IChoseTheRedPill

If you do in fact have Bipolar, different forms of delusions are extremely common... Buy this book and follow Dr Natasha Campbell-McBride's instructions... She was a Neurosurgeon who flipped specialties... She is amazing... https://www.amazon.com/Psychology-Syndrome-D-D-D-H-D-Schizophrenia/dp/0954852028

Rapid cycling bipolar can happen within hours in some people though it is quite a bit less common... I know someone who cycles like this... She's unbearable to be with sometimes, though we all love her regardless... She can go many weeks being relatively stable... It's best that you get a professional opinion if this is becoming a problem though...

Yes... That's right, I was a Republican and doing very well in this world... Why I really don't know because I had no problem with the social safety net... That probably had a lot to do with the fact that I grew up in a very poor household... I was a fair student in grade and high school eventually going on to get an associates degree in mechanical engineering... I decided to go to trade school for HVAC/R instead of continuing my college education which turned out to be the best decision of my life... I've owned my own HVAC/R business and sold my share to my partner... I worked for the best company in the world (Trane) in the industrial and heavy commercial HVAC/R sector as a service engineer... I had a beautiful wife and two incredible children, the house, the cars, the freedom to do anything, all kinds of cool shit and then I became disabled and everything but the family eventually began to fall apart... Now keep in mind, I was a Republican but I believed in helping others... Talk about a walking and talking oxymoron... A compassionate republican? I switched parties fast once I became the proverbial have not after awhile... I have no legitimate excuse for voting republican (most times) but here's the thing, even though things have pulled themselves together I have come to the conclusion (it happened awhile ago) that both parties suck ALMOST equally hard... Sure on the surface the Democrats seem the better choice as far as social programs go but the truth is, not really... They are as equal a corporate whore as any republican... I didn't realize back then when the supreme court recognized a corporation was an individual and a dollar was free speech what real impact that would have on our society and culture... Reader... Did You know that the U.S. is a legal corporation and not country? Research everything you can about "The Act of 1871" not just what it says about the District of Columbia... Both parties behave the way they do because of this fact... Neither party really has a moments thought about you, our elected officials are interested in one thing, and that's getting reelected... They'll do or more often then not say just enough of what's needed to get your vote... We support Israel... Did You know our tax dollars go to subsidizing free education and healthcare in Israel? Am I angry we gave Israel money? Yes and no but my point is that Israel and and many other nations have free education and healthcare but they tell us that it can't work here... That pisses me the f**k off... I'm sorry...

Anxiety, Depression, and the Microbiome: A Role for Gut Peptides... PubMed ~ The N.I.H. Database for Medical Research

You state upfront "I don't see how art helps the world" yet I'm sure You're influencing others with Your photography... Two of my heroes of photography were Ansel Adams and Peter Turner... As a nature photographer I'm sure you're familiar with Adams... Both were great but Adams was all nature and more the exposure while Turner really taught/inspired me to think abstractly... To push things in the darkroom... Yes, I'm that old... As far as what art offers to the world, it's the beautiful things that others can't do but admire... I remember looking at an Escher image years ago when I was younger and thinking "What made him think of drawing that? That's cool!!!" I had several prints of his on my bedroom wall and every single one of my friends who saw them were taken by them... Hell, even my mom liked them... The same instinct that Escher had to hand draw those images is the same instinct that compelled our ancestors draw on a cave wall... They weren't thinking about some archeologist discovering their work at some point in the future... Then again, maybe were they? Surely You've seen at least one movie that made You go "Hmmmm... Damn... There's something here to think about..." Without the arts, we be a dead inside, sterile culture... That's my two cents...

I was originally diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder but that diagnosis was eventually changed to bipolar years later during another trip to the hospital... Both my wife and I had great insurance so I was in a much better place than others... Fast forward... I'm scheduled for peer advocate training next year where I'll either work one on one, in group sessions or help centers... I'm active/involved at/in the local mental health clinic in my community going on three years now... There are schizophrenics, schizoaffectives, bipolars, depressives, people with anxiety and others with all types of personality disorders... Who are the most needy? Who consumes the majority of the resources? Those with anxiety and personality disorders... I kid You not... I'm not trying to completely trivialize anxiety or personality disorders but when a schizophrenic woman who was throwing glass bottles in the street because her house burnt down gets locked up instead of given help one has to ask themselves, "Self... What the hell is going on here?" When 40% or more of prison inmates have a serious mental illnesses and remain imprisoned for decades sometimes while being exploited by other inmates, one should ask, "What is happening here?" I am not making this up... When it comes to the mental health system, our priorities are more times then not misguided... Most of the money seems to be wasted on the soft and gushy... The "Ohh my God!!! I have to get out of here!!! I'm being triggered!!!" Bitch who has dated six of the other clients in less than two months while Gary sits in his seat talking to himself... It's that bad and much worse... There are over 40,000 Vets on the street, the majority of whom suffer some form of mental illness... They claim a Vet takes their own life every 65 minutes... They served our country, as misguided as these wars were but we're not there for them... We hear patriot this and patriot that!!! yet our own live alone on the streets or take their own life every hour... Again, I'm not trying to trivialize anxiety and personality disorders but it pales in comparison to more serious mental health issues many others deal with... The system needs to change... There is no other way... We need re-prioritize where the resources go because way too many people are literally on the streets, in prison or will die...

