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@Keryo Koffa I guess it's an interesting way of calling it a distraction. This dream is a distraction, even this conversation. I do beleive desires, no matter how primordial or even selfish are there to teach us to evolve in our way of achieving them. In fact a had a very awakening myself into the fact that the only thing that separates us from our desires are the distinctions we create in our mind from them by giving them the authority to remain out of reach, or to remain in the state of not having them. If we can achieve the state of having them this seperation held first in our consciousness will collapse and they can be easily manifested. I awakened to a hierarchy of desires, each go higher and higher even reaching into higher dreams that are transcendent of this one. The more we can awaken to our own godlike power locked away by illusions, we can realise each of these desires and shed more illusions of "limitation" and awaken. Desires are actually themselves an unavoidable consequence of being finite, and since the finite self is fundamentally false then you are left forever to feel desire until all infinity is once again fulfilled. They start of egoic and shallow and work their way up to higher desires for union and so on. I guess were left to burn that karma off.

@Keryo Koffa karmic ties?

@Keryo Koffa sounds pretty trippy. I find it funny how I come back down to "reality" and I'm unable to remember god mode even from the trips. It's like trying to remember a dream.

@Ero Sounds about right

@numbersinarow Also what makes you think I haven't experienced a degree of psychological torture myself? Whether through life or the past 200 trips? What makes you think I havent been at "0" on whatever dumb scale? I've been suicidal at certain points in my life and even in very challenging nightmarish trips. Also who can classify what 0 is? The degree of torture is relative. What is torturous in one state is paradise compared to another torturious state.

@numbersinarow the nature of reality is infinite consciousness, that means an infinitely tortorous hell is part of reality wether its psychological or physical or beyond even whats perceivable, but doesn't make it non illusory. It's doesnt make it non illusory what you experience if you take a high dose of every psychedelic. Nothing is real only the infinite possibility of consciousness itself, and that is love.

@Jehovah increases correct.

@Jehovah increases Not in the absolute sense, but there are distinctions within consciousness and labels for them. Subconscious is just a label for the part of your mind you're unaware of in your waking state. Correct.

@halfknots absolutely

@halfknots because it opens the door to choosing what reality you experience in real practical life. It'd not the case of yeah I trip and now I'm back and everything is solid and I have to go by the same practical laws it actually opens the door to having more control of the dream of life which ive heard said many times on these forums is impossible for the ego which it is, but if new ideas and thoughts where impressed into your subconscious your life itself can radically change as a reflection of the subconscious. You have the tools to manifest whatever reality you want. I look at like like this. Consciousness in its truest form is infinite light projecting infinity, its infinite potential to be anything. Your sense of self and ego is like a film frame or a lens that distorts the light to illuminate itself. That means that the life that you experience is your ego, even things that are unrelated like galaxies, or politics or whatever. So if you change your sense of self on a deep subconscious level the film frame will change and so will the life or reality being illuminated. If this is explored it makes a lot of technical and practical info taught on these forums olbsolite, as there is no need to fight the life that you yourself are illuminating. You just have to change to be the person aligned with what you want and that will be projected outwards from source onto the screen of space which is your life.

@Jehovah increases this was in pill form so it was a powder which I emptied into tea. It was about 3 hours of actual tripping but it moved through my system fast.

