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Your challenge is great @Leo Gura, when will we get an actualized dictonary? Word: Solipissed Definition: Solipissed describes a psychological state in which a person reacts with emotional irritation, defensiveness, or hostility towards solipsism—not because they have successfully refuted it, but because they cannot fully dismiss its unsettling implications. The solipissed individual is emotionally threatened by the radical epistemic implications of solipsism (or similar radical idealist ontologies) and thus responds with anger, ridicule, or denial rooted in cognitive discomfort rather than sound logical argument. Their frustration paradoxically deepens the more they engage, like pissing into the wind—only to be sprayed by their own resistance (the emotional irritation intensifies with increasing realization of the fundamental truth behind solipsism). What Solipissed is NOT: A philosopher offering coherent, logically sound refutations of solipsism. A person who accepts solipsism but dislikes it. Playful or lighthearted engagement with solipsist arguments. What Solipissed IS: Emotional rejection of solipsism fueled by existential anxiety. Projection of personal discomfort as supposed "logical" critique. Hostile debates where personal bias masquerades as philosophical rigor. Self-undermining arguments that unwittingly strengthen the solipsist position. Escalating frustration as cognitive dissonance grows. Usage Examples: "Every time solipsism comes up, Dan gets solipissed — you can see the vein on his forehead pulsing." "You're not refuting solipsism; you're just solipissed." "Watching him get solipissed was like a live demonstration of cognitive dissonance." "Ironically, the more he tried to disprove solipsism, the more solipissed he became." Why this concept matters: Names an unspoken emotional pattern: Many philosophical debates are driven by emotional resistance rather than pure logic. This term captures that precisely. Diagnoses defensive cognition: It helps us recognize when arguments are motivated by existential discomfort rather than intellectual clarity. Brings meta-awareness to discussion: Using this term invites a higher-order self-reflection in philosophical discourse, especially in topics that challenge identity, agency, and reality models. Useful beyond solipsism: The structure of solipissed applies to many domains where people reject unsettling but logically resilient ideas. Bonus Metaphor (for illustration): Arguing against solipsism while solipissed is like trying to fight your own shadow — the more you thrash, the more entangled you become.

Word: (Self-)Cracktualization Definition: Cracktualization refers to a counterfeit or delusional form of self-actualization, in which an individual believes they are advancing in spiritual, psychological, or philosophical growth, while in reality they are compulsively consuming conceptual material—often from charismatic teachers, complex frameworks, or online content (like actualized.org) —that stimulates the ego rather than dissolving it. This consumption provides temporary intellectual highs ("ego hits" like from crack) but ultimately reinforces self-centered identity structures, produces fragmented understanding, and often leads to cognitive fragility ("cracks") rather than integrated wisdom. What Cracktualization is NOT: Genuine inner transformation Embodied practice or realization Humble, experiential wisdom Grounded self-awareness cultivated through lived experience Integration of mind, body, and action What Cracktualization IS: Addictive consumption of spiritual/philosophical content as an identity drug Inflated self-image based on accumulated concepts Intellectualization mistaken for realization Online forum posturing and pseudo-sophisticated discourse detached from lived depth Subtle avoidance of emotional, relational, and existential work Usage Examples: "He's been watching 6 hours of metaphysics videos a day but can’t hold a job or sustain a relationship — classic cracktualization." "The forum is full of cracktualized debates where no one listens, but everyone thinks they've transcended ordinary minds." "Cracktualization is the ego's last defense: hiding behind spiritual jargon while avoiding actual surrender." Why this concept matters: Clarifies a growing phenomenon: In an age of infinite online content, many seekers fall into intellectual hyper-consumption mistaken for personal growth. Names a shadow pattern: It helps individuals recognize when they are bypassing real work by hiding behind complex ideas. Protects the integrity of real development: By distinguishing authentic embodiment from conceptual inflation, it serves as a cautionary diagnostic for sincere practitioners. Bridges multiple disciplines: The term holds value across spirituality, psychology, philosophy, and even political identity work, where "content addiction" masks underdeveloped maturity.

