Evil Raccoon

Fucking stage blue dweebs reacting against orange.

@Nahm It is? I thought it was because it isn't real for me that I'm suffering.

I have to bro, I only have this one life so I gotta find out what the fuck I wanna do/who the fuck I wanna be.One of my greatest fear is to waste years of my life (or my entire life for that matter) chasing/doing somethin I shouldn't in the first place.Now I feel like I'm just playing default and wasting time.And I know, the spiritual path requires patience and life-long commitement and that is why I wanna find out if I really wanna do this. Nah I'm not angry dude, I just love using the word "fuck" so much <3

@Nahm Except u're saying all that from a higher level of consciousness so I can't understand you from where I am.it's not real for me, it's just ideas and ideas don't count for shit.

@Amit I'm evil too.Never said I was perfect.

@Amit Just wondered how can someone in this fucking forum not see that Trump is obviously retarded.

Advice taken.I still recognize that I'm a pretty insecure person tho. For 1 fucking hour 2 times a day.Been doin this for like 2 months now.

@Amit are u trolling bro?

That's why I fucking broke away from the fa*-ass stage blue/religious programming of my stupid family in my late teenage years.Little that I knew stage orange is also a programming lol.And I didn't even know about Spiral Dynamics back then, I just wanted to let go of all that bullshit and embrace my individuality/do my own thing. I already meditate bro.I think NoFap is even more powerful (or as powerful) cuz, my God, porn just completely rots your brain and makes u numb/unconscious as fuck.To me porn is DEFINITELY one of the most toxic chimp stuff in the cage (society) and Leo barely talks about NoFap or semen retention, shame. Well I don't have a problem with talking about my emotions and shit like that just don't ask me to wear a fucking skirt while acting hyper feminine and I'll be fine. Hahaha it's been killing me ever since I first heard it in the notorious chimp episode

Trump conscious, lol.

Ok let's say the chimpery comes from me, not from society.Then why am I like that? Was I just born to be a fucking chimp? Should I persue chimptum if it's honestly what I wanna do?

@nistake That might be true but fuck what Leo said.My OWN direct experience of things and intuition is more reliabe than what someone says.I was just quoting his amusement park metaphor to give him credit and cuz I think that it's true.

Do u mean that no perspective is innacurate? If so then why am I still suffering? They're might be something I don't see/understand yet.

Oh you think so? Then what's the whole fucking point of detoxifying ourselves from mainstream culture in order to persue Truth if our minds can't be programmed? "Society is an amusement park for the ego" as the fucking bald guy owning this fucking web site said.

I'm far away from the hippie/spiritual lifestyle, that's what I'm tryin to say. It felt amusing, I like that guy (no homo). I don't understand the second question pal. I dunno dude, I don't think I'll be a Hero in this lifetime.Maybe I'm a younger soul who needs to go through the Anti-Hero/Villain path first.Or maybe I'm full of shit and just talking nonsense, who the fuck knows.I have no idea what to do with my life therefore I'm just playin the default position (which is serving ego of course).

@Loving Radiance I'm not sayin I NEVER feel compassion, love and shit like that, I'm human.But fundamentally what is my life all about? It's all about serving my fucking self from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to bed.I'm a fucking devil dude, make no mistake about it.

@Nahm Wtf I'm SO far away from being loving and selfless

@Cocolove Your typical stage orange/red song.Very poetic and lovely!

True.

@DefinitelyNotARobot I don't understand what the fuck u're talking about, it's contradictory to me.You're sayin that it's ok to listen to chimp music if I BECOME the music instead of listening to it on a surface level but that's exactly what I'm doin and that is whole fucking problem that I'm tryin to explain! By immersing myself in the energy of an "evil" song, by being ONE with it, I become it and therefore my mind is being "chimped"/corrupted.

@Mike Book Maybe.

Well, u've just described me in a nutshell so you do know me.You even know me better than I know myself.

I can definitely relate.

Wow u seem very advanced Mister Jedi, all zenned out and shit.Basically u're sayin that music doesn't influence my behavior but that it's the other way around?

If I chose the chimp lifestyle over the self-actualized lifestyle, it's for life.Isn't there ultimately only two ways a human being can spend his life: by serving Truth or by serving ego?