Applegarden

Hello! Let me ask you, do you want to suffer? Do you want to live your life knowing that you are going to continiously suffer? If I look at your future (as a joke) I can see you constantly going trough problems, sufferings, dulness e.c.t. That is without knowing any spiritual practice. What you are going to suffer: - Fear of various kinds; - Boredom; - Lust, leading in pain and guilt; - Guilt for not having the stuff mass is having: - Feeling of displaced in society; - Inability to find anything lasting and secure, valuable; - Inevitable loneliness (constant irritation when any form of entertainment is not available); - Depression for various reasons; - Depresion because of unfullfillment before achieving your life purpose, some personal desires e.c.t., depression because something was taken away from you by event or person; - Depression of succes after acheving something and realizing this is not it and suddenly not meaning anything; - Suffocation of various social, job, e.c.t. obligations to keep yourself running; - Feeling exploited by society, family, spouse, or even people on the internet; - Abuse of the body and mind - partcularly by some enemy, gaslighting you, brainwashing you, making you guilty for who you are, discriminating aginst you, make you constantly fear him or even harm you physically (and ALOOT of passive agressive bullshit, layers of perversions and conspiracies of the ill, unhappy people waiting to wake all their anger on just about anybody); - Self-sabotage, surgeries, pains, not knowing what the fuck to do with various pains in the body, fear of suffering and death, unfullfillment of your desires; - Constant confusion on the counterintuitiveness of how much of lie we are living in, a.k.a., many hypocrisies we have to live in and we are ourselves projecting; - Desperation of not finding satisfaction in what you tought life was; - Fear of not fullfilling even the survival needs which leads to harsh circumstances, compared to your great visions, dreams and luxurious lusts; - Fear of accidents hapening in your life, car crashes, breaking of the limbs, cancers, e.c.t. somebody coming and stealing something or beating you up; - Living in anger, irritation, enimity, selective love, vengefulness, insecurity, projecting it to others and destroying your relationships left and right; - Spending your life in dulness, boredom, procrastination, fantasies which never come true, impossible greeds, having regret; - The dreadful, suffocating feeling of waking up; - Knowing you have to go trough a shitty day tomorrow; - The constant irritation of not wanting to face some events; - Seeing that any number of people seem to be doing so much more ok than you (Jelousy); - The suffering in spiritual seeking also, being manipulated, the pain of seeking and wanting the truth, the constant dread that you want to be happy in all times/actions but you just can't for some reason; - Fear of physical death, and being reborn again, just to go trough this uncertainty again and the same sea of suffering, just to seek the truth; - Continiously forgotting the solutions to your probems and going trough the same set of repetitions of problems, just to conclude they are impossible to solve (you can't change your addictions e.c.t.) e.c.t. So, knowing that you are much more than a mind and body, do you want to go trough this again? As pleasant as it can be sometimes, there is unpleasantness that you have to constantly face and figure, work around. I think it is the greatest mastery to choose to take another birth after a lifetime of spritual practice, people usually choose not to take another birth, as I have heard. Only the really commited people, like the incarnations and spritual masters and some of their disciples, that seems to be the practicality. Ignorant life is not a good news, no matter who you become and what you achieve and enjoy, it is a sea of suffering. Because all of that you will lose and if you decide to protect, you will not be always able to protect your assets, relationships, body, it will be a struggle, again you have to work around to not fall into depression and come out of the bad situation, or accept what has happened. After all, you don't need to look far how many people have become rotten by suffering. It is a tremendous compliment to you if you decide to keep incarinating and exploring this incredible universe and do the sadhana that very few people get to do, however, just one problem, the practicality of it. In some sense it is a feature of design that you can't leave your body at will anytime, then all of us would have left at some point. But! At some point, by some event, the doubt will come, the tought of I want to be free from all of this, I don't care will occour. Then your spiritual journey will start if you are not on it in a stage where you are sincerely doing some practice or inquiry. So, don't die in darkness, if you are already in a mindset that you want to be free and you would like this to be your last life, then just do some spiritual practice sincerely, connect to a master, feel their energy, and do their practices, that is the fastest way that I know of to grow. You can do by yourself also, but it will not be easy and you can almost forget about being productive in the world, because it will suck almost all your time, and anyway you will most likely come to some enlightened being, some spiritual master. Over time, this will take up your life, at least your free time, because you really want to be free. But where you are heading is beautiful, anyway you are heading there, but you would probably like for it to happen sooner than later. You don't want to go trough this again and again i think. I might be wrong, I really don't want to. I get what I do in this life regarding my life purpose, spiritual practice is the only priority for me being blissful is the only priority, I don't care that I might become a unaccomplished bum who doesn't do much in the world, doesn't have children or even an independant place. The grace and bliss is so much better, in many ways it is better than everything I can ask for. Cheers, have a nice day.

