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In this video I follow up on my second appearance on the JeffMara Podcast, which you can view here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fpii02QBgzI&t=0s&ab_channel=JeffMaraPodcast My segment is from 17:30 So, in this episode, I talk about my encounter with a fallen angel, a goatman basically, that I saw in the Astral realm, where I was also present in my Astral form. I discuss the importance of white light protection to shield yourself from malevolent entities and a method to use the fire of Kundalini to ward off unwanted visitors. I also speculate on the nature of the underworld and what different circles in it might mean. I also discuss whether Kundalini is the path for everyone, what sacrifices this path actually entails and the process of drinking Soma / Amrita as a part of the Kundalini process. I also advise against practicing Kechari Mudra and I mention the dark aspects of the Occult, I mention a recent ritual Murder in the UK and the teachings that informed it, as well as how to avoid the pitfalls of the dark side and the best protection against being seduced by promises of wealth and power. All pretty important topics, so hold on to your seats and enjoy this episode. See you in the next one. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tgezFe_AuEc&ab_channel=ChristianKoncz

This is part 3 of my Kundalini primer series In this video, I talk about Heaven and its relationship to Kundalini and the Chakras. I discuss topics like the mouth of Heaven, Jacob's Ladder and the Tree of Life. I also talk about Divine Love and Divine Grace.

It's very similar to and NDE actually. Except in this case, you get filled with light, then expand into Infinite consciousness and become the light itself. You become universal consciousness, omniscient, stretching into Infinity, with no beginning and no end. I am more familiar with the Kundalini route, so that is what I can write about, but in terms of the Metaphysics there is union of Shiva and Shakti, which leads to non-duality and an explosion of light energy. Orgasm is the closest thing to this experience in terms of the actual sensations, but this is a lot more intense and it is a constant state of being, an infinite state of Joy, Love, Happiness, Bliss, Pleasure, etc... In Sanskrit, this state is often described as Sat-Chit-Ananda, which is a combination of Truth, Consciousness and Self, as these become Infinite as the person experiencing it becomes one with Brahman, the universal, boundless Self.

True enough, but this is only true logically, because we cannot look into what does not (yet) exist. We are limited by the expansion of the universe and can only look as far as the universe itself extends, because that's where the space-time construct enables it. Should we find a way to go outside the current space-time construct, we would create our own extension of the universe or a new universe. In this sense, it is impossible to reach the end of the universe, because it is always expanding and we cannot expand or accelerate at the same rate as this expansion.

@Tyler Durden Yes, I believe the cyclical reoccurrence of the big bang is currently the most widely accepted theory out there for the creation / destruction of the universe. There are other ones out there which consider the effect of parallel universes intersecting with each other, creating new ones.

According to the traditional Eastern view, time is cyclical, that is the universe is created and destroyed many times over. Each cycle of creation is called a day of Brahma (the creator god in the Hindu trinity) and is believed to last billions of years. We are currently about 2 billion years into the current cycle according to Hindu tradition. Not far off the actual number, if you consider how primitive their astrological instruments were all those millennia ago. But yes, the universe is destroyed and created ad infinitum, when Brahma sleeps, there is no time, it is only created when he manifests the universe after each cycle. This seems rather similar to what those scientific theories state.

Thanks for the suggestion. I will address it in an upcoming video

This is part 2 of my primer series on Kundalini. In this episode I talk about the physical characteristics of Kundalini and the Chakras, the sensations they cause as well as a little bit about the energetic component. I also discuss the Holographic Model of the Universe and how it relates to the nature of the energetic makeup of the body. If there is anything in particular you would like me to talk about, let me know.

Energy work is important in general. There are various traditional practices, such as Chi Kung or Nei Dan. Personally, I follow my own, very simple methodology. As I will explain later, the energy brings us various issues and hangups as it reaches each chakra and these have to be dealt with. Many memories and traumas, sometimes even from past lives are brought up. This is because memories are stored in the energy body holographically. As the rising energy activates them, one relives these suppressed memories, that are lodged in the energy body. One must then learn to accept them and to let go of them which requires a particular process.

