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https://www.globalslaveryindex.org Of course we have slavery and it never went away. 1. The 13th amendment bans slavery except as punishment for a crime. Slavery is still legal in prisons. 2. Developed countries merely externalize slave labor by importing from other countries and sending jobs overseas. The U.S.for example imports 91 billions dollars of electronic slave products. By the way Apple sometimes refused its sweatshop workers a minimum wage resulting in riots. 3. Human trafficking counts in Slavery and most of the victims are sex slaves. One tactic for solving this is to legalize prostitution, thus preventing people from turning to the black market where it becomes forced prostitution. 4. Some consider wage slavery a less overt form of slavery in that you are paid enough to survive. If you think about slave masters had to pay for your food and shelter any way, but this time it comes as a wage. 5. Open your eyes Sometimes the conditions of slavery are even worse because of overpopulation. It makes it easier to replace slaves with new victims rather than giving slaves medical care. When slaves had to be transferred from Africa, it was a long, difficult, and expensive process to get a slave. Now the process is easier, hence slaves are worked to death and replaced. For example, fishing boats may work you 23 hours a day because they don't care if you die. It is absolutely brutal.

To quote Wikipedia. "Sumerian and Akkadian texts from 4500 years ago document transgender or transvestite priests known as gala. Likely depictions occur in art around the Mediterranean from 9000 to 3700 years ago. In Ancient Greece, Phrygia, and Rome, there were galli priests that some scholars believe to have been trans women." apparently some trans women were priests. Perhaps they proved their dedication to God by cutting off their private parts and becoming female. The olden days were intense for religious faith. I guess that's one way to abstain from sex. Transgenderism would be an honor if used in this way to prove dedication and integrity. I remember some ancient emperors were afraid of their guards having sex with the harem of women. These guards were castrated to prevent them from having sex. I believe that was in Rome. They were called Eunuch.

All of that seems so astounding that I would have to see it to believe it. Life would be incredible if I discovered that the miracles of Jesus were more than just embellished fairy tales. I should probably check out that biography you mentioned. I'm immediately skeptical of these claims, but if they turn out to be true then it will blow my mind wide open. I remember a trap is to value gaining powers over actually seeking truth. It just makes my mind wonder what else in the universe could be possible. It is a little bit like the psychological benefits of religion when someone believes that miracles are possible. It makes me enthusiastic about exploring spirituality. It is not about getting powers and using them per say, I just want to know what else is possible that I assumed was impossible. If people can seriously levitate, walk on water, or live for 200 years through spiritual energy, then my paradigm which tells me what is possible or not would be shattered.

@Rokazulu I remember Neald Walsh wrote that God gave us bodies meant to last forever and a perfect God would give us no less. Just imagine what the world would look like if nobody needed food. It seems crazy to think about, but if it were possible it would make a world beyond recognition. Where did you hear about this ability to live without food? What is a higher source of alternative? How can I tap into it? Immortality is a fascinating topic.

I agree that the bear had beautiful eyes. I want you to not guilt yourself too hard for failing to live up to a vegan ideal. Remember, people who work in slaughter houses end up with all kinds of mental problems like ptsd. They must insist to themselves that animals are less valuable than humans in order to keep doing such a job. With your attitude, you probably would not work in a slaughter house, and most people don't want that kind of job. Sometimes factory farms have a hard time hiring people. Equating yourself to a deeply evil or unconscious person will only lead you to tearing yourself down and it is not resourceful. Keep in mind that humans could not have made it this far without killing fish and squirrels and cooking them over fire. If you want to help animals, then I think it would be most effective to frame it as an issue of human health. Yes it is selfish and biased, but this is how most people think. If we have more research done on the damages caused by micro plastics for instance, then we would have more proof that we are killing ourselves through feeding factory farm animals literal plastic garbage. I told my doctor about these things and he just assumed that there was not too much of it and we would be fine. Pushing science further in understanding human health and our relationship to the environment would ultimately translate into better treatment of some animals. As for poachers, it looks like some animals need to be moved to zoos for protection even though this is depressing for them. They walk back and forth in an anxious manner if you look at them long enough. They don't like being out of their natural habitat and they start going crazy. This is the dark reality underlying an innocent child laughing and saying "look at that cool tiger!". My grandfather used to be in prison for his drug deals and he never enjoyed the zoo after that because he could feel the animals were trapped like he was.

