We see evil and point our fingers when things don’t go our way. We are not conscious of all causes and consequences of what we do either directly or indirectly. Shadow and projections.
I am aware this community isn’t interested in abnormal psychology, and I have come to know enough about that mess regrettably - I won’t bother you. But I was born into that and I have seen it all my life. Now I don’t know how to integrate what I have experienced on the one hand, into all-encompassing Non-Duality on the other hand. Sometimes it seems like it’s only concepts compared with very tangible pain and horror.
I know that Oneness and All-is-God are Truth. It does ring true and it feels liberating. However, I find myself backsliding everytime I think of my upbringing particularly. How does this make sense ? Is it like the laws of the Universe where the infinitely small and the infinitely big are ruled according to different standards ?
I hear a lot online and IRL « oh, but those don’t count », « that’s exceptions », « besides very few cases, these things don’t happen », etc. On this specific subject, people dismissively yet truthfully say only a rare and weird individual will plan and plot to hurt another individual for the sake of the pleasure provided by destruction. What happens if you are a product of abnormal circumstances ? How do you make sense of life ?
And/Or : is it that I am I giving myself this « rare » importance because, like anybody else, undoubtably, I am the devil ? May this story be the way through which my ego triumphs over all – or so it thinks ? If this were to be the case, would « evil » lose some ground from the moment I’d make progress and gain more humility ? Does this mean then that there is no fringe, but everything is all-considered?
I’m stuck in a loop made of cognitive dissonance (getting tired and dizzy) and I’ll be grateful for any help in shedding light on the pieces that I am missing, as well as hopefully possible ways through and out of this maze. How do I solve this and move on?