*Grabs popcorn* Well, somebody today is going to have a bit of a updated version of what a guru is.

Since I am less and less intereted in that stuff as the time goes by, I would just play guitar, do what you are supposed to, enrich the world so you can die knowing that you really used your abilities and did what you wanted, and not take another body.

She has SUCH a mature charm about her!

What a meme, am I right? !

My radical viewpoint is that in terms of human consciousness we are just not even walking but barely crawling, and in mass - not really interested in walking. I think there is something called spiritual infrostructure. Wether that is a conscetrated linga, gurukul education, free basic needs for everyone, mystical school, pujas for deities, darshan of a yogi, mega structures like temples, psychic powers, health culture, mass enlightened beings, some advances process, enviroment or method making you enlightened e.c.t That is what will be created mass if people started to work together. That is possible and it is being done from time to time on this earth, but with a too small of a reach.

I can't really post alot, because I have 60+ hour work week and I am trying to figure how to set up guitar playing in a different place and what to do when I am not playing guitar. Besides that I am doing these completion techniques e.c.t. bu I have very limited time to share. Let me write one more incompletion. One time I was asked by my grandfather to straighten out bent nails. I was 9-10 or something. I did try to straighten them out, and when he came, he said: "I will mildly hit you with every nail that is poorly straightened out on your head." And he did it, like a few times. I felt abused, angry, powerless, frightened, I remember feeling of insecurity as he approached me. I remember so much termoil and not letting myself to cry. And relive the previous ones.

I have heard some sages still sitting in samadhi in caves and temples, some keeping the body alive, to come back one day. Some keeping themselves in energy forms with an ability to assume the body somehow... seems like possible is you get such a mastery to stop the necrosis or something. Otherwise you are immortal anyway, and at some point you will see all your lifetimes, many enlightened beings have said it.

Yep, I also have people in my life reducing you to subhuman if you don't want to have a relationship and children. Immagine destroying yourself and getting mad, projecting violence towards somebody just because you think they should be your way. Thankfully it's none in my family.

Don't you think you can change the way you feel? If is so, that is the only problem, regardless of the action, circumstance, losses. In that sense, yes, life is imperfect, like a battlefield. One time everthing is easy, common and boring and the next moment, the impossible is being asked from you, something taken away from you. But let me tell you, if your focus is being happy, you WILL find it, regardless of the circumstances. That I can say, I have made some improvements in my own intrinsic happiness, and I know everyone can do it. This intrinsic happiness will relieve you of many issues you are facing and will motivate you to make suppose another business. I want you to think that life is not unfair, but the reason why you have to discover.

First time thinking about this idea. So far, hmm, I don't know. I personally seem not to... There seems so much pain happening. I really haven't tought about this, but then I don't really want to have children.

So you ARE looking for solution!? Which is it. What do you mean, embracing life and not looking for solution, it doesn't add up. Nothing wrong with venting out when you are looking for how to create a situation, especially internally, to not need to vent even. Why do you think you are helpless? If you are not looking for a solution, how do you know there is not a solution? If you don't seek solutions, the only and only thing that will happen is depression, desperation, hatred towards everything and suicide. You are really worth more than that.

If you don't want a solution, where are you heading? In 10 years time what will happen with you if you don't want to seek betterment in your life. Absolutely nothing that lasts will come into your life if you are not even wishing for betterment in your life. Who is going to build, enjoy and play your life other than you? There may be some harsh conditions in this age, but there has always been some in any age. I would ask myself, do I want to be happy?

