Existence

I think title explains itself. Feel free to contribute.

"No self" is not a thing , perception or even an experience. How enlightenment happens then? ( if not directly experienced) Is "experiencing perceptions" itself another perception? The problem with observing You with capital Y is you haven't figured out "YOU" yet. Anything you observe as "YOU" is not the real You. Reality is a dream. Is it a subjective experience? ( like someone experiences at night) or is it inception like "giant collective dream" ?(where everybody dreaming in a shared/common reality) Feel free to share your opinions. Thanks for reading.

Maybe I'm wrong, But, isn't "desire" an attribute? As we know, nothingness has no quality or attribute, why would it have desire?

Hey guys. I was contemplating and have come up with those questions. If god is completely self contained and has no desire to do anything, then why it needs to experience reality from human perspective?(or other animal's perspective) Why god has to shift shape, take a form or create differences between itself? Yeah, if god doesn't do it then i wouldn't exist now. But my question is "why i have to exist?" Why this whole universe exist? What's wrong with not existing anything? What is the point of ,god turning itself into a human, creating massive ego, suffering for years that way, and then working very hard to realize it's formlessness. If becoming formlessness is the ultimate goal why can't it be that way from the beginning. Why god imagines reality, what's wrong with "absolutely no reality"? Feel free to share your opinions. Thank you.

After wasting many years doing self help like a sheep, i finally got the realization that it is not enough to merely hear those in a "one ear in, other ear out" fashion.To get what i want to get out of self help i have to contemplate them deeply for hours. It is a harsh truth to accept when you had built your entire identity around self help, even taking pride about it. But deep inside, you know it is shallow work and aware about it's fragility. and You carefully wipe out all suspensions that this knowledge might be too shallow to work out. Successfully deceiving yourself for years until some talls you, you are doing shit. So, yeah I stopped blaming self help products and have taken responsibilities to go deep, this time. In my first try , i realized, it requires much efforts than i previously thought. Very hard to follow through. To solve, i made a vision for life, something powerful that could push me through obstacles that i need to face. But didn't worked so well. I found out doesn't matter how powerful it is, the inspiration doesn't last long. Pushing through 1 or 2 obstacles, it gives up. And as usual, my mind turns to the 'immediate gratifications'. Where is the bug, in finding a powerful passion?, or in connecting with it more frequently? Oh ,and one more thing. We know, clinging to identities creates suffering. Actualizers let go their self. Then what are we doing by creating visions. Aren't they more 'identities' that one has to conserve? If someone's identity is- "I'm somebody who allways lets go of all identities." Would that be considered as an identity? Thanks for reading.