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Only really works if your concentration is high enough. Speaking as someone who has manifested successfully hundreds of times. Some of the things I have manifested were pretty huge. You might get some results even without that but it's not even comparable. When I'm very concentrated it's basically like superpowers. When I'm not it's like I'm some new ager. You can also manifest being better at manifestation ;). Try that.

I had tons of OBEs in the past 2 years. Stopped counting after 1000. Less than 10% is practically useful. Maybe closer to 1%. Although if you did concentration techniques for 4 hours a day 90% of them would become useful ;-). And even without that every single one of them will make you understand magick better. Another way to make them useful for selfish purposes would be 1 - 2 hours of concentration + micro/small-dosing.

I went through something similiar five years ago. While it was terrible, it kickstarted my spiritual life. For me it got better because I started doing a lot of concentration excersises. In Theravada terms you experienced A&P (arising and passing - amazing spontaneous, enjoyable spiritual experiences) and the dukkha nanas (the dark night of the soul, in Christian terms). The bad news is that this cycle will repeat itself again. And again. Many times. With changing intensity, length etc. The good news is that if you get all this mental content out of your head with tons of meditation, contemplation and psychedelics you will permanently lock in a state that is comparable to the Buddhas enlinghtenment. Read "Contemplative Fitness" by Kenneth Folk (a short, very useful text, that will explain what is going on). If you have more time then read Mastering The Core Teaching of The Buddha by Daniel Ingram. Not an easy read, but useful, since his awakening was spontaneous too (similiar to yours and mine, with the bad parts too) and he took meditation extremely far and pernamently flipped a switch.

Good job. I can see how that would work.

You can "see" what's outside of thoughts by having cessations. You might have experienced that.

While I'm not a Buddhist and I personally do a mix of Leo's methods, heavy meditation and other methods I think it's important to note that Buddhists are not into stopping thinking at all! No serious Buddhist actually claims that! They want to remove all emotional resistance from thinking/seperate thoughts and emotions from the rest of sensory experience. Even those "masters" that claim not to think eventually admit that it's actually more accurate to call it "thinking not thinking" - taking non identification as far as possible

@KatiesKarma have you tried HHC-P? That should be legal in your country too and it's supposedly like 10x stronger than regular THC. I am planning to. Just worried about my lungs. And HHC-P edibles are not yet in my country (Czech Republic).

The coughing always precedes a strong experience. If I don't cough with HHC it will be weak. Vaping gives the best effect but I might have to use mainly edibles if I don't want to risk long term lung damage. Or using sprayed flower in a pipe. That also hits nice, especially if it is 30+% HHC.

If I do 3h+ of concentration and have a bunch of cessations (what I think are cessations anyway) my sleep need reduces dramatically. It goes back to normal when I practice only one hour a day. But during these periods of intense practices I feel like the guy from limitless 24/7 and sleep only for 2 - 4 hours a night. No stimulants (except green tea) either. If I meditate for 90+ minutes before sleep there is a huge chance I wont be tired enough to sleep. And it was like that every since I tried longer sessions. I did not know that other people had similiar experiences. If someone wants to comment something dumb like its autosuggestion from watching dharma videos - go fornicate yourself with an iron stick.

If it works it works. Must people just repeat the advice they heard...

Sounds intense. How many mg?

It's super common when you take meditation far enough. How much do you meditate?

If nobody is telling what to do you NEED to plan every day in advance. For example in the way @gettoefl suggested.

- meet all your nutritional needs (both micro and macro nutrients, enough calories obviously) - digest easily (experiment - this is an area where anecdote > studies) Being in a food coma is a sure way to cripple your productivity... - look out for things like cholesterol, diabetes etc - minimize processed foods

I did a 90 minutes meditation session in the evening. Couldn't sleep for more than a few hours afterwards. I'm full of energy. Other people report that too. It's probably all the concentration...

Illegal state. Read the conversation.

I would do a water fast for a few days.

If you don't take any stimulants and aren't tired then maybe you don't need to sleep as much. Maybe non resistance means you use less energy ;).

Buy sprayed flower and use a pipe. It's almost as strong as a vape except it's much better on the lungs. You can get as high for the same amount of money, just gotta smoke more than with a vape.

The Phase book.

Use a P.O. box and if you're extra paranoid just go a mile from it to open it. (Not in your home) Doubt anyone does anything more complicated than that :D.. Not legal advice though.

Sounds great, Add rhodiola rosea :D.

If you already have experience with fasting I would definitely kickstart the practice by not eating for the first few days. I just meditate on my bed, without backsupport, in a cross legged position. At least most days. If someone else is home I usually just spend 4 hours during the day + 4 hours during the night meditating. I still work on clients projects even during retreats so I only get about 4 hours of sleep. Which is not a problem because mindfulness => meditation => wakefulness. On the days where I dont waterfast I do IF. I drink water whenever I am thirsty. Ideally there should be a period before and after food where you dont drink (1 hour is enough) to aid digestion. Mostly kasina. Mixed with weed and sometimes holotropic breathing. Tonight I did a LSA, HHC and holotropic breathing trip while meditating from 21:00 to 3:00 AM. I am not even on retreat, just had some spare time. Also, if your concentration is already strong enough you should listen to dharma stuff in the background as a peripheral object that gives you transmission at the same time. Yeah, I talk to people. I am used to having very intense experiences often, so I do not really take many precautions. Just feel it out and adjust as I go. I do about two of these for 1 - 4 weeks per year.

When that happens do at 4 am do you go to bed again? Do you awaken more times? If that's the case read the book "The Phase" but completely ignore his metaphysical views. Have you ever used any mantras or done any visualization exercises?

The only way to truly find find out is to test out both exactly the fantasies you have with women and exactly the fantasies you have with men in real life. No matter how weird they may be :P. Speaking from experience.