DreamScape

Good music choices!

@Average Investor I'll keep it in mind! Good luck on your journey!!

My goals: Financial Independence/Escaping wage slavery Mastery in 1/2 subjects Becoming a conscious creator, sharing love and beauty through creation. I want to escape wage slavery so I have the increase in time to focus on spirituality, exploring reality, and creation. It seems like what most resonates with my being would be making music, or starting a business. I have some ideas for music but none for business and haven't started yet. The thing that seems to be pulling me in is making music at the moment, although from my POV it seems like something unfeasible and something that many many people struggle to even make a living from. I have heard that some people are working a part time job + music just to make everything work out well for them. I don't want to end up like that. I don't really know if this is my intuition or not. Should I follow this? Or should I look for business ideas or other mediums that I can use to create something that'll bring into life the goal of escaping wage slavery. I don't really see how getting into music/making music can help do that.

@Average Investor Yeah, that's what I've been doing. Better to take the time to think than to do something I will regret doing later. I don't want to waste time. That's a good idea! I'm gonna figure out something, life purpose or not lmaoo. Truly, I do want to do something purposeful and meaningful, I really don't want to waste life, there's just too much to life to waste it doing non meaningful stuff. That's really good advice. Eventually though if I can't find anything purposeful to do, I will just do it for money. I cannot stand for wasting my life basically not living my life. But we'll see. @Thought Art I think you're doing good, keep at it.

You're definitely right. Mastery is something that many people lack. Even in music, most music that's played on the radio doesn't seem that high quality, or it doesn't seem like anything a master would produce. Especially with the focus on money, and fame, and power and stuff. People who focus on creating amazing (anything) with love & passion will always stand out I'm also impacted in a large way by music in a large way. Life, for me, would be very bland without it.

@Nahm it's back now, along with all of the anxiety and stuff. I think I'd rather be anxious and be somewhat able to feel love than have peace of mind without it. Although a part of me still craves to go back. That was an interesting state to be in. Your comment helped somehow. Usually when I go for help to others they just give advice or tell me what they'd do or not really acknowledge it, or react to what I'm saying which is nice and OK but it's like when you responded it felt like I was heard and understood and that felt good. Also, you can lock this thread since now I am of need of no assistance for my problem

Okay, so I felt like waiting a few days but I'm too anxious atm to do that. So I was just lying down being anxious. Having anxious thoughts and such. I have a lot of anxiety with relationships, and I was having thoughts on like why do I need them and why do I need a gf and stuff like that. I'm okay w friendships but with intimate love I just get very anxious with. Anyways, idk what happened. I had that thought and it's just like my ego decided it was time to not feel love anymore. Like I feel numb to love now. I dont feel the need to love anybody, I live with my parents and I cant even feel myself trying to love them. I just feel dull right now. Like life has lost its spice. I didnt really think this could happen, but now I think I realize how sociopaths are created. They have so much shame from their parents and their ego just decides to not feel it anymore. I dont know what to do. I've been doing a lot of inner work and this is the first time something has been just switched off like youd switch off a ceiling light. It kind of feels nice, because now I'm not so fucking anxious. But I dont think this is the correct way.

@Nahm yeah, and now it seems like a lot of the shame is gone. This doesnt feel that good though. I'm having impure desires and this is still ego.

Leo has mentioned previously that Bread is detrimental to the body and energy levels. Could anyone explain why? Also, any good substitutes? I usually use it with peanut butter, and to make egg sandwiches.

Same here. Although for me, I was so dysfunctional that it was just really difficult for me to function because I would be so anxious and critical. Clearing chakras and shadow work has allowed me to communicate better and function in the world more focused and clear. I figure that clearing myself out, I'll be able to go into the world more focused and passionate than ever. I wouldn't be able to do the things I want to do without spirituality and the healing work I've done on myself, I know that for sure. My suggestion: do what you feel is most right. For me, this is a clear example of the counter intuitive nature of life.

Culture.. lol

@Leo Gura So, I've been contemplating Mastery and pacing things out. I'm thinking about pursuing Music and Psychology/Spirituality/Consciousness as two domains that I want to focus my life. My question: Pursuing two things, could I focus my attention to Spirituality for one year (mainly), and then focus hardcore on music for maybe two years, and then return to spirituality and consciousness as the main focus. While I'm doing this, still be doing both at the same time but the focus would shift. Do you think that this is a viable idea?

I never thought I'd see such a beautiful thing. LOL

@Leo Gura Leo, I understand the importance of having a focus in life. Do you think it is possible to pursue mastery in multiple domains; such as: music and consciousness/psychology, or business and consciousness/psychology? I don't want to stop spiritual progress, but I am too young and don't have enough money to make that the sole focus of my life. Plus, I do want to do things like make music and create also. It does seem like consciousness + "x" increases the value of the "x" no matter what the x is.

