Shiva99

@Johnny5 @Galyna I'm meditating 1 hour every morning already.

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Make a list but keep it realistic. Don't allow yourself to startup your pc or whatever before you complete the list.

You mean a vision board right? Or is a dream board something different.

Yea several, but it was not enough. My ego came back pretty quickly. I say it lasted about a day. What if i don't know what i want anymore?

I ment that i have a crazy monkey-mind all day if i don't meditate every day . My sessions are pretty good.

I don't know what i enjoy anymore. I've been trying to find out but it's not working. I had a passion for Psychology, and after doing the LP course i wanted to become a Psychologist, but learning about nonduality ruined it all for me. I had a dreamboard and all, but it doesn't resonate with me anymore. I can't get back the same zest i once had. Yes. Doing all of these except for the breathing. Also running 5k daily.

I don't enjoy it at all. I have to force myself almost every day to do it. But what other choice do i have? Total and insane monkey mind all day no thanks. It doesn't work for me like that. If everything in my life needs to be done out of sheer enjoyment, i don't do anything and sleep all day.

Hmm yea i see what you are saying. Sacrifices have to be made tho. I'm waking up around 5am, so i can get my hour of meditation in, before doing anything else. That's only because i'm not working right now. Back when i would have a job i would wake up at 4am, just so i could get my meditation in every day. Not sure. I began seeing results after 2-3 months when i started doing 1 hour every day. Everyone is different though. Maybe try not focussing on the benefits too much.

Have you been consistently meditating every day for 6 years? If so, Why are you still meditating for only 20mins a day? This could be a huge factor in your progress. I highly advice you to increase meditation time up to at least 1 hour a day. 20mins is not nearly enough to reap the benefits immo. I noticed a big difference when i upgraded my meditation habit from 20min to 1 hour. I can't even get into a good session if i only go for around 20mins because of too much monkeymind. Longer sessions up to 1 hour totally get me into the zone almost everytime. You can also try out different meditation techniques. Maybe the one you are doing is not fitted for you.

Oh man this brings back some bad memories. The first time i ever gambled online, i only deposited like 20 euros and got some extra bonusmoney to play with. I was playing on a slot, and after 30-45mins i got up to 1100 euros. I kept playing and reached an amount of 1400 euros. At this point i was totally lost and in a gambling haze. At the same time i was already planning on quitting soon, and what i would buy and do with the money i've had just won. I kept playing, and without realizing it, 4 hours went by. In the end i lost all of it and more. I've had plenty of these moments happening to me, always starting out with only about 20-50 euros, telling myself i would immediately cashout my winnings, but never did. If i would have cashed out all my winnings everytime i gambled online, i would totally be living a different life right now. I think in the end i've put in about 4k in total, but if i would have cashed out my winnings i think i would have been up over 10k. For some reason i grew out of it because i got tired of the same pattern happening over and over again. However for most people this is not a possibility and they need to seek help. Gambling is the real devil, especially if you can't stop yourself from putting in more money if you lose, or cashing out your winnings if you win, without playing more. Highly advice you to seek out help in real life if you can't quit on your own. There is also something called Gamcare. Here is the link https://www.gamcare.org.uk/forum/?cn-reloaded=1 You can call them for free. Goodluck!

I've been rejected so much, that i think i've created a complex around finding a job. At this point it's very hard for me to apply for a job, or even go to a temporary agency because i've been rejected so much. Whenever i go to a job interview, it always seems to be just fine, they say i'm a good candidate, but yet they always pick someone else for the job, or never call me back. My motivation to get employed is almost none existent at this point, and it's ruining me. I'm sick of being unemployed, but no matter what i do i can't get out of this rut it seems. Whenever i have to call now, or go to an interview something totally blocks. I can't do it anymore for some reason.

What have you done so far in order to try and change this?

The Power of Now - Eckhart Tolle Psycho-Cybernetics - Maxwell Maltz Can't Hurt Me - David Goggins

I highly suggest getting the basics set straight. Start a workout routine for 3 times a week, 30 mins per session. This can be done at home, in a gym,... My advise is to start a running program. Couch to 5k program is good for this, you can Google it if you want. It takes some discipline, but if you do this correctly, it will help a lot already with your mood and overall health. If you discipline yourself and run on a set schedule it will also help you a lot to get the rest of your life in order, so do it. Also start meditating for 20mins daily. No excuses. Best done immediately after waking up. Leo has a good video on this: Last but not least: sleep and wake up at the same time everyday. Preferably wake up without an alarm clock. Try to eat healthy and cut out all the crap, junkfood and processed food. Eat lots of fruits and vegetables, no refined sugar, and drink plenty of water daily. Do these 3/4 things for a couple of months and you will start seeing a big improvement in your mood and generall health which sets a good foundation to get you going. Goodluck!

Can you share which ones?

I wonder if you would say the same if i would throw you on the street, in a group of heavy drug addicted homeless people.

I like how that sounds. But, would you say the same to a drug addict, homeless person or someone who is terminally ill dieng from cancer?

I'm meeting up with a coach 2 times a month. We've been through many resumes together. It's just not working. My bad work history with depression and anxiety is still ruining my prospects to this day.

Been looking for several months. I have coaches that i meetup with, and they can't believe i still haven't land myself a job. They tell me i'm one of the guys that send out the most job applications. Yea what are the alternatives? I don't know. All i know is that i'm going crazy and i'm deeply ashamed because i'm on benefits right now. Being on benefits is killing me inside everyday. I'm so ashamed of it. I'm too conscientious to not care being on benefits.

Like what? A miracle? Lol.

They don't differ if you are addicted. It's all about the chemicals that get released when you have real sex with a real human being. It's about the bonding and the release of oxytocin. For an addict even real sex can be the same as simply jerking it, because of the pathways that get activated in his/her brain. I suggest reading the book: "Cupid's poisoned arrow" by Marnia Robinson. Explains a whole lot. I've also heard that fleshlights come pretty close to the real thing, sometimes even better than the real thing. It's pretty obvious that it doesn't lead to anything good. I feel like you will simply just train your brain over time to use a plastic toy instead of the real thing, and it doesn't require any effort from your part, so it's the perfect escape from pain for the brain.

Quit it. Abstain from masturbation and porn for at least 90 days and see if it helps.

Get rid of social media. Comparing yourself with others is stupid. Everyone has their unique path and pace. People only put their best self on social media. They hide all the bad stuff. It's fake. Start filling your consciousness with positive vibes.

I was reading a book, and i caught myself reading a whole paragraph, literally not remembering anything of what i just read. This is happening a lot lately, and it's pretty annoying. It almost never happens if i read immediately after my meditation session, but it's not possible for me to always read after meditating. What could this be? I notice that i have a lot more thoughts when this happens too.