TheUniverseIsLove

@UnconsciousHuman A) What brought you to that conclusion? Truly curious. I have felt enlightenment. There is no doubt. I am putting in the work everyday to keep it active. B) What do you think I mean when I use the word dislike? @DivineSoda A) I am newish to meditation, but not new new. Lol. I have done forms of meditation for years (Acting School incorporates LOTS of tools, I cannot recommend taking some sort of class enough) but I have only in the past year done the traditional style more frequently. I also in addition have been doing guided sleep meditation nightly (It really gives my practice that extra push!) ? (However, In a previous post I mentioned having trouble with morning meditation consistency.... Which is what I think you refer to) B) The form of dislike I feel for Leo is Already Love. ? Percent I feel deeply what my dislike for him does for the balance of the universe. It helps me see the parts of me I can’t always see through my lens. I must have his lens. I am not complete without it. In a similar way to how I am not complete without your responses. The whole of me is in constant flux of the now, and the true present, incorporates everything that is. I am whole by myself, but myself is also you, so the like and the dislike exist simultaneously. My lens just feels the dislike more. I just let it be what it is. I am aware of it. ( @brugluiz seems to get a similar vibe Via their lens) Overall, To dislike something is beautiful. I don’t intend to force an idealized Love onto it, when it IS already love, as it is (Though, if I did, that would be beautiful and Love too!)

@SilentTears I can dislike someone and still see them as love. For that too is love.

@Inliytened1 The state one is in during a trip is also an illusion. We are ONE no matter what state of sobriety we are in. Some states just take us out of our “ego homeostasis” more and shake up our baseline perception. (Such as when tripping: tripping is a controlled way to achieve high states of perception change, which leads to more frequent insights to the whole) Also, I am not scared of the ego dying- I can never die if I am everything- and yet my body seems to be less willing to change perceptions, according to its reactions. It is also how I feel about covid-19. I am not afraid of it. I see it for what it is: A suffering of sorts because it attacks the ego’s physical form (pain and potential death) and the ego’s attachments (world structure, family, friends, etc.) I am not afraid of either tripping or covid, and yet I can sense the ego’s what ifs. I feel them. Sometimes mentally, but mostly physically. It is to be scared, without being scared at all. It is fear, without suffering. To die as the essence of the self, though meaningless, still attaches itself to a meaning that exists somewhere; And though that meaning exists, it is your reaction to it that creates or diminishes suffering. Why? It is as much of a mystery to me as to why my entity as an ego even exists at all. Lol Also, Thank you for your advice. I will take my time for sure. I must train my body to be as ready as my mind. ?

Every trip I have ever had on shrooms has been beautiful, eye opening, and very spiritually enlightening. However, I also occasionally get what may be panic attacks (?) I have had them while smoking weed/ edibles and even once or twice while sober. Sometimes my vision gets blurry, sometimes I feel spaced out and feel like I could pass out.... like my mind isn’t really there anymore, and I have to focus to stay conscious (drinking water, physical touch, or eating something seems to help), and sometimes I get extremely cold and shake, and sometimes I just shake uncontrollably. One time from 2 edibles my whole body shook for 40 minutes. I timed it. Like, It is scary to stand up because I feel like I’m gonna pass out when I do. When they happen now, I don’t fear them anymore, but also, I could deal without them. And once the shaking starts, no matter how calm I am, I just have to let it run it’s course. It also feels like my body might have trouble digesting the toxins. Or it might have something to do with my menstral cycle or intestines (idk ?‍♀️). It doesnt happen every time, but I’m never sure what’s different. I would really like to do acid one day, and do mushrooms again; but the idea of a longer trip with the possibility of my reaction sounds exhausting. It’s a different kind of exhausting than trips I have had without the reaction. Any idea what it could be, or advice? Thanks in advance. Love to all. ❤️