Last week I took 20g of mushrooms from 1g capsules. I emptied the powder out into a tea and drank it. Drinking the powder almost immediately gets it into my system with no digestion and causes a much more intense peak. This won't just be a trip report, but also a lenghy report of a very profound insight that could be very benifical. During this trip an entire new way of looking at the world opened which ive never heard anyone talk about on here or anyone who does psychedelics talk about. I've spent the last week really contemplating what it was that I seemed to gain understanding of because it really knocked me off my feet and was so paradigm shattering that integrating it has been as mind boggling as experiencing it. This way of seeing the world is so alien and controversial that I've put it off from posting on here or anywhere because it's sounds so magical and fantastical. Please keep in mind I have over 200 trips under my belt and this trip was like a mega sum total of everything I have learnt and integrated in the past. I have perhaps gained one of the greatest peices of wisdom that could possibly work as a master key to all things in life. This is still under a lot of contemplation however. Trip report The come up - I drank the tea and within minutes i started feeling immediatly the state of no mind. I lay on my bed. There was a sense of dread and panic on the come up as the room I was in very quickly started to transform into a liquidy morphing entity of confusion. My ego rapidly started to disolve as i decended and melted into the madness that was all that was. This happens incredibly fast as the psilocin was immediately in my blood stream and shooting into my brain at such high amounts with such speed. The peak - Eventually my panic melted away as I realised how stupid it was to be afraid of myself, and by myself I mean all reality. My mind. My consciousness. It all became one and I was home. I fell into an even deeper state of love than ive ever felt of off previous trips. It was all just me. It was all just love. How could I be so stupid? Why did i ever fear anything at all? The illusion of seperation and lack evaporated and was so ridiculous to me. The idea that there was any power outside of me was so illusory yet such a profoundly deep level of hypnosis that I broke free from. My mind was ripped to shreds. Language, symbols, sounds, physical objects. You name it. Anything that was any sense of "reality" was dismantled and was scattered across infinity. I was back. I was here all along and this was always me. It was the most real thing I've ever felt. My entire life and all of time was just a single thought. I can't even say at this point that it felt like an eternity because time made no sense. Eventually I started seeing an ocean of the most beautiful neon geometric patterns form into an orchestrated structure of dimensions that made up my entire consciousness (sorry i really can't explain what I saw). The most bewildering bueaty took form around me. As I started to feel a sense of self return these patterns of neon colours started to take form as a body. They started to form arms and hands and I became a divine entity sitting on a throne. I wasn't merely flying through some dmt realm I was the king of it and in the centre. I was the most beautiful majestic, most powerful being in all of existance. I stated to feel my physical body once again shaking on my bed at the ecstasy. The descent back down - This is where it gets juicy. What appeared in my awareness were these infinitely interconnected strings that connected my whole reality together. Or this dream of my life. I saw how every single thing from my thoughts, my emotions, my I sense and idea of who I am, time, space, my idea of what the world is and other people were all connected to each other in ways I never thought I could imagine are possible. I cannot stress enough that there is no seperation. I felt in that moment I was reinventing my life and all the laws of the dream. This next part is very radical and may be controversial, but never the less, this is my experience. As I was coming down i went through a life review of some sort. I realised that every single event, situation, person I've met, beleif ive had. Everything that has ever happened to me was actually just a mirror reflection of who I was at that time. It was a reflection of my identity, thoughts, emotions, ego, sense of self. I dont mean something as simple as "yeah you attract who you are, your friends are gonna be an extension of you duh". No I mean random people that you come across, events, or opportunities or even accidents are all direct reflections of you and there are no coincidences to anything that happens. Even though there is no logical explanation of how an event that seems to "accidently" happen to you, it is however a direct reflection of you. I became so aware of this that there is no debate about it. You are just not aware that this happens. I went through so many examples in my own life of this happening. This is controversial because the consensus is on here: youre imagining reality and your ego has nothing to do with what you experience. This is not true. Your sense of self, your thoughts, your ego is directly connected behind the scenes by strings (metaphorically speaking) to every other aspect of your life that holds this entire bubble of reality or dream together. That means that making changes to your mind doesnt just impact the decisions you make, but the entire dream your living in. The problem is most of this is happening on the subconscious level that waking everyday conscious does not operate on. Imagine a pyramid for an analogy. Imagine that the pyramid holds thoughts and ideas. Now imagine that the pyramid illuminates a hologram of all the thoughts and ideas. Now imagine that right at the top of the pyramid there is a cut off point separating the top part into a small portion and the bottom part into a larger portion. The top part is the part of your mind you are aware of in real life and how you make decisions or your conscious mind. The bottom portion are the subconscious and unconscious mind. Like traumas or ideas that still run that you are not aware of. Now imagine the pyramid illuminating a hologram based on itself and using its top portion to fight and control the hologram even though it's mostly being illuminated by itself and the bottom portion; the part its not aware off. Well if you can understand that analogy, thats what your doing in your life. Don't beleive me contemplate it for yourself. Contemplate if there are any real life examples of how the outside has reflected who you are or where you are in life like a mirror. I realised that mastering your own mind and your inner state of being independantly from external influence or validation is what gives you access to an insane level of power in your own life as everything comes from within. I'm not saying become arrogant and shut yourself out from the world. I mean simply by mastering your being; your approach to life can become much more effortless with less conflict as the world mirrors your being. Another thing is you can look at situations, people or events that you attract as messengers telling you who you are at that time. I would like to elaborate on this so much more but I dont think I could fit it all here. I will just say that before I get objections look at your own life and contemplate events that have reflected yourself. Look at others, try to see what's in their minds and look at their outside circumstances. Look at people who are doing well and ask "do these circumstances reflect how they see themselves" and do the same for people who are opposite. Thanks for reading

For me personally acid, 2cb, RCs, MDMA, without a shadow of a doubt. Shrooms ive found to do the opposite if anything. There was bobbys perspective on YouTube who made a vid claiming 30g of shrooms healed his broken dick and an incurable disease miraculously but he took the vid down for whatever reason. I heard one incident about acid healing a womans stroke years ago, hearsay or not I stand that acid is very taxing on the body however. One thing I will add is that my breathing changes on trips. I naturally exhale and hold when heavy tripping, even without noticing like my body has a natural symbiosis with peak states. I looked into this and soma breathwork mimics a very similar breathing pattern and is researched to find evidence that the body releases stem cells after long periods of held exhalation. NOT CLAIMING PSYCHS DO THIS OR HAVE ANY EVIDENCE THEY HAVE DONE THIS FOR ME. I just want to point the link out as I find it interesting and always feel like "source" is filling my body with life in this symbiotic state. Again no claims just interesting link to add.

Mushrooms

@Davino Keep in mind ive had close to 200 trips in the past. Though a minority are very large doses. If I was to go through all the profound experience ive had Id be here for a while. Ive had a lot of these awakenings before but not to the same degree. The reason why this trip is so profound is because it was built of off many other trips and realisations (also having weed, although not a psychedelic; definitely amplified the experience and I find synergies very well with shrooms). This trip felt deeper like a sum total of all my previous trips into an explosion of insight and awakenings deeper than before. I doubt many would come close to this level on their first ever shroom trip. I know I definitely didn't. It also took many years of integration, contemplation and reconstructing my world view many times. Either way I appreciate the breakdown and the read from you my friend 👌👍