Michal__

I remember hallucinating on my retreat one year ago and then taking LSD a few weeks after the retreat. I am planning one soon. Hopefully I dont run out of modafinil because I am too lazy without it haha.

Shitty. It turns out I am going to owe about 3 months in taxes.

Nice

Try some boosters from absolute power subliminals. They actually work if you meditate enough.

Haha

One retreat is like meditating for 1+ hours a day for a year or maybe even more.

If it was twice as long you probably would've got a fruition.

Theres also a huge difference between natty programming and steroid programs. Naturals have to focus all their effort on progressive overload whereas steroid assisted lifters have to focus more on all fancy scientific rep and set ranges .

Nice. Do you have your strongest experiences written down?

Read Advanced magick for beginners by Alan Chapman.

I just got lazy. I am low key addicted to modafinil and only put in enough time reading, meditating and working when I am on it. I was out of it for a long time.

I didn't finish "The experience of No-Self".

Great books. I read "What is Self?" too.

Magick works by intent. Great book on why astrology would work for some is Advanced magick for beginners by Alan Chapman. In short, you actually have to be sort of a magician for it to work unless you believe it 100%.

"Nippster "

You wrote 3 books? Great job.

Happy holidays to you guys too

I once went to a different world during holotrophic breathing while holding my breath. While in a psych ward haha. Salvia-esque but for only 10 seconds or so.

In our country the laws to commit someone are a bit weird. Out of mallice - we got into a fight.

As someone who spent close to 5 months hospitalized this hits close to home. They misdiagnosed my HPPD as schizophrenia. Then they took away my rights for a few long months and gave me some shitty pills. Now I have to visit a psychiatrist once a month that gives me a stupid injection and of course even smoking weed is out of the question from their point of view (I have obviously done psychedelics since then and nothing bad happened). All because my stupid brother didnt like that I was high and meditating. No psychosis, nothing. I am now doing a solo meditation retreat assisted by modafinil and I cant even talk about that. And now I have a permanent medical record that prevents me from getting a lot of jobs. At least I can get some free money from the state (I see it more as a reimbursenent for wasting precious months haha). I used it to get some stress free months of close to retreat level practice (while hospitalized), so at least that part was good. But I was lazy, so it wasnt like a full retreat.

I didnt. My brother called the ambulance . He also stole 1500$ from me (which is a months wage in my country).

I'd probably call it temporary weed induced psychosis. Or not even that, just getting too high and not botheting anyone. One of the effects I am enjoying to this day is the ground moving like on LSD while sober.

How long were you hospitalized for? And btw how did you get profile bio to display?

None, they just eyed it. Tested my concentration and memory. I did have hallucinations during the rorsach test though. I dont know whether they could tell though . I wanted to go home asap. Also, I told a psychiatrist I had hallucinations for a week after consuming 8 weed brownies. (A different one, later)

I have done two paid love spells for people. Good idea.