Karma means you carve certain trails into your possibility space that have momentum of inertia. You sculpt your own identity including subtle energy bodies that drive your experience of life. We are speaking about magnitudes of unnoumerous lifetimes where these dynamics play out. Consider the whole evolution of nature on planet erath as one carmic cycle for example, nature as one entity. The dinosaurs became extinct - their identity structure was erased like a sub-personality when you do shadow work. Do all the lions suffer for eating gazelles? Do the cats get tortured for "playing" with mice? So start to think big. I'm really dissatisfied with the answers here, a lot of BS in my opinion (sorry). I don't want to engage further, just wanted to clarify.

Honestly, I just forgot about it, probably on purpose (as god). I couldn't bear the load, too. I think "a human" is not made for that, "a human" is more like an effective distraction for god from The VOID, only for entertainment purposes. Like a lightbulb is not made to contain infinite energy, it is just a little expression of it. Bear your life, that's enough for now. You are not made to integrate all the infinite horrors and trauma of the world. And even if you were capable, once you were "through it", where could you land? There is no end to infinity, so there will be no final end to suffering in some way or other. If there was, you would have reached it infinite aeons ago already. Like you said, dreaming, awakening, dreaming, awakening - there is no other game in town, meing, being, nothing, everything. The next step may be to start where you are. Your task is to accept that you are scared a lot about this idea(!) of infnite horror and still have to live your life in some way or other. Right now, it's just an idea, just a memory. Your mind extrapolates it and makes it worse than it is. Beacuse it is obviously not your task right now to live through it since you are not in hell right now. Your goal should be to just become stable in your life right now, again. Be honest to yourself, where you stand, what's to do. You don't need to integrate infinite horros, that's just a grandiose idea. You need to eat healthy, sleep well and excercise etc. Be happy with your little human problems, enjoy them. It's really a precious gift. The spiritual pursuit will look for itself. You may feel a little demotivated now, but sooner or later you will buy into the idea of transcending suffering, again. That there would be something profound to realize yet and so on. It's fine, embrace it - you're back to the game, enjoy it! And yes, there is - life is not how your mind imagines it right now, obviously. So see whether you can go beyond your mind. I wish you the best! I enjoyed reading your trip report and could empathize a lot. And don't get hung up on the story you are not masculine enough. When I read your report, I got strong masculine vibes there. Maybe focus more on your strengths instead of where you lack something. Which masculine parts do you already embody? Feel into it, nurture it, live from it. As long as you live from the premise "I'm not masculine enough" - may it be done to you as you believed. When you accept that you are embodying both parts and some of your already embodied masculine traits are hidden superpowers yet to discover - May it be done to you as you believed. Good luck!

Maybe we sometimes underestimate our own role in helping people feel loved. Maybe we want to tell everyone he or she is fully responsible for him/herself because we are too comfortable and disconnected to show them some of our love, because we don't want to admit that it is not our own strong free will that made us feel good but external factors like luck, which now is our own responsibility to share fairly. "The wise one sees everyone as children." - Maybe we should take more responsibility for the state of the world and when someone else is suffering, it is a remindet for us to be more loving <3

First, I'd question the distinction between physical and mental pain. What if physical pain ist just the escalated version of surpressed/repressed mental pain, another (even more clear) invitation of the universe for you to become conscious of the truth, to come back into alignment with it? Second, it's easy to say for someone who has a solid self-worth due to upbringing. Would you tell that to a molested, neglected child? Imagine telling someone with a genetic disfunction who has chronic pain since childhood that it's his choice to feel good in his body, he just needs to take ownership and should go for sports, healthy nutrition and enough sleep.

