Michal__

Continue what you are doing and start chasing women/learn pickup. Especially if you quit porn/masturbation. You are not a monk, sex is one of your basic needs.

Well yes, it is possible but is it worth the work? Especially considering what you see likely wont be always accurate, at least it wasn't for me.

I think everybody understands that. (Well maybe not everybody, but that Is not the point) You might have to use a different word than enlightenment though. Enlightenment in the conventional sense means a permanent shift and there are certain facets that are exactly the same for practicioners of all paths.

You hit the nail on the head. Frank is liberated, while your work is about understanding. So yeah, psychadelic induced peak states are obviously what works best for that, but who knows, maybe there is still something better.

I would try going gluten free, maybe even lactose free. It may sound like stereotypical hippie advice, but I am being serious. Please try that...

I had a similiar problem, I think it was caused by ending my fast wrong. Do you fast? It improved by taking garlic. And I think I cured the rest of it with rhodiola rosea & maybe ashwagandha had an effect too, idk. I would try this and probably what @Michael569 said. Typically a weird form of fatigue develops when fasting (and maybe keto) doesn't work for you. Just hope there isn't actual long term damage, maybe you just ducked up your health short term. It will 100% get better if you work on it while complentating the root reason.

Maybe he is the first and the last. You know, alpha & omega and stuff.

But yeah, why haven't you talked to a doctor yet? It sounds serious.

Not being able to get enough sleep might be because of not enough sexual release. Do you meditate/do concentration work?

Well, Leo's day to day experience Is not enlightenment. Frank is enlightened in the traditional sense of the word. But Leo has had perphaps the highest peak experiences.

Everything comes with a price. (and I am not talking about money lmao)

FDA is very effective at protecting us from snake oil. Sometimes they ban legit products because they are not concsciouss enough. Also, there may be some corruption, as with everything. But not nearly as much as it seems from the conspirancy theory perspective.

Read more, also you are moving into green, especially if you meditate a lot. Do not view everything through the spiral dynamics lens 24/7. That Is just counterproductive. You should work on getting all your material needs met while meditating and reading and you will move to yellow in a few years.

Well, his head is empty regardless of meditation.

By speeding the video up. But I stopped doing that so that I can absorb it more fully. Also concentrate only on the video, do not multitask, especially when you speed it up. You can do the same with audio books btw.

Probably Kim Kardashian lol.

Probably something small and symbolic of some concept you actually understand well (somebody said sacred geometry, so if you like sacred geometry go for it). If you want a tattoo this will make you more attractive without making you regret it in the future. The main thing probably is that you should love the thing you get tattooed.

It begins at red and then gets milder and milder at every new color. The abusive kind is red/blue. A few slaps here and there can probably exist even in turqoise.

Talk about it with your wife. Not with random people on an internet forum.

I personally love days when I take 1/4th armodafinil, some rhodiola rosea, green tea and fish oil.

Don't feel bad about failing, it's just porn. Tbh to me watching porn like once a week gives me 90% of the nofap benefits (I tried both). But if you do it for building discipline and feel the need to continue then do not listen to me. Anyway - my point is that there Is not anything evil about porn. Remember - extremes usually aren't good for you, it is about balance.

Yes it is enough, if it doesn't interfere with other activities then do not listen to people who say you should read less. If you can manage it long term, while having a healthy social life your life will get better and better every month.

Yes you should go live somewhere else, I remember a similiar person and they end up getting more emotionally abusive over time. Dont waste your time trying to live with him please.

You need to reach your goals first to be able to begin serious spirituality. Meditating for like an hour a day while working on your goals seems like a great way to move yourself to a position where you arent missing anything in the material world and overtime become more and more serious about spirituality... TLDR: you need both, you will be able to become more spiritual after you have your material life is sufficiently set up.

I mean that is pretty powerful, now add psychadelics into the mix to amplify everything even more