EddieEddie1995

Hi@silene Im just looking for understanding for the subject . Its funny how i was denying it, but i think Im getting ready to face my next fear(im convincing myself) hehehe One step at a time From what i learned yesterday and today it can be wonderful experience, and used for spiritual purposes... Have you? @ActualizedDavid Im on it, thak you !

Serbia-Bulgaria (Dimitrovgrad)

My first and only Psychedelic experience was with mushrooms and it was amazing ! I'm going to have few more, and after that Im going with lsd, dmt and stronger

I feel like I'm having to much routines that are making me counterproductive. For example I'm working on my LP, reading Self-Help books, and working on fear and many more at the same time. All this are broad topics and have bunch work sheets and contemplating work . I feel like I can do everything, but I can't make myself do one at the time and see whats better hehe How do you guys deal with this ? Do you work on more or one at the time ? What makes you better at connecting the dots? How do you balance your work? Thank YOU, for now

@Aeris But how can you know better then personal experience ? ohhh i should question my personal experience too, I don't trust myself that i can say

Hello Friends! Its interesting how things can work out for you when you are Open Minded hehe This October was really fun for me because i had few life changing experiences and Aha moments where i got conscience of how Belief's , Thoughts , Systems, Spiral Dynamics work, and i had first experience with mushrooms where i got conscience that I em experience myself only(that's why i like authentic people and art i guess) . I'm still trying to figure out how this models are working, but one of my problems that is bothering me the most now is Manipulation. Until recently and maybe now i was Manipulating really good for my Orange purposes that i consider sneaky and bad and now more Greenish and little Yellow. I'em trying to get people to self-actualize and even though i don't want to manipulate I'm manipulating even more because i know little about SD, Paradigms and where are people at. How can I stop manipulating even though I'm trying to help?Is it okay if I use Manipulation for "Good"? How can I know that I'm helping in the long run? Is skipping SD stages manipulation?(I'm still not sure if i can skip stages and what that means yet, but Im happy to talk and try to understand everyone ...). I would like to hear your thoughts about Manipulation Thank you and Big up Yourself !

@Rigel Thank you Rigel I will reduce and organize my Rocks and how i carry them, until i can do 300 at once @Lento Thats great advice! I usually have a monthly preview of my work and journal where i can look things more objectively, thats where i realized that im being counter productive, i guess i should do that more often @IdentityThats what im SAYING! hahahah @Commodent That's how i feel. Us i started Self-Actualizing last year i juggled a lot of balls in the air and worked wonders for me, I just had a big egobacklash and thats why i started this topic . Egobacklash and Resistance is a bich @Sambodhi I will rearrange my daily schedule now

@Rigel Can you give me an example and how you do it ? @ivory Cheers for cutting out Alcohol Ivory

@kira Looks like you are doing a great job balancing your schedule, and having time to help me I will try and reduce the numbers on my plate, and see what happen's Thank you !

This technique is working for me, and made me cope with big insecurities,and fears for example : I realized that my problem with football was that i couldn't get into a state flow because of fear that i will fail . So i did auto-suggestions for one mouth "I'm relaxed and spontaneous when Im playing" (for example) which led me visualize that, led me believe that i em, and led me to meditate, learn breathing technique, train more etc. and all this made me get in the flow state where I was 10 times better then before. I use this for everything, but you know, you gotta try it for yourself What you think is what you create

@egoeimai Thank you !

You know that feeling when you already know the answer, even though you didn't have the time to think about it. The feeling when you see someone and you know that you need to start a conversation, the urge and hunch that you need to do something? Intuition and instinct that is always here to give us sense of direction, and if we could only trust it and give in, our life's would be incredible? But NO, after few seconds our Mind takes over. Our Mind that is clouded with Beliefs, Religion, Social Media, Culture etc. scared of any kind of unpleasant situation, in that given moment we freeze and Fear takes over. We say NO, because its easier. Its easier to delay the Pain which is usually indication where we need to go. Its easier to lay down, eat snacks and watch movies then going to the gym and eat healthy. Its easier to go out and party when we feel bored or have some problems. Instead of quitting our job that we don't like, we stay there because of fear that we can't find better? We stay in relationships that give us comfort and escape,and stay there because of fear that we will be alone, knowing that we will never have true love and happiness ? We say NO to all opportunities that will make us grow. We say NO, all because of illusions that we create in our minds: What will everyone say? What if i Fail? What if I get hurt again? What if i get embarrassed ? Why we don't take the steps of a fulfilling and successful life so when we are on our death bad we don't regret it because we said NO, only because of fear that we could stay alone, temporarily comfort and what would others say, knowing we had more in us ? Why are we deluding ourselves even though we know, (or we don't) what we have to do? How our Parent's, Culture, and Society affected us, and why is so hard to say YES? What affected us to be where we are now? What is the best way to accept our Life Calling and Intuition , Authenticity that is buried inside of us, waiting to be discovered? How can we go over this FEAR AND PAIN that can be so FUCKING HARD, that make us go hide in our comfort nook, and live mediocre life ? Bitter and disappointed, we point fingers on others, knowing that we could be Invincible ? Hey Guys! I wrote this right after a 4 year relationship break up, even though i knew i had to do it, i couldn't imagine it will hurt so much...Reading this I realized that some things you just can't write down ... But I guess this is where i need to lick my wounds and continue my Life Journey and road to Self-Actualization Its my first essay written in my whole life, and i liked it The POWER OF JOURNALING

TomT Thank you Tom, I watched the Video! I have millions of questions i wan't to ask, and Im the one creating them, and im the one who can answer them, and i was the one who is open for all of this... If they are not open and ready for it, its silly for me to try and convert them... Okaaay, lets Jurnaal and contemplate On what psychedelics did you realized this or should i ask this question's private? Im new here Thank you