John Paul

To have already studied, contemplated and deconstructed so much that you intuitively know the most compassionate action to attempt in day to day life (of course mistakes will be made, miscalculations, ignorance etc.) "You can't algorithmize integrity" stop trying!!!!!!! Is this right or wrong....? depends on _________. well what if it was _________? well then it would be right in this case scenario and wrong in this one i mean you could do that hour after hour after hour after hour.....or you could just wake up bro

@Nahm @Roy @Leo Gura ban these guys, what are you guys doing???

why? is this a distraction from your personal life and feelings?

Contemplate if you are living up to what you want to live up to; if you are living up to it great, if not do something about it. If you don't choose to do this or don't see anything worthwhile in aspiring to life, eventually life is going to give you a wake-up call or you will start to experience different, or more intense emotions that will cause you to look within or change behavior.

you will not burnout as often or as quickly when you release some of your inner burdens. these can look like judgments that became solid beliefs in order to protect yourself. or resentments held onto to protect yourself. or ideas that got turned into a shame mechanism. these things bog us down in a way that can hurt productivity and creativity and joy. if you try to go to a new level of consciousness these things will scream from beneath your consciousness, weighing you down until you do something about it.

Maybe you are suffering because you attached to your past models of reality. You lost them and now you are grieving(?)

God is not understood. God is beyond understanding. what you're doing right now is thinking. that's all you are doing. God isn't done. God is God. Trying to create the highest model especially in a few sentences is a trap.

@itachi uchiha rothschild is anti-jewish rhetoric bro. check yourself. if you care about not getting banned.

@Leo Gura @Nahm @Roy

nice

@Preety_India problem is i crave developing deep intimacy but i know i want a solid foundation for me to stand in order to give myself and i feel like beating myself up for "being lonely" while building the foundation for meaningful relationships I feel i can't do it. (i know i can from a meta view. action can feel slow and forced)

i got "doctors data" test for 100 something i forget where but that's the brand. just type in heavy metals test

@Preety_India to be honest i have become painfully aware that my life is "over" and not what i want at all, it's empty and i'm displaced where i live and the time for massive action is now. i feel like i died and my own ghost is haunting me trying not to have me move on to my new life. i'm literally just venting here i don't know where else to go. my old friends are normies and i feel like my "spiritual" friends are fake. there is no one around but a few people including my mom... feels like a ghost town in my city. i need to leave here i feel heavy and tired, i started chelating and i'm in bed a lot just sleeping having dreams, quit my job and haven't replaced it...i don't know anymore, i want to do deep work but i can't do it living here, i have to move somewhere more affordable and set myself up like that, learn how to get 5-meo/nndmt online and start real personal development/socialization/adult sexuality.... i was excited to start visioning my life but now that the vision is getting crisp my little self is becoming very overwhelmed and unstable, i am up against a wall it feels like, and feeling very unproductive. there is an upcoming four night ayahuasca ceremony... i haven't paid yet, this could backfire on me or help or both.. i don't know. not suicidal but my mind is racing racing. i also picked a life purpose but am feeling that old "i'm not good enough" energy stirring up

@GGG Exercise and diet/hydration/detox create more free time, quit therapy, take psychedelics, choose a new city, get away from your old life and start fresh, take more psychedelics

@Yarco if your at your end, take a bunch of mushroom in your house alone. and take a shit. then see how you feel

maybe it's an old pain, something happened before, and your mind is saying this story about learning or something to distract you from recalling painful memories. idk first idea that came up for me

how is it not? you cry, you feel stronger, you set harder boundaries and are less attached to people. no need to cry with others who are too afriad to trip week after week, year after year,

ya i guess so. i guess i meant verbalizing and ruminating and reflecting on emotions. ya being emotional with people is how they grow. but it's not like you can cover your emotions, people emotionally intelligent can probably guess anyway right?

they will even poke your soft spots, try to manipulate you by showing you you are not healed yet/can't leave the group (obviously groups can be more or less culty) I'm saying that it could be easy to indefinitely plateau in green "healing" circles and be vulnerable forever while waiting for that breakthrough. you could just take a couple acid and do it now

@Preety_India the practice may be a beneficial introduction to introspection. but in the end it ends up being about maintaining green values in the group, and honoring the green group in a subtle blue-religious way

@aurum as a society yes. but not for individuals trying to actualize in a human life time. green is so slow and rigid. there's a men's talking group i've been to but it's pathetic they help like two people reflect in like 2.5 hours.... good with the starfish metaphor but. And then if anyone actualizes from that group the group will have convinced them proactively that it is the group that is responsible for their success, not the individual...

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@puporing mhm like as soon as i'm non-needy to idea of intimacy with some rando who will never love me like i love me i'm like why would i fuck you? ya so robotic, it's sad

@VeganAwake no difference between something and nothing