@Leo Gura I have finally finished watching all of the videos You recommended... Thank You... Sorry it took so long... I also watched Your video on why this can't be a simulation this morning... I've watched well over a dozen videos and read several books explaining the theory and the only thing that happened was my head would spin... Not one bit of it made any sense to me... Because the great Elon says it's so, doesn't make it so, I'm sorry... Some of my friends are like "But You don't understand!!! The universe itself is a grid simulation!!!" No, I understand that there's nothing here to understand, is what I understand... Anyway, Happy Holidays...

Bernie Sanders or Tulsi Gabbard...

There are two short videos on the webpage... One is about TMS the other is a recovery story of a woman who suffered for 35 years... Depression and TMS

@Amandine What's interesting is that you managed to keep it together and discover real love... I'm very happy for You... Based on what You've shared, You deserve it... You were an amazing daughter in every sense of the word... It's time to let go for now and focus on You and Your life with those who love You... PeaCe2U Amandine...

@Leo Gura I'll check them out later once I made it back home... Have a great day Leo...

@perlita I didn't read any of the subsequent posts, so please forgive me if someone has mentioned this before... My cousin was 48 when he eventually died from alcoholism... The end was pretty horrible to be honest with You... I took other organs to begin shutting down that finally took his life... He was loved by many who tried to help him... Over 80,000 people die each year from alcohol in one way or the other... The independent psilocybin studies results are pretty dynamic... Other plant medicines could help you to based on anecdotal response from retreats... If You don't have any experience with these compounds, I don't recommend You try any of them by Yourself, as the therapy does require consuming large enough doses in order to achieve a therapeutic result... If You don't know others there's a website called called MeetUp where You may be able to locate others in plant medicine groups near Your home... I found one about 40 miles from me and eventually learned first hand about DMT but primarily Ayahausca... If You are lucky enough, the group will open up fully to You... It may take some time... It's the nature of a secret society... Meet Up These various compounds are finally being allowed to heal others... They may be able to heal You... If not, there's always A.A.

@Leo Gura Your videos are what brought me here... I want to know more...

Based on what I've read and been told calcium usually isn't the issue... Low magnesium and Vitamin D are legitimate health issues for many Americans... It's an epidemic by functional medicine standards and lab ranges are low according to these health professionals... PubMed has studies that say these levels are low by allopathic standards too... Good luck

@Leo Gura I'm guessing You meant nuance... I'm involved in politics in ways that fit my life... I supported Bernie, Alexandria and now Bernie again... I support drug legalization and psychedelic research... I spent my Thanksgiving helping to feed about 400 poor and homeless in my community but I digress... You don't know me... Politics are nowhere near as nuanced as You're suggesting... There's nothing delicate or innocent about U.S. politics... I'm sorry... I respect a number of political critics but if I was forced to pick just one it'd be Chris Hedges and truthdig hands down... If You don't know who he is, check him out, based on some of your vids you might enjoy him... Be careful, you don't know how far I've come, how far I've traveled just to make it where I am now... Do I have more to learn? Yes, we al do... That is the nature of the path as Thay would say... I am not going to judge myself on how far you think you've come... There's this dynamic going on now, where you have suddenly become my reference point... Do I measure up... That's not a question... I'm not an intellectual like some here may be, this may be true but trust me, I belong to several other forums, this place doesn't scare me at all... When I'm forced to make a political choice it generally pains me to give in and vote democrat, but I do... I hate it, but I do... You see politics in black and white... I say this based on your defense of one party over another, that they're not almost as equally corrupt... There's a hard and a soft, a yin and yang, light and dark, a male and female as they say... I see it in terms of black and dark shades of grey... I'm not challenging you, especially in your own forum but don't assume you know me by one political post... I have years of learning ahead of me? Again, by whose standards? Yours obviously since we're dealing with your idea of me... I don't have years, if this is what it's going to take me then maybe I need to focus my energies elsewhere...

My wife past away a little overt two and a half years ago... One of my best friends made a move on me about four months ago... I told her I wasn't ready or really into having a relationship with anyone... She was very cool about it... When I talked to my children about it both of them said they would completely support me if I did decide to start a relationship with her or anyone else... I only talked to one friend about this because he's level headed and an empath, I know the rest would pressure me to "go for it" which I don't need to hear... I will say this about her... If there ever is another one, it'll be her...