This is not true. Shapiro struggled in debates concerning religious views such as free will. Sam Harris outclassed him in this completely. Shapiro is also on shaky ground when he tried to cherry pick parts of religion to make a historical narrative that seemed more favorable. The problem is that the bible openly endorsed slavery and this shoots a lot of holes in moral absolutism. This forced Shapiro into mental contortions in order to deny moral relativism. Shapiro struggled in these kinds of debates and I think others aside from sam Harris could make him look like a fool. However, Leo is too conscious to engage in such a debate because Shapiro is not interested in deconstructing reality, therefore Leo would be dragged down by his low consciousness in such a debate.

my family said that my sister was going to sing in a choir. I decided to go to church. I didn't tell my family my true motives, and they thought it was to listen to the music. My true motives are to do two things. One to drop my fears and judgements surrounding religion. I would like to be more than just an ego defined by being non religious because this creates a shadow. Secondly, I am considering the possibility that I could use nearby churches to create experiences similar to what I can get through exercises in various spiritual books. In one of these experiences I panicked as I merged with all of existence as this entire experience is nothingness just like me. This was a glimpse, but if I could panic less, then that would help. My main motive is to conquer my fears and become more capable of love. I questioned my judgements of religion. A common one is that they are dogmatic, and many spiritual teachers echo this. The problem with using terms like "religion" is that it refers to billions of people with a ton of variety. Even just "Christian" is such a broad term referring to a billion people. When I think things like "Christians are fill in the blank" this is such a generalization that it seems racist. I decided to challenge my judgements by comparing and contrasting all of the different sects in Christianity at least. I could do this with other religions as well. It is possible that some religions are more developed than I am given how fearful and judgemental I am over the issue. I don't think my mind is mature enough to join a high conscious stage turquoise religion because I am far too judgemental to be able to handle it. I know not all religions are dogmatic because there are progressive, liberal, and liberation Christians. Martian Luther King Jr. Was a liberation Christian and these movements challenge culture and commonly accepted dogmas. Some versions of Christianity accept science rather than insisting that the bible is infallible which is what I typically think of when I hear "Christian." I read about 13 different ancient sects of Christianity. The adamites were interesting because they were naked during meetings and rejected the notion of absolute good and evil. Usually when I hear "Christian" I think of a dogmatic moral absolutist. Sometimes I imagine a Christian trying to stab me in the name of spreading his interpretation. The fearful response I have to this image drives my judgements of religion as my survival becomes about rejecting these ideologies. As a result I feel lost in life because I am in conflict with these images rather than exploring reality to its fullest. This fear is similar to how I responded to moral relativism initially when I imagined being shot in the head. This is an emotional reaction and I am not capable of changing this unless I meditate on the emotions and observe them rather than attacking the content of my thoughts as I typically do. To give you a poem discovered in a Nag Hammadi Library in 1945. The Thunder, Perfect Mind For I am knowledge and ignorance. I am shame and boldness. I am shameless; I am ashamed I am strength and I am fear. I am war and peace. (I am God). I might add this at the end of the poem.

@vizual I am referring to local and county laws, not state laws. The law that black people can't go out after midnight used to be on the books in Cheviot, Ohio, but isn't anymore. I looked at the laws in Cheviot, and did not find this law. This site gives a list of many towns in America which have a history of being sundown towns. These towns may have these discriminatory laws still on the books although not enforced. Most of them are not sundown towns anymore, but you should check for your town on the list. https://justice.tougaloo.edu/sundown-towns/using-the-sundown-towns-database/state-map/ This site shows explicitly racist laws which are still on the books in 2019. This was not in Ohio, but prairie village, Kansas. These are about housing black people. https://www.npr.org/2021/11/17/1049052531/racial-covenants-housing-discrimination This site gives a lot of examples of racist policies in Arkansas. Although the civil rights act banned these laws, they continued all the way into the 90's. The reputation of a town as a sundown town still persists in the 2000's. It will also site examples of signs which forbade black people from being outside after dark. https://encyclopediaofarkansas.net/entries/sundown-towns-3658/ This last site was written in 2009. It is about racial segregation laws that were still on the books up to that point. You will have to download the paper or read the abstract. not only does the term "negro" still appears in laws across America, but there are many laws pointed out in this paper that contradict the civil rights act still on the books. https://papers.ssrn.com/sol3/papers.cfm?abstract_id=1428586 I hope these sites give you what you were looking for.