Today I was driving and had to slow down because a deer was crossing the road. The deer crossed, but then I saw a second about to cross. I stayed stopped. I made eye contact with the second deer and motioned it to pass. It was safe for it to do so. The deer paused as we made eye contact and then crossed to meet his friend. I could since that in that moment it trusted me. I made it feel safe. Making eye contact with the deer and communicating energies with it was beautiful. It also felt wonderful in that moment to be vegan. And It also felt like a message from the universe to me. The first true mushroom trip I ever had I saw a group of deer. During that trip I also went through the trenches of a dark Forrest and came out to a double rainbow and a driver named wisdom. I have been seeing rainbows, real and representational everywhere this week. Then for the deers to cross my path tonight, felt like a nudge in some sort of direction. I could since it. It’s the only way to describe it. I think that my double rainbow is coming. Our double rainbow is coming. I think covid 19 is part of the Forrest On the trip, the deers were before the Forrest. I’m not sure if that means We still have to go through the tribal trenches and suffering of the Forrest to get to the rainbow, or if the universe deer reminder is simply out of sequence.... I guess time will tell. And perhaps it all means nothing. But also, the universe doesn’t make mistakes. And the energy I absorbed from the deer. I can’t get over what I felt in that moment. Synchronicity at its peak.

I put random sleep hypnosis and guided meditation videos on to help me sleep. I didn’t finish the entire thing, because I fell asleep, but overall I really enjoyed it. Male voice, but feminine energy. https://youtu.be/DpTvUVzeOaM

During a recent meditation session I realized that my life purpose, is constantly being fulfilled in every moment. Every moment is constantly bringing me to where I can bring the most love. Every moment must be AS IT IS in order for the dominos of life purpose to fall into place. Who knows how many dominos must fall before my life purpose is truly realized into recognizable manifestaction. Or if I, from my ego perspective, will even recognize it at all. Oof. In in the mean time, enjoy watching the impact each domino makes.

My approach-ability, has been extremely high this past week or so. One guy even came up to me at the gym and told me, I quote, "You are a beautiful woman, I hope you know that." Another, fist bumped me and called me a pet name (I don't know him), and another, literally came up to me and said, "look at you, all..." *preceded to check me out* and then said "do you got a man, do you need a man?" (And was being serious). That being said, I have a date on Friday (not with any of the above, lol) I'm not really sure what to expect, Or if I should cancel: A. Convid- 19 B. The more I chat with him, the more it seems clear that he may not be open to the same type of thinking. If I introduce any of this to him too fast, he may actually lose his shit, and that seems like a lot of responsibility (And I already have this whole, I make everything happen, I created Convid-19 thing to ruminate on, so, my responsibility limits are pretty thin ) But I also kinda want to go on it still, because, A. Anytime I join energies with someone, something magical is created, even if it doesn't quite work, and I learn and grow from it. B. Experiencing energies is fun, and I see it as a way to spiritually grow. C. Why not? Trying to listen to my gut. If I don't cancel, I was just wondering if any of you had words of wisdom for dating the non-woke. Thank you!

If everything is made up...and the points don't matter...? Why can I orgamsn more than most? What is that? Truly curious.

@TRUTHWITHCAPITALT Love this response. Thank you. And as an update. He cancelled. ? Universe has different plans.

