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@Mu_ What's an example of a deep trauma? Are these trauma patterns in personal history, or a sort of existential trauma that is hidden from all of us by egoic consciousness?

Many people have hang ups about death (nothing wrong with that; it's the scariest thing) and they want to be able to understand the nature of after death experience. Will I wake up from a dream? Will I enter an ethereal state where I assess the soul and chose to reincarnate? Will there be an experiencer after death? Well, look at it this way: everything that is alive must have an essence of what we call soul. So the process that occurs after the death of the body, when you return to essence, should be the same for every living thing right? So it follows the after death experience you encounter must be intelligible to both you and a dog, a tree, an ant and anything else that's alive (potentially inert as well, if you believe everything is consciousness.) If you think it has any meaning that can be groked by you as a human right now but is somehow more grandiose than the experience of an ant, rat or mosquito, then you are suffering from an egoic delusion. In this case you ought to investigate why your ego feels the need to create an after death story and face that demon. This limiting belief about after death experience may actually block you from awakening so do yourself a favour and shatter it.

Incredible post thank you.

@gswva "I don't want" is your problem fella. Stop resisting.

@Scholar Incredible and well articulated explanation of love. You truly are a scholar sir!

@Dario1995 I'm not looking forward to anything. I'm not looking back. I feel good in body and mind and I don't feel like I want anything else. Do I get it?

@seriousman24 Well I guess because by consciously "steering the ship" away from evil in our physical and emotional lives we create more space for realisation to occur. We're not avoiding evil because its bad. We avoid it because it triggers survival mechanisms that capture our attention more easily.

The more time you spend with this work the more you realise that any type of person is a beautiful to be around in some sense. It's the Ego that has "deep conversations" and It's the Ego that says "I don't want to be around average people". That being said, it is definitely great to have a few friends who are on a similar wave length or share the interest in non-duality. But certainly not necessary to detach from the people that aren't. They are still great teachers even if they aren't conscious of the lessons they give!

@Matt23 I second this. I'm starting to really question how some of the things he espouses are communicated to him "by shiva". Its pretty obvious society is going to crumble and he doesn't give an exact date so i agree there. However, I've heard him suggest that some members of Sat yoga institute will eventually live without food; something that has never been recorded before. He also suggests they build a giant beacon to emanate consciousness which will help humanity awaken in the same way that the ancients did with the Pyramids. Really? Lastly I heard one of the members say they were worried about their family and he brushed it off my saying that they will contact the worried member when they need help. How can he be sure? He thinks they'll still have phone and internet when this disaster of epic proportions arises? How did he verify this? He's got too many answers imo and I've seen this sort of headstrong "I know what's gonna happen" mentality spin out of control before.

@Gesundheit if you're way beyond her in "self development" then why do you consider her a gold mine and you to be a really terrible person who would drag her down?! Come on man be honest with yourself first of all and then give yourself the gift of love. You deserve it.

@tesla and so what are you expecting you will achieve from a really strong dose?

@tesla have you had the God realisation yet? I.e where you realise that the "I am" of experience is God and that's what you are. Also comes with the feeling of being the only being in existence.

What do people think about his claim that the Pyramids were essentially consciousness satellites for advanced yogis to broadcast and triangulate higher frequency consciousness across the globe? Anyone heard anything to this effect before? It's far out man...

@tesla I say scrap the lemon tek and reduce the dose by a gram. Terence McKenna used to swear by 5g so that should be enough. Also, meditation will certainly help insofar as entering a tranquil state but the samadhi will be forced by the drug so no effort needs to be made in terms of focus and concentration.

@James123 I do realise that every day, twice a day during meditation and when I'm high as fuck on psychedelics. But every time I finish, I go back to little old me haha.

Wow, just great. Imagine being able to live from that realisation without psychedelics.

@tesla this was 4g of albino penis envy. I expected it to hit me less to be honest. I've had less overwhelming experiences on 5g of standard cubes so these ones must have been mega potent.

@tesla I had the same mushroom experience just yesterday actually, except that I didn't abort! Don't get me wrong though it was fucking terrifying and I know exactly what you mean by these massive waves of energy surging through you. Every time I had a thought it would get obliterated by these infinite waves of what I now understand to be love. I also had the experience that Leo spoke in his 30 day 5-MeO retreat video, where I willingly opened a portal with a sort of gravitational pull on my being. I was being pulled towards this portal but the closer I got, the louder became the message that if you go through this divine portal, the thing you call yourself is going to die. So I noped out of that one pretty fast. I still wonder though, would I physically die or would the experiential self-concept die? I didn't get a clear answer on that one. In the end I started humming in time with the breath in order to remind the myself that I exist without having to think at all. The result was that I was able to sort of allow my being to unite with the waves. At this point I felt a great healing energy and ultimate unity with the universe. I understood enlightenment to be the ultimate surrender of the belief that my ego is in control of anything, when actually the only volition is that of God. So my advice is just hang in there and keep surrendering control of your ego until it feels like there is no one left to surrender. The only way you can lose your mind is if you believe there is a mind there to be lost!

@Roy great question. I think it's only as selfish as every other egoic delusion hah. Can the ego every really truly accept death? I'm pretty sure mine will always fear it and try to find a way around it. The irony is that if the ego lived forever it would eventually explore every concept including itself. In doing so, it would realise its own unreality! So if the digital ego became enlightened, what would it be?

@Keyhole since when is Karin Dreijer a shaman? Haven't you heard of dressing up haha

I think @VeganAwake made a great point about starving out the ego. It is necessary to show the ego to become nothing before we can accept living in light fully. When I was younger I had a massive breakthrough mushroom trip where I experienced the infinite wall of white light and eternal deafening peace. I spent a loooong time after that trying to work out how to get to that place again. It's only this year (6 years later) that I realised the thing stopping me was thinking that the Light was something or somewhere.

A secondary illusion is imagining future re-birthings. When all separateness ceases to be imagined, what remains? All that is necessary is to become free from the illusions created by thought. - Bob Harwood aka Zendancer I'm sure many people here would proclaim that their birth and death are imaginary. But are you believing in any of these other ideas like past and future lives, afterlife, awakening from a dream, etc? If you do believe these things, you're falling into the same trap! The distinction is that your Ego has used your spiritual knowledge to drop the old (primary illusion) and picked up the new (secondary illusion). But its still the Ego.

@Identity Are you drinking a lot of coffee?

I love my fancy watch, i like my expensive clothes, i enjoy my nice girlfriend, i enjoy looking at my bank account balance and i adore my reflection. I am attached to them, but the I who is attached is just like them - a creation in the mind of God. Realise this and you don't need to let go.

@Aaron p The part of Leo that wants to be healed is Ego, because only Ego can desire things to be different from the way they are. Just because Leo is God, doesn't mean that Leo's Ego can control God. In fact, Leo's Ego cannot control anything. It only creates the illusion of control so that it can appear to be a person, separate from everything else. In reality, a person cannot be separate from everything else, because there is only one thing (a no-thing), God!