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I have some experience on this. The main reason why bullying is effective is because of your own uncertainties, confusions and behaviours that you don't like. If you are insecure about something and that is pointed out, there is that emotinal flood happening no matter what really. For example if you feel like you are not doing what you need to do and get bullied for procrastinating, sure you will get very upset about it and it will bring more damage to you in other areas of your life. If you are afraid of getting hurt, something taken away from you or death, then toughts about physical abuse will haunt you. It is acctually not the bully that is the problem but the assumed enemity towards people, dualistic attitude that, self-hatred and self-denial patterns you carry with yourself. They just get triggered when thinking and encuntering. Self-purification is a dynamic process, it has to be done every day so the benefits grow. Over time you have more positive cognitions and insults just don't stick to you as much, you don't identify too much with your possessions and you know death is the best thing that can happen to you. Then it get simpler to just ignore them, sleep it off, turn attention on something else like life purpose, questions about nature of reality or even your desires, even if somebody is saying you can't or treathening to take away something from you. Your vibe attracts your life. Wasting time with them will bring destruction. That is their entire goal. Hitting you and expecting you to hit back, or to prove something. They then become center of your life, but nothing but a pest they are, so ignore. Life is very large, too large. Unfortunately there are no short-term solutions, however there are long term ones that will bring you the benefits you never dreamed of. Working/sitting/experiencing and sitting with the feeling of fear and watching it; Positive affirmations, meditation, shadow work, yoga, healthy nutrition; Journaling, contamplative lifestyle; Not being too involved in these bullying experiences and just sleeping them off; Focusing on the things you acctually want and spending time strategizing those, visioning about those and holding on to those rather than living your life avoiding something, just make it irrevelant over time;
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Yes, i would agree with you, i always do have this pattern of seeking validation from a very early age. I seem to be very interested in this exercise. Let me inquire about it more, but i don't think i get it yet. I would agree with prioritizing in a sense that i am choosing to give meaning and entertain these desires and dreams/toughts, but i don't prioritize that practically speaking, as i am going the opposite direction acctually.
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Applegarden replied to Sanity's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
DAMN, WHAT A TRIP REPORT, WHAT AN EXPERIENCE, I AN SUBCONSCIOUSLY LOOKING FOR SOMETHING LIKE THIS. -
Have you ever been criminally accused? What were the triple A title games you worked on? Do you have any troll stories or bad encounters regarding being recognized as Actualized.org guy?
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Applegarden replied to rudraksharatna's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
All you need to do sometimes is internally chant "Shivohum" - (I am that, i am mahadeva the mahakaala khalabhairava, the all knowing, all powerful, eternal, eternally blissfull, omnipresent, that witch holds all forms, the ultimate, royal, highest, that which is everything and nothing, the stillness and action, the beacon of all posibilities, sitting here as himself by himself as infinite forms forever, deluding and liberating ever flowing infinite components of himself for ever and ever) that you are. You are the final boss in the game you created. Relax and enjoy. -
I usually publicly journal about the things that would make sense for me to refine in the first place and something in wouldn't write just for myself, so its something i want to share to others too, so they can relate, be entertained or even benefit from it. Some of the things - describing a past experience, reflecting on it and sharing my insights or rambles; Refining my opinions about something, for example - reassuming and refining what i think exactly is my music taste and maybe i have some intetesting stories to tell about some artists and what i know/learned from or about them. Since i can also post youtube vids on music and people do read and have commented on my previous jornals which i did hide. I wouldn't do that in private, i would just listen to music. Refining some opinions of why should i eat healthy what are the benefits if i do and what would happen if i don't. My creative struggles - because in depth these are not talked about enough. Life struggles in general are not talked about, since we tend to say things better than they are or just blatantly lie about them that i have done. Sharing my addictions like masturbation, junk food, computer game addictuon e.c.t., other insecurites like needing to be everyone's friend and if somebody doesn't say hi to you your day is ruined (very socially conditioned thing troughout our lifetimes), what my thinking models about people are e.c.t I ak not saying you have to do that, but i have done and i gained alot of insights.
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You got it, keep it up! You will be more and more magnetic the more self-reflection you do, and happier of course.
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Can't stress this enough. Its like putting up with chronic disease.
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Applegarden replied to justfortoday's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@justfortoday yes, i have been experiencing this occasionally for few minutes at the time. The sense of feeling/touch was also inverted so that i felt i don't really know what, where am i exactly and who is holding on to what. I describe that as liquid consciousness. -
I strongly feel that the future will prove us wrong about meat consumtion, mainly because of it's downsides. Sure, it has nutritional value, but as our doc @Michael569 said, animal organs have no place in human diet.
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That meat is somehow healthy.
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Maybe practicing intense emotion for 10 minutes a day would lubricate your feels you know. Or shadow work, you know, looking at the numbness directly and facing it, or maybe letting go of the guilt!
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I am getting into electro stuff since i got my synth, and the production and creativity in fx and layering sounds so right!