So, let me do 3 completion technique examples today by writing out 3 experiences leading to incompletion and my course of action. Incompletion incident #1: i was around 9 years of age, staying at grandparents house. One evening he requested that I go outside and wash by using a bowl. So I went and did that. So after that I did wash myself quickly, it was very cold washing outside with cold water and when I finished I came inside the house and told my grandfather that I have washed myself. He said he didn't believe me and I kept saying to him that I did. He kept insisting that he didn't see me washing and then pulled his belt and threatened to spank me, so I got extremely upset and washed myself again and then came to the house and went to sleep. Now I am trying to remember how I was like when I was 9, what did I tought the world and life was e.c.t. for completion to work. First of all, all of a sudden - being forced out as a child to wash with a cold water, being almost lile threatened to do it. I felt frustrated that I have to go and do this so unexpected and felt so powerless that I have to follow his obedience. Feeling exposed and vulnurable to so much anger. I felt like my whole life is threathened. When I came back and washed and he threatened me because he didn't believe me. I felt frustrated that I can't do anything, that I got nobody by my back. I felt so confused and frightened that he is going to spank me. I felt paralyzed in fear, and it was so unfair what he did. Now I am going trough these visualisations of my memories as I am that 9 year old. Now only the feelings of powerlesness, fear, confusion remain as I am sitting with them, they slowly dissolve into bliss. Then there is a deep peace appearing and a wave of bliss troughout my whole being. Incompletion incident #2: My great grandmother died, my mom recieved a phone call, i was not very old also. I came and asked: "Whats the matter?" My mom was very shooked and she said that my great grandmother has died. I said that it is ok and tried to console her, as she gave me a slap in the face and I started crying and went away. Again, me at 8 years old and recieving a slap in my face - I felt hurt, violated, shook and confused, frustrated. I felt so shook, conflicted, guilty even for getting slapped. Inconpletion #3: In my kindergarten, two people conspired aginst me to trap me in the toilet room. When they pushed aginst the door as I tried to open it, I started crying. I was about 7. I felt violated, I felt powerless aginst two people. I felt being treated so unfairly, I was affraid they are going to do something to me or they are not going to release the door. I felt very much powerless and unable to act, do anything. I felt like they are my enemies, they did harm to me. I felt so angry at them, very much irritated. These 3 examples are from childhood, because they show a very clear contrast how to get to emotional layers of you. You need the same conditions as you remembered yourself, when you went trough the incident, only then deep untying happens, otherwise only defending intelectually happens, you have been doing that all your life with very little result, fears have not left you. Earliest memories also are good for striking at the root of the incompletion patterns. Going trough the same incompletions are very helpful as the purification gets deeper and every session will bring more and more depth and acctually more painful memories to work and expose/complete. Otherwise our whole lifes we are suffering something we have forgotten long time ago but the same emotional reactions are happening and getting stronger - then confusion gets stronger, parania gets stronger, guilt gets stronger, cunningness gets stronger and it destroyes your life. If you like, you are welcome to participate and try this completion technique out or pm me or whatever works for you. This is a further extension from samskara/samhara dahana kriya. Yes, this technique is a kriya. It will work with your energies as you do it. It is pretty unique than any other meditation techniques I have done. IMPORTANT: If you do, write the incidents and how you felt as much in detail as possible, that will help you to remember you how you were and the intensity of the feelings created by those events.

