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It’s a damn good dream. I dreamed up external reality therefore it exists in the dream. I feel like though that if I did, then the life will still go on, but where would it be going on if all my sensations are gone? What the Universe is to me is based off my sensations, thoughts, stories, and experiences. Absent of these, the Universe dies from my point of view, but from other egos, it doesn’t. I feel like there is nothing for God to do other than experience itself through us, limited partial perspectives. The process of death seems like the process of sleep and waking up is like being born again each day, and our dreams are the afterlife. What is the Universe while we are asleep? Nothing, and when we wake up, it is as if sleep never happens, and when we sleep it’s as if waking up never happened. It’s a big paradoxical mess lol.

What about the one writing? Writer and reader is a duality that collapses and is one way God communicates to itself.

So it’s like the whole Ocean creating the islands of experience. Like distributed solipsism? Right. I also feel like it is clouded by ego that thinks it’s on an island when really it is the entire Ocean. All I have ever experienced is this present moment of my island bubble and so have you. I have not accessed your island, but it doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist. But from God point of view is when we dissolve the separateness of the islands and realize we are Ocean right? I still think there are other islands besides my egoic own. But as God, it is all the islands, animals, sharks, waves, icebergs which are all contained within the Ocean and nothing is outside the Ocean from this analogy. My point of view from R0ckyreed is not all that exists. It is a limited perspective within God’s Ocean right?

I mean I don’t know. But I also don’t know that my island of perception is the only one. I am Chuck Noland on an island thinking I am separate from the ocean. Other islands may exist while I am on the island because that is part of this Dream or Reality. I am not the only island as a human ego. But I am alone as God or the Ocean. It’s like what Leo said on Curt interview with distributed solipsism. We are all on our own islands playing out on God’s stage. God is all the characters and the stage, and God is experiencing them all at a time. But as we dissolve our egoic islands, we realize that we are all alone because we are all so together. The same “person” behind my eyes is the same behind yours. You all aren’t just NPCs or philosophical zombies. I mean sure I can’t know that, but what is stopping reality from experiencing itself through all perspectives simultaneously at once? But even my island of perception is an illusion because an island implies separateness from an ocean. You get it? I-land, island? But the ultimately I-land is the Ocean to put that in an analogous form. The island is just as apart of the ocean as anything. Without an island, without an ego, reality cannot experience itself. All experience requires degrees of relativity. The same person experiencing your bubble is the same in mine. We are all God alone. Right? I am really trying to grasp all of this through meditation and contemplation. I refuse to take psychedelics because I want to have the insight without any external, extrinsic source. I want it all intrinsic. I also don’t feel safe using them. Right now, I have been doing satisfaction meditation, being aware of my breath, body, and mind, as well as deep thinking about life. I am open to any suggestions. Thank you!

Yes! All you can do is Love and be in alignment with Infinite Love. Realize that death is Love. Death is deemed as evil in our culture, but our culture is wrong. Without death, life couldn’t exist. Death is what gives life meaning. Death is the end of our suffering, of our incarnation. Death isn’t the end of life, it is the beginning. Realize that and you will find strength. Realize that your nan is you and your Love can never die. Enjoy every moment. Life is finite and that is what makes it so damn perfect.

Wow! Thank you for this wonderful post! Great work! I am gonna try to work on this this week.

That’s true. What’s the issue?

Yeah this is how I deluded myself. We pay taxes to have libraries and libraries treat the authors. This Z-library does not. I think it’s a lesson for me on integrity that if I wanna share my love with the universe, supporting others work would be a good place to start. The ego can rationalize this saying “well isn’t Zlib the same as borrowing a book?” I don’t think so. Love doesn’t come out of a place of “should” it comes from passion and acceptance of yourself. One way that helped me improve self-esteem by not caring what others think of me. Let go of your attachments and fall in love with yourself and reality. You can’t separate yourself from reality. I mean we all do it by surviving, but we aren’t separate from it. There is no solution to paradoxes. They are part of life just like mosquitos are part of life. Embrace it and love it! We are in charge of our peace and suffering.

I’ll add that to my list of things to contemplate. How am I full of shit and how am I out of line with integrity. How can I be more integrous, etc.

