Shiva99

Can you describe to me what a normal human being is?

No. I think society is brainwashing us into what a "decent life" must look like, thus indoctrinating us with a lot of crap and bullshit that over time we think we want and need, but doesn't fit what we actually need.

Like you have a choice. And if you still think you do, totally change the mood you are in right now and start giving a lot of fucks again. Choose right now to be very energetic and stop being lazy. Let me know if it worked btw. The big question is if you really want to be successful in life, or is that something the big herd of sheep indoctrinated me with since i was born? and if you still think you want to, it might be a good idea to contemplate on why you want to be so successful after all. Why is it so important to be successful? What if i don't become successful and my life becomes a total mess?

I must be drunk because i don't understand anything of what you just wrote.

What's wrong with a normal relaxed workout? Why are you drinking coffee to fuel an agressive, fasted exercise session?

A heart can be full of bullshit too, just saying.

Notice how your ego is now comforted because someone else said something is ok. You have a belief going that being lazy is bad or wrong. It's not. Go deeper and ask yourself why it's wrong to be lazy. Kill the belief. It's your warder right now.

You don't need goals. Goals are from a seperate self that thinks there is something to gain, something "better" out there somewhere in the future. There are no mistakes. There are also no good or bad things to do with your time. Every second you are what you are, and it's perfect. Welcome to the playground. Have fun.

Hmhmm. I still think your expectations of what all of these entail: intimacy, sex, relationship and love are too high and woo woo fantasyland movie style. Your post also gives me a needy impression. I think you will have a hard time if you don't downgrade these. Also remember that this video in your post is a snapshot. They could have had a big fight 10mins after the making of that video.

Serious question: have you ever had a girlfriend / romantic relationship?

You are judging yourself. It's a mirror. There is no other, it's all you. As soon as you step away from love you will enter this state you are describing. What you need is self love.

Nothing is useful. Taking a big shit is not better than working your ass off. You don't need willpower or motivation or all that shit. It's all bullshit. If you need to use willpower or motivation you know one thing; you are not operating out of love but out of fear. But, do whatever u want. If you go down that road, you will keep pulling that rubber band and it will snap in your face sooner or later.

I've been thinking about joining a dance school to learn Bachata. I'm wondering if this would be a good idea for me to meet girls, since i don't really care about clubbing etc anymore, in fact i hate those places because of all the drunk people, noise etc. Do you think it's a good environment to try and get better with girls overall?

Pretty much.. Uh.. It's not like you can choose to be lazy or not. Your energetic and lazy self are intertwined with each other, one and the same.

I'm okay with small talk with strangers etc. It's only with girls.

I too have these moments. Not much you can do about it honestly. you can start forcing yourself like crazy etc but it will only lead to more frustration i think, at least it does for me if i do it. This too will pass. Just ride it out.

I'm too scared to do this. I don't know why.

What do you mean with this?

Ye i think i'm gonna have a good time. I'm Belgian.

Stop resisting it.

Just buy yourself a good pair of running shoes and startout with a program like couch to 5K or something, running 3 times a week. It's cheap and good.

Rip

I had hocd for a very long time. A simple event of some guys laughing at me, calling me gay because i was wearing a pink poloshirt triggered it. At that moment the thought of being gay popped into my head, and for some reason it caused insane anxiety. I was battling it almost daily for about 2 years, until i started accepting the possibility of being gay, i.e accepting the compulsive thoughts. It was only as i accepted the thoughts, that it went away. Maybe you can try it too. Just try to accept all the thoughts, no matter how much they fear you, or make you think something bad will happen.

I'm totally sick of my mind and ego. As soon as i wake up, there is peace for about 2mins, but after that my mind takes over for the rest of the day. It's a wave of annoyance, intrusive thoughts etc. I'm conscious of my thoughts, but i can't stop the identification. It goes automatically. Meditation helps me, but only while i'm doing it, and a little bit after that. It doesn't last for long usually. What can i do? I want to ground myself in the present moment 24/7.