Applegarden

YES! Another AMA! How are you dude?

Or to post AMA's with titles - "I am enlightened, ask me anything." And If you are opposed, then tell everything is one and they don't know any better so they can't deny that I am enlightened.

After I read the comment that got him banned, dude, I can't defend this guy aginst Leo, no matter how hard I tried.

THIS, If you have talked about ANYTHING related to consciousness, occult e.c.t. you can't pamper with some people (arguably a large part), especially intoxicated or you are talking with them in public or while they are doing something else, and for some people, if you share this stuff to some other people, their reaction is just straight out anger - they don't want their boundaries pushed at all because their delusion knows the power of these words internalized.

I want to do music all day while feeling empowered and established in non-duality. I would pay 3000$ for that today even.

As per my experience, your "presence" or the meta firsy person experience will never die.

I totally agree, then its like we don't treat all ideas and opinions equally even before we read them.

You know, I haven't came back to it after 37th topic, that is not because I became lazier, but I accutally started listening to my muse and actively figuring stuff out, because I kinda know what to do. I feel, obviously, I will have to come back to it. But it does work if you ask me now.

Seemed pretentious, but now I fell inlove with it.

Maybe its the simple fact he got 20 points and got auto banned. Happens.

I would suggest spending time to look at the negativ effects of smoking to continiously keep yourself interested, or the benefits of not smoking. Really puts things clearly in perspective.

Hello actualizers, in would really ask for your advice, analysis and your support. My situation is this. I am a bedroom musician, mainly self-taught and play guitar. This is my 6th year of playing it. It is really hard on and off, but I like to practice so I got somewhat good with it and now i see a beacon of possibilities in my guitar playing and a massive inspiration to practice + I am getting more taste for practicing, creative wanking and learning guitar. It's just getting so good. I would modify my 8 string to microtonal, alter my tuning to lower one and would just practice the shit out of it, but there is one devastating problem that is literally crippling me to become an artist (I can still get really good if I play in my free time). That problem is since i moved in back with my mother, I have this really butthurt neighbour. Basically he wants me to stop playing guitar at all costs. And he wouldn't hesitate to rage every day. Very important notice - I always play on headphones, and the actual guitar sound is not loud and now I play even quieter - just 2 hand tapping lead practice. That has to be below 50 dB (and i will have decibelmeter to measure the sound acctually). Even if i play syntesizer on my headphones he is triggered. This just sucks so bad. I am looking for a solution really, because I just underestood I want it really bad that I am going to die for it. I have few solutions I think. Buying a car, powerbank and a pedalboard and play there. Buying a car and garage and playing there. Changing the place I live and renting a place in Riga. Look in playing options in local music school. Focus on other aspects of music and leave guitar for now. Creating a youtube channel talking about music and topics like these and struggles of musicians, rants, possibilities of music, various artists and so on and then finding like minded people and forming a band. Long term: Forming a band and living with bandmates; Saving up a lot of money and either soundproofing the room im playing in or taking credit and buying a house. This is just really unfortunate situation, but I have to do something about it. What do you think? I really do think I have what it takes regarding music. Feels super sad.