I live with my family. My parents are divorced, but the way they both play out in parenting/relationships seems to be 75% same. My dad is an alpha male type. He was super into heavy metal and the greaser-type style when he was younger. I think most of you know how the conservative-republican type act. they have this "cool guy" attitude and they're kind of macho. The way he jokes around is like teasing and poking fun at me and others. Like if I say something deep or hippie he'll say "what are you a fa*" or something like that. At least he says he's joking around, but a part of me feels as though he is being serious. Between him and my stepmom, they seem to have quite a bit of communication issues. My stepmom is bossy and judgmental a bit. When they talk to each other, it's like 1) they're always teasing each other about things like the things they do, how they act, but also 2) it really feels as though there is an underlying issue here ESPECIALLY with the shame/throat area. At my moms, she was way more controlling and bossy. she would always control everything I did: how long I played video games, she always watched me like a hawk, etc etc. Between her and my stepdad, my mom seemed to be the alpha in the relationship. my stepdad would always watch out to not make her mad (my mom flipped shit a lot), and overall it seemed like he was worshiping her like a god. They also got into arguments quite frequently and never seemed happy. Anyways, coming from this I don't really know what a real, authentic relationship is supposed to be like! a relationship without dysfunction, or little. I seem to project this into my relationships: I always feel like the person I'm with is always out to get me and won't be there for me. I just seem really paranoid about the other person hurting me and I'm always expecting criticism. There's probably more. What does a healthy relationship look like? How are you supposed to communicate problems? What does your relationship look like and how have you grown from past perceptions/traumas? Also: how are you supposed to raise kids and what emotional needs do you think that I'm failing to see are underrepresented within myself.

Ive heard this mentioned before, but I dont have any insights into it nor any understanding. Infinite depth: what does this mean? what can this be applied to? Is there any way to use this concept toward assisting our development/growth? For example: many people think we are at the pinnacle of understanding the universe through science. Could say, science be infinitely developed? Meaning in the direction of discoveries and developments, but also the structure as well? If so, what do you think this would look like. Or another: weightlifting. Many people get stuck at a certain weight/body mass without using steroids, and when they do I'm sure there is a cap. But since were all god, if we tapped into that couldn't that develop, say infinitely? Does this apply to things like that or does this only apply to structures and systems? Any insights?

So, I'm a bit conflicted with my passions. In fact, I seem to be too passionate. Theres just so much that interests me: philosophy, science, consciousness, music and dance, personal development, astronomy, there may be more. I'm at the point in my life where I'm trying to figure out what I wanna do. I'm going to university for Psychology next fall (this is the first thing that I was really interested in, and the consciousness work has brought a huge passion for life), but a part of me also wants to make music and do dance, and then another part of me wants to become a modern sage-the vision leo shared on his video "becoming a modern sage" and dive deep into philosophy and the sciences. I just think that this much passion isnt sustainable I guess. I've always looked toward Leonardo da Vinci: the polymath who was an expert in 9 different fields, and I've looked up towards people like Albert einstein and such. But how do I go about this? Is there a specific focus I should have or should i allow myself to be passionate this much? What I mean is should I cut out all of the other passions while I solely focus on one, or allow myself to be passionate about everything while mastering a field. I know cutting out passions would make me upset because I'd feel like I'm missing out on a lot more of life I could be experiencing, but if I dont have a focus then I cant even master one.

@fridjonk haha... good point! I was thinking that, since a medium is a thing to outflow an infinite amount of content, I'm wondering if the development of that structure is infinite (like science, or government). We dont necessarily see it stopping now. I know nothing finite can be infinite such as objects or structures because all of those are forms and concepts.

@Fortunate Son definitely helps. Yeah, can love many things but ultimately I can only make one or two (later on) a career. Thanks for the tips!

Okay. So for starters, I'm 17 and I live with my family. I've had the Kundalini awakening, and I've let go of a lot. I'm working on the sacral chakra, where I'm letting go of shame and societal conditioning. The problem is: my parents are conservative and libertarian and stage blue, and they have views on right and wrong and they're extremely judgmental. Am I going to heal/raise kundalini enough to where the shame they project onto me won't affect me even while living with them? does it make it harder that I'm living with them? Also, how should I act? I notice that I have shame for swearing, although I have a fear of letting it go that I might say it around them because I don't have the shame blocking myself from doing it. Is it possible that I can build a mental conception using the pranic energy so that my subconscious mind will remember not to do it around them, that's not out of shame, but because I have to fit into where I'm at?

That hit me hard. Thank you. That's a really good idea, especially since I am going through what I want in life now. I'm going to do that over winter break. Yeah you're right. It's interesting how I have beliefs about who I am and then I can see how when talking to someone, if they have a different belief the belief in my head goes to the one they're saying. It is a choice.

@mandyjw good differentiation. I kind of wanted to free myself from what shames me but I see why the other is superior. Thanks for the advice

@undeather haha, yeah I didnt see that that was judgement originally. I was thinking of looking into bypassing, although now I realize that I need to research this more and do more work toward it. I seem to have a paradigm where I think everyone is out to hurt me which I think is why i try to separate myself or detach instead of dealing with problems head on. I do have views toward right and wrong but what I was saying is that I am breaking down the conceptual filters of good vs bad. I'm not necessarily bullshitting myself.

@Martin123 it is a unique situation. I know others into spirituality but I was alone for a while in the start. Glad that I make you not feel so alone! As I said above, I try but they dont usually listen. Actually, my dad actively forgets what I say. He blatantly ignores anything I'm actually into and then acts like hes unconditionally accepting of me /:. You're right though, maybe communication can help and I'll try it again but I'm not sure if I'll get any different results ?

@erik8lrl haha... you're ultimately right. Unfortunately, I'm not at the point where I can be unconditionally and always loving. @mandyjw like if I talk about anything spiritually or what I'm doing I get a backlash.. stuff like telling me to toughen up, if I bring up my feelings about something he says "oh you know I'm not like that" and then continues to do it. When I was a vegan he used to make fun of me and my family didnt stop me but there was a lot of backlash against stage green stuff LMAO. You get the point, I know that theres nothing right or wrong in reality but it skews my worldview while trying to heal. I do have karma related to living with my mom, she was really controlling and tried to nit pick every part of my life but I moved out when I was 16.