Applegarden

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  1. Well you certainly can choose to keep entertaining some beliefs or just be aware of them and unclutch from them over time. You can disperse one belief by installing another on top of that. Usually it happens much more complicated but yes, beliefs can kill you indirectly.
  2. @Roy Thanks Roy for the website. Edit: this is just for US and CAN.
  3. This is interesting because he also did it for the meme - to break alot of useless prejudices in our culture, thats why the royces and con-artristry, and the other, he did not run his organization. Yes there is also information that his favourite drink was pepsi.
  4. Ancient spiritual traditions like Hinduism consumed cow's milk and still do to this day. They even consecrate or bless the animals.
  5. @Amandine well you can just eat nutrient dense foods and forget most of the high carb foods especially, idk about fat however i dont think we consume it as much as we do carbs and fats are not as bad imo. If refined starch and sugars go out of your diet i think you are set for life. (Just my opinion, and i am planning to implement this in my life) Also i think its much more important in peoples lives in general to do a nutrient profile analysis or blood sample tests if you are vegan or vegetarian and then cover the nutrients needed with foods or supplements with a little bit of guidance, and ofc to feel good. You are 61 kg, wow i am 65 and i am a male, im looking like a stick, why would you need to lose weight. (I am not here to offend you, and i hope i didn't i am just wondering)
  6. https://www.youtube.com/user/drericberg123 Hes all in on curing chronic diseases with lifestyle change.
  7. You do that, you will be glad you have a concrete entry on something to reflect on! It has helped for me as well as has meditation! You will discover more and more freedom from that you think life was. It happens for me, keeps happening for me due to all failures and moodswings! Let what you want become true for you.
  8. I think best way to help you is to share one of my recent stories of that nature. Mine is even more delusionary than yours, so I hope you will get a kick out of it, at least, and take my advice. This is a long story, but you will see exactly how deluded i became, how i wanted to believe in a fantasy, and that tricking people into escapism and fantasies are a major force leading us troughout history and now. See how expensive love industry is, so many services regarding love, sex, gifts, other services, dating sites, conceptual notion of status and league, and whatever. We wish to believe many things and clue them up with our intuitions, which may be true or false but to what extent and therefore projecting fantasies further from it is dangerous but love is blind i guess and i also want to highlight many behaviours that are illogical even to the doer of these behaviours, and that is a sign some other forces are controling your life, fear or lust or love or whatever and we are not as logical as we think we are. And these feelings go from yes to no, from no to yes from whatever events, immaginations, projections, feelings, other people in her life, even dreams about somebody, and may not be about you at all, meanwhile somebody can come to that point where they invest significant resources to keep on track with what you are doing, fantasies about you, daydreaming about you or just realizing that some time per day toughts about you come up. Still in the back on her head this keeps happening, still she may choose how to act and if she wants to change the behaviour some overcoming needs to happen even if she has the intention as well as her perceptions about life, status, love, partnership, sexual desires, orientation, attraction, personal traits of desirable mate, what others will think of her, mood, the persons energy and many other factors will determine if she will act on these toughts, which is her immagination in the ultimate sense. Depends on what desires she wants to fullfil into her life. My point is, you know you are deluded for the majority of your life in whatever many ways, i suggest watch leo's videos on self-bias and underestanding survival, however if you are interacting with people, pursing romantic relationships it is very counter-intuitive to relate in these areas, some experience is needed (i am not saying i have that), and outright immaginnary, people can decide one thing and then decide something else and quit from your life, and all they said mean nothing now. Or they are with you for whatever unknown reason with you which they will never say, some people date just to find somebody, or just to have children. And they want to share with each others, so there is discussion about whatever delusions you may both have. And don't get me started on leaving an impression and the delusion it creates, i think you already can find many many examples of that and how much time and energy you spend entertaining that, and then it becomes an intuitive force within you mixed up with delusion, recepie for disaster in my opinion, just like in my case. And whatever behaviour she exercises she may or may not