Kshantivadin

well it seems like bentinho made a cult on purpose from what i've saw. all the red flags of a cult. mooji is the usual new agey community guru worship stuff IME.

Get ready for shitloads of shit in your life then, until you learn to love the shit. Loving just chocolate doesn't work. Getting both chocolate and shit is the state of affairs here. So might as well expand your gustative pallete otherwise you're going to suffer incredibly. As long as you "stick with chocolate" the duality of shit-chocolate persists, and you suffer. Until when are you going to torture yourself?! (talking partly to myself haha ) The dung is amazing too! You just gotta surrender first.

@Johnny5 My teacher likes to say : When shit and chocolate start to taste the same, that's when you know you're enlightened

Johnny, just go meditate more. Direct experience is the key to wisdom. Then come back and reread what you said about The Godfather, and we can all have a hearty laugh together Conceptualizing anything at this point might do more harm than good. Just go and open yourself to the astounding, baffling experience that is happening right now.

@Danioover9000 ask me whatever via PM and I'll gladly answer. The thing is that this shit can be dangerous, depending on your life circumstances. So I can't give the same advice to everybody. A common trap for NoFappers is to become anal about their semen, which deepens neurosis and can even make you psychotic considering you're doing something that's "not natural" for the body. The unconscious urge is to release, so you're tinkering with your physiology basically. This requires a trained mind, which sucks because nofap turned mainstream, there is a reason why sexual magic/tantra is esoteric. But you wouldn't expect an average Joe to retain for more than a week anyways though. But it can be really harmful, retention -> insomnia -> psychosis. So please don't beat yourself up too much if you wank it off or cum in any way possible once in a while, once you align your life the rest will come in place. PM me whenever.

@Danioover9000 I am not anal about my "semen retention" anymore. I don't know what I'll do when I start having sex regularly (not atm), will I retain or not, but I commit to stop being that neurotic about it. Considering masturbation and pornography, there are things in life that are way more amazing, so the desire to do either just fades. I disagree that MO or PMO is healthy, as people would think though. It's just coping, an emotional crutch, a bad habit, or whatever. Only when you feel "true sexual desire" should you go for sexual activity, although that is much more rare than people think/feel. Orgasming with yourself/porn warps your sexuality, period. Talking from direct experience. Try all variations for a month, while observing what's going on, and see what makes you feel the best, then do that. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- It was very hard for me to type this post because I don't want to further any delusion. If retaining makes you feel the best, then do it, if it doesn't, don't! I can't speak for anyone else but me. Also, I don't have enough experience.

Jesus fucking christ dude, hahaha. Just practice game. Inducing states in other people is manipulation taken to the extreme. do you really want this? to manipulate another person to your benefit? Study natural game, girls will love when they feel you're not tinkering with them, especially if you have trouble with social interactions. you can only manipulate people if you are socially witty. but i don't know why would you even want that, considering your present or future spiritual attainment. manipulation is bad karma, period.

My strategic intent often ends up me being too neurotic about life, which is actually a bad strategy hahaha! It is foolish to think you can control such a complex system such as life with such limited knowledge. On the other hand, having no strategy also makes me miserable. But only having vague ideas about your trajectory in life and your dreams is a way too loose way to live life and also makes you miserable. It's hard! Maybe the hardest part about life. I would appreciate your thoughts abiut this topic. I'm a myopic ignorant commander of my life hahaha!

I've had several episodes of insomnia. You just need to change your lifestyle. The mind is not racing, there is too much energy sometimes. You just change your life and energy expenditure to suit your newfound energy. Never anxious. In fact, retaining makes you unable to feel anxiety, at least in my experience. Stiff, sometimes. Edgy, a lot of the times (when I don't have regular sex), restless also.

First of all, why are you texting? Second of all, I second the vmeme partner similarity.

Cons : you have to face your emotions, you have to take more care of the body since you're going against it's "programmed homeostasis mechanisms" which means you can fuck up stuff easily, for example sleep. It can be really hard. 2. Not everybody can handle this. You need to accept the possibility of going insane. It's a conscious manipulation of energy, which can always backfire. I would of course recommend the usual porn-masturbation reboot, because normal people can't fuck themselves up that way, their capacity of the mind to repress energy and behavior is way too small to cause any problems. Most people are struggling with not touching their dick for a week, let alone a longer time. The reboot is an essential part of self-actualization where you make a qualitative leap from being a neckbeard addict to having intimacy with women. 3. I'm going to be doing it for life. It's a lifestyle. Touching my dick to pictures doesn't satisfy me anymore.

Wet dreams can be non-sexual and sexual. I haven't had a sexual dream in a long time where I didn't orgasm from just a single hint of sexuality, which could indicate my levels of frustration. If there is a scene where I'm about to fuck, I cum before I even put my dick inside, so I don't know about the conscious effort part. Taoists are really big on the health aspect of retention. Nevermind that, common sense (ie the survival-preoccupied mind) would say that retaining is more useful for the body (survival) than ejaculating.

