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@StarStruck No need to worry about them either, life is fragile, suffering is always on its way. They may enjoy what they have now, but it will be taken away or even threathened and you will see that they will be immensly agitated. They are suffering even now with some boredom or worry or fear e.c.t. And you really don't know how they are behind closed doors. So "that much better position" first of all is fragile and will inevitably break and they are always suffering that they are not enough and that they couldnt achieve smth or some guilt e.c.t. The life of agressor is never good, maybe he will get some pleasure for 5 minutes from bullying you but with the same mindset they are bullying themselves and their memories and insecurities bully them. The more they try to escape an6d project, the worse it always comes back. If you attempt to unclutch and know yourself, i think, you are much further. Not only you can take your abuse but others abuse and uust sweep it off.

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You know, some bullies of my life which i succesfully ignored and who kept just wiping the floor with my identity... i already see them failing and doing the same thing. The life of the bully is already inevitable hell, a time bomb ticking of self-hatred and the consequences of projecting it. They are caught deep in the maze of delusion and illusion. So nothing but massive compassion pours out in my heart which was not the case before. And they bully because they are unsatisfied with their life already, just waiting to be abused and burnout and do all the wrong things in life. So there is just no reason even to remember them or curse them or gen angry at them, because they are striving for your radiance.

Yes, even a drop of this truth makes everything worth going trough, even if you dont achieve if you want.

Yes, i feel indifferent about my relatives or friends passing away.

If you live your advice you are a master of your craft.

You do, in a pretty direct way. One of guru's function if he is enlightened is to trigger you, just where it hurts sometime, deep inside the cluster of tantrums behind the assumtions of human interaction and qualities. He is the person to tell you that you and me are deluded and show why, and what can be done about it. If you think a guru is a narcisist, maybe he is doing a very good job of triggering your delusion. One way i can tell a mystic or a guru is if they radiate bliss. And if they do what they teach themselves. I have found orthodox hindu gurus the best. because hinduism has the vastest records of scriptures which you can follow and evaluate the person, if that is even needed. Too bad India is totally ruined. There are ways to cognize the world which will make you powerfull and powerless. These sacred texts do hold this capacity if you internalize, you become Shiva, because in fact, you already are. How much do you care to find the truth is the question. For any seeker. Its usually about, what will other say is if want to follow a guru. Its culturally easier to follow secular gurus like Rupert, Echart, Adya e.c.t but there are people out there that are the catalysts of truth, but you will hesitate to follow them; thats what i have found. And exactly you will think they are narcissist. And just about any guru has a bad media coverage. Will you also internalize that? What are your chances of taking gurus words? For example like Osho, only his value was really recognized later. In such conservative culture he triggered just about anybody. But he had something to say if you really wanted to listen to him. I have found such people, and i attempted to put my bullshit aside, and i am listening to them, best decision i have made in my life. For sure something must be wrong with me to? How can i be right e.c.t.? I am delusional right. In short the title of this tread is like you looking with sunglasses with 5% transparency.

Well, good luck guys, your own self-biases of what a guru should be will function as a blanket hiding the wisdom from you.

Dark night of the soul is deeper, more existential than depression. Dark night prevails in your dream state (swapna), deep sleep (sushupti) and waking state (jakrat). It is the reasonless feeling of stagnation and not being enough as you are.

I think this is appropriate for my imput. You know, i never had a gf, date, kiss, not even ivankiss (pun intended). That means i am 24 and single. I can't say that i didn't want a gf, for some good 6 years i wanted to, until recently. All those 6 years and more until now i have had other problems, distractions e.c.t. and it never really escalted in a chance of me having a relationship. Everytime i had a chance with a girl up to a point where a girl will try to write me directly or some other girl sexually advance on me, for some reason, it just didn't happen. I almost feel like this is meant to be like that. Almost something protecting me from making wrong life decisions. I feel that because over the years i am really listening to what is happening to me internally and i know, i am just not really interested in companionship and sexual relationships. Not that i have anything aginst it, but enlightenment work and its consequences, both negative and positive + planning life purpose and working on it + practical issues of my life is taking all my day. I am pretty passive, loyal and submissive in relationships, yet very very individualistic in quiet, so i kinda shadow away from all the relationships that doesn't resonate with me. I spend alot of time being alone, i do love that, but i don't know how to use it, so self destructive behaviour also pops up. Now what i am up to is to be really intense in my life purpoe and spending time to practicing instruments and researching stuff about music. And i want to learn how to do that for whole day if i have the time. Doing exactly whats needed, its almost like meditation. If you practice that even remotely, your other desires will go down, speaking from my experience. My other priority is enlightenment work of course and working on fear, and being bullied, because i am becoming an outcast. I am getting personally invaded but i feel free with that i feel internally. Some people get pissed of by even looking at me, and sometimes it can get me assaulted. Even in a situation where a girl came up to me and asked me do you want to flop my strings or be invested in me, i would say no, because i absolutely NEED my time to do what i want. And the other thing would be, i just don't want to talk very much, and listen to mundane things, sounds very very egotistical, sure, and it could be and probably i my problem and delusion e.c.t. but this is the stage i am at.

Roasted.... I agree.

@ivankiss genuinely made me smile. Just have to keep persisting and basking in the truth, i am sure i will be there one day. Its apready happening, but i have to keep letting it flow. Also now, after some time i would like to hear your music ur going to release, if you choose to, because it will be a major difference listening to it. Please don't stop posting these, these posts do provide value.

