william bond

thanks

I've been watching Leo's videos for a year and a half. A year in, I started to notice his collective content is a model; a pointer to my own systematic approach and due diligence of seeking enlightenment. I've since branched off to other "pointers" while remaining eager to evolve myself in his channel. I've attended a few medicine or psychedelic based ceremonies. Also, I microdose on shrooms and use various models for this path ( meditate, self- inquiry, shadow work, etc ). Here's my perplexing question: I've had some DEEP experiences and insights with psychedelics, not counting the manual labor of practical work. I'm continually researching a serious psychonaut's application to responsibly explore. I overcame a terrible weed addiction due to this work and my productivity is gradually increasing. My newfound passion is studying the mystery that is ME. Things are looking good on the horizon. I can die now and be somewhat at peace. Anyways, I live in the inner cities ( and I'm black). Communities like this forum, I think, are way outside the range of my local demographic. Along with micro-dosing on shrooms, I believe I need at least one big trip per month and even sometimes every two-weeks. I believe as Leo said I need at least 50 trips and then more. My problem? I don't know anybody or resources to build my own medicine/psychedelic catalog. I just recently got scammed online, so now I'm jaded about going that route. I just want to keep exploring and the momentum up, as I just came back from a ceremony a month ago. I'm calling on all my serious psychonauts to help me. And I hope I didn't break a guideline.