Hey @shree, thanks for tagging me and sharing your LP <3 I know that struggle and I found working on my subconscious beliefs (Glaubenssätze) very powerful. If you want methods and some advice you can write me in private, I'd love to share it with you. One main realisation was that a belief is actally a habitual decision. It's a very simple statement, but when you contemplate it, it goes deeeeep... Belief = Habitual decision

Happy Birthday Leo! I'm so happy to have stumbled upon you If I had to decide, I would rather have rejected all the birthday presents of my life than rejecting to moment I have found you you are like my birth-present

@DocWatts Thank you, that was a good explanation!

Everytime I have another awakening like the one today I am puzzled by the intelligence actualized.org resembles in my storyline. It's stunningly awesome! To me, it's almost the purest form of love I could imagine. Seriously, it's like God imagined a father to teach itself how to be God. This is not about Leo per se, I am not an idealizing fan that thinks he's above anything. I am just sooo amazed about how many synchronicities I have experienced with the actualized.org teachings and how every of Leos stick-beatings is like the fresehest sip of water and the purest breath of air to me. Him pointing out my self-deception is like a dentist drilling and filling my holes. It's not that I like going to the dentist, but... If you can't see the endless love a dentist drills into your tooth, well... Love more <3 To me, the actualized.org teachings are all about Love. It is a lasertool which cuts through all the BS into the heart of the (every)thing, which is an explosion of overwhelming Love. That only serious truth-seeking would be required to result in an endless explosion of Love, who could ever believe this?! I am stunned by Beauty ...

Definitely you should stretch afterwards or at least several times during the day! Otherwise you may get problems in the long run..

It's a short post but a great one! Thank you @Davino! Good reminder

Consider the art of listening a meditation. When I listen to someone I try to be as fully present as I can, whenever I am attracted to drift off into my own thoughts too much I remind myself to really listen again as you may remind yourself to notice your breath in meditation. Realize that a big part of communication comes from looking into the eyes of another, realize the magic that might happen there. Maybe switch the eye from time to time it makes the other feels less uncomfortable, don't stare or force it when it feels awkward, especially when speaking yourself sometimes give space by focussing somewhere else or look away (but in general become the part who does it less than the other). Some people look into your eyes a lot, you may realize that a coonection between both of you builds up extremely fast. Make it a meditation to listen and penetrate the eyes with your laser focus. Imagine the other may give you essential clues and insights about your own life, but it depends on your faith in his intelligence and willingness to give space and reward him with attention and love. Realize that everyone is smarter or has more experience than you in at least one area of life and it is your task to find that sweet spot by asking the right questions and fully listening. As long as you don't find that and are bored, listen more to HOW the other says things, not what. Make it an art to tune into ones energetic signature by listening to how and why someone says or does not say specific things. You can explore so much in a boring normie conversation when you focus on the right stuff with the right mindset. When you nurture the other with this full-on attention and guide the conversation with intelligent questions you will encounter sooo much more depth in a usually superficial normie and people feel magnetically attracted to you. Don't underestimate the effect! With the right mindset of yours people really become excited, awake and fully in flowmode and show their best potential and will thank you for the conversation afterwards. Make it a task to almost NEVER interrupt! I almost never do it, it's a golden rule of mine, see it as a training of your patience. Example from my own life: Often when I have encounters with groups of people that I don't know yet and whose listening culture is definitely worse than mine, it happens naturally that everyone gets more and more attracted to speak to me instead of the others because I am the only one who is really listening. Even in a group of up to ten people it's casual that I am the one looked at and adressed in more than 50% of the time although I only make 10% of the people. Sometimes I need to signal with a look to the others that there are more people than me who can be talked to, it can feel a bit overwhelming and weird to be of so much focus to everyone, but you will attract attention like a flame attracts moths. It's an interesting experience. You literally become the center of attention by being completely attentive. Good listening is an art form you can enhance almost endlessly. It's like the interaction with an AI. Learn to ask the right questions. Therefore you must first understand how the AI works. Which prompts it can work best with. So sometimes your conversationn partner is lost in his zombie mode that he is used to while talking to most people. Show him that you are of another kind! Let him feel that he is in 100% spotlight and now it's his time to shine! Consider him to actually still be a small child which no adult ever truly believed in and now you are the first one to show him that he has a huge potential to actualize. This kind of attitude is the best prompt for great concersations. And use silence as a tool. For example when people lie and you don't respond immediatly they may try to fabulate more to make their point more convincing. The same way goes for boring topics or emotional stuff too sometimes. Sometimes no response is the best response. The deepest topics arise from the longest silence beacause that's when you have time to feel into what you aactually really want to talk about. So give space in that regard. And feel into your own urge to say something, feel the uncomfortableness, make it a meditation again. People really miss out on listening. So many people just want to talk endlessly about themselves. You won't learn much about yourself when you talk a lot about yourself. When you give people your full loving attention, they will reward you for that . They may ask very deep questions back and look into your soul with a similar interest so now you learn something about yourself!!

