease, so you should get that checked out. Relax, it will pass and enjoy the ride. I recommend the "Awakened kundalini support group" on facebook. They are truly gifted in telling you the right things you need to hear.

The thing that reincarnates is consciousness, what you basically are. It's obvious and there's no mystery to it. To discover what is consciousness (me/I) is the hard part of the equation.

Fact is everyone is going to tell you it's Kundalini, but its not an awakening. Wait for the snake

@fopylo by experiencing it myself. There's also a little bit more to it. I think I was 30 days nofap when my K awakened. Also no sex in case you aren't abstinent, not sure about that though. Meditate with one pointedness of mind, wait for the stinging in your spine to come up, and then place your focus on it. It'll explode. @The0Self I have experienced piti, but it wasn't as intense as kundalini. A few years ago I was able to enter the first jhana for a few minutes every day. Kundalini is definitely forst jhana on steroids. However I didn't have a crown opening. What happens during the crown opening?

@Wilhelm44 This is actually a free-will question, and to answer your question: Yes, you experience everything happening automatically. just like you don't decide at what rate your heart beats, you don't decide if you follow a thought with an act. Once you realise that, you'll think "oh shit I am not in control" automatically too, and it is kind of weird but really fulfilling. Just an example: I think about making an example for your question - I say imagine you contemplate a choice between whether to hurt yourself or not - What makes the decision is the pain that comes up when hurting yourself. Or thoughts about the pain that will/can come up take the decision. That's how a functional mind works, in always finds balance. A dysfunctional ego mind, would have more steps, but in the end it's the same process. WIthout an I, the process is just shorter, and you are aware of it happening on it's own. Just play around with free will, inquiry into it, contemplate it. What decides? Do thoughts decide? What decides which thoughts to do. It's not a lot of work, and doesn't take a lot of time. It's also really curios to observe how everything works. However I am not in that "state" right now, or at least I am not aware of everything happening on it's own, so it comes and goes unfortunately. The ego doesn't want to stay in that state forever, because it loses it's illusion of control. If anyone know other ways to enter that state, feel free to give tips and practices

The issue is thinking that it's all there is to it. It's not. It's Kundalini, but it's not a Kundalini awakening. It's slowly crawling up the spine in a snake like manner, and usually goes up the the naval chakra and then waits a little bit.

@Nate0068 I can only talk about my own experience on eternity. Eternity is an instant. It's not that every instsnt repeats indefinitely, but the fact that the now is infinite, timeless. This sounds very yin yang. But eternity is in every instant. Another way to phrase it is:"time doesn't exist". Those things I mentioned can only be understood through direct experience. Then they make sense. There is no possibility to first understand them conceltually to finally experience them. It's the other way around. Experience it to understand it. "Understanding it to experience it" is a fools errand, this never works and is never the whole picture. You can only communicate it with people who already have experienced it. -This is explained a lot, but not often enough. Awakenings lead to epiphanies, not the other way around.

@Leo Gura just curious. Have you already had a sober Kundalini awakening? Not the new age Kundalini (because if everything is Kundalini, then nothing is), but the snake of pure physical energy crawling up the spine, causing changes in perception and consciousness? I have never heard you talk about it's potential, except in your "the dangers of spiritual *practice*" video briefly. It's actually one of the easier "awakenings", but a lot of buddhists never mention it, and most psychonauts only experience it during trips. There's a debate still going on, if Kundalini symptoms/kryias heal the body or not, I believe it does. The book about Kundalini on your booklist doesn't really reflect what I experienced (at all) and strangely a lot of psychotic people confuse their delusions/hallucinations with Kundalini. Don't ask me why. What's your perspective on it? Note: Not every energy going up the spine is Kundalini, I was also fooled into thinking some energies were Kundalini, which turned out to be wrong, omly after I had an actual K awakening and a teacher explained to me what K is and what K isn't.

I am curious, and would love to try it, but my superstitious beliefs about getting energy oder shaktipat from someone else makes me too afraid to try. Maybe someone could talk that out of me.

@anxious_turtle Damn bro, you were so close to a Kundalini awakening. You already had the prana activated. This is going to be a fun and terrifying ride if you go through. Instead of moving the energy. Get to one pointesness on the mind, while fully surrendering and place it on the piercing sensation in your lower spine that is activated by that prana vibration energy once it shows up. Forget the orgasm you had, Kundalini is like being penetrated by a Goddess, having an orgasm in your whole spine. Word's can't describe the beauty. There's more to it. Inform yourself about Kundalini as much as you can before you do that, because it can be a terrifying ride. By far the most pleasant experience I ever had. Not sure if you already experienced ego death or nothingness, but your mind will freak out once you have kundalini + ego death + kryias combined and don't know what's going to happen next.

Okay, I would love this to be true. However, for now I haven't been able to consciously do this once! I tried, but I have yet to experience it. When I was "trapped" into the nothingness, I had that worldview. I don't know what exactly I tried to manifest, but I haven't had the "wow"-moment it happend. At least I couldn't consciously create it. However I already dreamt about something very specific and absurd, that happened in real life the following day. On the other hand, I also dreamt about stuff, which I feared would happen, that fortunately didn't happen at all (Car crash). Do you have anectodal evidence for your method? I would love to hear it in details. I am actually more afraid of it working than it not working, that would terrify me. I fear it being selling my soul to the devil lol. Do you have other easy methods I could try? I'm going to buy a lottery ticket and meditate on the numbers, but I am afraid of karma backlash.

@fopylo Hey, I have similar things happening, not only during the do-nothging meditation, but also during the day. So here are a few tips from different teachers. Adyashanti: effortless effort, just center your self effortlessly and when you are lost in thought, center yourself back. Shinzen young: If labeling makes you too racey, do-nothing. If do-nothing makes you too spacey, label. Basically in the do-nothing meditation you discover, that every "object" is an additional layer of the onion. There's no more you controling the thinking as there is you in stopping thoughts, or controling awareness. You can simply observe how thoughts are being "suppressed" automatically, with curiosity on how your mind does that. Doing this will untangle the minds always manipulating itself.

@Leo Gura so basically Nietzsche's eternal recurrence, and of course not in materialusm but idealism. That doesn't sound very comforting haha. I would love to know of the objects of experience end after physical death, but I assume the answe is not communic-able. Am I looking into the right direction?

You're welcome! Man I am so excited for that video. Curt has a talent for asking the right questions! This is going to be great. @herghly Rupert himself said that Curt brought things he wasn't aware of to his attention. I didn't even know I had those questions! If you liked that one, you should watch the Bernardo Kastrup videos. He's not enlightened, but he made the advaida vedanta idealism philosophy accessible.

I found this channel "Theories of Everything with Curt Jaimungal" a few months ago, and DAMN, he asks the right questions, does the research etc. He made a 5 hour podcast with Rupert Spira. This was amazing. Also very open-minded of course. I recommend everyone to watch his video with Rupert Spira, and also those with Bernardo Kastrup. Also, he would be interested in having a conversation with Leo. (If you are still willing to make "guest appearances")