sugar coat it and you will believe in cases if you feel you need her or want to get something from her. Or she may shame or manipulate, or even ignore you for whatever reason she feels its the decision. So lets begin. I want as much detail as possible so that you can see how deluded i was/am. So i can't say that i have crush right now, but i kinda do. She was studying in the same middle school i were. She was a class higher than me. She is a, well, i can say reasonably accomplished pianist with her bachelors degree as far as i know, performing, rehearsing and all that stuff. So i don't want to comment further on her personal life, altho i know very little of it, she seems to do what she really likes and has done mainly for the most of her life, i assume, although i know for a fact the human story doesn't resolve itself at success stage, this is true for everyone of us. Now i will focus on the story of my delusion. But i think she has her life together really ok from the materialist, stage orange or even stage green, having a meaningful profession that does provide value to humanity, probably having somewhat mature attitude in life, somewhat high levels of joy playing the instrument, also there has to be element of wonder because there is certain greatness and brilliance in music and especially of the possibilities of human capability and learning some of the composers works, there is value there, as it is in music in general as it does some things with you when you interact with it. All this is my assumption, so i am deluding myself already. And notice that i have spent time and energy thinking about this rather than self-reflecting. So i noticed her some time at 2017, i remember her from that middle school, where she performed and i had to count some poem or smth on the stage. So i checked upon her, saw how she was doing and ofc i liked what i saw. Then slowly checked up again and again, and this is how the delusion apparatus works. Now i spend time thinking about her, what would she say to this and this if i showed her this, i wonder what would she have to say about music, i would like to listen as she is playing something and she is very attractive. So already you know where this is going. Then, up to this day, i even checked her today, i have been looking at her, on and off, to fuel and respond to my own delusion about her, and her even acting welcoming toward me, which is complete fantasy. So there you go, my creative endevours even become corroupted, and maybe even never materialized because of that distraction, thats not much to do with her but with my own delusion. Also the fact that she ignored me every time i tried to contact her and comment on her stuff, which idk, maybe invasive, maybe not, but i think she can evaluate that better. However she did try to encourage me with an intention to not be spotted by me and i think kept checking upon me to see what i am doing, maybe even now, maybe she will read this post, who knows. However none of that projection is useful to me but to reinforce my own story about her. I will even reveal something i have told nobody, which is the stupidest way to spend like 400 euros. You will think, what kind of idiot i am for doing this. I went to a fiverr, asked for couple of psychic readings, YES, psychic readings. Got very vague readings, did even love readings, maybe got an info of how this person feels, why she acted the way she did, and yes, do you see the future with this person... So, please see this, i don't know how useful these psychic readings are on anything whatsoever, but i have had some other from a friend of mine who awoke in that sense and did predict some of my future events so. Depends on the person and reality is truly complicated, the present, past and the intuitive side of humans and whatnot. Well are these psychics providing value to us? They are certainly better than the ordinary man in terms of empathy and even the airy-fairy notion of what they are doing, tarrot, healing and whatever. They do exercise some aspects of human consciousness that is good for you. And should you take what they are saying literally? Idk, its very delicate how our cognition works. Most ancient hindu stories should be underestood as metaphores. Rationalizing is not enough. And how invasive is it for me to do such a thing? I asked the physic to attempt to give healing to this persons love life no matter what she is choosing and entertaining in there. And i also did some healings to her, by wishing them good toughts, projected from that space within us that we are. I don't know if it did help her and to what extent, because i don't want to be too invasive, she has her own life and free will. So i tried to reinforce whatever she wants, should become true. So still practically, phycisally, relationship wise i still got nothing, not a single word from her, and that is perfectly fine. Connection wise - i feel there is a connection, i can feel how she is feeling (i think, i don't know if thinking here is relevant), she pops up in my dreams from time to time, constantly talking to me, so i don't know what is really happening in her side, nor it is really important and i will tell you why. I want