Dalin

Thank you for the thoughtful responses!! Helped quite a bit. Going to continue on working past the fear and integrating spiritual practices with an open heart!

Hello friends, I am new the forum here but have spent quite sometime watching Leo’s videos and learning a great amount from him. Very excited to join this forum and get insights from like minded people. I am having trouble pursuing spiritual progression when it comes to many new age or eastern style practices. I was taught growing up in a Christian religion that worshipping false idols is of the devil. I never really had full faith in God or Christ growing up it just felt like I was supposed to believe. In my early 20s I started to delve into personal development and eastern philosophy. It completely changed my life for the better I think...helping me to start working through my addictions to drugs, alcohol, women, thinking...etc. After having a few too many bad trips on psychedelics I found myself at rock bottom with no confidence, self acceptance or any idea what my place on this earth could be. After about a year I am now doing much better and find myself enjoying a lot of the little things in life again. I long for a connect to God or source and can’t seem to find it. As I start to do practices like meditation and yoga I feel pulses of energy...sometimes energies that feel like spirits. This is where I hit a road block...my old teachings...or I guess conditioning starts to fear that doing these practices is going into the hands of the devil...or atleast that’s what I perceive it as. I try to tell myself that this is conditioning and an illusion of the mind...but I am tortured by the idea that God, Christ and Christianity is the absolute religion and if I don’t follow it I’m falling for the traps of the world. Sorry for the long post. Has anyone had any similar experiences and been able to move forward appropriately?