I have been working on using this time of solitude to write a play. In my writings I realized that when things break, growth and discovery are the results. The hardest times of my life have been the most beneficial. I have lost things along the way with every break. I am still breaking. Things are forever in motion. But every break has ALWAYS turned out to be some of the most beneficial and rewarding things that have ever happened to me. Beauty reveals itself through the cracks. When I asked myself, why is Covid-19 happening? I began to reflect that I, and the universe as a whole, realized that it needed to break to make change. It needed to restructure it's core, and it needed to do it at an (at least) global level. It is the only way. We, as a society are breaking so what is supposed to be in place can manifest itself as such. The ego only gets caught up in the loss and fear. The ego is scared, but the ego is not the purpose. The purpose will find its way collectively. The beginning of my play (rough draft) : One hundred and seventy-five million years ago the world drifted apart and split into the seven continents we know today. They transformed and became different parts of the same whole, free floating in existence, only connected by the rush of the Ocean’s current. Pangaea. The continents wandered apart, and yet were still fully encompassed by the existential earth and unfathomable universe. Separate, yet intangibly whole. There are people and events whom have passed through my life who are my continents. Those that I will always be connected to, yet now I may only view from a distance, because my perspective and connection to them has transformed and changed. Theirs has too. We are intact alone, and yet cannot be separate. We keep a little bit of each other with us, always. My continents are those whom once were intertwined in my roots, but we have since parted, only viewing and feeling each other as the distance rush of memories past. The current of energies. An Ocean of strange nostalgia. The whole universe is connected, truly, but only some are my continents. You are about to watch them break. Thanks for reading. As always, with love.

False alarm ya'll. This man has done both acid and mushrooms.

@universe Type of thinking= Just a different stage of thinking. Also, I would introduce him to oneness and nothingness, etc. In my experience, that can be a lot for people to handle sometimes. I didn't mean he would get mean, just perhaps think I'm "crazy", or perhaps go a little "crazy" himself. I'm all about limiting suffering (even if it is made up, we still feel it) and I don't want anyone to suffer from something I said or did, if I can prevent it. And even if I can't prevent it, it was will be what is supposed to be. Universe magic. Also, technically it is both his and my problem. We are one in the same. Everything is connected. Everything is one. And 100 percent, framing it as "non-woke" was just a funny way to phrase someone at a different level of consciousness and awareness. But ya'll didn't get my hip, catchy phrasing. Also, I don't see any problems. I was mainly looking for caring and gentle ways to introduce oneness to someone. In no way was I attacking or finding problems with him or anyone. People are where they are on their journey, and that is beautiful. The potential for discovery is exponential. That is love.

@Marc Schinkel ?

@electroBeam Interesting perspectives. I'm not really sure what the exact advice is... If energies align, then it is a go...? And to be honest, out of context, even as a joke, that was a very unnerving example. To joke to a stranger that you want to rape her, seems to be its own form of power play. To me, There are better ways to promote Alpha energy, or to experiment... but to each their own. Thanks for the response though.

@Roy I make my own happiness. And, they don't need to be anything. No one does. Everyone is where they should be. I'm just not sure what I want I guess. The universe will tell me though. It always does. Lol I appreciate the reminder though. So thank you. ?

Acting has been as beneficial (or more so) to my spiritual development than psychedelics or meditation. Perhaps it is because it is "my" life purpose. In the next 3 or 4 years my name will be a household name. Being on stage, knowing that "I" make everything happen. Unstoppable. Acting.. good acting..is the true acceptance of letting the moment be. Letting you be you. Or even just going over lines. Repeating. However the words come out. That is correct. Also, Hear me out for a moment. Try to cry on command. Can you? If yes, how did you get there? ? Acting. Manipulation? You create it all. God of acting. You CAN cry on command. You just have to find the way in. It is there. You just trick yourself into not knowing. To Leo: you can create miracles as God. You just have to find the way in. Best wishes for the Leo part of myself. You can find the way in. Back on acting: Manipulating the beats of the moment. Feeling the energy of the whole. Riding the wave of the now. A mirror to life. There is no difference. When you act. You are not you...but you are you. You are everyone in that moment. The most peaceful chaos. Emotions are beautiful in that they mean nothing and everything. Bandaid moments of high emotion. Anxiety. Pain. And then no more. Such are all moments. Theatre. A visual representation of life. Of you. Of the universe. Random side thought: Mirrors. What is the space between you and your reflection? As always, Love.