Thank you. Yeah that’s my cognitive dissonance right there. On the one hand, I want access to a lot of books for free, but on the other hand, I feel a little guilty if I’m not supporting the author. A lot of the books I download from there are ones I have already purchased in hard copy form. I just prefer to have both versions of the book so I don’t have to carry a big book bag everywhere lol. Wow! Thanks! The most valuable thing for me to do right now is to study, get my homework done, and invest in myself through education, health, spirituality, adventure, and in my life purpose. The most loving is to do that and share myself to the world, which I haven’t figured out that part yet. Maybe writing a book that is based off the most important things I have discovered about life and personal dev? Thank you! I agree! It is a paradox and dissonance that I wanna save money on school textbooks and stuff cause the bookstore and Amazon overcharges, but it does feel out of line with integrity for sure. I am gonna keep contemplating this and integrity lol. I am so glad I brought this up here.

Wow. Thanks for sharing. Yeah I agree with your analysis. My main criticism is that if you take the red pill (e.g., psychedelics) but you cannot integrate the profound insights into daily life then it seems like that could leas to a disaster of chasing psychedelics to access God Consciousness. I personally like Frank Yang’s perspective on this whole issue of psychedelics and meditation. I think psychedelics can help people get started on the spiritual path, but kind of like what I said earlier, I would rather be high on life than on the psychedelics. Both can be used along with serious contemplation. But having a psychedelic awakening is still not complete without meditation and being able to contemplate through self-deceptions. Meditation and deep contemplation/introspection are the cures to self-deception. To live is to be an ego. The ego can awaken with psychedelics, but what happens after the trip? I would prefer to invest time if it means that I have the experience with me for a lifetime. But I do understand and appreciate your point of view. I personally am in no rush to awaken. I want to experience life as an ego fully and meditate/contemplate as well to have that full contrast. I’m afraid if people awaken too early, they won’t really know what it means to fully be an ego if you get what I mean. Live and experience life. We only get one. It is kind of paradoxical because we want the Truth, but awakening is not something that any ego could really desire for. I think The best psychedelic trip will be the trip we have when we die. But life is the ultimate psychedelic trip. You as God took a psychedelic to experience life as a human. We all will go back to Truth regardless if we die before die or not. When your human trip is done, you will merge back into One. So I guess the main answer is not one approach over the other. Do what suits you and integrate them all.

My whole thing is that meditation is the art of getting high on life itself. Who cares about how long it takes to get enlightened. If I could get enlightened tomorrow from shooting up a drug, I would not do it. I would rather do it naturally through discipline and work ethic even if it takes my whole life. Short-circuiting this process through drugs seems to take the magic out of this process. It is not about what happens or what you realize on the trip, but it is more about who you are after the trip. Sure, a trip can change your life, but it is not guaranteed. Meditation is the art of connecting with reality without the need of any external source, realizing reality for what it is as it is. Enlightenment is not something to be attained, which is why I don't agree with the psychedelic approach, but I do respect others view on it, but it isn't for me. To tie it in with Leos episode on Value of Things, enlightenment through meditation seems to be more worthwhile than psychedelics. Heres an analogy that I experienced in my life to help explain my point of view: In my life, I wanted to get to lvl 99 on Call of Duty Black Ops Nazi Zombies. I would play that game many times, and I failed to do it. Then, my friend got mods one day, and he immediately got us to lvl 99. After that, I felt completely empty and felt defeated because I reached my goal without ever going through all the steps. It's like getting all A's or cheat codes to a video game. It defeats the purpose and fun of discipline, investment, progress, etc. This is the issue with psychedelics. Normies who take psychedelics may have enlightenment experiences that change their lives, but they may still not be able to sit in an empty room and feel that same Love as they did on the trip. If trips cannot be integrated into all states of consciousness, particularly the "sober" state, then what is the point? It is like me doing cheat codes to get somewhere without ever actually going anywhere. You become God through virtues. Psychedelics can help with this and can be a great tool, but at the end of the day, if we cannot experience ourselves as God "naturally" right now in all places, then what is the point? Thank you!

Life is a mental masturbation. You may not see it, but thinking deeply about reality does all sorts of change. If you are thinking deeply about reality, then what are you doing? How can you wake up without an interest to contemplate? What you should really contemplate is the biases that free will is mental masturbation. Everything you do in life starts from that “reality.” Anyways that’s my 2 dollars on that.