The first thing, i am not sure, I always do everything on headphones, but If I have problems with that I possibly could blast somepodcast, get noise cancelling headphones and just keep practicing, but that is a lose lose for other neighbours who don't say anything bad and acctually like when I play, I know because they play loud music for short moments of time when I don't play. About the second thing... Yes, I am really looking at the other solution but with a car. I would get a footswitch - pedalboard, power bank and a car and then go somewhere and play in a car. Just going out with 750 eur electric guitar and possibly an amp or smth that makes it sound electric in open, generally a bad idea unless you are busking in groups which never happens. Very big chance I i will just get ambushed by some drunkard or peer in my age range. Third thing - by all means, sometimes self-defence is something that potentially can save your life, no question, but I would rather use it when I got just about nothing else left to do and in situation where I have to defend myself. I know just some basics, how to stand and how to throw some punches, almost have been knocked out in a sparring in something like fake muay-thai course few years ago for 6 months. My bodyweight is also really low but I have long hands and I am agile, I could maybe strike him by suprise and maybe get him fast and continiously - by making him lose balance or hit and run, but extende fight is bad news for me even if he is not in shape. And besides if I decide to fight it brings bad karma, and trauma in some way to you that disrupts you life-positivity, because of the very tangible sense of anger you created. This mindset makes me like him, and I don't want to think nearly as that man. Anger is all he knows. And besides, risking falling and knocking my head aginst the conrete, breaking my hands or feet or get some internal bleeding. Atll this will set me back if not paralyze me and obviously if i get into all this, I lose, probalbly some bodily capacities for life if i get unlucky. So no attacking from me. Besides is feel so non-violent, i will never punch anybody for life. That feeling has left me long time ago. I don't feel like my life is centered on people in general, there is just some personal fears about me not being able to fullfill my potential due to somebody being violent due to their cunningness. Believe me, I am considering coming at him and talking about this. But in order to do that I need a perfect timing when he is screaming at me trought the wall - when he is really ad-homonym attacking me and i need to mentally prepeare to make a list of very good points. The aim to my conversation is to bring up my point of view and disturb him in a sense - as many times I need to say thing like - being louder won't make you right, you are responsible of how you feel and you can change that, you are teaching children indirectly with your behaviour, you are using victim mentality as a reason to abuse me, can you stick to the point, me sitting in front of computer screen and doing whatever I am doing is not the subject of this point and none of your business and get back to the topic and things like that... i wan't to force him out of this victim mentality mindset where he can't intellectually go anywhere and has to self-reflect. I basically want to challenge him and deeply shake his values by exposing how he is handling things acctually and that its not approriate and not acceptable in any way. If he tries to school me and talk about manlyness i will say - if you are so manly, stop disrupting my sleep, have respect for others, look at yourself and what you can do to improve your life, you don't underestand me because you don't want to, AND MOST IMPORTANTLY COME OUT OF YOUR GRAY AREAS AND VICTIM MENTALITY AND GET BACK TO THE TOPIC AND TALK TO ME LIKE A MAN. I just know there is so high chance of me getting punched, but I haven't ever delivered such straightforwards criticism and evolving of my character of assertiveness has to happen in order for me to chase my dreams. This is too important for me and I underestand I said i have to do what it takes, so I will go when I feel the time is right, until then I will journal about this so it is wired in my brain very good, so no amount of fear can influence my points and wherever he is trying to mislead the conversation. And of course thanks for poiting it out to me, "What he is doing is illegitimate - if he disagrees in any manner and keeps disrupting my sleep, keeps yelling and obviously the child usually knocks at me, sometimes at night also - that means I can make noise too, which I am not going to abuse like them, BECAUSE based on 35 dB limit, you are iterally making noise when you are doing just about anything, even talking, shouting, watching TV, cooking, washing cothes, knocking, doing construction, walking, partying and listening to loud music e.c.t." So pointing out this hypocrisy and getting him to say "I don't care" is a psychological win for me to blast him with my points and get him into dilemma, so he just HAS to think in other perspectives. I think he will get back to anger and shouting e.c.t but then I will have to constantly remind him that shouting doesn't make his points more true. Maybe the one thing that I have done that i can name is sometimes dropping something at night (and I usually go to sleep pretty early, but I need only 6 hr of sleep and another could be that my aarm rings twice sometimes - in recent months that has happened maybe 2 times, but it used to be a pattern for me more than a half-year ago.) I would also have to talk about the comprimise part - since I am anyway looking at other options, 2 hours of systemic practice in the period from 9am to 9pm (just on guitar) is more than enough to land a not too technical music project, since there are many other skills involved in music production that i can do afterwards like analysis, sound production, composition e.c.t. It will also shock him that I came to defend myself because I am usually super avoidant and ignore such people to death (and it works and it makes them really really frustrated, because their shit comes directly back to them because they don't feel validated by their projection of their violence) and I want to show him that. Unfortunately guys like these underestand confidence and violence, not the ethics. I would love to, you are basically immortal. I have given a good tought about sound isolation! I will see if that can work. I am already siting at the end of the place and he sleeps in the other room. That of course doesn't stop him from coming and randomly shouting trough the wall or sleeping there to "check" i mean fucking up my sleep there. Too bad I know little about Yngwie, he seems like a classical type shredder to me, I can somewhat shred, however I prefer to melt them by t h a l l i n g their faces off...

