DreamScape

@Jay Ray trust your intuition

If you don't wanna play the game of life then that's fine. But to navigate life you need to have a map, and you need to know when you're about to walk into a volcano and when you're walking on smooth terrain This realm is limited by design therefore you have to limit yourself. You can become unlimited and break the rules by choice, but you can also play the game by choice too. You can get to the point where you don't feel obligated and such. Spirituality is about aligning with the forces of life, and embracing whatever comes your way. Not about denial, or avoiding. Pure survival has no rules, and you're completely free. To survive together, we create a social contract to keep the playing field clearer than it would be alone.

@diamondpenguin haha. You attract whatever you want. Both hate and love are all beautiful because they're all creations, created by all of us. I view even experiencing the darkness and the worst realms as beautiful. Life is about the experience, not avoiding pain and moving toward pleasure. It seems to suck, but pain is literally something that youre creating. Without the dark realms, you would never recieve virtues like leadership, strength, growth, etc. Also since you can't die and pain is illusory weakness is an illusion ?

Whats your spiritual practice? What is your overall mood day to day? What are some traumas you work through? The ego screaming = something not going right. Surrender should be natural, and if resistence comes up then its a natural resistance that youre in, like a movie you're sucked into. Disassociation is when youre watching the movie but its like you're not there, youre hearing the voices but youre not, youre there but youre not, you have voices in your head but they're not yours. This is disassociation and not awakening. The ego must be integrated, it is not a parasite or an enemy, it is you, just a less mature version of f an integrated master. Be careful. Disassociation is not something to fuck with. My ego only did this when I was pushing it away and trying to get rid of it, which led to disassociation and insanity, awakening is actually more ego and awareness. Connecting to the universe should not be no ego and such. You will exist forever. You also need an ego.

Abandonment issues & neglect = a lot of trouble with relationships

life is whatever you want it to be.

why not infinite hate too? why not infinite comedy? ----> these do exist but within the overarching absolute love and creation there is no distinction or boundary between anything ----> polarities and dualities exist, although at some point they all intersect and the boundaries mesh. I like to view it as a spectrum or gradient that has an infinite number of colors inside of it. Its just they fade into eachother, without there being a solid blundary. And everything does this. Everything fades together. Like all of the colors come together to make an overarching and complete color that includes everything. I also like to think about it like you can view the earth from close up and see trees and rivers, but upon zooming out you will see more and more space and stars, until at some point, the earth fades into everything and becomes nothing. But both reference angles exist. And the earth is still there, just seemingly invisible. Its just about your reference angle. Can you function as a human being with Absolute Love? Isn't it required to make distinctions betweens things to survive or to do anything ----> you will still have your mind and ego until you die. You will still exist within the bandwidth of dualities and survival. Its just that it will be transcendent and integrated, and you won't be limited by yourself. You will always need to survive, yes you are an individual, yes you are a person, but the individual you exists within the oneness. You are a self experiencing dualities, but within a nondual universe. YOU exist.

Hi babes I'm a psychopath meet me in my dms ?????

@Seed noo haha. Highly sensitive people, empaths, codependent people, people who suffer from neglect, these are the people who need more of a heart centered approach toward healing and awakening (if that's what you're going for). This is because your main issue is lack of love, so doing normal, masculine approaches will just lead to more self judgment, lack of love and rejection from yourself, and other such things. Also masculine dominated approaches lack this element. If youre able to pin the dots, you can see how your past is creating the same reality over and over again, You can't heal what you're afraid to fully feel P.s. no, its not dangerous, in terms of looking for validation and filling the holes through external means, yes, but also being around people who make you feel empty is just as dangerous.

He's unaware. I struggle with the same issue he does about the relationship. Often I have had trouble not knowing when I say too much, also I can be distant and that does cause me to seem like an asshole, but really I'm just playing out issues with neglect and loneliness. Put up some boundaries. He doesn't want to lose the relationship, since he's so reactant make sure he knows that you're not trying to be his motherly figure. Push him into awareness. Anyways, mistakes happen and you're bound to make them. This is a good lesson in social dynamics you can say, its not your fault.

@Seed its just about what you feel like you need. It seems like you need more love, not less. Don't think about it, feel into your emotions and body.

It may be projections, but emotional trauma should be respected and treated with care. Problems come from within but its not a good idea to throw yourself into a volcano. " I felt like I wasnt listened to or acknowledged. " "be emotionally available at the same time as remaining impartial. But maybe I am expecting too much?" This seems like a response to neglect. Watch teal swans video: Also p.s. if youre on a spiritual path matt kahn is great too ☺ And yes if this is correct his approach won't help you

I dont think thats normal lol

For me, no, personally after 2 years im more passionate than I've ever been. It feels like a core part of my bones, like a huge part of me, that if I didnt have it I would not be me. Not sure what you're whole experience is, but the way you describe, maybe it just isn't time for you ?‍♂️

@Flyboy Yeah grounding is most important for the beginning of awakening. Although you're likely safe,

@AtheisticNonduality by controlling the weather-- it means your individual self tapping into tje energetic form of the clouds and thus allowing you to manipulate them. Yes you are already doing it (if you conclude your identity to being god)but from your perspective right now, you are not, and thus you can gain control of that because you're not doing it. And yes youre a person.

Being aware that this is another thought construct, being aware that this is a story you're creating and energetically feeding, without trying to change it, will give you the separation needed to pick yourself back up. Now its just a matter of wanting. How bad do you want it? If you want it bad enough nothing will stop you.