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Today I will be further dwelving into completion technique by Nithyananda, that is complimentary/similar to the nirbaya dhyana technique mentioned below. So, let me narrate and accent what he is saying; how to do the technique. "This one technique can give you whatever you want AND lead you to the space of not wanting anything - Enlightenment itself." "This one technique can give you health, wealth, happy relationships, whatever miracles you want in your life and ultimately -Enlightenment itself." "Shiva Himself gives this technique to Parvati in Shiva Agama." "This is from Shiva Agama, the protion called Shiva Jnana Upanishad, Vijnana Bhairava Tantra 94 verse, 22nd technique." Explanation: "Just consciously feel within that the mind-stuff (citta) of past memories of incompletion, with it's activities as mind, intellect, and ego are not existing in me. By contemplating this way in your inner-space, dis-identify from the past impressions and memories of incompletion. Put your active attention at the space of the past happening, relive these imagined impressions and memories of incompletion then the mind-stuff, having fully ceased from it's present characteristics of forming tought-patterns and cognitions is complete. Thus, you become complete and achieve the original space of complete completion." Method: "I will give you example of incompletion." "One person, when he was a kid, seven or eight year old, was walking in the beach with the father, He saw few fishermen fighting with each other. The fight ended in murder; one fisherman got killed. One person was killed. Naturally the kid ran away from the scene. When he met Me, he was at least 40. He says, even now I can't go to beach. Even if I cross beach in the car, I will have that same palpitation, fear, same engrams coming up." "The situation, the incident which happened; the child is walking and he is seeing three-four fishermen, few of them fighting with each other, one got murdered; that situation, that is the root incident. When he saw that, the powerlessness he experienced, that fear he experienced, the child was unable to handle that situation. So naturally he supresses and runs away. Whatever was happening in him, the fear of powerlessness, even that feeling, maybe this will be done to me also; all that feeling he just suppressed and ran away from the situation." "Underestand, whenever powerlessness is suppressed, along with that suppression all the emotions associated in that situation; powerlesness - means pain, suffering, fear, so many things, guilt connected to it, that I am not able to do anything in this situation, so many things associated with it. All that also gets suppressed and as long as that suppression exists, this pattern will continiune. Whever he goes to the beach he will go trough the same moments, experience which he has suppressed the first time." "For example, the suppressed powerlessness acts like a ground and the pattern is a tree. The suppresed emotions - powerlessness, fear, anger, inability to help, guilt, resentment, whatever the child would have gone trough at the situation at the age of seven, when the incident happened; all that suppression forms like a solid ground for this incompletion pattern, tree to stand. See, this is suppressed emotions, suppressed emotions and powerlessness. And this tree is the incompletion pattern; every time it repeats itself. Whenever you go to the beach, the experience repeating itself, the fear repeating itself, that attack, panic attack happening, that is the incompletion patterns. Listen, because of this ground, the tree is standing. If you re-live that incident; If you re-live that incident, not remember, there is a big difference between remembering and re-living. Remembering means now that man when I met he was 40; being a 40 year old person and thinking what happened at the age of seven is remembering. But forgetting you are 40, becoming that 7 year-old child, that same intelligence, same space, same mood, same identity, even the idea about me, "I" which you had at that same time; see that person to re-live, has to become that 7 year old identity and if he re-lives, if you re-live this suppressed emotions, powerlessness will break, it will open up, it will leave your system. Automatically this incompletion pattern tree will not have place for it's roots, it will fall off." "All suppresed emotions, powerlessness, difficulties, guilt, resentment, during the root incident, keeps the incompletion pattern alive. If you relive that incident, not remember. I am not asking you to remember, remembering is superficial. Re-living - means forgetting your present age, everything, dump it, go back to that, age, when the incident happened - same mind, same energy, same consciousness, same intelligence, same identity, decide to become that, and start re-living the incident. Suddenly you will see all that pain, suffocation, you go trough everything once more, but this time, completely you will allow that to leave your nervous system. You will allow that to melt down in your nervous system." "With this cleansing, with this releasing, the panic attacks regularly you go trough, incompletion pattern attack you go trough regularly, it will not be there; it will just collapse. The incompletion tree, incompletion patterns tree will just collapse, because the ground is gone. The tree is not able to have thr right ground. When the ground is taken away, naturally the tree collapses." I will do this later in detail and expand on the method.