to be as open as possible because you can see what traps of the delusion i have fell into and see if you can relate. So it is quite an effort to put in such an entertainment, isn't it. Have you noticed that some people just can't let go after rejection and feel that they just have to keep giving endless compliments, complaints about being rejected and this and that not being fair, and whatever other things "no, you don't underestand, i can't let go, i want to keep messaging her, or looking where she is going". She also probably expected me to release some music, which i didn't, and maybe never will. So what i tought are the things she rejected me. Too low status, poor hygene. I have nothing atm basically, ofc i am in ok spot but i am a university grad who doesn't fit the stage orange succes paradigm, i even failed to actualize my hobby into something more. Also maybe because of inflated projection that i am better than i really am. So if somebody flakes on you, there could be a reason, however, remember that its their decision so it could be because of forces within her, fear, past projection of something, betrayal, whatever. Also, just wasn't in the mood or whatever. These things can be highly illogical. I remember Leo saying that sex happens all the time and for the most stupid reasons at times, this applies to here also because we are dealing with our fellow humans here and we know how deluded we are if we dare to look within. So in your case, this is not healthy, as my thing is not healthy at all. I would suggest, stop entertaining this, look at the oppurtunities in your love life. Your emotion is not as uncontrollable if you take care of it and exercise it. I would suggest looking at what namaskar is. You can exercise your emotions to keep your romantic relationships in monogamy lubricated and feel the passion and love. Otherwise this chemical high will pass and it will not feel the same, as maybe that person in the other end felt, so she flaked. Just in case THAT very person is reading this, i am aware of you, its ok, i don't hold any grudge because of you anymore. However this, whatever this is from my side needs to stop, so i hope my immaginations and projections will keep dropping as it slows me down in my life. If that means nothing to you, great, there is nothing to worry about, if it does... I don't know how to help you, you are the artist of your life. See how deluded i am in this example, if you are entertained, i am ok with that, but its time to pull the plug from my side as my life awaits me. It was a great little adventure in this delusion, but its just not useful to me. Focus on your life and i am sure great things will happen to you.
  9. @Meetjoeblack ok you didn't get my point. The argument maybe ir maybe not doesn't support your argument more. Its 50/50, and if you really tought that, your answer would be different, because you might aswell come agnostic to the paradigm you express so much. As far as your paradigm or sexual stratregy - i care very little about that and i am not here to evaluate it or shame you for it.
  10. I have good news to you, maybe life is not even about reproduction, physical intimacy, companionship. And that pleasure will end for those who are enjoying it also at some point. Whats the difference between 0 hours of that or 10000 hours of that? You always want more, if you are not ready to renounce.
  11. I would never do it, because there is a way to renounce what you think you are completely that i have discovered. Suicide involves torturing yourself to leave your body, so the effort by itself is very very painful even if you succeed and how do you know really if thats the thing to do?
  12. @Einsteinonacid Yes, swallow it and really look for what you need, don't feed that ghost to prove bullies wrong, i have problems with swallowing that to but ifyou really want to be different than your bullies, remember they are nothing but arrogant and to prove you why ur their projection. Every step i have swallowed it and acted, is a true victory for me i can say!
  13. Damn, i really empathise with you. For sure i wish you to find a job and most probably your prefered job! Next time you do have a job i would suggest very minimalistic lifestyle so you have a safety pillow, i will do this once i graduate and start working because there is no guarantee really that anybody whatsoever will take care of my ass, and there is no need anymore, i even kinda hate that i went to university, i would already been working and saving up thousands, but meh, whatever, seems like the people up there didn't care, acctually not many people care at all, and if they see you not doing how you should, they will just keep shaming and shaming you, thats how it is, sadly or maybe not so sadly sometimes there is nobody to pick you up, might aswell do it yourself and live your life ferociously, with minimal interference from others. Our lives are 100% our responsibility, yes and the discrimination or all-for-one education and whatever is a systematic problem but you know, there is no easy way to change that. At the end of the day in my opinion, life seems to not be about all that at all for you and me individually.