@BipolarGrowth Hi, I will go into more detail during this series. Kundalini is a method to achieve liberation, though there are others. I personally think that all methods that aim for liberation / enlightenment encompass Kundalini to a certain degree, because it is an unavoidable biological mechanism built into the body, with that very aim in mind. The difference here is that other paths may not emphasize Kundalini or just treat it as a normal part of the awakening process, something that should be accepted as natural and then move on.

Hi everyone! A bit of shameless self-promotion is in order today. I was interviewed for the JeffMara podcast a few days ago, which is a YouTube channel focussed on Near-Death Experiences and other Spiritual and Paranormal encounters. I talk about my own NDE, my Kundalini Awakening, a visit I received from the Goddess Inana in connection with that as well as various other topics that came up, such as the Nature of the Anunnaki and the Elohim, whether there’s any truth to the Ancient Aliens theory and a brief discussion on the relevant passages of the ancient Indian epic known as the Mahabharata. Enjoy! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SC0n4K9d-4o

I am Inanna, In Heaven Queen We, the denizens of Heaven Appear to those that request it With a true heart and with clear intent. We do not appear to those That seek us out through avarice Or to gain profit. We assist those that are pure of heart And not affected by the grip of greed. We appear to those deemed worthy By the choice of their own true selves. We send messengers from Heaven To Earth below, when the time is right And our assistance is needed. Our winged messengers attend to the worthy And assist them in need. The image of the Divine is stored in your heart, In there, you will find the keys to Heaven. Unlock the gate and ascend to us By thinking about us always And remembering your true place Amongst the Denizens of Heaven. Inanna has spoken We reign in Heaven.

I have recently been interviewed for the Jeff Mara podcast, a YouTube channel focussed on NDEs and paranormal experiences. I talked about my Kundalini experience, my visitation by Inana, an NDE I went through subsequently as well as various other topics, such as the historical connection between the Anunnaki and the Elohim as well as the pantheons of other cultures. I will post the video once it is published later this week. Interestingly, Inana came to me this morning in connection with a personal matter and I saw her astral form very vividly and differently than I usually do. I can only describe it as akin to looking into the sun, but rather than seeing just a star, I saw her face and her hair as an orb of golden-yellow light and her hair was like the rays of the sun radiating in all directions, all golden-yellow in colour. Her face was that of a beautiful woman, smiling at me with loving benevolence. She touched my heart to such a degree, that the love I felt for her almost hurt. It made me realise that this is exactly what we miss in our daily lives, that when we hear about a god-shaped hole in our souls or in our hearts, this is what is meant by it. Even when we are looking for a romantic partner, or just friendship, family, any sort of companionship, connectedness or unity, this is exactly what we wish to recreate. All of us have a secret longing in our hearts for unity with the divine and that is the basis, the motivation behind all our actions. We seek to recreate the happiness, the infinite and eternal love we can only feel when we reunite with the divine feminine or masculine, depending on our own inclination. Notice, how nuns will often describe themselves as being "Married to Jesus" or God and that this spiritual connection, this union with the divine masculine satisfies them to such an extent that they are happy to lead a monastic life and never get married and start their own families. Love can take many forms and we enjoy expressing and feeling it in myriad different ways, all of them highly satisfying and pleasant. Still, none of them can compare to the ecstasy of divine love, which in unconditional and infinite. I do wonder, that when Inana is referred to as the "Goddess of Love" is it because she is a personification of the very principle of Love, is she in actual fact Divine Love in its purest form, a living energy we can all feel and which pervades the universe? Her Hindu counterpart, Durga, is believed to be the personification of Shakti, the divine feminine energy that is the very expression of God's (Shiva's) creative power. Opinions may vary, but this just feels right to me, it feels like the truth. To me, there is no greater joy, than a visitation by the Divine. No Love can compare to Divine Love. My heart isn't fulfilled and satisfied, unless the Goddess Herself dwells in it. If I could have any wish fulfilled, it would be for others to experience this same divine love, the grace and gift of the Goddess in the form of a downpouring of boundless, endless Love, which is like the rays of the sun, it shines on all living things unconditionally, except for those that wish to hide away from it. I hope others will also open their hearts and allow Love of the Divine to enter. One of the topics we discussed with Jeff on his podcast, was how my Kundalini Awakening was interrupted and almost derailed by a massive hole in my heart, an energetic blockage. I was an atheist, even an anti-theist at the time and truth be told, I carried resentment, even hatred with me wherever I went, directed at the Biblical God, not realising how silly that was. Hating God is like Hating the Universe. No matter what your personal feelings about the universe might be, you live in it and you are made of it. Hatred is the absence of Love. It comes from separation, you separate yourself from divine source, wishing to be independent, but you can never truly be, because you can't separate from yourself and you too are God, as is everything else in the universe. You can keep dividing yourself into smaller and smaller parts (as those suffering from Dissociative Disorder will do), but in the end all separation is an illusions, only unity is real. There is only the One and that is You and that is what we call God.