The illusory nature of the duality between good vs bad will be used differently between someone who is on a spiritual path and a criminal.

There's the thought, then theres the awareness of the thought. You can be attached or not attached to the thoughts. When youre attached, and you have been all of your life, this creates the idea that you are the thoughts. But upon detachment, it is clearly seen that they are just constructs and repeat on their own. Also the idea of control is another mental construct.

Different states of consciousness let you access different things and let you percieve different things also. Everyone could access god instantaneously, its just that they can't access that state. or they won't let themselves. either way, thats all it is

@Antor8188 become grounded & spend time letting your thougjt constructs and your ego be there.

@Gesundheit attaching to detaching is also attachment

Hello. So I have been in the spirituality biz for about 2 years now. I have been mainly on actualized.org but there are others I've watched. Matt Kahn is my favorite as of now. So I had a 'kundalini awakening' which came from the top, and with the little information online I have heard that this was a normal thing--kundalini awakening. The top-down approach is called the 'decent of grace.' At the time, I didn't even know what kundalini was, that I had to integrate it, how to integrate it, what the fuck to do with it. But with the knowledge I acquired, I thought that spirituality and 'reaching' truth was about letting go and having no self and much of this partial in my opinion. It is true, although, in my experience, this isn't the whole story. I come from a background with lots of emotional trauma and as an empath. My mom would always take my things, my mom would always yell and argue and ground me, this made me feel like she was never there and that I had to constantly give up myself to receive love from her. I eventually got very mad and stopped doing that, moved out, but then this was projected into spirituality and how I dealt with emotions. So a central part of my path is learning how to have things, learning that it's okay to have an ego and be okay with myself. Knowing that grounding was central, I moved the energy down to the root chakra. This is what I thought I had to do with the energy coming from the 7th chakra. Lesson: Let the energy integrate on its own. From me trying to control it, I created energetic karma which kept controlling the emotions. Also, because I lacked the knowledge on how this integrated, I remember feeling the energy going from the root chakra up to the 2nd chakra, but only in the front. I thought that this meant that it's time to work on that chakra. I didn't realize that safety issues are located in multiple parts of the body: throughout the spinal column and in the heart. AND I didn't know that the energy was supposed to go up via the spinal column. hm. So I did that, and what I ended up doing was being so mad and angry that I had the trauma that I actually pushed the trauma and memories out of my body. This kept going until I reached the heart. Let me be clear: I pushed away a lot of my second chakra and third chakra, and even some of my heart (because everything connects to the heart). This caused me months of terror and almost health issues, and real ones (that lasted for a short time) to get to the point I am at now, which is my body is working properly. Luckily, the healing process allows me to bring back the memories that I let go of, re-integrate them, and have the story of my life played out in my mind again. Although, this has prevented me from working and doing other such activities because I haven't been able to at all. This needs to be about 'letting go' just as much as it's about integration. Spirituality isn't about denying or hating yourself and your trauma so much that you push it away. You deserve to be respected and your ego deserves to be treated with care and kindness and love. Yes, defend yourself, Yes, work, Yes, do your homework, Yes, say no, Yes, have boundaries, and yes, have a life and an experience of life to live. This isn't about death. Death is what happens when you're brain dead. You cannot do anything and you're out of this existence. You're going to have an ego so long as you're alive and there is no escaping yourself. This is about ascending and becoming one with your higher self and god. Don't push yourself away. your mind controls your whole body. It's about no self just as much as it is about becoming one and realizing The Self and ascension into higher forms of love and consciousness. Your ego isn't the enemy. The ego is a central part of being in a 3D realm. It serves a very good purpose: to navigate the 3D and to be able to be survived. This is not frowned upon to have one, as you will always have an ego to serve as this function. There are obvious faults to the ego mind, but that is to be expected and not to be escaped from. We can work with it, alchemize it, but we cannot deny and push it away. It's about YOU In fact, spirituality should make you more of an individual and more unique than it should make you disassociated and nothing and bland all of the time. This IS enhancing yourself. Kundalini IS related to the divine feminine, which is all about self-expression and love. For me, I've noticed that spiritual people (online at least, I haven't met any in real life) tend to be very different in nature individually. For example, Matt kahn vs Leo gura, Ryan cropper vs elizabeth april vs aaron doughty. it enhances your personality and makes you more authentically yourself. Don't deny yourself. -------------- I'm sure this doesn't apply to anyone with a good childhood, or someone with a teacher or who had knowledge, but for people who are highly sensitive empaths and have quite a bit of trauma, these teachings will be taken and used differently. I have not had any of those things btw. I was taught that kundalini is safe and to trust it and not worry about it at all, but this is not the case. We need to share this information to prevent things like THIS. This was horrific. To the people like me, be careful with meditation because my experience with it has been actually disassociating and not helpful for the point I am at right now, or have been for the 2 years of 'work' that I have been doing.

@Consilience Not sure. still only two years in. and sure. the tables are turned for me though, I'm so willing to let go of myself that it's hard for me to even wanna be with me. So that's why I share this perspective & the importance of love. because this is horrible.

@WelcometoReality not necessarily. also, I'm still going through neglect at home and other trauma. so that doesn't help. like right now i've turned energetic manipulation into an egoic defense mechanism and the super neglected and hurt part of myself is controlling my whole body right now. Not sure if there's a way out, but reality has a thing for surprises. I just recommend that people know what they're doing and know how to work with their emotions. It's not kundalini per se, it's themselves.