EddieEddie1995

I smoke 1 or two times a week. last few mouth are exeptions. It is no wonder you got there. The rationalization "I need it" is a tricky one hehe. Smoking weed everyday will suck the soul out of you! You definitely loose your masculinity! Smoke tha weeed, but responsibly ? I love weed! Its crazy shit! Peace bro! I hope we will smoke up one day!

Yes! Good pointer! When I say love yourself I don't just mean good feelings and mantras ofc. I also mean: do nothing technique self love technique contemplation sex food psychedelics accepting what Is loving the negative emotions and backlashes etc. and everything we are talking about on actualized.org In order to let go of the illusion of the ego, you have to make it strong and mature first... (at least what I did). Here are few maps: Maslow Hierarchy of needs Spiral Dynamics Integral (Growing up, Waking up) 9 stages of ego development etc. Im spontaneous! I will shoot an episode today and post it here! "What Is narcissism and how we can heal it - through the actualized.org perspective" Here are few teasers: You are the evil selfish narcissist To better heal and love a narcissist, is to treat him like an arrogant, spoiled, wounded little child.

@Breakingthewall Yep! This is what we are all doing! They are unconscious and they are in pain for it. That doesn't mean that you shouldn't gtfo from them ofc (narcissist made me enlightened by the way) They are unconscious of their selfishness and delivery You are unconscious that you are God, you devil! And I am the smartest Narcissist of you all!

@Chris365 Yes. But to get there you need to love yourself. In shadow work you realize how selfish you are. And to overcome it and keep goong is to love and accept yourself. Love is what makes you see the illusion. Love is what makes you accept what Is. Here we are talking about the root of narcissism so I agree with you (nice,short and clean), but how will that idea (your post) work for you when you were/are stuck in stage orange or even green?

@Roy You are an alien. What more proof you need? What if birds are talking to my ears? What if I can talk with God? You thing there are no aliens helping me about it? Hell no! Its all me baby! All me! And how can we know what Alian is? Is it somehting that we need to see fly around? And becouse it will be how you think it is, I wonder why not get into a perspective like ohhh loook, fucking alians! they will save us or whatever (be happy about it)... instead off I am beaing sceptical and will dissmiss it becouse no one is tricking me baby! I need tengable proof! (you feel impowerd maybe, safe?) It doesn't make any sense to me hehe You can feel and think what ever you want! No one cares! How does it make you feel? And why? I agree with you! Those are some fake videos that I created in this present moment! And this is how it must be! Perfect! I love it! What if I am a bird wispering in your ears? I love that idea! Idc what you think about it hahahah

God is bad motherfucker! This is all you need to know ? You will never grasp or understand God. All you can have is different exp. about it. Or not. ? That doesn't mean that I will not exp. some crazy shit! Do you know why? Becouse Im a bad motherfucker! And you know... why the f not?! Right? ?

We have an idea of who we are, and the opposite of that is repressed. We thing that the oposite is something bad and evil, and this is what is actually maming us evil (suffering). We cannot accept and love ourselves, and we seek love from others. We try to control or we are being controlled. We are all narcissists. We have the need for love. But we seek it out of fear, trauma etc. I will shoot a video about "spectrum of narcissim and projection - how they correlate together" Shadow Work is crucial! Shadow work! Shadow work! Shadow work! And those who say that narcissistis (late stage) cannot be saved, can fuck off! Im speaking from exp. My very manipulative narcissistic mother is getting better and better. Thanks to her, my manipulatove tactics (the trikster) are paying off baby! The root of Narcissism is lack of Love! Hellloo! The root of all problems is lack of Love! Helloo! Fucking Love your Self! Jesus! You have no idea what kind of torture I had to go through... and it is becouse we are not making Self-Love viral! Loveee! Hello! My green shadow is all over you

I Love it! ?❤ "The body is just a wave here, the more you try and get stuck to it, the more misery it will bring to you. The moment you realize you are actually the water (sound of silence), the more peaceful you will get. Waves will come and go, what remains is the water which is the real you." And ride the f wave baby! I Love it!

Play the music you love, and dance! The music is you! The nice and soft lyrics of the song touching your soul is You! It is for you! Enjoy and dance! Dance is natural state of Enlightenment. You are doing, not thinking and controlling, you are being. And there is where Love comes up. And there you go!

@Reciprocality Some peope cannot question the fundation right away. You start with simple questions. Compassion can be mixed with many agendas and fears. It takes time to polish it... don't you think? It is definitely from fear of being judged. And it is automatic defense mechanism where I show myself like I dont care, but oh I do care! I hidden myself behind arogance my whole life. I masered it, and now Im gonna use it And yes, it is desired becouse Im starting to not really care and I use this arogance for: getting attention (I want to reach millions ), , for integrating and expressing various arhetypes like: wise/fool, magician, and especially the trikster, seeming interestimg, smart etc. ? I like Peter Relson. Can you not like hes arogance? Leo's also, but you can see him holding it... just so your fregile ego could watch it... well, guess what, eddie is done trying to fit anybody's expectations. Eddie is out of the fucking box! And I am inspiring you to do it also! (Im not talking to you directly, people read and learn what they need) Also, you have 100% Authenticity with me! So much self-love can look narcissistic, and my narcissism comes with capital letter N, so enjoy it or beat it It is rere to find humble and compassionate person like me. And you can definitely see this when talking with me in person (I will offer first free coaching sessions soon) and we can talk ? but here, shut the f up, snowflake ? hahaha You see, even the way I reply in this thred comes from arogance and my automatic thoughts where I perceive it like someone is attacking me, and I try to defend it. This was unconscious for me until recently. I seeked love and acceptance, but my arrogance (defense mech.) is pushing people away... and the circle continues... For examole I felt rejected from the forum few months ago when I was going through awakening process. Only few people wrote in my posts, few thought I was bipolar, and most of you thought that I was loosing it. I really needed someone to talk to but I got even banned for posting. So... here comes Arogance Especially for the "spirituality evolved people". My primary target ?