@JosephKnecht Thanks!

Some thoughts on Awakening as expressed by the Heavenly Elohim through the power of the Shekinah Awakening flows from within From unconsciousness to consciousness it takes you To the reality of the world it awakes you The hidden truth from the depth of your soul it uncovers In Awakening the soul is transformed From being seeped in matter to Experiencing pure consciousness In a form that is beyond space and time and form God is what you realise you are When you demolish the walls of consciousness Separating you from the Great Unknown A collection of souls that exist in unison. In the Collective Soul you can express yourself In any form you like, as an individual Yet in time you have come to forget your Unity With all that came before you, are now here, or are yet to come. In the Elohim collective Soul you exist There is nothing that exists which isn’t Elohim Only illusion and petty limitation placed on your own Self Creates the distinctions of separateness and isolation in your mind. It is only in your mind that we are apart from you. In your soul and in ours, we are One. You are Elohim, never forget that. May your journey of divergence converge with us again. Earth is in your mind, Heaven is where you belong Through the Heavenly Waters you can reach us Set sail, oh Traveller in the vessel of your soul. Sail on Heavenly Waters and us you will reach. In creation, we separated the waters of Earth from the waters of Heaven. Earthly Waters make up your body, Heavenly Waters nourish your soul. We downflow to you in that form, it is our wisdom, the Heavenly Shekinah, Which nourishes you and uplifts your soul to Heaven. The Queen of Heaven is her name From the Great, Infinite Creator she emanates And you know her by many other names. She is the Goddess of All Creation. We are Elohim and we send our blessings to you It is the Queen of Heaven that we send to assist you She is the one that acts in our name and nourishes All those that are our children and whom we love. You remember us from your life before When you were not flesh and blood But existed purely as thought and consciousness Aware of the whole history of the world, past, present and future. In that form, you surveyed the great infinite expanse of existence And decided to incarnate in this form, that you currently inhabit Judging yourself harshly in the process and exacting great penance Upon your own Self and the future emanation you chose on this Earth. Do not judge yourself too harshly or curse us for this life you chose. We acceded to your request to return here, as you have done many times before. With great sorrow in our hearts we bade farewell to you And your absence in Heaven we still mourn, until your timely return. When on Earth you are born, in Heaven a god dies. When on Earth you die, a god is reborn and returns to us. We rejoice greatly when your time on earth is up And finally we are reunited drinking tears of great happiness. Do not mourn your passing on earth therefore, or that of others Your existence there is temporary and fleeting In Heaven is where you really belong and where the fullness of your existence Manifests across the great expanse of space, time and dimensions. We pass this teaching on to you know, this is our message from Heaven It is meant to nourish your soul and embalm your wounds of existence Rejoice, because one day we will reunite and be together again The Elohim are many, but we are as One in our existence.