Ok this one actually may not perfectly fit the criteria but to some it may be quite relatable and it captures some of the struggles on the path... "SOLIPSIS" https://suno.com/song/68d2f4c0-530a-4cba-bfa3-730cd4fbcef8

@Shodburrito thanks for your well written post, I honestly enjoyed it. In my view you are too dismissive about the forum members and Leo, but you strike some points here and there. It's good to reflect upon, so thank you. Let's reflect ourselves and transcend our own narcissistic tendencies. I appreciate your posting quality and that's my main critic of the forum - only very few members post something valuable consistently, most of the stuff here ist just a wet farting contest.

Suno is really a great music generator, completely underestimated the development in the recent year concerning AI music... "Dear god myself": https://suno.com/song/a5a34430-d691-4637-8a2f-059c130d9650 "Going to meet god": https://suno.com/song/fce33198-4118-4871-bde5-46cf392dcef7 This song was inspired by the introduction of the following Video:

Thanks for your detailed answer! Yes, it's obvious that these are all different "consciousness milieus/arrangements" so to speak. What do I see a bird as? I'll let that be my koan of the month ;P

I really like it!! Good one I'd call it Soundscapegoating ;P

@Leo Gura could you please clarify some of your recent jargon in the sense that it seems as if at least one layer has been added? Which words do you use synomynously (like consciousness & awareness or God & Mind?) and which of them have a distinct meaning/ are on other levels (like Truth & Awareness etc?)? Words like God, Mind, Awareness, Consiousness, Truth, Love, Being, Understanding, Knowing, Reality, Infinity (do you distinguish between magnitudes of infinity like in mathematics - the rational vs complex numbers, like infinity < alien infinity?)

Just wanted to thank you @Leo Gura, I love your many blog posts, read each of them Some of them have a big impact on me, like the ones about love and intelligence or the suffering of personal development. I resonate deeply. While reading, I literally feel like I am in love, it's so beautiful to imagine someone like you to support me to awaken myself haha

Great! Thanks for sharinng <3

Thank you Leo for your two recent blog posts!!! Yeah, it kicks in So true... I can feel the love & realize the intelligence behind it. At the peak of some awakenings it felt like the cosmic clock (consisting of infinite clocks each striking the perfect 12, or zero at the same time) /everything stands completely still. Perfect alignment of infinity. Absolute transparency, infinite intelligence, the unconditional self-luminous radiance of consciousness everywhere, selfless love overflowing itself. Your post was a great reminder. Thank you!

It only works in 30-40% of the cases but when you twist their nippples while arguing you can double your chances of success.

Why do you want it so hard? I doubt you know what you wish for. Imagine everyone around you would sometimes be flickering, spamming in and out of existence - would you want that? There may be a reason why you keep imagining others to be real, and maybe it's not just dumbness and ignorance. I don't want to discourage you to sprint the way but maybe you could slow down a little and enjoy the journey, since when it becomes blatently obvious there is no (easy) way back and there is no other game like this in town. Maybe it's a greater skill to realistically imagine others to be real than to see through ones own self-deception. Remember: There is no one out there to tell you which is the "greater achievement".