Maybe there is such a thing! I would have to look in our local trading websites, thanks. Well the man in question is a really angry man, and I guess his way of making his point (of asserting his dominance or whatever nonsense?) is that. I wouldn't like to talk with the guy, but I feel I have to consider this. It fears me because he sometimes treathens to break my stuff trough the wall and kinda calls me names. I would love to do nothing but ignore the guy. Sure! I will see what I can do, thank you! Trust me they can, so I can hear them talking, watching TV e.c.t. The most hillarious part the actual regulations or sound are approx 35 dB in DAYTIME. That is just ridicilous tbh. I don't think I could defend myself legally even if I measure and monitor sound levels when I play. I measured today (with a 100 eur decibel meter from china ). In 1 meter of distance - 45 dB max with 2 handed tapping, 55-65 and up to 70 with other techniques, let me remind me that I play 8 string and i play metal so there will be intense pick attack and strums, still i maybe play 2 hour max per day (on a free day), and 99.9% time on headphones. I feel its more that I attract the neighbours kids attention, because they like when I play and always knock for more when I don't play and sometimes shout and cry when I don't play. Anyway the neighbour shouting at me in this anger teached children the hypocrisy and they pay even more attention to me and the neighbour goes even more angry. He is not capable of deep self-reflection also... He just wants the easy way out to fear me into not playing with whatever he can do - disrupting my sleep, calling me names, talking shit e.c.t. Even his wife disagrees with him wether he should disrupt my sleep or not. All I do is I ignore and just let go of his projections within me and he gets even more mad, how can he possibly know wether his violence works if I don't give feedback. Honestly I fear physical assault. Either from him or from somebody who was sent my way because of him. Eventually I feel garage is the best option. But I want to play so bad and i have this tremendous creative capacity and wilingness to share I am willing to die for it, otherwise this is just boring and just not how it should be at all.

Same, lol, what bands are you into?

Well, you can take steps towards it. "Always" and "Everything" means the things you practically wish to do in your day to day life but keep delaying and procrastinating instead. If you really want to fly to the moon, you can take time and see if you can and what does it take to fly to the moon and if you really want it? This applies to literally anything. If you want it hard enough, you are anyway going to do it.

You can do everything, always.

Somewhere around 2050-60, if we don't bother about enviroment and animal farming and leave as it is.

Shinzen youngs strong detetmination sitting sounds good for that kind of stuff 4-8 hours of sitting would definately transform the way you view the world. Damn 1.5 h is the max i can do and it messes with the perception of reality in a very good manner.

Wait until you start think about the garbage pile lands we have accumulated in the oceans. Or coorperate slavery, or actual slavery for 5 eur/month in 3rd world countries. Human trafficking, pharma e.c.t.

Mhm, I nothing like a good "Get real dude" and "What the fuck is wrong with me" and "I feel bad for you that you associate with criminals, you should be a criminal aswell then". Well, i heard you are gay and suppose I made a video. I didn't hear you say it acctually, but I am going to accuse you and recurit more people saying that you are gay. Am I true? Should this discredit you from being straight? Are you gay now, because i said? How much people should say that you are gay for you to agree that you said you are gay, if you didn't say it? Perhaps i get a media space and shout out loud that you are gay also? Maybe then you are proven to be gay if you are not? How is it? Is it legally proven that he has done all this? Then based on what you are saying Sadhguru should be in prison because he killed his wife, because somebody said it. And Nithyananda doesn't? Do you know what you are talking about if you are watching his critics and media, rather than him and his work? He is giving satsangs for 25 years and has done quite a bit... you find out. If you dare...

Yes, i have access to two sources, but sharing them would be irresponsible. If you wish, you find and try for your responsibility, however, yes, it is possible, it is done and it doesn't require too much practice. Practically speaking, i am a bit too affraid to attempt, otherwise maybe i would have left by now.