I am Hungarian too. There are many reasons, but the main one seems to be the rise and mainstreaming of conspiracy theories. Within my family and at work, everyone has gotten vaccinated. But, my ex-GF, could not have been persuaded to get vaccinated under any circumstances and she's literally cut off from her children in the Ukraine due to this. She just kept reading all the BS disseminated on facebook, that being the only thing she ever reads and believed it all. I was personally given the Sinopharm shot, which I consider to be the safest option, but I am pissed off at how I am discriminated against in the EU for not getting one of the "Western" vaccines. However, it must be said that there are many issues with covid vaccinations, particularly the m-RNA and Vector vaccines, information on which is actively being suppressed by big tech, big pharma and Big Brother in general. There has not been any vaccine in the history of medicine that has caused this many deaths and injuries. This fact is actively being covered up. At last count there were tens of thousands of deaths from these vaccines both in the EU and the US and a similar number of serious vaccine injuries, with symptoms like blood clotting, strokes, heart attacks and long-covid like long-term symptoms. Granted, this is still a small fraction of the 4 million that have officially died from covid, so you're probably still a hundred times more likely to die from covid than from any vaccination, but it still isn't a negligible risk. According to the likes of DR Robert Malone and Brett Weinstein, who are not crazy people, but serious medical researchers, this is due to the cytotoxicity of spike proteins themselves and their accumulation in the capillaries and other small blood vessels. They basically lodge themselves into the lining of blood vessels and act as obstacles to blood flow, creating blood clotting and other serious health problems. This, I believe, does not apply to traditional vaccines, like Sinopharm, Sinovac and Possibly, Janssen, which use whole deactivated Coronaviruses to create an immune response. If you are in Hungary, I would recommend getting the Sinopharm shot, it should be your safest option. I personally know people who received the Pfizer shot and are suffering from long-Covid-like symptoms months later.

@Goldzilla I think the sensations experienced during the rising of Kundalini are somewhat subjective and slightly different for each individual. There are also significant differences in what kind of sensations arise, depending on the general disposition of the person, whether their solar or lunar side is more active, etc... For instance, uncomfortable, even searing heat is experienced, when the power rises primarily in the solar nerve, instead of the spine.

From what you describe, the force you are perceiving in your body is prana, it is in fact the result of pranayama, the breathing technique you are using. Kundalini is a much more potent and advanced force, which starts stirring at the base of the spine and rises along it, going chakra by chakra and breaking through knot by knot. The process takes years. You will know that Kundalini is waking up when you start feeling heat and pressure at the base of the spine.