  14. I didn't find it, for shame, i wanted to see hear what and why he is saying what he is saying. Edit: i found it, its called: Just Stop Looking At Women, so you are not bsing.
  15. Sure @Anna1. x)
  16. I don't think i can give you advice then, probably appceptence from your side and underestanding some times do come to an end. And the factor always be you don't know what you don't know, which is the deep issue in you and her (maybe, just guessing but a thing to think about also), she could not be aware of what is causing that passiveness and not really interested to change even if she says she is, or your projection that you think you need more and no less, then its a problem. Hope everything goes along well for you!
  17. @Elham Yes, but i was anwering your question of why is it funny (to me). Why did i react to your question in such a way, idk some impulsivity there to express myself, don't mind me. Maybe i can give you some more exmples of why i think its funny, due to endless arguing with materialists... However, thanks and have a nice day!
  18. I hope he didn't end his life because he hasn't been online since.
  19. Close to 0. People die like so many times from flu every month than corona.
  20. @Elham For me it is very funny, i bursted out when i read this. It is funny for me in a few angles: all the nonduality wars and arguments i engage in and others engage in like it matters or something, but maybe it does, depends on what you know about it, i guess, and the many valid ways to look at this that gets rejected by people in each others arguments, because they believe only they are right or just want to be right because that makes them look better (in some social gathering cases, i remember one guy was discussing how he doesnt agree with that mackenna guy and some other schools of non-duality, like he knows, and the fact that i think i know something also and choose to judge him, the whole saga is hillarious); the whole suffering pain-pleasure saga of my life where i really want to know the answer to that question, but how can you know and get answers, ofc somehow experientially where it happens from me randomly from time to time; I feel like this question has become a meme for me at the point because i have gotten far less serious about life in general, tho i still want to know the truth, maybe even more than ever, but the fact is i am getting very non-serious with arguing with people about life in general, i don't see why not, the burden of proof is on them and in them, usually when you share your intimate far out ideas you get dragged down to their "uuh, but it has to be logical" and get confused if you believe them. Don't get me wrong its a valid question to find out some crucial info about somebody, depending upon if they are lying or telling the truth as they think it is. Idk if you hear an aswer like mine, you should run or something. Don't take this personally tho, i laugh about the question not about you asking it or you in general.
  21. Whats the point of needing a point to live life? Whats the point of the point of needing a point to live life? Whats the point of the point of the point of needing a point to live life? Life is beyond survival and therefore languages. Do you want to know or do you want to look for points?
  22. It really depends on the girl however, do more intimate (not necessarily sexual activities with her). Give her a good massage, rub her with some aroma oils or whatever, cook her nice dinner, cuddle, or try even tantra or something. Spend some time with sielence with her and just enjoy each others presence maybe have a really deep emotionally releasing conversation or other relationship techniques to get each others point across and compromise where you both feel ok. What you can do however is to just be aware of you urges more and see that you don't neccesarily need to do it every time when you need to do it. Try to make conscious decision even if she is there don't engage sometimes, maybe it will happen more spontaneously and from her initiative and will to go on you.
  23. @Elham jjajajajajajajajajajaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
  24. Keto, diabetes, heart disease, cancer, various other cronic diseases - you can find almost everything here, and i can confidently say chronic diseases are becase of your diet mostly. https://www.youtube.com/user/drericberg123/videos This channel is such a gold mine, i need to study this and create a good fitness plan and i also want to do some blood testing and get myself some mineral profile by taking some samples of my hair and getting them analyzed in lab so i can see in what areas i am deficient. You can do this too! Get some advanced tips that can directly improve your life by lifestyle change. Medication will never cure the chronic disease, just delay the inevitable catastrophy.