This video was very educational and I want to share it with the forum. It corrected many of my misconceptions about slavery. Americans were taught that slavery ended after the civil war, but in fact the last slave was freed in September of 1942 for fear that enemy nations would use the treatment of the negro as propaganda against the U.S. The key in the 13th amendment is "except as punishment for a crime." Slavery continued because of debt peonage and the sunset laws. The sunset laws are a continued form of systemic racism which are still on the books in many cities across America to this day. I live in Cheviot near Cincinnati Ohio and we used to have a law that said black people were not allowed outside after midnight. Although these laws are not enforced, it is still technically a crime to be black in America. If you have this stereotype in your head that black people are criminals, it's because they are criminals by virtue of the fact that they are black. I knew the literacy tests were hard, by my God this was insane. One wrong answer and your disqualified from voting. The grandfather clause is a ridiculous form of systemic racism in that they don't stop you from voting because you're black, but because your grandfather was black. Voter suppression continues to this day by moving polling stations away from black communities to make it harder for them to vote. The attack on mail in voting does not help this situation.

@bloomer I am a former fan of Ben Shapiro. If you are a fan of him, stop watching him. He will mislead you on everything with his cherry picking and partisanship. You need time to deprogram everything he has taught you. Here are my suggestions. 1. Most importantly substitute these talking heads with spiritual teachings. You will gain a lot more from personal development than from listening to them. This is how I originally chose actualized over the daily wire. Granted Leo is another talking head if you don't use the book list. 2. Research a wide range of issues on your own. Question every single belief you picked up from people like him. Nowadays especially, conservatives are problematic in that they lack historic context on various issues, fear monger about "the left," and mislead their audience with cherry picked facts. They are zoomed in too closely to see the full picture. I am considering dropping the liberal media or watching it less than I do. It is building up a false image in my mind of who I think I am. I want to deprogram liberal beliefs not necessarily because they are wrong, but because they do not represent who I am. For instance, I don't have any real empathy for the victims of slavery. There are a lot of moral oughts in that I seem like an asshole for being as selfish as I truly am. As a white man, I don't feel real empathy for the victims of racial injustice, nor do I genuinely care for children who are sexually abused. I value my own significance and impact above other people even though I want my impact to help others even when it feels hollow to me. I would also like to deprogram my actualized beliefs and behaviors as well. I become like a self help junkie which is also not my most authentic self. My most authentic self cannot be found in any source with which I program my mind. I would prefer the absence of all other sources in silence rather than acting out any particular image based on how others behave.

Today's evaluation is that I ended up running around outside for several hours with no real goal. I walked back and forth happily laughing at the thoughts that came by as I often do. It could be that exercise is counter productive for me if I don't set a timer. I was Overall less productive because my lack of a daily plan. I also lack a five year plan and any real vision. Maybe personal development isn't for me because my abnormal psyche plays a lot into my behavior. So far the pills the doctor gave me are effective, so maybe I need to keep my focus on treating mental disorders. If I pursue what I actually want it would be truth and understanding reality. I have a lot of burning questions which I don't have answers to and I may be compensating for my not knowing by building an identity out of criticizing other world views. Maybe I should stop asking myself what I should do with my life and just do whatever. What if I tried not to think about my life or achieving any important, grand vision in the end. I will try that. It might be responsible for me analyzing everything to death with no clear goal.