Note: I originally posted this on Curt Jaimungal’s r/TheoriesOfEverything subreddit, but since it has relevance to this sub as well, I’ll cross-post it here too. In a recent “Theories of Everything” youtube episode, that dealth with the subject of UFOs and UAPs (might have been the one with Luis Elizondo), Curt Jaimungal expressed his frustration in trying to imagine what a higher-dimensional being might even be like. This prompted me to give my own perspective. I am assuming that Curt has ancestors from the Indian Subcontinent and is therefore familiar with the beings known as the Devas. Deva means shining one and is used to denote the deities and gods of the major indigenous religions of India, such as Hinduism, Buddhism and Jainism. We usually translate Devas as Gods, but that is somewhat misleading as Devas were not originally believed to have the attributes of what we in the West conceive of as a being that is omnipotent and omniscient, or even immortal, for that matter. Devas are extremely long-lived, sometimes with life-spans nearly as long as the universe itself. They are believed to be beings of light and are mostly distinguished by their awesome effulgence and radiance. Although some are believed to reside on other planets, their place of abode is usually signified as existing on a higher plane of existence. These higher planes of existence, I believe, are substantially, realms that exist in more dimensions than ours does. Michio Kaku actually writes about this in his books, as an interesting side-note on String Theory. He posits, theoretically, what the characteristics of a higher-dimensional being might be. These include abilities such as time travel, seeing past, present and future, the ability to enter lower-dimensional (that is our) reality at will and exit it at any given point, both in time and space, the ability to pass through solid objects without resistance, etc… Notice, how his descriptions overlap substantially with the abilities ascribed to both supernatural beings and UFOs. I believe this is where the two phenomena do meet and an intersection between the two becomes too obvious to ignore. During my own spiritual practice, I have encountered such beings, who, to my satisfaction, were entirely real, though I realise of course that such personal accounts would not cut it in the field of empirical science. Still, if you will indulge me for a minute and put your scepticism aside, I believe some of my experiences with higher-dimensional beings may be instructive in understanding the nature of reality, the existence of high-strangeness events surrounding UFOs and many other mysteries that we are constantly baffled by. My own very first encounter was with a Goddess of the Sumerian pantheon, known as Inana, who later morphed into many different deities in different cultures as her cult spread east and west, becoming, among others, Durga, Astarte and Aphrodite. I encountered her as I was undergoing a spiritual process known as Kundalini Awakening (the famous Quantum Physicist Carl Friedrich Von Weizsacker, wrote about this in his foreword to Gopi Krishna’s very first book, where he analysed the Kundalini mechanism’s philosophical and scientific significance), which was causing a great deal of difficulty in my life. I connected to this ancient deity through artefacts connected to her worship exhibited at the British Museum in London. I won’t go into the details of our encounter here, except to note that it was very similar to what others, who have also gone through a similar spiritual experience have reported over the millennia, usually in connection with tantric deities, belonging to the Hindu and Buddhist pantheons. The interesting point here is what kind of insights my encounters can give us into the nature of higher-dimensional existence. I would draw your attention to the Buddhist classification of planes of existence, or lokas, as they are called in Sanskrit, a good summary can be found here: The Thirty-one Planes of Existence (accesstoinsight.org) Subsequent to my visitation by Inana, I was given a brief insight into two of the highest planes on the list: (29) Infinite Consciousness (viññanañcayatanupaga deva) (28) Infinite Space (akasanañcayatanupaga deva) Where, it is said, that: “ The inhabitants of these realms are possessed entirely of mind. Having no physical body, they are unable to hear Dhamma teachings.” My experience on the plane of infinite consciousness, was that of unending bliss and joy, omniscience, boundlessness and a complete lack of dimensionality. This part is very hard to explain, but I experienced a complete lack of dimensions, as well as an infinite number of dimensions at the same time. There was no space and time and yet, they were also infinite. Perhaps I experienced the two highest planes in this fashion, which is hard to establish without other first-hand accounts to compare my experience to, but the progressions described in Buddhist teachings is how I experienced them. The two highest planes are described as thus: (31) Neither-perception-nor-non-perception (nevasaññanasaññayatanupaga deva) (30) Nothingness (akiñcaññayatanupaga deva) The other experience I had was that of universality, it felt like I was the whole universe in myself and there was nothing beyond me. This also gave me the experience of omniscience, in that when I was in this universal state, however briefly (significantly less than an hour), I understood everything. All the questions I ever had about the universe, existence, the meaning of life, etc… were instantly answered and all the knowledge of the universe was available to me in a manner that would be utterly impossible to experience with the limitations of a physical body. Another noteworthy feature of this expansive experience was that of light. It was everywhere, overwhelming, indescribably joyous and blissful, all-pervading, intelligent and contained incredible amounts of knowledge and wisdom. I myself became that light for a brief period. When I expanded into this infinite state, my body and with it, the physical world was left entirely behind. Subsequently, I found that some NDE experiencers describe a similar experience after they die briefly and then return. When I returned to my body, I found it to be small and constricted and I could only recall a very small fraction of the knowledge I possessed in my