So here is my tonights death meditation - nirbaya dhyaan entry. Troughout the week my sleep was constantly disrupted when I came from night shifts. My upper neighbours kept cracking the floor as they walked and banged occasionally, sometimes with a rythmic hits to it knowing full well that I am going to sleep, I don't know for how long, until I fall asleep, waking up to the same thing. Now, what do I fear about this, I fear about not getting enough sleep consequtively, day after day. I fear that I will have to endure this for a very long time and I see ot getting worse and worse as the time goes by. I fear my guitar playing being on the line and me being unable to practice. I fear losing my skills to play the instrument. I fear falling into depression from constantly facing this fact that somebody at my home will decide to disrupt my sleep. I fear that my lower and upper neighbour have conspired aginst me. I fear that my life purpose can be destroyed. I fear my passion being taken away from me, I feel like part of vital positivity has been continiously ripped apart from me. I feel like i am inferior than others, that I have lesser rights than the people who think it is ok to go as low as to disrupt othets sleep. I feel violated in some way and I fear constant violation and abuse every day. I feel like I will lose the possibility to express myself musically before I even started. I have this tremendous wave of fear, feeling like my life is in question as I am sitting with the idea and impressions recalled from the past of my guitar playing being taken away from me. The reason is simple as I am repeating it: I fear my guitar playing being taken away. I fear being denied my guitar playing. It created shock in me, a mental paralysis as i feel unable and powerless to do anything. Let me sit with it and let it undo itself as the technique functions. I close my eyes and sit with this fear, just sitting with it. I fear my sleep being disrupted and I fear the unpleasantness I will continiously have to go trough. I fear of even making noise, just to not be disrupted sleep again. I feel like these people are controlling and directing my life in their comforts, having little regard/no respect for mine; not being treated fairly, as an equal. I fear my guitar playing being taken away from me. I fear being denied, feared into not playing and then ridiculed, teased, irritated for wanting to play. I fear my identity being tarnished, denied, ridiculed, abused, stalked, me being abused even, being annoyed, being called stupid, unmanly for not having the same values and not rushing after popping children. Fear of being constantly irritated. That is it for today, let me sit with those fears to relieve.