Is Buddhism compatible with science and technology? I already know where I stand on the matter... Sway me...

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@Hansu For me, it is now... Living on the other side of the tracks opened my eyes to what is wrong with our society... For the record, I'm not a democrat either... They don't care about us... They serve their own masters too and they'll tell us what we want to hear as long as it's convenient for them... As I've already pointed out, the U.S. is literally a corporation... It's why our drug prices are high, it's why socialized medicine "will never work here", It's why free education will never materialize, it's why corporate and billionaires taxes have been lowered, it's why our military is involved in wars for billionaires and business, It's why corporations are people too, it's why money is free speech, it's why the Fed pumped over a trillion dollars into "the system" this past month, it's why we're told the stock market is a direct reflection of our economy when it's not, it's why we only have a two party system, it's why mainstream right and left wing media spoon feed us bullshit to hypnotize us into hating one another, keeping us oblivious to what's really happening... Our government is owned... We think we're free because they call us patriots while 40,000 U.S. Vets remain homeless... When they do their deals they'll say "This is for the American people!!!" or "The American people demand this or that!!!" while all the while they're sucking off rich assholes for campaign donations... China ate our lunch... This is a fact... The U.S. dollar will no longer be the worlds reserve currency... That is a fact... That's when the shit hits the proverbial fan... But out of the ashes a social system can emerge because we may no longer be needed to do the worlds dirty work... Take care man...

@Nahm You've given me some things that are important to consider... Thank You Nahm...

Believe it or not, the DSM-V states that grief that lasts more than two weeks should be classified as major depressive disorder... The wording is tricky but it is classified as MDD... I lost my wife to brain cancer and medical malpractice a little over 2 1/2 years ago and it's still tough dealing with it at times... I'm grateful that my psychiatrist defies this rule... Thank goodness for my two children, family and my friends is all I've got to say... There were times when I would go to get togethers and I'd find myself sitting alone thinking "How can everyone be so happy with Cheryl not here?" I eventually came to realize that that wasn't fair to anyone, that people grieve for different lengths of times and in different ways... I knew and know that everyone still misses Cheryl... I still find myself crying at times though... One of my favorite earthlings, Keanu Reeves is quoted as saying "Grief changes shape, but it never ends..." He's absolutely right... Spending time with others, music, photography, my computer, reading and donating my time and energy to those in need (Cheryl constantly volunteered) fills the void for me... I hope I'm not being too personal by asking this... What did dealing with grief do to You and how did You handle this crisis? PeaCe2 everyone...

@Average Investor Thank You AI... I love eBay, I was just shocked on how much it cost me to list and sell... I am more a buyer then a seller and I hadn't sold in awhile so I'm not up to speed as far as the new fees go... Shopify interests me too, I've watched a lot of their tutorial series... The only thing I'm unclear about so far is will the customer know it's a Shopify store or will it be an independent url? Thanks for the offer, I will take You up on it... I'm looking forward to Your YouTube feed... Take good care...

@Consilience It sounds as if You witnessed a manslaughter charge at the very least... Are You positive he was unarmed? Could the police have seen something that You couldn't? I'm just asking because if not, Your story is important...

@Average Investor Thank You... It's a good book but it came out in the early 80's... The Shroomery is a great web resource because there are experienced cultivators and mycologists there who can answer who will answer any questions You might have... There's also a trusted vendor sub forum where You buy grow kits to start off, spores and cultures... I wouldn't be surprised if Lions Mane is available... I'm up in age and want to try Lions Mane for my memory... I'm interested in starting one or more online stores but I want to do it right... Google statistics claim well over 90% fail at it... I don't want to be one of them... I'm unsure what platform to use... I have over 880 transactions at 100% on eBay... Up until recently all my sales were big ticket items like motorcycles, photography gear, welders and shop equipment... Recently I sold a pair of carhartt overalls and made a $40.00 profit but eBay hit me with a $17.00 fee which I thought was ridiculous... FBA doesn't appeal to me at all... I don't know what to do so I'll watch Your videos and see which way to pivot... I just subbed both of those channels... Thanks... Maybe You can't find me because I don't have any content yet... I'm not sure... Take care... Back to Grief...

@Surfingthewave I'm so sorry for Your loss... That is a horrible way to lose someone... Your friend still loved You, they just didn't know there were other ways out... I understand what You mean regarding the pain... The loss seemed so surreal at times, it actually put me in the hospital for 5 weeks afterwords... It's good to see that You've managed to make it work for You, that's the crossroad I'm at now, it took me some time... I am going to write that letter later today... Thank You for everything Surfer...