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@Value Nice questions!

@Yog Thank you for this information! Makes things a lot clearer for me

Imagine friends that are on the same path with you, how that feels like? I spent long time trying to lift off my friends, even thought they are jealous, but the light is just to painful for them. When they are ready, they will call you on their own. You don't want to spend time with people where you worry what you should say, only to avoid conflict. (you are not loving yourself, you are suppressing) Ask yourself this questions: What is ideal "friend" for me and how is this belief is limiting me? How would I feel like if I said fuck you boys, I just gotta fly! Will I be scared meeting new friends? Will my old friends think that I em a traitor? Note: All the friends you see is your projection. They are not the problem, your thinking is the problem hehe My role of "self-actualisation guy" created an idea that I needed to be good with evrybody, to understand them(which is nice), but It made me suppress my bad side(which is not good). Raise your standard my friend! Raise you vision, and the problems seize to exist! Self-actualization felt really lonely for me when I started, but it is fucking worth it!

Im 25, and I relapse once a week, If I do it more then once I feel my energy go down Try it !

What do you guys think of Anthony? Is he INFJ? I saw on yt that in The Silence of the lamb's Hannibal and the Detectiv are INFJ so i guess Im watching the movie again huehue Is this Self- Actualised Hopkins? Atleast the video is!

Aleksandar Vucic (president of Sebia) has just won the elections again(obviously) for the basic reasons: easy media manipulation, he targeted older folks , the young didn't vote, and the rest had to vote for him because they have no idea of politics and their survival depends on it . Before the elections he gave us help of 100 euro(haha) , and stopped the Corona lock down where we had to be 3-4 days inside every week etc . And now after he won the elections he wants to lock down the borders again, and put us in lock down . Now I can't say if the situation is actually getting worse with the Virus, but I can say that after bullshiting people on televison every day after the Corona outbreak , people are sick of it, and that was only a trigger from what is to come . Low on maslow hirarchy, no jobs and no money , sick of being manipulated they are rising against it . Because of Social Media now, they can't cover up the lies anymore, and because people are biased will cherry pick every move Vucic makes and blame him for it . This protest is inevitable, but I think is going to get more bad then good . People are projecting their hurt, stage red folks are breaking things, group mentality is reinforcing more stupid things, and we will see what happens next . Here are few videos of what is going on now : This went live Whooops ! People are throwing rocks and stuff on the police . I feel bad for both of them... But I guess this needs to happen in order for us to move forward...

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No, In my astral projections or what ever I tend to wake up, in my bed, but I don't actually wake up,im dreaming that i wake up. And when I awoke(im aware of my ego,im not the ego)few times in a dream, my ego gets scared, and I wake up(still within a dream), im in my bed telling my gf what happend,but im dreaming that Its weird. Now I can say that im not dreaming. But in a way I em,but I em not conscious of it now. I em thinking of you, im thinking of replying to you,so I em creating you, so I can say im imagining you. But I feel it goes deeper... I hope this makes sense to you

I did that also. I woke up few times within the dream telling my girlfriend next to me what happend. She was saying, when you fall asleep you start mumbling scared, don't do it anymore, it's hard on you ego. And I say im fine, i will be right back... and zzzzzzzzzz (the pressure in my head ) booom I awake in the dream, then my ego gets scared, then I wake up within a dream again... It was so freaky and amazing!

I know what it Is! It doesn't change anything! You are just aware of it!

Omg! Last noght I had awakened in my dream! It was Astral Projection! Hahahahahaha! My hair is up! I will write what happened when I have the time! -My Ego was really afraid, as I (awareness) was obsserving Eddie! - My Ego started yelling in unknown lenguage fluently(it seemedto me that it was my past lenguage). It was scared,it was yelling in rage, because it wanted to prove that it is not an idea, a thought. "Nooooo, cant you seee??? Im hereee" "Noooooo" - This is just a glimpse of how my ego will fight to survive -It was so clear to me what awakening is, and how I can observe my Ego! - My khudalini or third eye was activated 3-4 times -When I woke up from the dream or astral projection I was so aware, I dod't think of the "dream" , I was in the moment... and it went away - It was mind blowing experience! I can't believe what is happening to me...