Techniques to acess the turiya state of consciousness in sleep Death process meditation - Nirbaya Dhyaana In one of the akashik reading sessions trough Nithyananda, the Kalabhairava form of Shiva describes the Death process meditation process of Nirbaya Dhyana to help seekers and human beings move towards enlightenment. This technique is complimentary to the previous one I mentioned. So anything that intensifies/quickens the process, is fine by me. Narration from the akashik readings: "Every fear you accumulate, every fear makes you agitated, every fear which you do not want to think or remember, go trough. Go into all these fears consciously, neither deciding to save yourself from that fear nor having greed to achieve what you are afraid of. So without having the greed or fear, enter into the fear. Naturally the fear will lose it's quality of fear when you do not carry fear or greed for the fear. Greed has it's quality of greed and fear about the greed. Same way the fear has the quality of fear because your fear for the fear and indirect greed towards the fear. So when your fears are approached with fearlessness and greedlessness, the sttraightening out of your consciousness everday happens. The change of consciousness from jagrat to swapna, swapna to sushupti, the waking state to dream state and dream state to the deep sleep state, happens because your awareness is not straightened out. Either the bumps of the fear or bumps of the greed responsible for your consciousness jumping from waking state to dream state or dream state to deep sleep state. If you remove all the bumps of the fear before falling asleep, you will not fall asleep, you will fall into something called restful awareness which is recorded by the word turiya by the earlier mantra drashtas. So the word turiya denotes the state of falling into restful awareness without the bumps of fear or greed. Every night remove all the bumps you created during your daytime trough fear or greed. Continious practice of removing all the bumps of fear and greed by facing them will help you to fall into state of turiya. This is what Mahadeva calls as death process - nirbaya dhyana." So the next thing comes to mind? How to do it? More details in this particular technique in Living Enlightenment - Gospel of Paramahamsa Nithyananda http://lifeblissprograms.org/e-books/pdf/le_abridged.pdf "Witnessing and acceptance When you are faced with fear, don’t try to resist it or suppress it. Just look at the fear, note the fear and accept it. Acceptance of the fear dissolves the fear. Allow the fear to shake you. If your body trembles, let it tremble. If your eyes water, let the tears come. Just be like a blade of grass in the wind - bending without resistance. A small story: On a dark night, a man was walking on a narrow path. Suddenly, his foot hit a rock and he stumbled and slipped down. He managed to catch hold of a branch hanging over the rock. It was completely dark. The man tightly held onto the branch. He shouted for help but the only response was his voice echoing back. Hearing the echo, the man was terrified that he might be at the mouth of a huge abyss. The night seemed endless and the man was desperately holding on, hoping he could get some help. Finally dawn arrived. The man looked down to see how deep the abyss was, but there was no abyss, just two feet down was a big rock! Your fears are exactly like his. You think it is an abyss but it is actually just a few feet. If you can face your fears, you see they have no depth. Because you magnify the fears, you imagine them to be an abyss. It is your choice, to let go of the branch, the fear, or to keep clinging onto it and torturing yourself. Acceptance is the only way to conquer inevitable things. When you accept, suddenly you see the fear disappear. The moment you accept, fear loses its power to frighten you. When you don’t fight with it, you will see fear as deep peace. When the fear stroke happens, just live it. That is the only way. When you have an object connected to fear, accept it. That acceptance transforms. The more you fight, the more you empower fear. Diverting your attention away from the fear is also not the way because then the fear still remains with you. It does not mean that you are out of fear. Allow the fear to take over itself. Go into the fear two to three times. Live the fear intensely without any reservations. Suddenly you will find that it doesn’t touch you anymore!" 45.p "Visualization A very powerful way of overcoming fear is to visualize going through that fear as clearly as you can. The beauty with this technique is that it can be used when you are not in the fear situation, when you are calm and able to handle yourself. You can sit by yourself and visualize the situation that causes fear. Feel clearly the fear coming up in you; face the fear with deep awareness. If you suffer, if your body feels uncomfortable, it is fine. Don’t suppress the fear, just allow it to happen. When you experience something completely, you drop it." An important notice to see the connection that anger an expression of the root cause of fear. "Anger – the active form of Fear Fear is what leads to anger. Fear is the passive form of the energy while anger is the active expression. A small story: A man rushed into the post office very angrily with a bunch of papers in hand, saying, ‘How dare they send me threatening letters like this!’ The official at the post office said, ‘Yes, sending threatening letters is a legal offense. Do you know who has been sending you these letters?’ The man shouted back, ‘Of course, I do! It is the Income Tax people!’ When you are angry, just look into the anger. At the root of it, you will find a deep fear. Try this for yourself: if you are feeling fear, express anger at that time. Throw your hands, stamp your feet – express the energy. You will see the fear disappears. You will see for yourself how fear can simply transform to anger. Similarly, fear can also transform to hate. You just need to be aware of yourself and witness how the emotions subtly change from one form to another. When you understand this play, you can easily get out of the game." 43.p It is also said that this meditation technique is applicable for any kind of greed, therefore lust, desire e.c.t. I will cover these in a similar meditation techniques like Nithyananda's completion process or also known as samskara dhyana kriya - at the end of the day these techniques can be used for any feeling except restful awareness. So any irritation, suffocation, powerlesness, delusion, lust, loneliness, depression, boredom, fear e.c.t. Later I will be providing examples of me writing down my own fears in a detailed way (doesn't have to be fears of today) and writing in detailed way, how it makes me feel and what is my experience for continiously doing so. I practiced this technique going to sleep in few 30 minute breaks at work in my night shift and when I went asleep at home. Luckily I didn't get my sleep disrupted today, because I didn't play guitar yesterday. Anyhow I was gently aware of my third eye region, as I was looking panoramically, in a relaxed way at the darkness, as the focus of the third eye got stronger, I switched my attention to the breath so that I don't concentrate too much, and like that on and off I did it. At the breaks I didn't fall asleep but I was experiencing tremendous bliss in my pineal gland as I was doing some form of third eye meditations. Suddenly my problems and current situation felt less of an issue as I was able to continune my work, even while a bit sleep deprived. At one moment I remembered the bliss of being happy for no reason laying in the darkness with the gentle pressure of my third eye, I never tought you could go to sleep with awareness, altho I do not know how much deeper it goes. It feels somewhat weird as my sleep gets delayed, because I am not using any immaginations of sexual desire or any other pleasure to fall asleep and I am not so entirely focused on thinking, either negative or pleasant aspects of it. As I am more aware of my breath also I felt more prana being infused in my body and it feels blissfull and relaxing and there is less disturbance or chaotic, irritating energies in my manipuraka - as it would be if I knew somebody is trying to disrupt my sleep and then trying to go to sleep - that feels less influential. Another thing I can recall, the process of my awareness dissolving into sleep is slightly more lucid and progressive, however I could not concieve the point of me falling into deep sleep, and I don't remember what I dreamt also, but I don't think it was turiya. I have had nights in 2017 when I was playing with these techniques when I did fall to something unusual other than sleep - when I clearly knew I am sleeping and I was aware that I didn't choose to dream. So my goal now is to make it happen for a lifetime! (Altho I don't remember any particularly amazing experience or blissfulness, however I feel with continiuty it will deepen to extraordinary levels, as spiritual practices do). Over all it feels like a cheat code to how blissfull your third eye region can be, when you are just merely going to sleep, but your sleep will be delayed - also it will be of a more quality, so less sleep is needed and it will not stress the body as much. I remember doing all these third eye meditation techniques and getting some small benefits here and there (also because of lack of the practice), but they clearly do their job in some aspects, some may be powerful than others and produce different results. Here are some of them if you like to try. I am sure there are many many more advanced ones, I wish I was aware of them to really transform my life... I wish I knew some section of asanas for really transforming yoga sessions to alter some aspects of my very physiology. Anyhow, I have more experiments coming with the Saraswati figurine and more techniques by Nithyananda.

