John Paul

i am not very good at quizzes because my mind is always trying to think "outside of the box". This really isn't what I expected. I'm almost certain my mom should be far into anxious but closer to the secure box than the others but they put her as secure, dad seems about right though. I think maybe it's because i did open up and depend on my mom but almost by some sort of emotionally manipulative force. Can anyone relate Thoughts? Does anyone here have a codependent mother? Is anxious attachment and co-dependent similar?

ignore my previous post lol. I didn't understand that I was experiencing strong emotions, i thought that something magical was happening to me and i at some point I consciously chose to go down a rabbit hole and threw out the concept of bias as anyone who goes down a rabbit hole does.

I'm thinking that if I am pushing myself to be one way, what I'm actually doing is avoiding being the opposite of that way. And that is getting in the way of the way I want to be. Let's say I want to be humble. So how would you try to do this? I'd avoid being arrogant. But if you avoid being arrogant, now you are not being authentic or honest...and so you are not truly humble Let's say I want to be strong. So how would I try to do this? I'd avoid being weak. But if I avoid being weak then I become insecure about weakness...creating a weakness. Let's say I want to be masculine. So i avoid being girly. But if I avoid being girly that is going to get in the way of my humor, my ability to charm my business partners... so my question is, do i just give up? My realest concern is that i will end up being a very harsh and disrespectful person (as well as an amazing person) once i start being myself with a full range of emotion. I have wells of emotions, pain, anger, lust that I don't want to show... but If i am afraid to express these then i cannot express my full joy. Am I on to something or do i need correcting? i can share a personal detail if it's required for a better answer, thank you

@Knowledge Hoarder nice. i hate sober game. and i hate dumb socialization, fuck me. well more accurately i hate my life. fuck this post, never mind

@Preety_India @Preety_India you right. time to extract some soul from these girl's pussy cause i need my mommy

@Preety_India ya but if they show it and they mean it, it's needy. if they show it just for show then it works lol. unless they are ruthless with "charm" lol game is so fucking dumb i swear i could never get into it sorry: i mean for me, if i mean it, it's needy. not for all men.

@Preety_India ya i know, but i mean the most masculine guys will be the most cold and ruthless right? lol so wouldn't a proper mindset just be: let's get pussy (through whatever non-forceful means)

@Leo Gura why not, we're all fucking monkeys. they'd do the same in my shoes.

@Michael569 thanks for sharing your expertise all the time

BAHAHAHAHA

@mmKay videos of sales training, etc, what you got, you sound like you learned something....or are you just bullshitting

@Leo Gura any videos of exercises, resources etc?

What the fuck is friends? If friends is someone you connect with everyone is my friend. If not, then it's just a business agreement wether you can word what the agreement is or not. Fuck friends if you don't know why you got em... I'm jaded right now on this friend thing lol; i do still have some friends but i know they're just fucking monkeys, and so am i. I want to be the smartest monkey so that my survival is the most secure...same thing all the other fucking monkeys want.

How about one where the guy isn't bald? just kidding lol thank you for responding

@Leo Gura Leo is there any free "infield" that isn't just showing off the guy so much like just solid "cool and friendly" approach as you say (opposed to flash game)?? And also not too flashy of a channel or whatever like just showing the most epic pulls whatever.I wanna see some solid pickup yet down to earth content/relatable approaches or something. I don't know if this is clear enough, lmk. I know this isn't going to actually replace learning it, i just wonder if it's even out there or would it be as rare as great sex in porn?

@Raphael Stop and be very careful. I had many synchronicities at a certain time and it drove me mad, I even ended up entering someone's house that I knew only professionally at night without anyone's permission because of "intuition". From my perspective now, you are best dropping all of these words like magic, intuition, "signs", angels, etc. even god. I would stick to what you KNOW. Take care of your life man. But then again losing my mind seems to have drastically improved my chances of succeeding with personal development.. i don't know shit, good luck, DON'T look for signs, CONTEMPLATE instead. Your mind is the meaning-maker remember? You are telling yourself stories. BE. CAREFUL.

@Preety_India if this were true, i'd prefer to get drunk every second of every day. i mean cmon dude.....what kind of hypothetical is that. Everyone would get fucked up 24/7 and stage red would go from whatever percentage to like 90%+

If you have enough or close to enough information for another health video (I don't even care what topic) that'd be great if you could push it ahead. Your heavy metals video seems to kind of shit on any of your past health videos...i don't know....help us leo.....leo what are we going to do without you....leo what kind of socks should i buy...white? black? maybe two pairs black and one pair white..? Leo I heard if I wipe my ass with my left hand...I'll become closer to enlightened...advice? And if anything not another video about awakening, epistemology, or how I'm god......feel like you did 100 of those already @Leo Gura <3 thanks

Leo recommends you do not consume any food that is in the form of powder because they are almost certain to contain high amounts of heavy metals which can cause you subtle yet brutal long-term health effects that you don't want. No protein powders bro... he said in general to not take any supplements that you don't really need because of toxins. It's best to go for whole foods bro. Are you trying to gain weight?? is it for bodybuilding??

is "pickup" just fucking pretending to be extroverted and healed???