I think this channel has a lot of solid information coming from a former history teacher. He also goes into detail about modern segregation and the racist history of the honors program. One hidden tactic is to use the excuse, "we only have so many seats.". Even if you pass the test, they will have somebody pick who gets in. This opens the door for racial bias and it has been happening well into the 90's. One thing that jumped out at me was Mormonism. The golden bible contains ideas like the curse of Cain that turned people black. This argument was used by democrats in the 1800's after they picked up some of these ideas from religious texts. They concluded that black people had to be slaves to pay the price of someone else's sins. 2 Nephi 5:21 A sore cursing … as they were white, and exceedingly fair and delightsome, that they might not be enticing unto my people the Lord God did cause a skin of blackness to come upon them.” Check out some of the videos of you want to challenge some of the narratives you were indoctrinated with.

What I see is the same story with a slightly different spin. During prohibition a common talking point from conservatives was that illegal immigrants smuggled bootleg alcohol over the border and we needed security. After prohibition ended the drug trafficking stopped. Then came the war on drugs and illegal immigrants started smuggling in drugs again. Today conservatives say we need to secure the border using the same talking point. During the 80's conservatives would gawk at you for putting homos in the military. Today they would do that trans people arguing that it makes the military less effective. This goes all the way back to reconstruction. Anti black propaganda lead Americans to believe that blacks were sexual predators, degenerate, and needed to be separated from whites. today conservatives site statistics suggesting that blacks are criminals. In the 50's they conflated homosexuals with predators. Today they conflated trans with predators. It really is the same lie all throughout history. conservatives also don't not want illegal immigrants coming over because they are rapists nor do they want refugees from the middle East because they are terrorists. There are implicit racist biases, but with a different spin every time over the past 2 centuries. The same story is always resisting integration through fear, hatred, and close mindedness. This could be drugs, race, religion, moral relativism, immigration, or anything else. What makes this challenging is that the same story is done unconsciously and automatically every time.

In other news, I think my life purpose has to do with my top interests concerning truth. These are things like reforming our overly secularized society, philosophy, religious truths, and psychedelics. The main commonality between these things is truth. It is very easy for me to get side tracked by corruption and the lesser jihad. These things are important, but most of them feel hollow to me. I would still be okay with a career that helps so many people through logic, learning, and research. One thing I did was visit a law firm and asked them about filing a 16 billion dollar lawsuit against chevron for refusing pay their lawsuits and locking up the prosecutor who tried to hold them accountable. The main challenge is that I am not directly involved, therefore it could be hard to give the lawsuit a leg to stand on. Truthfully, justice feels hollow to me and it is about fighting enemies. Logic tells me that the greatest good for the greatest number out weighs my own needs even if I die. This idea underlying my interest in politics likely causes me to be drawn to these things. I allowed myself to do these things because I notice how easily I am side tracked from the things that matter most to me. I hope by going through these things, that one day I can be developed enough to do what I truly love.

Update I went to the doctor and received medication targeted at OCD. It is very effective at knocking me out as I go to bed. The doctor recommended that I don't have anything too sweet four hours before bed time. This was also helpful and I am now eating less sugar. I still need more protein though. I also tested Leo's claims about the medical industry. Firstly, they are against psychedelics and argued that the normal state of consciousness is most effective for proving things like the existence of God. They are locked in the materialist paradigm. Secondly, the doctor underestimates the harm caused by heavy metals, pfas, and micro plastics. He said it shouldn't be enough to hurt me. Thirdly, I asked about the cost of the emergency room. They would not give me a straight answer even when I asked what do you charge for x injury. Leo was right about the emergency room being a scam. Also I told them that sometimes I get sad spells because I am not living up to my potential. The doctor came back and said that he wants to help me reach my potential, but was also locked in the materialist paradigm. Given these limitations I Overall gained because the medicine he gave me is working. I have more plans for addressing my autism and OCD, but I will need to see a doctor targeted at that.

I get that these are nice landmarks to finally pass. I am just questioning what exactly does this solve in terms of inequality. For example, we had the first black president already, but there is still redlining, segregation, racial profiling, and the fact that black communities are disproportionately impacted by things like air pollution or COVID. I'm happy that this woman was able to break some of these barriers, but these landmarks only give an appearance that racism is over. For example, Prager U will say things like "we elected a black man President twice" to argue that systemic racism does not exist anymore while turning a blind eye to modern voter suppression.