This doesn't change anything. The feeling is what matters, the ideas you put around them. The suffering is the same. If a kid looses a toy and you lose your hand, the suffering can be the same. But yes, there is always worse, there is always better. Its relative, it is however you wanna look at it

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Fucking gamble. I couldn't stop ot for years! I feel you ! 35k... but, it was never aboit the money.. it is the flow, the anticipation, where all your problems disappear, you are fucking consumed by the machine... you know you need too stop, but you can't! You want to figure out the machine, you have the need to solve it...It is a false sense of life journey (this is what you crave).All this is projected onto the machine, the thrill of gamble. All you want is flow, to figure out your problmes(in that sense, you want to escape them), all you want is love! And you get it! You are addicted to it! Then you blame yourself for it... fucking gambling, almost lost everything because of it... but the lessons I learned! the deeper you get(suffering), the higher you can fly!

Some of you guys don't know how its like to be in life/death situations, you didn't even had a fight. This things happens in split seconds, you don't think, you act ! And you don't even do it , your defensive mechanism does it for you . When someone is trying to hurt you, and if you can't run, you do what ever it takes. My opinion on this situation now This guy was drunk. That is first sign of threat . He was lying(I assume xd) . Another threat . The police seemed too polite and sloppy, especially when arresting him .What happened afterwards was what happens when you have two egos fighting for survival . But have I actually said anything in this comment? Jesus... This is why I don't like commenting on such topics... Jesus, why em I wrting this... Oh well Ohhh I try to be smart, take a position that can't be opposed and struggle with different perspectives. I can't stay grounded In one.And i overthink . Also... I sense insecurity and fear of being wrong. But who is right or wrong here? One think I definitely know, I em confused individual Jesus Eddie, go to sleep -.-

I just have to repost it here hehe This is Amazing!

Freaky stuff

Than you! I just discovered 16 types. Im INFJ-T Its crazy how accurate this is! When I was reading about it, I just couldn't believe how a test like that can be so accurate! This will benefit me SO MUCH! Thank you!

For me, accepting myself means that yes, there are things that I don't like about myself, there is negative criticism etc. and by accepting my worries , insecurities, selfishness I can now see how I can grow out of it . When we feel bad we usually criticize others , which mean we criticize our-self. So in that way, accepting myself means that there are selfish , ugly things about myself , and its alright, because It couldn't be other way, all our life experiences has brought us to where we are now . So I look at my avatar as something perfect , but not In a sense that I could now stop working on my avatar, but in a sense , okay I love myself as i em, and now I can work on myself to purify it, to take out the shit i collected . I hope this makes sense And there is no ending process , a place where you can say "Okay, I got there, now I can relax" , I see my avatar like never ending process , and the best way is loving it, working on it, like you are doing right now . Does it really matter? What will happen if you accept that you hate yourself? How does that feel? Even if you are wrong and you accept things that are fake about you, you will feel it, you will learn from it. Don't let that stop you contemplating . Ask these questions on every judgement you have about you : What being "fat, ugly etc." looks like? What it means to me? How is that a cultural norm? Who told me what is ugly and what is not? What made me who I em right now ? I hope this helps

Hello my friend! I see you mentioned Shadow Work and I want to give you few ideas Emerald has amazing course on Shadow Work and Shadow Integration , you can check out her videos and learn a lot of things ! She makes Psyche looks like a piece of cake Usually we have repressed emotions and needs that are pushed into the shadow. And all this emotions and needs are acting out of your conscious awareness. So maybe there is a need for connection, but you can't get it because you have created a barrier because you got hurt when you were a child . So this barrier is negative emotion that triggers (like a fear is here to save you from bear) just to protect you from getting hurt, but end up hurting you because you can't connect. This negative emotions are corrupted by the human mind in different forms like : victim mentality ( just another way of trying to get love and acceptance etc.), rationalizations, criticism etc. So the problem here is , because it is "true to you" that you have negative emotions, you are giving them labels like "something is wrong with me, I don't know what I want , I can't be happy",but you see, how can you trust your mind when the things you are feeling are totally unconscious to you ? This negative emotions are not "bad" , this negative emotions are tying to protect you and heal you. You have conflicting unconscious motivations that you need to dig in, work on, and contemplate It for sure is transforming my life right now ! And maybe this victim mentality that you are believing in right now , is just unconscious need to get connection that you suppressed because you "believe" the only way to get to Love is Enlightenmet , or suicide maybe , because those are common when it gets really tough ... This examples are just speculation, don't mind me Shadow Work is good way to go! I learned so much about my self ! Self-Help is idea and belief, just another way to manipulate your emotions, but Shadow Work is true growth Here is another Source of LOVE! She has amazing way of helping us realize our bullshit believes ! Im just applying her teachings, and all i can say is HOLLY SHIT! Keep it up bro, all this is normal, a little suffering is needed for you to start asking the right questions, AND THE ANSWERS APPEAR! <3