I don't have any go to solid wings yet and although I'm also trying to reestablish a social life in my life I think I need solid go to wings who know I"m their solid go-to wing like pickup specific relationships or something like this. I know that @Leo Gura gave us some link to go find pick-up wings online so there is that option...but my city had less than 50 people on that particular list unless I need to check it again, i'm doubting my memory again. But I wanted to ask for advice on finding wings that are good besides that resource. Would you approach a wing and be like "be my wing bro" in a club setting? Because when I've been in state before, this was with drug use though, I'll just talk to anyone including men, not necessarily with any sexual energy, it could just be complete bro energy. Have you ever found wings on the night the way you would find a woman during the night and then they just became a wing that way? As a non-virgin but pickup newbie-beginner what are some signs they might be a good wing or bad wing? And not only good or bad as in effective but also solid for someone who has a vision for a whole life... like I don't want a guy who is going to end up being too low vibe in the way they are relating with people and women and substances. I'm just looking for support and perspectives/experiences here as usual

Could I take an extra 15mg per dose (every 3 hours with ALA) for the sake of saving money by buying the 100mg pills? I am 169 pounds and this would be the dose for someone who is 176 pounds. Instead of figuring out how to take 285mg I'd just take 3 100mg pills.

@Leo Gura, are grains a good choice as part of a nutrition strategy? If yes, do you know which grains are the least contaminated with things I don't want in my body? I'm eager to know which foods are the best for me to eat after watching your latest health video (heavy metals).

Dude.....for my birthday I was invited to go to the club in town with an old friend and his sisters (a second birthday), girlfriend, and friends (later). I was all dressed up for the first time in a while..a lot of times I've gone out and not even dressed up, just kinda eh whatever. But I"m like alright sober game let's get it right. So it's going how I'd expect: his sister's are not socially calibrated especially the birthday girl and my friend has more energy than me but he has a girlfriend so he's like a half wing. We start at this game room/bar and eat food blah blah then we get to the club and it's still early I do some approaches, some decent but quickly run out of things to say. Some straight up weak and instantly got blown out. And then it goes down lol. I'm looking at the bottle on the tabel and I telll him: I'm just gonna go for it. I know I'm tired from work and don't believe that my state will change the way Leo says. I start drinking vodka and redbull. I make friends with some tourists. Next thing you know I sold my flower lei for 100$ and then traded it back for some cocaine.... I end up making out with this bigger (little chubby, little tall) white girl. I don't really care because I'm so horny now that I'm attracted. We naturally split, no questions asked. Now I'm in state. I end up pulling this cute little blondie through the closed mall near the club to my car and fucking her in the car lol. Really great...the only thing is i did drugs! (i include alcohold and caffein as drugs too)....I'm so stoked that I pulled and felt like a stud teenager again and fucked her in the car. And she was great too I liked her personality and all and I think she liked mine. But i feel the effects on my body are more than just missing sleep and I'm concerned about night game if I can't control those old ways..... I think it'd help (to begin with obviously) to have solid and soberish wings but at the ened of the day it was literally a semi-conscious choice to get high in order to just send it harder.... Back at em, today's another day. Thanks for reading.

I just put in my two weeks notice for quitting my job. My piano practice is my whole life. I'm dedicating myself to my mom's basement for at least a few thousand hours of piano practice (probably 2-3 or even more years). This was a counter-intuitive move but I think it is strangely the most powerful option. Just staying with my mom and playing piano... seems ridiculous in my survival mind. I don't want to lean on my mom, even though I'm blessed that I can. I will be earning zero dollars and I haven't really built the bank yet so my plan is to work again when I run out of money but to work around my piano practice instead of practicing around work like a normie would (epic fail, get your priorities straight if you have a decent mom lol.) I'm going to become a professional musician, I know I can do it if I want it. I'm telling myself that when the time is right I'll move to a big city and that will be the most exciting move ever, and I'll be playing with way cooler bands, and have way cooler friends.... the reality is that i don't really know if that is something I'm going to do, or where. And the reality is that for me, two-four years at home is like a lifetime. I feel like I am about to sacrifice myself. I'm also going to take the time to just grind out heavy metals detox protocols and not eat out very much. And really weed out "friends" for people that are more or less valuable (wingmen, friends with vision/who do personal development, and music friends). So I'm telling myself that I'm willing to go all out here. I'll be doing some day-game and nightclub game to bust limiting beliefs including getting laid as an unemployed adult living at home. I've been laid before but I'm not happy with my sex life or life in general but that's about to change. More updates to come. I have this strange feeling like I'm just beginning my work and yet this is somehow the end of what was for a long time a part of me/my life. Like the part of me that is too afraid to show that I'm trying and want to succeed because of getting emotionally abused by my dad..same demon that gave me problems with teachers and school and authority. And other issues coming from my mother and youth experiences related to boundaries and people-pleasing/conforming for friends.... It's like I'm just starting the work and that's all it really takes for the good life, I can see this now... but in order to do that I have to be humble, stay at my mom's house, and let all of my demon's eat themselves. I mean just the idea of having a practice for hours every day...that level of commitment is totally not "me".. so that "me" has to go bye-bye. At some point when my health is more consistent I'll get some mushrooms into my system again and I hope that they will really get me to and even through this next level. Good luck to me! Thanks for reading