This seems quite frustrating. I knew ISIS was still out there in parts of Africa as well. There was a massive lie that Trump defeated ISIS, but they were never gone. Biden did similar by focusing on the leader, which is far from all that is needed. Lies like these only serve to help ISIS regrow while being politically expedient. This will only further confound the water wars on top of the oil wars in regions especially susceptible to these ideologies. The middle East seems to be the worst place in the world to live and is only getting worse. The mission of anybody living there should be to leave. I wonder how I would feel about life if I was unable to manipulate my way out of that situation. We feel like victims in America because of the poultry wages. Sometimes I wonder if life is worth living if I am going to be a mediocre and insignificant person who bags groceries until I get old and die. Although the ideology is dangerous, they seem to find a sense of purpose and a reason to keep living. We live in different realities in which I would kill myself over much less. This is one way to demonstrate how people don't have control over their values as this depends on the environment.

@Husseinisdoingfine large chunks of Russia are very cold. You can't grow food or hope to survive in the especially cold areas without killing reindeer. There are large chunks of Russia which have barely any people in it. More Russians live closer to the Europe than toward the center and northern Russia. https://vividmaps.com/population-density-of-russia/

I'm back from the tournament. I lost two and won three. The last win was against an opponent rated 200 points higher than me. I didn't win any money, but I had useful experience and it shows my capabilities. During the games I often felt like I had scatter brains. It could be some kind of OCD and autism symptom. It often makes me hesitate to move while being unclear about a final evaluation. This more than likely affects my ability to think about my life purpose as well. One limit of actualized is that it assumes a normal psychology, and I may need to find something more suited for me. I had been thinking about a lot during the tournament. It didn't distract me from the actual games, but I was paying closer attention to how my mind behaves and reacts. When there are real stakes it is easier for me let go of strong emotions than normal and with more practice I will be doing better. What I love most about these tournaments is not the money, friends, and awesome games. Those are all nice, but I love having my mind focused on the task at hand in front of me. I become paradoxically peaceful yet alert, determined yet detached, and in a state of flow. One of the things I thought about was how much of my life I'm wasting doing things I don't enjoy. I wondered if my purpose in life boils down to being a mediocre chess player who bags groceries. If I can't come up with a great business idea, get away from my family, or actually play in tournaments as much as I want to, then this could seriously be the case. This is probably why a bunch of players stagnate. I feel trapped, angry, saddened, and disgusted. If I can't do what I want with my life, then what the hell am I doing? There are not many opportunities to work with Chess and make money. I'm usually the quiet guy who is mysteriously good at chess. I am off work Monday. I will need to get a doctor's appointment, hire a grandmaster to ask his advice, prepare to move to Kentucky for a month, and as always keep practicing. I struggle to find motivation to keep playing when I am stuck away from what I enjoy doing. I swear on my life that I will find a way out of this slow and painful death. I become very pessimistic about life when I am stuck doing things I don't want to do while the other players get ahead of me. It makes me feel like I'm wasting my time and there is nothing I can do about. Maybe there is something I can do though. If I have to do something drastic like moving to Europe, then fine. I will not tolerate living in this depressing hell hole as I watch my body slowly deteriorate over the next 40 years. Many of my co workers feel this way, but they don't want to talk about it. Unfortunately, I struggle to make a clear sense of direction. Maybe I was meant to become a cynical average worker who gradually becomes angrier because of my failures to live an enjoyable life just like the rest of them.

@at_anchor I have been considering the same thing myself. I don't want to walk around with a SD blue shadow by judging things rather than understanding them. I end up lost in a relativistic nihilism in which I have no sense of purpose at all. It is important to address this sort of hang up somehow. One of my greatest fears is the loss of individuality through a false sense of purpose and conformity. This worsens my social skills and sense of belonging. Currently, I don't feel like I belong anywhere and this doesn't help me find a life purpose. One possibility to keep in mind is that going to church can trigger an epiphany. It could be taken such that you reinforce to the surrounding paradigm. If you take what is said with a grain of salt and focus on consciousness as they attempt to point to it in this environment, it might work. That sounds awesome, but they would probably throw you out. The visions of angels sounds off the hook. We may have to work with what we've got and not use psychedelics. From this point of view we can't blame people for being selfish, unconscious, and fearful if they don't have the tools to raise their consciousness.