By desiring Truth and Love more than orgastic pleasure. If your question implied that you don't want to bust but struggle with it, the answer is the same. If you associate ejaculating with not achieving your dreams long enough, orgasming becomes so repulsive to you because of its qualities, that the first aspect - wanting to cum - fades. Then you have to tackle the physical aspect of your body-mind being really inclined to ejaculate. Mentally, it's solved by having a mind that's at least a bit trained in concentration and with at least a bit of training in awareness. You need to be able to concentrate on not cumming while being engrossed by such a powerful experience that is sex and such a powerful energy and a powerful drive to cum. Also, you need to be aware of the sensations in the body, the energy flow, the intensity of your arousal, etc. Physically, you need to train your PC muscles with kegel exercises. Taoists have a lot of publically available sexual energy circulation and semen retention and non-ejaculatory orgasm resources. For example, look up Taoist Secrets of Love by Mantak Chia.

I can't say whether it had a negative impact or not, because reality is constantly changing, at it would be deluded of me to imply causation on my morning wood because of nofap. Things change. Although I know for sure that because of nofap, I don't give a fuck whether I have a morning wood or not Flatline is a real thing though.

I don't know how "not retaining" feels. I haven't not retained in a long time. I know, though, that when I have a wet dream, which earlier on in the journey (when I could barely do 30 days) didn't affect me that much, way less than "relapsing" - now, I feel drained that day, needing to eat more, feeling less motivated, and the like. All I can say is that I recover really fast, and usually got that extra physical/mental strength/zest that would definitely give you an edge in sports.

1. The body is way healthier, needs less nutrients, recovers faster. I have had various infections, colds, flus, which didn't affect me that much, I just slept a bit more and that's it. So I didn't truly get sick in a long time, despite spending my childhood and teen years ill a lot of the time. On the other hand, the energy easily gets stuck and that can be really unhealthy for the mind, I don't know how much for the body. I know you didn't mean to write a loaded question - desire is not suppressed, that's a mistake beginners make. You don't slap your fingers whenever you think of sex. Energy also isn't "supressed", it just finds other channels to flow through, although (!) it can easily get stuck. Also, sexual desire can be satisfied through sex. I am not practicing brahmacharya, I only abstain from ejaculation. You don't need to ejaculate, nor orgasm, to be satisfied. 2. It's a hard distinction, I would consider myself to repress it way more than transmute it. Repression would be having your energy stuck in the sacral chakra, transmutation would mean free flow of energy. 3. Yes, and no. I don't know anymore. I always forget what it's like to be a "coomer". If you can conquer your sexuality, you can conquer anything.

what about it? Sometimes I do have it, sometimes I don't.

half a year of semen retention, ask me anything ( i made a forum post for this)

@Leo Gura why not sustainable? not all Orange businesses just exploit loopholes, trade or extract the extra value of their employee's work. There are creative ones too, no? Value-offering? what about capitalism? I'd like to draw a parallel between stage Orange business and capitalism.

@arlin no , here in this thread

@Nahm Okay, cutting through the beliefs, thoughts and concept - there is still hurt within the appearances. Something deeply aching. The appearances hurt. To dismiss that with non-duality beliefs which aren't viscerally understood/felt would be a cop-out. there is sadness, there is pain, here in the relative plain. I can go and say "You're putting labels on your experiences, there's actually nothing wrong with it" and... I would be right? Why do I believe that there is pain and sadness then? Something's not right. How am I something that's actually nothing, why am I not something else. Oh fuck, that's a duality. How the fuck am I so deluded that I can get stuck in thoughts, veiling my experience so much, that I believe that a mirage contains a self, and that the self is suffering? what the actual fuck? I feel grief. that might not be suffering, but I feel it!

There is some entity, but that entity is a part of the appearance as well. But there is definitely a mechanism within appearances, a pattern, a habit, which suffers. I can't pinpoint whom, because the appearances and the sense of self are intertwined. Maybe the feelings want out of suffering? And why - because it hurts, it doesn't feel good? Is it that simple? The interest in a way out of suffering feels genuine. It doesn't feel ego driven, nor selfish. I don't pretend to know anything about reality anymore though, so I might be deluded here (I need to make a distinction between the ego and a self, when I say a sense of self I purely mean the separation between I-other). I'm confused here. What is suffering even? I know that something hurts, big time. Whom does it hurt? Nobody, there is just hurt, can't it just hurt without there being "someone" to hurt? Can't there just be ignorance, if ignorance is the cause of suffering? Of course, in experience, I still get deluded and believe in a self, a lot of the time, most of the time. Not enough suffering yet actually, I guess otherwise I definitely wouldn't keep riding in samsara like a chimp. edit : I'm sorry for the amount of ignorance in this post. I'm just plain confused and deluded.

Please consider what you're writing before you write. Be mindful of your motivations behind the speech. If it's not a pure motivation, why even write anything? Stop chimping around. I know this is a place to relax from all the gruesome work of spirituality and personal development, but stop bullshiting yourself and others.

whoops hahahaha!!! not even as a pointer to nothingness, a symbol that represents it? zero is something, but the thing that zero refers to... ?

yeah yeah but nothing (0) and everything (∞) are terms that are related to numbers. and mathematics is a numeral system.