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Sounds great! May I ask you what you liked the most and disliked the most with beeing a monk? Did you have to pay them anything?

I have been a little affected of this, talking about my enlightenment experiences with friends and teachers and shit, really narcissistic. I have stopped talking about self-trancendence with others, sometimes with my cousin but just a little. Nowadays I just talk a little about meditation with people if we ask each other what we like doing and stuff like that. I don't wanna be narcissistic but at the same time I don't want to be ashamed about me enjoying solitude and meditation. Adyashanti always helps me!

I was going to experiment with going from full meat eater to vegan for a month and see how i felt afterwards. It has been about 7 months now and I have never looked back. Maybe you should experiment...

Just finished "I AM THAT" by Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj. I have three books to read now and they are: "The Highly Sensitive Person" -Elanie N. Aron "Consciousness Speaks" -Ramesh S. Balsekar "Autobiography of a Yogi" -Pramahansa Yogananda I would really recomend "The Books of Not Knowing" by Peter Ralston. It blows my mind and I will probably read it two more times because you can't really understand the depth of it in just one read and a little bit of self-inquiry and meditation.

Started to do 3-4 hours of self inquiry and maaaaan it just feels so weird between the eyes. It usually passes for me but it has lasted for two weeks now.

A Zen Master is a dog, a cat or a dog or a cat in human disguise.

So I have been wondering which meditation posture you guys prefer. Have anyone of you actually made into full lotus? Why do you prefer your posture? Personally I prefer sitting in a chair for 1 h sits and quarter lotus for 30-45 minute sits.

I'm just 19 and I feel the need to get sex "out of my system", I don't wanna be a fucking virgin Yogi/Zen monk for the rest of my life because I will probably stop caring about sex sooner or later. I am starting to see that sex etc won't make me happy, but dammit it's hard to let go. Sex is like my main struggle.. I can really sympathize with you on the feeling of loosing a younger part of yourself. I just know that I will never be "normal" ever again, it's like a point of no return, but it is for the best. The more mindful I become the more I can see what this "little me" wants to experience before it surrenders, sometimes I feel the need of having friends, sex, fitting in etc just to get one more rush out of it even though I know it won't work. PS. beeing a young girl means ABSULUTLY NOTHING compared to beeing a FUCKING YODA! This video cheers me up at bad times. Good luck!

Havent watched it but I guess this is the one.

Watched this a few months ago and it really sparked up my motivation to meditate. Enjoy!

I was just wondering if anyone has read the book. Was it a good read?

http://www.amazon.com/Our-Inner-Ape-Primatologist-Explains/dp/1594481962

About 15-20% of the human population has a more fine tuned nervous system which makes them more sensitive to how other people are feeling, stimuli like TV, alcohol, caffeine, lights etc. Here are some common traits of HSP: -Been called too shy as a kid -Feeling others feelings deeper -Feeling your own feelings deeper -Beeing able to feel how the mood is in a group for about a second after walking near them (can happen when you walk inside a classroom and after about a second you just know if they are happy or resentful etc -More sensitive to TV, alcohol, caffine, lights, sounds, conflictis etc -Beeing easy targets to abusive people and narrcisists -More in touch with their intuition then the normal person -Craves more alone time -Feeling more responsible to relive other peoples suffering What has helped me with this is walking out in nature more often, meditating and in general avoiding mainstream culture and not seeing yourself as responsible for the suffering of others. Are there any other highly sensitive people over here and what has helped you?

I have a book called "The Highly Sensitive Person" by Elanie n. Aron, she knows whats up. I still go to school and I really could not work among a full class, it was a horror, I fucked up like 3 years of my school that way. Childhood was a little scetchy aswell. Anyways I really would recomend taking full responsibility for your life even if it may suck atm, trying to work alone instead of in a class/group, be in nature and meditate. When i have developed myself the way I have done this year I am really happy to be a HSP, it feels like life if much more deeper when you get a little more grounded.

I hae been feeling so fucking great for about a week or so. It's like I have been the wittness and got acess to some kind of formless awereness but not identified it, Adyashanti mentions this in "The End of Your World" that the ego can sett up a camp as the witness and take credit for it. But today when I sit down, a HUGE sense of pressure and pain. It scares the shit out of me, it feels like an internal bleeding or somethng, something inside my eye or wtf. Does anyone have experience of this?

It is okay at the moment. I have been stepping up with the self inquiry lately and sometimes the ego freaks out. I investigated this and I found that the pain was not located, it felt like a body pain but it was not located. Anyways thanks for the tips.

Found this video yesterday and it really made me inspired so I just wanted to share it with you guys.

Awwww! I have never been in your situasition but I can share you a technique I use when something shakes me up. When I feel like shit i usually meditate with sad music. It really gets alot of shit out of your system, when you have cried your ass off you will probably feel more free then what you did before and you should be able to make a call.

Name: Martin Age: 19 Gender: Male Location: Sweden Occupation: School Marital Status: Single Kids: No Hobbies: enlightenment, meditation, skateboarding, skiing, trailrunning, nature, reading, eating healthy I got into personal development after I had a hard time in school, I'm bisexual and I have always denied it and when i realized I juts had to tell someone I got depressed, started smoking, drinking, got fat. My "friends" started to leave me out when I told them and eventually I tried to commit suicide. One day i found Leos videos on depression, I started to clean up my shit and have not been looking back ever since. Personal challenges I've overcome: -Suicidal dispair -Depression -Shyness -Low self-esteem -Bad confidence -Cleaned up my diet, became a vegan aswell and I really enjoy it -Stopped smoking, drinking, eating unhealthy food, eating candy, playing videogames -Got into shape again by skiing and running -girls What I'm working on now: -enlightenment -meditation -school -preparing to become a Zen monk for a year or two after I finnish school -self-expression and honesty (I am a dirty little liar) -girls -realized I am a Highly Sensitive Person and adapting to this by trying to be a little more like a monk

Becomming a fat drunk who watches television after a soul-numbing job and a whife even more dysfunctional than me. In other words: becomming the best chimp ever.

First I had a feeling that this forum would distract me from self-inquiry and it will probably do so but to be honest I have never been as motovated to sit down and ask myself "Who am I?" as I have been this week. It really feels more real when you can read about other "mortal" people write and share their experience with meditation and inquiry and what their obstacles are and have been on this path. This just gives me a good vibe... Thank you for joining this forum and sharing your stories, it is so just so much more motivating than just reading spiritual litterature and watching videos about this stuff. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

@kalter000 @Ayla I'm so going to make this a habit every time before bed... Whos with me?

Oh lol I actualy tried this yeasterday... still not enlightened. DAMMIT!