@Nahm @ZenBlue Thank you both for your responses! Irony indeed. But very beautiful to me. Makes for good story telling. I actually want to write a play encompassing my life experiences since then, and the discoveries that followed: Sexual Awakening, Tinder Weed usage Dating/ being friends with an alcoholic, suicidal, millionaire (This is a very long story that actually semi-recently led to my friend being arrested, and then manifested itself into a potential small court case. The situation that went down allowed me to fully understand and experience the power I have to control situations and make things either happen or not happen. I can explain more at some point if asked) Divorce Getting fit, confident, and transforming my energy and interactions Meditation Panic Attacks My Endometriosis Journey Synchronicity Magical Mushroom trips: Our driver was named Wisdom, there was a double rainbow: Just Pure ACTUAL magic. And, how all of it has led to and enhanced my enlightenment journey!

@ZenBlue lol. I like your perspective. ?We are all acting. Truly. We can be anything. We make it. I like to think of it as... the words I am given are there...in a way, they are concrete, just as the physical form of the world is here (kind of), but how the intention comes out through my voice and movements, what I make of the givens, can be whatever I want them to be. It can shape itself into whatever I want it to manifest into. All about energy flow. I manipulate what I want. Just as water flows and ripples. The force is stronger against the water with some winds than others, but you have control over the push and pull. Sometimes you just have to push or pull harder to get what you want. Or...Splash, swim, drown, or do nothing. Still trying to figure out why some things are harder to push and pull though. I think perhaps the harder things are not in line with my actual purpose. Kind of. What the universe, what I truly want. I feel like anything that could get in the way of meeting my acting goals, I somehow weed out, even if it hurts like hell in the moment. But it is what is-correct. For instance I was in an 8 year relationship, married for a little over a year. He left and cheated on me with his onstage wife during a show we were all in, titled "An Ideal Husband." (100 percent real. Lol) I now know that I wanted that to happen so I could become who I am today. The universe (you) gives you what you need. Trust it. Synchronicity is real. There is no bad or suffering. Only bandaid pains. And once ripped off. You realize, those pains, are not so bad after all. And hey, look, now you're better and stronger.

I wanted to share an email I received after my performance tonight. My life purpose IS acting. I am manifesting it, and people are noticing: "Really fun performance. I'm sure I've said it before, but you are way too good for community theater. It's always weird watching you act against someone else, because I've yet to see anyone match your level of believe-ability; I'm sure when you and I worked together, I spent the whole scene in your shadow. But enough of my ass-kissing; you know this shit already, ya proud bi-atch. Hold you head high - you deserve it" Ps. I am saying yes to all forms of my craft, to any form of experience I can get my hands on, including community theatre. I have also done non-community theatre. The levels of good acting are made up by me anyway...so it's all relative. lol.

@Martin123 Thank you!

It alows me to structure my life with more ease. I am not perfect at doing it daily. But I feel it every day I do it.. and to me, that is perfect.

@Average Investor Thank you for your kind response. ❤Expression, to me, is beautiful. It comes naturally, but it has also taken a multitude of experiences for the ease to manifest itself. I love every character I have ever played. They show me a little more of the whole and allow me to experince it, feel it, and be it. I did not write the words, but a part of me did and that part knows exactly what I meant by them. I feel my growth and know of it by what I am told. People recognize my talent and tell me. Also, I have mostly done on stage acting but I am diving into on camera work, modeling and the like. 100 percent just saying yes to (most) artistic avenues that come my way. To do is to "succeed." And I am Doing. I am Currently in a small production of Almost Maine as a favor to a friend. But it has brought me so much joy and love. The poster even has a heart on it! Even tonight. My scene partner went up on his line, and skipped a section (which me...reflecting...did I want that to happen? Lol..oof. lol) But we still got theough the scene without the audience knowing. It was truly beautiful. And SO focused and in the moment. Like damn. Inner workings are blaring, but, the calmness reflected and observerd from the outside...? It was one of the most beautiful moments on stage I have experienced. Also, I have thought about YouTube as a catalyst. Figuring out what the start would be. Also working on my instagam. Message me if you want my IG. I woud would love to have you guys follow me, but don't want to abuse the group.

@electroBeam beautifully stated.