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I was thinking the same thing, with all respect for "love has no boundaries and co.", but isn't there a gap of mating strategies or some dissonance like that? Like, doesn't she just want to get married for her reasons that she will not tell you? And its just a few days living together. And she is making you aware of the fact that she HAS to get married or its what seals the deal with her. But of course, only you can know the details of the relationship
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Have you taken Leo's life purpose course? It does the job for me 1/5 th of the content in for me and i have tons of material to organise and journal about.
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Isn't it beautiful though?
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Its all about the right kind of food and some meditation/yoga, it even explained what foods to take, avoid and there are practices sadhguru suggested, i did them, and it works. Don't give up, find the cause of the tiredness. Its 9 to 5 after all, i have 12 hour shifts and just 3 hours to do what i want afterwards, and since i turned vegetarian 5 years ago, i have the extra energy.
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Great point, thats why self-actualization is worth it. I don't want my relationship to be like this: (Rich people being poor) I can't even put in words what i want to say... self-reflection... self-reflection... self-reflection... self-actualization... constant growth... greater vision... don't put your pleasures first... or even if you are extremely successful, you will get this conversation, that course of action, millions of dollars on the table for what? This garbage game? Justifying abuse and putting up with it e.c.t. Childish, isn't it? Btw i am talking to both peoples intentions and values. (There is a hour with this extended version) THESE ARE POOR PEOPLE IN MY EYES, THE INNER COMPONENT OF THEM IS CLEARLY MISSING - very stage green critic i know. So yeah, work on yourself and gravitate towards the people who are intelligent enough to not do that.
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Applegarden replied to Leo Gura's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Hahahah i love this forum. -
Self-actualization, shadow work, enlightenment work, meditation, practically trying to improve my life and hobbies, life purpose is a good grounding mechanism to alter your view into what you really want.
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Applegarden replied to Natasha's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA I LOVE THIS -
@RickyBalboa nice look dude, and the guitar too!
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Applegarden replied to Tim R's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
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Applegarden replied to meow_meow's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I wanted to tell you another story about delusion and psychic abilities e.c.t. I noticed that there is alot of pick a card tarot readings all over the net. Its not that the tarot or energy readers are entirely false or that it cannot be used to help people, however in this enviroment - first of all, the readings are generalized and therefore, very delusive. You trust because the comment section trusts also. Or you disregard it as fake entirely, and that is kinda the same trap with this stuff. You don't know also if the reader possesses this talent/capability. Also the concept of free will/determinism, nature of reality, choices, karmas, people's tendency readings based on their mental setup and predicting the various possibilites of your future is too big of a topic to grasp intellectually and trusting the psychic can be dangerous too. If you discover that you are the maker of your destiny, what for do you need a psychic. Especially these love readings, keeps people poor, unproductive, unwilling to strive for a better, long and lasting change in their lives, hoping for something that is acctually very far from the truth. Especially if you are dealing with people, playing the mating game, that is just so delusional to predict, you whole relationship/engagement/communication with them is dependant on their mood and your own mood and is a different projection in two minds. Who knows if the person you want to have a reading for even thinks about you or remembers that you exist... Meanwhile these psychics give similar patterns of communicating their ideas about the reading. Its so airy-fairy, hopeful e.c.t. And how do you know you picked your pile, there is no such a thing as your pile, its not for you, nor is it for anybody. And private readings are expensive way to spend your HARD earned money. You must be working for something better than that, right? So in that sense, your own discovery of psychic abilities, enlightenment experiences, even more energy can be your own demise, if you are not careful enough and don't set the foundation. Some of these things i learned the hard way. I don't want to live just for somebody's validation who i have a crush on or smth like that. Extremely delusional and life numbing principle. Btw, again, i am not saying all psychics are scam, i had one who instantly told me i played alot computer games when i was little. So i know, whats up. But generalized half-truths of the collective is more dangerous than a lie. -
Applegarden replied to meow_meow's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I don't want to recommend this channel per say, but this video is good for an explanation. Purifying the elemental setup so you can direct your energies e.c.t. Points from my experience; - Fluoride free thootpaste; - Fasting; - Vegetarian eating (low starch, low sugar works really good); - Staring at the light of a candle; - Touching the ground/earth helps for 10 minutes a week maybe; - Doing any kind of pranayama (cleansing the breath, still there is a need to learn how to do it right also); - Not eating before meditation and ESPECIALLY YOGA; - Doing exactly what is needed in your yoga practice, not just the posture, but relaxed thinking or focused awareness or a mantra or specific breathing, or no talking during the posture, not overdoing the posture for too much time e.c.t.; - Not eating 3 hrs before sleep; - Not doing the practice if something you are focusing hurts, and you are not sure how to do it right; - Of course avoid alcochol, smoking and drugs at all costs; - If yoga doesn't feel effective, try something else for the day or certain time period. You can test for example to see if you are doing everything right for this kriya yoga practice. The more complicated the practice, the more LIVE guidance you need.