Shiva99

It's not that bad honestly. I was an avid coffee drinker for over 10 years. The first few days are a little hard but than it get's easier over time.

Almost a week without coffee or any Cafeïne. Feeling good. No more headaches or anything that could be related to quitting Cafeïne. Probably never going back to drinking coffee or using Cafeïne again.

My headache is almost gone . I don't see a difference in energy levels. Mabye it's too subtile. I will keep going though.

Hehe seems like i'm more addicted than i thought i was. My mind is coming up with tons of rationalizations on why it would be good to drink coffee, and why it doesn't hurt.

Started since last night. I'm already having a pretty bad headache. Not sure if it's related.

Stick your finger in your mouth, and touch the inside of your cheek. Now imagine that your finger is your weewee. That's it basically. Of course there is. Releasing it by sex is also one of the stupidest things u can do. It's much better to use that energy and create, create, create. Use it to create the dream life that u want. It's the most powerfull energy there can be. Yes it is going to be robotic most likely, and almost all of them don't really want to have sex with you. They are in it for the money obviously. Also keep in mind that a lot of them are pressured into this industry, working under the thumb of some crazy ass pimp. It's a sad reality. You don't wanna do it trust me. Also, watching porn is basically the same. Date real girls, or better yet don't and keep the energy and use it towards bettering yourself.

Why are you using Ritalin? Why not get a healthy diet going, together with regular sleep, exercise and meditation?

This is just fear. It won't go away until you confront it head on. The faster heartbeat is a normal response of your body in that moment. Obviously the more you start focusing on it, the worse it will get in that moment. That's just how anxiety works. You need to get past a certain point, by confronting it. Let it eat you whole basically. Nothing will happen. And of course your mind will go crazy and start telling you all kinds of scary bullshit that will happen. But nothing will happen.

Alex Becker hell yeah. This guy knows his shit. I'm going to do the same thing soon, as he inspired me too. Watched a big chunk of his vids. He's pretty woke ngl.

This is a very huge problem for me, and it obviously has a huge impact on my life. I never complete anything, i get bored very quickly, and i always seek instant gratification from everything. This has been going on for as long as i can remember. Examples: -Getting books home from the library, or buying them online, barely reading them or not reading them at all. -Starting a new exercise routine, or any other habit and not completing it, or giving up early in. -Buying videogames to start them up once and not touching them ever again. -Starting new hobbies and buying expensive stuff, only to give it up early. -Starting a new course online, buying expensive self-study materials and barely touching them. There are probably a lot more situations where this occurs, but i think you get the main idea. lalely i've been trying to force myself into sticking with something, but it obviously doesn't work at all. It also holds me back from doing anything at all, because i know i always end up in the same place by giving up or getting bored. What can i do about this?

I've been noticing a pattern in my life that keeps coming back over and over again. I basically am motivated to take action as soon as my basic needs aren't met, but whenever they are met, my motivation drops and eventually it completely dies out. When my basic needs aren't met, and when i'm almost out of money etc, i try to find ways to get by. Most of the times i succeed in this, and i get a lot of excitement out of it. It's kinda weird because looking at it, in those moments i'm in a constant battle, and it's not something to be excited about at all, but somehow i am. I also get excitement out of earning money by not doing a mundane 9-5 job, but by getting it another way. Some examples of this might be making profit with cryptocurrency, getting lucky gambling, or selling stuff on Ebay for some profit. Now i know the gambling is not good, and looking back it didn't bring a lot of good times, but the excitement about getting money in a way that is not just by a mundane 9-5 job really excites me a lot. I've had plenty of times were i had enough money to sustain myself for a long time. However, for some reason these are the most boring moments for me, and i like it a lot more when i'm on the verge of being broke, surviving by finding alternative ways of income to sustain myself. Is this wrong? I don't think a lot of people feel this way.

I'm fed up with it. It's just not working out for me. My life is becoming more of a hell with it. I don't like reading, meditating, exercising whatever it is that "improves" me, because i have to pressure myself like a maniac to do it. It doesn't come naturally to me at all. All these " to do " lists that i have in the back of my mind day in day out are just putting an insane amount of stress on my body and mind. How is this supposed to better me? I think i was born to be a slacker because that's all i'm doing, really. I know what i have to do, but again HAVE not want, love, like, but HATE to do. I don't believe this is how it works at all. I'm so fucking frustrated with myself.

I keep falling back into the same addiction patterns over and over again. Whenever i try to quit one thing, i get back in another one. I don't know what to do about this. I can't seem to leave the shitty addictions behind me. Right now gambling is seriously damaging me. I need to quit it.

Do you watch porn?

I was a victim of the classic eduple complex, and the relationship between my mother and father was basically non existant, so my mother granted all her identity to raising me and my two sisters. However, from the age of 18ish till now (27) i was the only one left in the house she was caring for, and it ended up being a pretty bad relationship, where she didn't respect my privacy and boundaries, and started showing toxic clinginess. Right now im 27, and i will finally move out next month to my own place. I spoke to my mom yesterday since a long time, and it seems like she understood where things went wrong, but she still started crying a lot when i told her i will probably move to a new city in about a year (1 hour drive). In some way i understand why she feels like this, but in another way i totally don't. I feel like she still has a lot of wounds to patch up, and that she still clings to me in a bad way, but i wonder how to have a healthy relationship with her. I'm questioning if i should even tell her where my new place is at, because i'm scared she will cross my boundaries again. How to deal with this?

I'm running 3-5 times a week.

How exactly does this work? Everything just happens? If you look at neo advaita teachers like Tony Parsons or Jim Newman, they are always radical about it, saying there is no one home, and thus there is no free will. So what about murderers, serial killers, pedophiles, serious drug addicts etc? They have no free will? They don't have a choice in killing someone or staying addicted to heroin? I don't understand how this works. Also addictions in general. Do you actually have no choice wether you are addicted and stay addicted to a subtance?

From my understanding this is already the case. We are just not aware of it, thus we are suffering.

I've noticed that i'm forcing and manipulating myself into doing stuff that i deep down don't really want to do. E.g. I'm still looking for a profession and getting a diploma that will earn me a lot of money and status, instead of choosing something that i'm interested in by nature. I feel like i might get into college/university because i wanna be perceived by people as someone smart, and not because of genuine interest. I'm also exercising when i don't really like it. Sure it is healthy, and it gives me more energy, but i always have to force myself into it. In the end the good effects don't add up with the bad. It's like i have to drag forward a lazy dog all the time. I'm not sure if this is what being authentic means, and that it's worth all the fuzz, especially not from the perspective of life being short. Why would i force myself into doing stuff i don't want/like? Even if it might be healthier for my body. My ego is a smartass, and keeps finding his ways...

I saw this video already. It doesn't help me.

I don't know what i want. It changes everyday. Today i might wanna become a police officer, and tomorrow i want to be a Psychologist or work as a lawyer. Today i want a big family and tomorrow i want to be independent and alone. This is what keeps me stuck, but i can't stick with something. I get a lot of second doubts and become bored very quickly if i start pursuing something.

So how could that be authentic? I feel if something is meant to be for you, it will come naturally and the drive or whatever comes with it.

This was a short but eye-opening article for me: https://markmanson.net/screw-finding-your-passion

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Do it before meditating. It makes you alert.