I usually don't get past the image part of Nithyananda. Coversations usually end after endless responses aginst the accusations aginst him. Do you know what will happen if i make a post here about Nithyananda? Either nobody will comment, or I will have to constantly argue aginst 20 people like yourself, who couldn't give more fuck about his teachings. And that is time wasted, see my journal to look what i acctually plan for doing. Because i have something I want to do while paying the bills, and keeping myself spiritually lubricated, thanks to Nithyananda and other gurus, hehe. There is about 10+ more videos of him talking about unclutching, if you do a simple yt search. He even copyrighted the word so you don't get the wrong definiton of what he is saying. In his book called living enlightenment 125.p there is a mention about unclutching. http://lifeblissprograms.org/e-books/pdf/le_abridged.pdf Literally what you do in my own terms is. Notice that there is a sensation or a tought arising. If it is a tought (inner voice) of your mind - then for a brief moment notice that it is there - then decide to keep unclutching. Declare your will to make that tought lose its emotional, sensational or mental impact on you. If you get lost in the tought process or feel unable to unclutch, keep deciding to unclutch, unclutch, unclutch. You will see the effects yourself if you do this for 20 minutes a day. What i feel is bliss in my manipuraka and swadishtana, depending upon what is it that i am unclutching from - fear or lust (the meaning of toughts expresses as emotion and sensation). If that is a sensation - pain, vision, picture in your mind, tiredness, agitation, resistance, anger, fear, boredom. And if you just try to unclutch from it - first of all noticing that it is there and willing to unclutch from it (distance yourself from it), discarge yourself from it, it is like turning a heavy steering wheel, it is intense, but the results can be very fast and last up to few days. The after effect of such practices is like volcano errputing in you with bliss, once you get it. Of course, it doesn't relieve you of dark night of the soul, aka - either ego backlash or suffering. That is why you use consciousness to evolve further in this journey. The actual benefits after trying, to unclutch, unclutch and unclutch - almost like a mantra to express your will to change the direction, will happen progressively over time, and there is immense benefit to trying to unclutch. The actual benefits are greater than the initial ones, your self image will improve and there will be more complete feeling of life. That is my PERSONAL experience from practicing this and other techniques. Idk, his explanation works for me. And i have watched multiple vids on unclutching, multiple times - because my motivation was to make it work, because i was so desperate at the time. There you go "well if it worked so well for you bla bla bla". The burden of proof is on you. I don't have to justify anything. It's on you. I just chose to do so, i don't know if its even worth it. Do you even meditate? I did before hand i tried unclutching and of course it works, because i just did it consistently. The bottom line is just keep deciding to unclutch, your being underestands what you are trying to do, don't worry. Or in more technical steps. 1.See what you are about to unclutch from. 2.Decide to unclutch from it for some amount of time to reduce it's impact on you - its like hitting the brakes, it just reduces the speed in a lower manner. 3.At the end of every session unclutch from even the concept of unclutching. 4.Enjoy

@An young being I did it mainly to show you, i am capable of a conversation. Usually the impression of people who admire spiritual gurus and follow them is that they are really dumb. I am not saying you tought that, i just considered this possibility. I am very grateful for an emotionally intelligent response. Really. I have witnessed akashik readings in an online session and psychic powers from his balasants where a child in a span of few seconds told me what i have on the phone screen and she literally said - isha foundation adiyogi statue and read what i have on paper, upside down. I can't unsee this, i am sorry. And there is more, that i will never get into, for a simple fear, especially in my private life, then i really have to disown everyone. Nor I am asking you to believe me, but i can't delete this event from my life and just move on like nothing happened. That is a very unfortunate thing. Most of the time the group gives the person a really bad name. That is why I mainly do not talk about spirituality with people in my life, even if I see that some are receptive to that stuff. And i literally have fear from what will happen if they find out. That is an interesting thing, I am not sure if I agree to you, because I have acctually ventured to the depths of disciple-guru relationship. I can only logically express like 2% and 98% i can't. It's like Leo saying: "I wouldn't expect that Sadhguru will give you enlightenment". Well, my immediate question is: "Why not?" And then the "you are being mindcontroled and are acctually stupid for believing it and something has to be wrong with you" comes up. But then, would i rather believe extraordinary human being or a bunch of mediocre ones praising the same thing (No offence to Leo, i don't think he is mediocre). Anyway you are kinda fucked, relating to reaity whatsoever. Who knows, how to live, what to do, how to do, what is life e.c.t. I look it this way. Either I listen to somebody whos religion is based on smoking or projection of hatred, who is not getting any results in life and is in a hurry to teach everyone how to live OR listening to somebody who says he can be happy and gives you metodology to do so. Maybe it is worth golden thrones, i don't care. I know, money is useful, but not gonna make me fullfilled. If he can run his organisation while being happy and working 20 hours a day, maybe he can run the entire world, i am not compenent enough to evaluate that. I don't think I know where it is nor you know how to check. I deeply appreciate your response, cheers, love and light! Imma off to do something I acctually want to do, rather than frying my brain on the forum.