TheUniverseIsLove

@Leo Gura Your energy towards women is outright negative. Women are brilliant and beautiful and much, much more. (Not just .1 percent of them) By founding this site (and by how society has formed its structural hierarchy characteristics) your words Inherently have have more impact. Own your power. Stop encouraging your masculine following to treat and talk about women negatively. Positivity is power. Imagine changing The subject in your comment to ANY other gender or race and see how truly generalized and incredibly uniformed you sound. Check yourself.

@FredFred I have never actually done acid, but I feel like micro-dosing it would be a great start for me ✨

I tried micro-dosing shrooms earlier this evening. I ate 2 smallish dried tops and a long stem. I don’t have a scale at the moment so I have no clue what the actual measurement was. This was my first time truly micro-dosing. It was an interesting comparison to previous full trips. It was also my first time ingesting alone. Just very subtle, but also intense....different, and yet so similar. I figured even though it wasn’t a “full trip” I still wanted to have an intention. I wasn’t 100 percent sure of the intention: But, let me tell you, they responded. *Also, I think I am sensitive to shrooms Mostly, for me, going in I wanted to explore my personal blocks on achieving financial “success,” with a little “if you want to help me discover how to help the universe as a whole right now, there is a sh@t ton happening, I wouldn’t be opposed” The Dosage: I started off with one small top to see how it would take. Then 40 minutes in I took the second top. Then 20 minutes later I ate the stem. What happened: I got incredibly horny for a brief period about 30 minutes after the first consumption. I have a high sex drive to begin with. Well, desire, I never NEED to orgasm, I just am perpetually horny and have no limit on the amount of times I can orgasm. However, This time I ended up mastrubating and cuming multiple times. The Orgasms were heightened in a similar way to how they are heightened when I eat weed edibles. Bliss state settled into relaxation. I discovered that I need to tone down how much I mastrubate on the whole though. I think my body is trying to balance out some chemicals from Past events. It feels like it is trying to reach the same level of chemicals that it had when it (I) went through trauma, and the only way to keep up the balance is through orgasm. I want to figure out different ways to balance the chemicals. It will be a process. I also don’t want to do “no-mastrubation” because I think mastrubation is a wonderful way to connect with and balance my body. I’ll just be more aware now. I then ate the second Top and I listened to a YouTube video on manifesting money: Lots of feminine energy in the video. I have a lot of feminine energy, so I figured maybe my wavelengths would match up and something would click. Her YouTube channel seems pretty chill too. I then ate the stem. I then got hungry and I ate 3 protein bars and drank 2 things of cold green tea. I wasn’t the least bit anxious, but anytime I trip I almost always drink excessive amounts of liquid and eat more. I think I have a stress eating issue. Not full on binge(?) but it is something I definitely want to look into. It might have to do with the trauma thing as well. It gives me comfort. Trying to balance chemicals. I then had to pee a billion times ?. Then, I noticed that when you have your phone flashlight on, if you look straight at it in the dark, it forms a beautiful rainbow. Try it while tripping sometime: Mood enhancer vibes. It was wonderful. I then went back to my intention: I thought about how change for me and for the universe is hard, and I cried some. I thought about how everything is connected and how energy pulses through me and through you and through every single thing on and off this planet to infinity. My heartbeat is your heartbeat. My heartbeat is the heartbeat of black holes. My heartbeat is the heartbeat of my cat. It is the heartbeat of every person rioting in cities for BLM. The heartbeat of every person at a Trump rally. And of every person dealing with Covid-19. And it is scattered as F$*& right now. We all must synchronize and truly beat as one. We are one, but we’re broken into pieces. We must not beat faster out of fear, or slower to avoid. We must beat in such a way that we can be whole again. So how am I to be financially “successful?” * And balance out orgasms and food? *and collectively synchronize the universal heartbeat? I must Check in with my heart each day and ask it what I must do for it to beat truthfully. Once I find that energy I must send that energy outwards every chance I get. And then that energy will come back. Then slowly, after many cycles. The heartbeat will be true again.

@FredFred I barely had any ? They were tiny! No visuals really during. However, My reaction to the small amount might explain why I have had panic like attacks with higher amounts though. May try doing even less for micro-dosing at some point. Thank you ?

@fi1ghtclub Thank you for reading and responding!✨ ps. I am female ?

I have been doing a poem theme lately. To me, Memories are similar to the essence of a poem: Poems I write, and poems others write are inherently different, And yet the meanings that can be interpreted and tied to both are infinite~ And though, made up in theory, They are still 100 percent real in action Memories or poems, make what you will of them The structure is inherent, but the interpretation is imaginative Find the structure within the structure Write a new poem now.

I’ve gone down a thought rabbit hole about defining “memory/memories” Where are you at with the concept?

I will put my input on memory later. However, I am always amazed at how often Leo says “no” to things. Try using some collaborative “Yes, and“ If it is all imagination, they are right too.