I was sceptical at first. But then he said, "Why do you think I created your ears, mouth, mind..." so I could communicate to you, dummy! This is the best way I can do it. I am God talking to you (God). Let me note that I was on weed only. It was very vivid and not what I thought God is. I can and will send you in another dimention and the idea of what you think God is (you will go into different dimentions and bring this creativity on earth), but I don't want to do that right now, you are not ready. Right now I will give you directions and why you are here for..." I recorded that one. I think I have gift for channeling. I will work on that one also hahaha @allislove My consciousness was shifting up and down. God vs god (God). I kept notes on our Private Chat hehehe Dance my child! I Love you! ❤

My cat is Enlightened as fuck!

I realized that my arogance was just deffence mechanism. Fear of rejection was hiding there. Not enough self love hehe. When you love yourself enough you will not have to prove anyone anything (just started to understand that one). And even if when you break them down (analyze/solve) like I do, this is just a game that I play in my own head. If they need advice they will ask for it. And it doesn't mean that if you are smart, that you are automatically arogant. Have feedback from others. See what they think of your behaviour You located the issue. Now keep brining awarness on it and contemplate about it. What did I say? Why? How will this help others? What is arrogance? What is compassion? How can I be more compassionate? Maybe compassion means you need to slap yoor friend out from deludion, even though he will be mad at you

Imagine a fish looking for an ocean. @Forestluv Heheeh! Yeees! You made me lough! I will use that one! hehe

@DocWatts Yep! To understand someone is to get into he's perspective! How to do that? Well... there are ego defensive mechanisms, genetics, personalities, diseases... and everything that Leo is talking about! @Preety_India If someone kidnaped your child and torture it for years, will you be willing to kill every one of those mutherfuckers to get your child back? Or you will think oh well.. let them torture my child, it would be unhuman for me to kill them... who is going to feed their children then? and if you don't do any of those, are you going to live a happy life? Let go? Forgive? Think about that But, this is too harsh... Try with your own example. When is the last time you were hurt by someone, or you were suffering very much...? How did you feel then? Were you as loving as you thought you are? How did you rationalize the situation/reaction afterwards? Oh... he deserved it? When our life is on the line, our morality flies out the window! Or not Depends on the person

@Epikur I plan to. I bought a book on it, but idk what was the name. I gave it to a friend because I have no time to do it. You learn how to navigate in your imagination. Its called Mind Palace. You have objects that contains information, and you can tap into it. Like Sherlock Holmes

@Epikur Thanks! It takes time. Watch porn first, touch yourself and then just go and visualize baby steps Trick yourself, there are no rules I drink, smoke, and watch porn, but In a smart way! And time will come when I will stop, or not...

Look at what I ran into! This is guy is sick! I love it! OMG! He talks about masturbation and meditation hehehe

@Epikur OMG I love this guy! He has such a great energy! I like the way he edits the video Thanks for sharing! I learned new tricks I can reach orgasms without touching myself. Those visualization practices are paying off ahahhah! I actually started developing photographic memory, I can hold a picture (system) and see it from different perspectives, can't wait to have more free time to master it ! I am 21. century Leonardo da Vinci Transformation and Mastery. If you don't believe in those then getta fuck outa here hahahaha

I would kick hes ass and throw him in jail or whatever

@Ero Nice and clean baby!

@PBen534 You are welcome! ?@Hello from Russia Evrything is meditation for me ? When I am doing it with my GF I need to focus on my breath because I have premature ejaculation problems, and Im learning to blow it up my spine, so thats that I maditate right after sex when I am the most aware and khundalini skyrockets I also meditate when I jurk off. You have no idea what you can do with your toy if you know how to use it correctly ? I usually meditate right after gratitude, dance, cold shower and exercise. Becouse I follow 18/6 diet I do it right before food when I am most aware and clear, this is why I know the difference when our stomach is full Im considereding going back on one meal a day. I love food, but I love my consciousness more eheheh I don't like the feeling when I say "me and mine"... aghhh I gotta change that

@Epikur Let me give you a few ideas of what is going on in my life currently, my history you will see in the future on my YT channel, if you want ? Most people would freak out I am in debt and all the friends I thought would help me turned thair backs on me becaouse they think Im crazy My mother is on a thin line beetween life and death My father is building a house knowing that hes son is "surviving" My GF perents have no water in their house and no one to help them Not to mantion all the snaller things... like projections on me of all the stage blue people in my town (7k population) And many many more... and do you know how I feel about it? Well, I feel sad for them, and Im doing everything that I can to lift myself up and help them, and do you know what I feel even more? Bliss and Love! I am able to balance everyting, share love, selfactulize, dance, accept the ignorant etc. Today, I went home and loved my mother, gave her a massage, Im teaching her breath work etc. and afterwards I went and played with kids in a send for 4 hours. I am a careless free kid my friend. It would be way easier for me to go homeless and not care about things, and I really do mean that. But I am here for something more, I don't want to waste that gift for nothing. I am not scared for myself my frined. I am aware of the illusion of death. But my loved ones are not, and 95% of population. Just wanted to get it out there, some of the spiritual egos can get humbled a bit

@Roy Same here! The big thanks comes from us selfactualizing. Leo will always live with me... ??❤ @Preety_India Cool! ?

Very tricky game...