Dalin

Hello friends, I am new the forum here but have spent quite sometime watching Leo’s videos and learning a great amount from him. Very excited to join this forum and get insights from like minded people. I am having trouble pursuing spiritual progression when it comes to many new age or eastern style practices. I was taught growing up in a Christian religion that worshipping false idols is of the devil. I never really had full faith in God or Christ growing up it just felt like I was supposed to believe. In my early 20s I started to delve into personal development and eastern philosophy. It completely changed my life for the better I think...helping me to start working through my addictions to drugs, alcohol, women, thinking...etc. After having a few too many bad trips on psychedelics I found myself at rock bottom with no confidence, self acceptance or any idea what my place on this earth could be. After about a year I am now doing much better and find myself enjoying a lot of the little things in life again. I long for a connect to God or source and can’t seem to find it. As I start to do practices like meditation and yoga I feel pulses of energy...sometimes energies that feel like spirits. This is where I hit a road block...my old teachings...or I guess conditioning starts to fear that doing these practices is going into the hands of the devil...or atleast that’s what I perceive it as. I try to tell myself that this is conditioning and an illusion of the mind...but I am tortured by the idea that God, Christ and Christianity is the absolute religion and if I don’t follow it I’m falling for the traps of the world. Sorry for the long post. Has anyone had any similar experiences and been able to move forward appropriately?

Thank you for the thoughtful responses!! Helped quite a bit. Going to continue on working past the fear and integrating spiritual practices with an open heart!