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I did that, until I had the balls to see what I was doing, because before I was scared to be alone and hurt her. If you say no, and you guys stay in the relationship it will not work. He will probably cheat on you . And if you say yes, it will be worse . But, maybe you can try it for a mouth or two, and see what happens

I always had insecurities with woman. So when I started self-actualizing and growing my self-esteem I had the need to test it, so I was attracted and I em atracted towards other woman. So I broke up with my girlfriend(3 years realtionship) because I wanted to fuck around and confirm my insecurities , because this insecurities impacted how I interact with the world. When I fucked around I realized that it was not at all what I wanted. I just wanted to feel like a man. And the best way to do that was fucking around with other girls. It was not her. I still love her. And I always did. THe way of superior man is helping me so much ! I love girls and their energy, and that energy i use for improving my relationship with my gf and LP . LET YOUR MAN READ THE WAY OF SUPERIOR MAN! I can understand your boyfriend . And you are doing really brave thing! But if he has this freedom of having you as a back up can be selfishly used b him. I say brake up. Let him do what he wants to do. And he will know for sure then. I fucked around few mouths, and acted out on the needs I have suppresed when I was teenager, raised my self-esteem and I confirmed that my girlffriend is the one I want to be with! I hope this helps

Watch Leo and he can do the same lol Hahhahahaha YOu know what I meant Although I can't say Leo didn't help haha The mind fuckery is real ! Its a loop ! I will tell you my story, and tell me if you can relate And, its probably off the topic because I only red few comments, but never mind... I hope it helps Long story short. I got traumatized often when I was a child and that created a split where: 1. I em mad, angry and hurt and I want revenge and 2. I want to do good to people who are hurt because I know how it feels. So because I was punished for the "bad" things and reveorded for the "good" things I created Stage Blue Trauma that was running my whole life. To feel love I need to prove myself, but I can't get the love because Im the one sabotaging it . And ofc I blame others . Then I hurt them because Im hurt, and then I blame myself for being bad. So again... I need to prove myself that Im good so I can feel love, but deep down I know that Im bad and don't diserve it .And this went on until I got depressed (I couldn't love myself so I blamed myself for that -.-) . I started pushing people away because even though they loved me , I cant feel it , so because I cant pretend and give back I pushed them away . Every girl that loved me I push her away, every girl that doesen't I chase . Its a loop! Conclusions The love that I thought was love was constructed In my head. I didn't felt the love I theorized about it because there was automatic reaction where I needed to think "do I diserve it or not?" instead of feeling it .... I pushed people away because I felt that the game Im was playing I always lost. This is why Actualized gave me feelings I did't felt before I started working on myself etc. But also it was an escape where I fed the voice in my head "ohh you see, you don't need others, you can do it by yourself" "I will prove myself etc" ... so I feel that you are doing the same I see that you are trying to prove your self to you ( you need to confirm that idea that you don't need "conditional love" from others, you can do it on yourself ) , and not to the people on the forum(but of course, you are projecting that ). This is why it feels to me that you seem arrogant(lack of love trying to get some love) , and this is why maybe some people are "opposing" you because you just can't drop the idea that you are maybe wrong (but consider that this people here are more conscious, in your daily life I bet you get into arguments and fights :P), and it became a debate where everyone is holding their position . This is what I meant when I said be like water my friend Im young too. Im 24. I started Actualizing 2 years ago , and what made me grow so much last years is that I started holding my ideology loosely, I can't say I stopped debating because it is uncounscious deffensive mechanism, but I spend more time reflecting, observing and changing my behavior, and not debating that robes my growth Keep it up my friend ! I wish I was debating those things when I was 19 haha instead of playing LOL and jurking off to porn