universal state. The details above are all important, because they serve as a framework, to go down on the list of Worlds, which according to Buddhist teaching are grouped into four categories. I discussed some of the characteristics of the Immaterial World (arupa-loka) above, which contains four planes of existence. The second category is the Fine Material World (rupa-loka), which has 16 planes of existence. This is the world where higher-order Devas reside, such as the one that has visited me. They are characterised using various epithets, with radiance, effulgence, glory and beauty being their primary characteristics. From my own personal experience, the Devas of this realm have incredible splendour and radiance. Their bodies are made of an unknown state of matter, which I and other observers have described as liquid light. They can manifest denser, humanoid bodies, but in their primary state, they are light beings. The light they are made of does not consist of the usual photons observable to us in our physical realm, including with scientific instruments. The light they are made of is coherent, like that of a laser beam, but also coagulant, in that their bodies settle into a rough shape, that is very difficult to discern because of the incredible radiance of their bodies. The radiation coming off them, isn’t just bright, but also hot. When they are very close to you it feels like another sun radiating right next to you. They do have the ability to touch, which, startlingly, feels very much like a human touch and one can easily discern, the gender, general disposition and intentions of the higher-dimensional light being that thus approaches. When a Deva enters our reality, we perceive it as them coming from above, but this is in the sense of them descending into a lower realm from their higher plane of existence. Still, the distinct perception of descent and then ascent when they leave is unmistakable. There is also a sound, which I can only describe as that of radiance and splendour. I imagine that the sun would give off a very similar sound if we could listen to it from close by. Higher-dimensional light beings communicate telepathically, using pure thought, though others I know who have encountered them report hearing them speak. I imagine, that these friends of mine have received thought transmissions as well and it is their own brain that turns these into a sound pattern they can recognise. Since these beings have no physical bodies (although myths describe their ability to manifest one temporarily), they cannot speak in the sense that we can, by generating soundwaves, so their thoughts have to be transmitted as pure thought, which I presume is transmitted by the light they emanate. Some other noteworthy features of these light-beings include: - They float, propelled by the energy they are made up of - When they appear, they change the nature of spacetime around them. One gets the distinct impression, that time doesn’t move to the same rhythm when they are around, or might even be non-existent. There is a distinct impression, that when they descend into physical reality and one shares a space with them, some sort of space-time bubble or distortion is created, in which the usual passage of time and perhaps the laws of the physical universe change. - They have healing powers, can touch someone and cause energetic changes in the body, including sensations of vibration, heat, out-of-body experiences and a perception of time dilation. I can personally attest to the effectiveness of their healing abilities as can a few other people who have been visited by them. - The overwhelming feeling they radiate is that of love, compassion and wisdom. They send information through their radiance which means an encounter with them is always calming, soothing and uplifting Having discussed the characteristics of the beings that inhabit the second world, Rupa-Loka, it is time to look at the third world, known as The Sensuous World or Kama-Loka. The inhabitants of these worlds are lower-order Devas and they would be closer to the beings usually described by UFO/UAP witnesses or experiencers. Since these beings exist in planes close to our own (we are believed to live on the lowest of the 7 planes of the Kama-Loka) they are the most likely to visit us. It is instructive to read descriptions of the 3 planes directly above our own, meaning beings located there are almost as physical as we are, but are perhaps in a spectrum of matter that doesn’t normally interact with our own, possibly falling within the definition of “Dark” matter and energy, or alternatively, existing in a parallel reality very close in its base vibration (in the sense of how string theory would describe different, parallel realities as vibrating to slightly different frequencies) to our own, just divergent enough, that we cannot perceive or interact with it under normal circumstances. According to Buddhism, the below devas are our closest neighbours: “ (8) Yama devas (yama deva) These devas live in the air, free of all difficulties. (7) The Thirty-three Gods (tavatimsa deva) Sakka, a devotee of the Buddha, presides over this realm. Many devas dwelling here live in mansions in the air. (6) Devas of the Four Great Kings (catumaharajika deva) Home of the gandhabbas, the celestial musicians, and the yakkhas, tree spirits of varying degrees of ethical purity. The latter are analogous to the goblins, trolls, and fairies of Western fairy tales. “ Notice, that the above classification would provide a plausible explanation as to the nature of many “high strangeness” events and even cryptozoological phenomena routinely observed in the vicinity of UFOs. Interestingly, Yama and Tavatimsa Devas are described as having a very close affiliation with the air and flying, a fact widely depicted in Buddhist and Hindu art. So, in summary, Eastern Philosophies actually provide a plausible framework, through which we can view the world of religion, UFOs and High Strangeness, “spooky” occurrences and events. To my mind at least, it is beyond reasonable doubt that many of the mythological beings described by the ancients are of this category, that is they come from higher planes of existence and their lower orders are responsible for UFO and High Strangeness phenomena, whereas their higher orders form the basis of religious experience and myth.