After contemplating free will and responsibility, this is what I came up with. Yes, free will is an illusion and so is your ego. If free will is horseshit, then so is your life. Free will is based on the illusion of control, with the illusion of self as the controller of your hands and bodily functions. We don't say that we are the controller of the earth rotation or the entire universe, only our bodily functions, which is based on the illusion of separation. With this stated, responsibility is also an illusion. But you see, reality is illusion. To survive in this world, we have to have the concept of ego, free will, morality, politics, culture, race, gender and responsibility. Even though these are all horseshit and illusions, there can be no awakening without illusion. There can be no reality without illusion. Free will exists, the self exists, and so does responsibility, but the nature in which they exist is illusory. Take responsibility or don't for your life. Choices will happen whether you believe in free will or not. It is all about your perception.

I have Asperger’s. It is the greatest gift God gave me. Use it well.

To sum it up: ego doesn’t have free will. God does. Love is free will. The end.

Well I think there is a confusion between discipline and free will. Of course a person who has never meditated cannot enter no-mind through their will. That skill needs to be developed over time. What you are saying is like asking a person who has never sat still for an hour to do that. Or it’s like asking a person to lift 120lbs when they never lifted weights. It most likely cannot be done unless you will yourself to do it. It’s like a game of chess, there are “rules” that you invented that prevent certain choices from being made. Yet, you can choose which pieces to move. There are infinite possibilities in a game of chess. Consider this example, if someone insults you, you can choose whether to let that affect you or not. At the highest Levels of consciousness, you realize ultimate free will. A monk has more will over the mind than an average person. Free will doesn’t mean I can do whatever I want. Notice that free will and no free will go together. If you want to get strong, you have to choose to lift weights and go to gym, but you don’t have any free will of actual muscle growth as that happens at unconscious level. Unconscious and conscious levels also collapse and so does free will and no free will. It isn’t one or the other. It isn’t nature or nurture, it is both. So you could say that we have no choice to have free will because our whole notions of choice come from things that we don’t choose. For instance, you can breathe but on the other hand breathing happens to you. You move your hand, but your ego would say that it does not choose to fire neurons, but without neuronal firing, you wouldn’t have an ego. So free will and no free will go together in that same way. I understand the perspective you have that you have no control over body because the ego does not have control over anything. If you say free will is an illusion in terms of ego, then I would agree, but that does not assume that determinism is true or that free will in terms of the absolute is false. Determinism is highly mechanistic and it assumes all matter is dumb and reacting to stimuli. But what if everything in nature and all your cells “make choices” in an intelligent way. Think about that. This is what it means to get lost in concept. In your direct experience, you can realize that determinism is false and that free will is true, but that the ego is not the one who has free will. That’s the whole issue is that this whole free will vs. determinism debate is based on the illusion of separation. It’s a complicated issue like nature vs. nurture. The thing is that the issue is resolved when we realize that all coins have two sides: God and ego, free will and no freewill, self and other, voluntary and involuntary, happiness and depression, etc. It is kinda strange loop about the relationship between free will and no freewill. On the one hand, you have no control over your body and mind, but on the other hand, your ego and ideas of who you want to be can change the physics structure of your body. Consider a person who chooses to run 5 miles a day vs. the choice to stay home and eat ice cream. You make a choice no matter what you do. You can even choose to think you are not responsible. And the essence of your choice, the chooser of the choice is empty at the core. It is an amazing realization to realize that when I move my hands, it is not the “me” ego that moves the hands or runs 5 miles, it is the Intelligence of the Universe that makes the choice to move the hands. See it from that perspective of the Universe and you will have your free will and responsibility paradox resolved.

You cannot have free will without contrast of no free will. Same with responsibility. You are responsible for everything that happens in your life, but that does not mean you are to blame. “Response-ability” that’s what it means to be responsible. Free will and no free will are one. Notice your direct experience and you will find both free will and no free will, both the involuntary and the voluntary. All of this is concepts that we get lost in.