My chess tournament starts tomorrow. I know my openings pretty well and have no especially bad weakness. I am excited for the near future and I would like to remember what it is like to be in a place that makes me happy. I like to be in the zone to the point that nothing else in the universe bothers me and I have complete peace of mind. After this tournament I would like to test out a new style. It is playing more positionally rather than simplifying chess to just attacking. My calculations are often over simplified through this bias. The reason grandmasters tell people to adopt this style is because it works and it is an easy way to boost your rating by 1000 points. Many players end up hitting a limit at 1800 though, and I would like to expand my knowledge and go above this. I also notice that my games become increasingly beautiful as I improve so that is interesting.

I recently stumbled upon a scene depicting Jesus Christ as a social justice warrior. I am wondering when to behave like this. My mind plays devil's advocate and says I would probably be wrong and look horrible. I think Jesus would react like this toward corporate lobbyists who turn the capital into a market place while oppressing humanity through legalized bribery. How do we balance a low tolerance for devilry with moral relativism? When should righteous anger be used and how should it be done? How should we respond to someone else's righteous anger when they are wrong? How can righteous anger be used without making people radical and violent? When does being nice make us a doormat for evil?

@gettoefl This is an interesting paradox I would like to discuss. How do we pick our battles? Some people may be unwilling to change and you will only make an enemy out of them. In this way your righteous anger will backfire and lead to further transgressions. One example is if you make it obvious that you are offended, but the abuser recognizes this and takes joy in violating this boundary. This can become harassment and it will enrage you further. I see this in transgenderism which is a common battle being fought nowadays. I think if you want to peacefully enforce a boundary, then the one who violates our boundaries must himself be conscious enough to admit his wrong doing and be willing to change and be your friend. If he does not want to be your friend, then he will actively seek disapproval out of the addicting pleasure of getting on someone's bad side. This is how adults bully each other as they take joy in this sense of power and control. It is like I'm a monkey stuck in a cage and a sadistic bastard is jabbing me with a stick while laughing. If somebody is like this, then the response could be saying "fuck off" and cut them off from you. If you can't get this person out of your life so easily like a family member, then you can get stuck and feel like a victim. I felt This way when my mom had an abusive boyfriend who broke the dishes, stole my money, and beat her. Mom would not listen to reason and she told me to mind my own business. I chose this battle because I was concerned about the safety of the family. On the inside it felt hollow to me because I was only acting based on the belief that a family should love each other. In fact, I didn't really feel love from my family because we were full of lying, stealing, manipulating, criminals. Dad fled the state to avoid paying child support and it all felt like a lie to me when I tried to stop the drug addiction and domestic violence in the name of family love.

My answer is I don't know. For all I know Jesus is a poetic character that never existed like Adam, eve, Noah, and so forth. I would never know for sure what Jesus was like unless I met him in the flesh. As for using righteous anger, I think it is necessary to know your boundaries and make them explicit and specific. Then enforce those boundaries. An example would be if my grandma says she does not care if a n-word crook can't breath. In that case doing the right thing or enforcing a boundary could be telling her "stop being a racist b-word." The function of not being nice is to get the point across and make it obvious that change is necessary.

If I want to find my life purpose, then I will need to find a way to show or tell the world who I am in my own unique way. This may change in different moments, but I am more willing to confront dark truths than most of my co-workers. This can be included in my life purpose. I noticed that when I focus on a physical sensation, then my mind becomes quieter and I sleep more easily. If I want to find my life purpose, then I need to find some way to quiet my mind by focusing on something to touch. It is not something I find by jumping to different pages on the internet. If My focus deteriorates then it explains why I feel so confused. Perhaps I could use a rubber band for when my thoughts start racing.