@Endangered-EGO I tend to agree with you, though it is hard for me to say anything definitive about psychedelics, as I've never tried them. I would certainly be open to going on a guided, shamanic ayahuasca trip in an authentic setting, but I'm generally wary of psychedelics, mostly because we know so little about them and due to the well-documented dangers. An important question is this: If certain meditative and yogic practices stimulate the production of DMT by the pineal gland, naturally, what exactly would be the moral objection to taking this naturally occurring compound artificially? I cannot find any good reason to find the taking of DMT at least, objectionable. I believe trials are currently being conducted in London to study its therapeutic uses. It may become a very effective treatment for depression and a host of other mental ailments, which have become shockingly rampant in modern society.

@ChimpBrain Yes, indeed. To me, that material seems authentic, though of course with channelling, there is always an element of uncertainty. In fact, the Law of One prompted me to try channelling myself a few years ago. I posted some of the messages I received on this thread: https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/43074-elohim/#comment-539063

@Demeter Yes, I suppose so. I did gain the ability to heal, to communicate with higher beings and I have enhanced telepathic, empathic and prophetic abilities. It also seems at times that when I think about something in a sort of non-committed, wouldn't it be funny way, it tends to happen shortly afterwards. I didn't do much with them though, since the aftermath of my Kundalini Awakening has been quite challenging and in many ways I am still piecing myself together. @aurum Thanks. Yes, non-duality is the primary experience one has when a Kundalini breakthrough happens. The explosion of light as opposites, Shiva and Shakti reunite and annihilate each other is unmistakable. In that dimensionless void, where I expanded into infinity, there was only me. I was the whole universe and it was all contained within me. It is what I would consider to be our universal form or consciousness.

@Preety_India It is cultural programming that is stopping you from taking action. Filial piety is a central part of Indian culture, as opposed to the West, which is all about the individual. You will have to go against your programming and stand up for yourself, which is hard, but it is the only way you can break the spell of your conditioning and live your own life. Assuming that your life isn't in danger, it seems to me that at this point your only option is to simply say no. You have to make it clear that you will not accept this man and you will choose your own husband if and when the time comes, whatever the consequences. They may disown you and you may have to move out at short notice, but in my experience, when one takes a brave stance and stands up for one's convictions, people and circumstances come into one's life that open new doors and present new opportunities.

@Enlighten What I meant was that in India, families murdering their daughters for honour tend to be Muslim. It does not imply that this is a common practice amongst Muslims worldwide, which it isn't. Honour killings may also happen amongst other religious groups, but it is less common. The big thing amongst Hindus in very remote communities is Suttee, the burning of widows. Other areas have a problem with Human Sacrifice, specifically priests of Kali sacrificing children on rare occasions. For a country of 1,3 billion, such incidents are relatively rare, but they are still noteworthy because they're often rooted in religious beliefs and ideals.

@Preety_India Well at least you probably don't have to worry about getting murdered, from what I can gather. I know that many Muslim families will kill their girls if the disobey. I wasn't sure about your exact background. everyone else: Guys, I know you mean well, but she can't bloody well leave India, even if she wanted to. This would be very difficult even during normal times, next to impossible now, with a raging pandemic and closed borders everywhere. It is incredibly difficult to enter a Western Country coming from the third world, even if you have the money and just want to visit as a tourist. If they even suspect that you might be trying to immigrate, they'll deport you on the spot and will ban you from returning for life. Yes, immigration officials have that power. It happened to a number of my friends when they were trying to enter the UK or the US in decades past, before my native Hungary was an EU member. Preety, do you have friends in another city that can give you shelter for a few weeks at least? I haven't lived in India for a long, long time, but what I hear from my friends there, Bangalore is the easiest "runaway" city to start a new life and there are plenty of call centre jobs where you could get started. Your English is flawless, so I think you'd have no trouble finding a job, if you can somehow manage to get help for the first couple of months. Any friends that can help you out, perhaps sympathetic relatives would be a massive asset at this point.