It already assumes free will is an illusion. Deconstruct the assumption. What is giving neuroscience its authority? How does anyone know how the brain works? Maybe in 100 years, they may discover that the illusion of freewill was the illusion. Random and chaotic. Is that what is really happening right now or is that a projection onto the present moment? You can believe whatever you want, but no belief is absolutely true. I think what you meant to say was “how can we be responsible for everything if we have no free will?” The answer is that free will exists, but the ego is not the one in control even though ego thinks it is. Notice that everything is happening and free will or volition is also happening. For instance, notice your breath. Your breath was just happening. There was no free will there until awareness becomes aware of breath. When observing breath, you take ownership of it. Notice that volition is also an illusion if you believe that yourself as a concept is actively breathing. You as an ego do not do cellular respiration, breathe or talk or shine the sun. You as God, realizing you are everything has infinite free will. So yes if you say freewill is an illusion, you are speaking in terms of the relative and in terms of ego, which is also an illusion. This also means that responsibility is an illusion in relative sense, but what you miss is that reality is illusion. Since life is the ultimate illusion, you use illusion to thrive in illusion. When you realize you are everything you realize ultimate responsibility. Realize that everything in life is your creation. Even though you don’t create racism in terms of ego, you are responsible for it because you are one with reality and not separate from it. The distinction between responsibility and irresponsibility collapses into ultimate responsibility which is what I am talking about. As an ego, you will say I am responsible for my weight but I am not responsible for Holocaust. But when you drop illusions, you realize reality for what it is. Notice what is happening, there are concepts you use such as free will and responsibility. Beyond these concepts are there is, is creation. You can create whatever life you want as an ego but you don’t need any free will to do it, since choice and ego is relative and illusion, it is reality. It is hard to communicate this but I did my best.

Rewatch episode or rewatch specific sections and take notes. What was communicated there was way more radical than what I am hearing from you. He is essentially teaching you how to biohack your brain to give you intrinsic happiness. Rewatch it. I did.

My list is: 1. Wisdom (spirituality, meditation, contemplation, philosophy, etc.) 2. Education (reading a book per month and writing more) 3. Life Purpose (career/business, write a book, finish my degree, etc. 4. Health (exercise every day, eat healthier, floss, etc. 5. ????? I am struggling with finding a 5th one to invest in. I don’t give a crap about social life. To me it’s a distraction. I am fine being in solitude and hiking in the woods. I live with my family and love them. I don’t know lol. I mainly want to commit to life purpose. I need to get financial stability and independence. That’s a goal for me. Thank you for this thread OP!

Focus on your LP. Don’t let the crabs pull you into their bucket. You cannot help anyone or be successful if we let human bullshit sit in our toilets. Flush bullshit out and focus on your choices. Be the example and inspiration of a good human being. That’s all you can do.

Only egos mind and ego is an illusion. Hence, no pain.

Solipsism is the view that the only thing that can be known is that you exist. Nothing outside of I Am exists or can be known. This leaves us with the conclusion that knowledge of anything is a belief because you only know that I Am. You don’t even know if the room you are in exists beyond the mere appearance of a room. Appearances can be wrong and deceive us such as sunrise and sunset. We still use the terms sunrise and sunset despite our knowledge that it is illusory. Consciousness is Truth. Appearances are false. The end.

Here are my questions that I forgot to post here. I hope they got asked!: How can we know anything at all? If our minds and perception can be fallible, and if self-deception is omnipresent in us all, how can we know anything? Is there a “best” method in epistemology to derive knowledge? What is infallible that can be trusted? If nothing is certain, then what do we really know? What is solipsism? We are all trapped in our own bubbles of perception and any understanding of “others” is relative to our own understanding. For instance, my feelings of depression, anger, or even my self-image may be worlds apart to another. I am imagining you and your world and you are imagining me and my world. But notice that it is just your world imagining my world because you never actually experience anything outside of this one experience. So is there only one bubble of perception or are there infinite bubbles of perception that we can say is One Bubble with a capital O and B? How can you be certain of anything beyond the fact of consciousness? I am conscious; therefore, I exist. Nothing else outside of awareness can be known to exist? I can doubt that my perceptions may be false or my mind is the evil demon, but I cannot doubt the incorrigible truth of appearance and awareness right? What if all the psychedelic trips are the false perceptions of evil demon? How do you know that your finite mind can grasp reality? Thank you!