Let it happen!

Yes, in Baghvad Gita - where Krishna converses with Arjuna, just before a violent war, he instructs Arjuna to not have any remorse for any other living being, because they are the eternal soul that is the bliss itself, just cloaked in different bodies. And it is also very important to internally forgive your enemies and not to cherish them as your enemies so that the enemity doesn't stay so that you don't destroy your life and stop taking important decisions of your life towards your life's purpose. In that sense love is wishing them the best - the most unconditional love I can verbalize. Mostly all these patterns of attachment, enemity, anger, fear e.c.t. are acctually in you as a form of self-hatred, self-denial e.c.t., other beings just trigger that in you, and if you resolve them more and more - a different set of response triggers in you, ignoring them, letting go of them, wanting not to be like them and live authentically, focus more on your vision and goals. Pleasing the other is also pretty selfish, disguised in selfishness. You want all of the people to have a good name - why? Because one conflict, one person not saying hi to you, can ruin your day and poison your thinking for some time. That is how attached we are. Working on your self is the first truth in my opinion.

Well, this may sound controversial, however the completion process or nirbaya dhyaan by nithyananda is by far the best shadow work related technique I have found. It is based on working with your manipuraka and swadishtana chakra by reliving unpleasant experiences emotionally to relieve yourself and pour deeper and deeper into your incompletions. This is also called as samskara dahana kriya. You can just google and see how 2 do.

To be come complete you have to stop entertaining the notion that you are somehow incomplete.

Really hard to not enjoy pros playing their best on the games I absolutely adored. Seeing Serral lose to protoss from time to time is also very nice, especially after the bullshit zerg late game. Anyway I do have long term guitar solutions, things in mind but I will not disclose them, only when they come out as this little hell continunes. This period really showed me how much I want to play guitar and that I am willing to give up alot of stuff to do so. The plan for now is very simple. Getting a car with an autonomous heater and bunch of power banks/electronics to go to the countryfield and play all day whenever I have a free day from work. Thinking of a few 19 tone guitar covers and some crazy tuned guitar metal original stuff later. Ok, I spoiled a bit. But I really don't want to talk about what has not happened, because of doubt and possibility of somebody ruining my life so to say. But at least I know one thing for absolutely sure. I am not the problem, I am perfectly capable to produce discography and very creative music, besides I already have the skills and method of composing, recording, practicing and polishing the sound. It is the unfortunate social circumstances in where alot of people exist that don't want to live their lives and don't want others around them to live their lives. I know i am not powerless and I know exactly what I want. Any criticism of "you can't play guitar" "your music sucks" is not worth anything because I, first of all, see the tremendous possibilities to jam and produce cool music in various degrees, simple or complicated, depending on the circumstances and the criticism of me being umable to play or me playing bad or me being not organized to produce music today doesn't mean much because tomorrow I can have all those things. And I have adopted this renouncing mindset also and just constantly renouncing all the posessions, activities, identities, goals, achievments... and then dping them anyway as I am constantly renouncing them, almost like a zen mindset. Cheers. Applegarden, maybe I will make music under a different name, who cares, I am doing this to empty my prarabdha karma anyway and to enrich other music lovers.