I got a hold of an 1/8 All of my previous trips were measured by someone else This will be my first alone trip and I don’t want to accidentally go too ham. ? I plan on camping under the stars How much? ?

I am at a loss. For financial and medical reasons I Moved back in with my parents. They care for me deeply, and though I do have good moments with them, they are VERY emotionally abusive and manipulative. The overall yelling atomosphere is frequent and loud and they frequently cuss, insult, accuse, belittle, judge etc. Once my mom even yelled at me to stop “pussy-footing” when I refused to engage in a yelling match. They tell things to provoke and be mean. I gladly listen to their thoughts, but I do not accept being screamed at. My mom will yell at me and scream “I can scream at you, simply because I want to” They also invade my personal space. I get interrupted while meditating frequently. I mediate in my own room and they shout my name until I answer... even when they know I am meditating. Sometimes they even just come in. They also support trump and have Fox News on often. I treat all of it as a growth opportunity, and as a collective understanding of love, and as a way to grow my patience.... but being in this environment is draining and I can feel what their vibrations are doing to my overall state. Until I can save up more money and until after I have surgery this is where I am. Alos, the idea that somehow me, as the universe, wants this all to be happening, is draining too. I am tired. If any of you have any suggestions I would greatly appreciate them. Thank you.

Lately I find that things make more sense when I use poetry as my outlet. Here is Love: The Neverending Matryoshka Doll I found a Doll Wrapped like a PRESENT Inside I knew not what was However, I loved it For love Is to be open NOW to the possibility of

@Leo Gura Hmmm. What else could it be?

@Michael569 I haven’t had a Dutch test specifically, but I have had blood tests done. Everything is relatively normal. No PCOS, nothing wrong with my thyroid, Omega’s are good, etc. Though I wouldn’t mind doing more testing. However, trying to get doctors and insurance to do anything under the American health system is like pulling teeth. Most of my doctors haven’t taken my pain and other symptoms seriously. It literally took 10 years for them to even do tests to rule out celiac or spine deterioration. They finally did more tests once I put more effort into making it happen. This forum actually helped me with that. I realized since I am everything I had to make it happen. Hince why they are finally going to do a colonoscopy and laparoscopic surgery. I also have JUST started fasting. Eating between 11am and 8pm. I haven’t really been doing it long enough for it to change anything. I am still going to continue with it and see how it affects me personally. I feel bloated frequently, and if it helps, that would be wonderful. I also get a good amount of fiber in my diet.

@Inliytened1 ?

I know not what I am To label me is False Distinctions are a Madman’s game All meaning wrought To close my eyes Is to open them To open them is to see To be alone And to be together Creates Perfect Harmony Do one without the other And soon you will be Lost Find peace in either “side” you’re on And Lost turns into Trust

@Willie

@ivankiss Thanks for Reading

ps. I had an experience in the middle of the night last night like no other. When I say my hormones are like a mushroom trip, I ? percent mean it. I woke up in the middle of the night, heavy lower back pain/ cramps, feeling a little dehydrated, and anytime I closed my eyes I saw intense visuals (lines, colors, the works). I then got an image/ message from a child. The child popped up in the astral world and said “she’s here” and then I went back to seeing the lines and colors.

Thank you all for the responses. Very much appreciated. Y’all are wonderful. @Leo Gura Everything is pretty on point for me with food, supplements, fitness, lifestyle ect. I have a really balanced diet. Currently I am intemediately fasting to reduce bloating. I am vegan. I take a bunch of supplements. I work out regularly. I make it a point to get some form of nature in my life daily. I hike regularly. I meditate an hour a day. I sing daily. I do yoga twice a week. I am also working with my doctor to figure some stuff out. I have a colonoscopy scheduled for the end of June and then laparoscopic surgery scheduled after that for potential endometriosis. Hoping once those are done I will know more. I am going to put my focus on making my hormones part of my daily life meditation. Thank you for your input ?

@modmyth Thank you for your response. ? Idk about less working out though. Lol. I think working out settles it some for me.

@Leo Gura Control or no control, Ego or no ego: the heightened mood is still an intense experience. I have grown and learned a lot from my hormones and how they change me and I by no means hate them. Usually after the storm the calm allows for deep transformation and it has helped me become who so am in this moment. My hormones feel like a nasty mushroom trip tbh. During intense, but after hugely empowering. I notice I feel less emotionally secure during, and my actions don’t match my heart. I notice I react without thinking and sometimes harshly and rashly. It is as if my Body on extra hormones overpowers the meditation and spiritual work I’ve done. During it feels like so have put in no work at all. I attempted mediation this morning and ended up just crying a crap ton throughout. I guess without controlling it, how do I change it?

@mandyjw Thank you for the link!

Perhaps.... just a thought ....there are more or an equal amount of enlightened women. Perhaps the feminine have less of a societal need to broadcast the journey.

@Consilience When did you start throwing logs into the fire of negativity? You are an amazing spirit and source of energy, guidance and love. Truly. Let those things burst out of you on here. Hope you are doing okay. Sincerely, An ex girlfriend