Those overtones in this third one is killing me. Also, JUST INTONATION makes me melt.

Dude, nooooo, what is this. Nothing i have ever seen before if this is true.

If she is open minded, can be reasoned to, and sees trough her mind games, which we all play, and can act regardless of social pressure and is an individual thinker while wanting to be ina relationship with you, i would put a ring on it. I would do 50/50 but we all have some quality/kink/talent only we individually can offer to our partner.

@Godhead The tinfoil hat is fine, what is not fine this is a cessit for covid.

Society is GG'ing it.

@Member You missed my point. If you don't give birth to a child, there is nobody to raise. And there is competition involved because everybody has to get educated to get a job, and get a job, before the individuals choice to make children. What do you mean, men should protect the the women and women should protect the child. Sure shit happens and there are people that will trying to exploit your family, however in first world countries THE GOVERMENT PROTECTS YOU IN AGREEMENT TO FUEL ITS ECONONY. The police, school, medical system e.c.t. protects you. At large from who man will protect your woman? From a nuclear warhead? Raising a child is pretty much a versatile thing, unless the child is an infant and even then, you can grow an infant in a lab and substitute the mothers milk. In a system that has a capitalistic element in it, it is mostly about competition, survival is competition anyhow. The notion of love in our societies is so scarce, wo what are you talking about. Maybe the love from your parents, sure, if you had both or any, or werent abused and treated like a property or didnt have tiger parents. Or your friends or community, which you cab probably count on your fingers the number of people you have conditional love. With womeb being better at rising a child, infant maybe, but a man with a balanced feminine quality should do really good, look at Sadhguru jaggi vasudev and his daughter which he raised alone from a young age, looks very healthy and balanced person to me. About something being easy or hard. Depends on peoples capability and choice of being responsible, doesn't it? I smell a right wing ideology.

Pretty interesting statement. Yes, women do have to go trough that process, if they want to. But making babies is a choice. Yes maybe very tempting choice for various reasons, however it is still a choice. Just like not to cheat, just like staying on diet, just like choosing to meditate to day, just like to have a sexual intercourse e.c.t. At the end of the day, its their choice. If you said that earlier when women were literal baby factories, it would make more sense, but now the gender roles are literally becoming very liquid and women to men relationship has become far different. In maybe 300 years or to be safe in 1000 years it has changed pretty radically. And the provider dynamic is changing as women start to outcompete men in various fields like work or education on average in first world countries for example.

For example yt channels lkke Davie504, ok mad drespect for his playing, but its about entertainment not music.

Well, you are probably aware of the whole Djent/Prog community with alot of youtubers and DIY stuff... There is one big downside to that. Which makes not worth doing it for me. The symptoms of these people's behaviour are as follows. *They will offer you overpriced lessons you realized you didn't need; *They will get triggered about everything and not hesitate to post that on social media; *They will be pretty good on pretending to be your friend; *They will post music memes to death; *Their EP's will come much later as announced (my problem aswell); *The competetive nature, even some fakes really makes you burnout and insecure; *Alot and the majority sounds pretty much the same, and kust about every software and hardware used is the same aka whats popular; *And constant posts about them making it, basically making money of of people that you could educate by far less, ny teaching things they could have learned on their own with just a little guidance and self dev work. *The vibe just feels so fake and not what music feels about to me, the very exploration of it. This marketing is so corroupting. The problem is if you succeed even (which is fine) you know there are SO MANY people wandering this rat maze without ever utilizing their immense creativity. I feel like i don't even like most of the djent that i have heard or core genres. Its really bland. Now after talking so much shit, i am thinking, whats the alternative. Dayjob + learning multiple instruments, expermenting with styles and production to make something really cool and memorable. Microtinality is a great asset and an antidote of hearing dad rock blues riffs or that one djent solo (especially in major), yuck Jazz fusion and almost like atonal harmony of 12 tone sounds like a really good sandbox. Obviously band with people would be like a cool ecosystem to release music with. Guitar lessons for free from me to lets say 5 people per month or something.

I don't really get it, however, i wanted to ask, do you have the experience of being infinite as you percieve the world? I partially do when i really remind myself some of the timeless truths i know or some other things i know. Even sitting in one place and not doing amything. I am getting more and more results, but i just want it to happen.

I once was entering into sleep paralysis and i somehow past it, only once in my lifetime consciously that i can remember. It was scary, but i continuned to observe what comes and goes and i know for a fact, i had something more than the deep sleep. I felt the infinity/void while in deep sleep, i "saw" the continious expansion before my vision while in deep sleep and i couldn't do anything about it, felt pretty awesome too, i have also had instances of waking up before opening my eyes and moving my body, kinda in a state of prepearing to wake up, but i was aware, that was weird also.

Something i think is interesting to hear, since there are posts aginst various gurus, and a good addition to Leo's stage turqouise video about gurus having their agenda and blindspots. Some points of his make senese to me, however alot of what gurus do make so much sense to me aswell. This is like a typical non-duality war, however some may benefit from this exact description to reach the truth. (is that even needed? stopping projecting the seeking? clearing out blockages so the flow and restless consciousness reduces naturally?)

@Chumbimba you know,9-5 is still not 12h and there are no night shifts, you do really have time to learn, even on your own. The motivation problem is far far bigger tho.