Sri McDonald Trump Maharaj

There are different koans that are used for different purposes, some of them are like self inquiry. Bringing equanimity to a confused mind is one of the most awsome effects I have ever experienced but that was during regular self inquiry, I literally laughed out loud for about 10-15 minutes so badly that my mother thaught I was insane. Shinzen calls it meaningful meaninglessness and it sure was meaningless and it sure as hell was meaningful.

Just try it.................

You pretty much summed up everything I live for. All those things are just pure heaven!

Quitting smoking was one of the first thing I did when I started doing personal development and discovered actualized.org about 18 months ago. I was in school and here in Sweden we get paid for about 11$ per month. I tried and I tried to cutt off to smoking about 1-2 cigarettes per day. One day I decided to spend all my money on thai food intentionally so I wouldn't be able to affort those damn cancersticks. When the omney was gone there was no going back...

"Why the fuck am I spending so much time on this forum and filling my mind with crap from the internet and books instead of just meditating like hell?" -Darth Vader Roshi Pounder that koan deeply...

I have never done group practice so I don't know what to say about it, I will try it our in September though. It can probably be great and motivating but be careful about dogma and beliefs.

"Anyone who sees and paints a sky green and fields blue ought to be sterilized." ― Adolf Hitler “No politician should ever let himself be photographed in a bathing suit.” ― Adolf Hitler "God hates America!" ― Westboro Baptist Church Thank God for the tsunami, and thank God that two thousand dead Swedes are fertilizing the ground over there [in Asia]. How many of these two thousand, do you suppose, were fags and dykes? This is how the Lord deals with His enemies. And the Lord has got some enemies. And Sweden heads the list. You filthy Swedes. You filthy Swedes! ― Fred Phelps “I think Viagra is wonderful if you need it, if you have medical issues, if you’ve had surgery. I’ve just never needed it. Frankly, I wouldn’t mind if there were an anti-Viagra, something with the opposite effect. I’m not bragging. I’m just lucky. I don’t need it. I’ve always said, “If you need Viagra, you’re probably with the wrong girl.” — Donald Trump

It can be usefull to study buddhism but there is A LOT of dogma there, even in sects like Zen. So be careful to not fill your mind with fantasies about spirituallity or getting addicted to "styles" or perspectives of consciousness. But sure study it but remember to not get lost in it and study more than you practice.

Meditate for 10 000-15 000 hours before I turn 30 (10 years).

Shinzen Young is a really fucking expert on this thing, like really. Check his videos!

So this is going to be a bit late but whatever... I did it for a week for about 45-60 minutes per night after about 3 hours of sleep. The first night I think I had en enlightenment experience but it's not really a new thing to me and it felt very basic that night. The other nights where quite fun aswell but not as well as the first night. I got sleep deprived after about 4 days but I will do another one next week for sure.

Tears are like the best thing ever. Crying and sadness is probably the most "meaningful" emotions to me. "Joyfulness rises right up out of despair. Singing the blues can make you happy" -Brad Blanton

Relationships has a tendency to change or fall apart completly on this path so I was just wondering how your relationships has changed since you started to practise self-inquiry. Personally this "me" has gotten very detatched from "others" and it's getting even more deeper. It's so hard to sweep stuff under the rug and if you to you will become conscious of it almost directly. I have gotten more sensitive to other peoples feeling and a sense of sadness for the world sometimes arises. But I actually feel that me relationships are at least getting more honest. It becomes harder and harder to tolerate chimp stuff, bulshit and ideolgical concepts.

There is one thing I have to tell you! I don't know how this will affect my sits but here in nothern Sweden during the summer the sun never goes down and I'm not sure what effects this will have on my sittings. During my night sits I have done them after about 2-3 hours of sleep. This night I did my third Yaza, this time it was 45 minutes but in cross legged. I havent gotten to this "sleeping while being awake state" in meditation and "being awake while sleeping state" when I go to bed but I still notice that I go deeper than usual in meditation while doing this and I plan on doing this for a week. That's four more days. I've decided to stay away from the chimpernet for a week more or less but I'm supposed to go to church on every sunday and I wanted to check this out a little quick. I'll return in about 3-4 days to tell you how it's been going. How many of you is up for making this a habbit for a week or so?

I meditate a lot and I also do walking meditation in nature for about 30-90 minutes per day and it happens like every day. It's like the coolest thing ever!

Shikantaza/do nothing because it dosen't require so much effort in the middle of the night with 3 hours of sleep, hehe.

I started meditating in february 2015. I intended on sitting 20 minutes per day but I only sat for 10 minutes per day the first week. After that I went to 20 minutes, and after that it was 30 minutes. I think I did my first 1 hour sit after about months.

This is amazing! Like really! got like 2 hours of sleep then I did my Shikantaza/do nothing for an hour, I didn't make it a strong determination sit but it still was REALLY fucking powerful. In a sense it was kinda hard but on the other hand it was like the most effortless meditation I've ever had and I got kind of hyper conscious really fast. Another cool thing that happend during the meditation was that I litteraly felt that the body got deeper into rest during my meditation. Now comes the even more cool part... After I finnished my sit I didn't really sleep much. It was like I was awere of lying in bed and watching the body getting deeper and deeper into some kind of resting/sleeping state. I've had about 5 hours or less of "real" sleep and I'm not sleep deprived at all. I feel so mindful and alert now. I have to do this tomorrow again. I think that we've just discovered something really powerful tonight and I'm so glad we did this. Who is up for another one?

LOL! I found some other pillows so I think I should be capable to do a 1 hour SDS anyways. Thank you and I'll see you tomorrow!

I'm really exited to try this out but I might not be able to pull it off tonight... I can sense that the prostate inflamation I had a few weeks ago is comming back again and sitting down has gotten a problem again and I'm not interested in doing a lying meditation right after 3 hours of sleep, lol. But I'm going to see if I can make a sitting work tonight, I'm such a fucking hypocrite... You could make one of those memes with a guy who looks mean and has a cap on the side with the message: "Suggests that people should go and do a late night sitting and report how it went the day after, dosn't partake."

A guy in the comments mentioned he did it and that it was amazing but whatever, he slept like 4 hours then woke up an sat for an hour then went back to sleep. I've meditated while I have been VERY VERY TIRED during the mornings and the evenings and it has some interessting effects. When I was super sleep deprived and felt like shit and did 90 minute sits it was like WTF. Feeling like shit BUT after a while every 3-5 minutes I would sense purification so much. It was like champange bubbles bursting over my bubbles. But I have never done what he talks about and I'm very interested now that you mention it. I have an idea! Let's do it tonight! Sleep for 3,5-4 hours then sit for an hour then go back to sleep and tomorrow we'll have a little chat. Are you interessted in doing that? And also is anyone else interessted in doing this kind of shit tonight and reporting it here?

Ahhh I'm also kind of a lone wolf myself and I have been doing that for a long time aswell. Going out walking or doing walking meditation helps. One thing that really helped me was a comment in my journal that said something like this: "You can relapse. But meditate first!" and that technique has really helped me a lot.

This video has been a HUGE source of motivation for me in spiritual work. I used to watch it everyday but right now I watch it like 3 times per week. This video really sets a fire in my ass and I hope it will do the same to you.